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3rd date tomorrow. Spending the day and the following morning together. Will cook dinner together, gym, movies and romance. Is too hot too soon a mistake? going with it either way

Who cares? Just go with it. The worst that can happen is that you die. Or, maybe, even worse is getting into a car accident and being in constant pain and only being able to communicate by blinking your eyes. So, then there is this fling not working out and you being sad... Fuck it dude, let's go bowling.

Slept over again. We ate so much. Apparently while sleeping and spooning I kept unleashing thundering farts, which lead her to move to the guest bedroom.


Then at night I heard her spitting a lot in the washroom (she brushed her teeth before we went to bed, so it wasn't that). Made me wonder if she was intentionally vomiting her meal, which would explain a lot considering her slim wait and six pack goal.


Need to do more investigating... and need to not eat so much before bed..

Lol I'm like a borderline narcissist now thats loves himself quite a bit
All this stuff makes me scream abort abort

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all your blogs are full of rationalizations of neediness, and heims posts are too funny. No one denies asian men have a disadvantage but dam man, you're approach isn't helping

I'll be spending a few nights with her this week. The last few times we just lied around her couch and bed, listening to music, talking, touching, fucking. We spend hours lying around. She lies on top of me flat and literally kisses my face and neck a hundred times. The physical affection is sweet, especially because I never got a lot of it from my last relationship.

Stroggoz thinks I'm needy? She suggests we talk on the phone every night, even if it's just for 5 minutes. Although the calls usually last 1hr+ each night. She hopes I can sleep over twice a week. She talks of a future of us together a lot. It seems i met my match in terms of neediness, except I am the one controlling the pace this time. And I'm going into this with a little bit more wisdom. I am less attached than her and I have less expectations.

There is a significant age difference (less so than the last one, but still large), and it doesn't seem to bother either of us. I had to make it clear to her that I don't want kids, which I also had to do with the last one. She has a healthier outlook of the future than the last one. She doesn't expect forever. She would be happy if it went a year's distance at least. She jokingly asked me if I have an oedipal complex. I laughed. She said I can be her Oedipus. I laughed harder.

Her ex wants her back and is pursuing her through text. He tells her that he is willing to relocate to her city. Multiple guys are asking her out: one from her gym class, one from her hair salon, and another who got her number before we met. The hyenas are closing in. How do I know this? She tells me. She loves to tell me about the guys who want her. "Honesty is very important to me" she says, but it's more than that. I have to hear her talk about a guy pursuing her every other time we talk and it's annoying. Up until recently I simply told her "Well, I trust that you can handle it and know what to do", and she loved that I said that. But lately, I've become irritated by the fact that she continues to tell me about each and every interaction-- and not only that, but she continues to reply to them. She tells them that she found someone and is dating, but continues to reply. It's not a big issue anyways, just an annoyance. (Advice?)


Will be going to her place tomorrow for two nights. Sex, gym, theater, hot tub, cooking together and little sleep. I'm more motivated with a woman in my life, especially one who does so well for herself. She inspires me to aim higher. As impressive as she is I tease her and treat her like she's 20yo, and she seems to like that. I jokingly call her a charlatan because of the work she does. It's unreal, she works like 10 hours a week and makes six figures. Yet I pay for dinner aha. Well that's not fair, she does contribute in other ways. She reminds me a bit of the wife from the movie Gone Girl (hopefully she doesn't turn out to be crazy).


Enjoying it... I know there are red flags on both sides, and I realize it's temporary. Will enjoy this ride for as long as it lasts.. seems more promising than the last. At the very least I'll gain experience and learn a few things.

You two are dating but there is a lot of grey area here. Some aspects are as if you are in a relationship but you are not. She is mostly testing you and just engaging in the dating game. The fact that she tells these suitors that she is dating and continuing to respond to them is not a positive but at this point it's not really all that negative either. It's only natural. If a woman continues to engage me and says she is dating someone that basically means nothing to me. It communicates to me that she is currently digging a guy she is dating but you never know what will happen. If John Mayer asked her on a date she might have a different answer. Your situation may turn sour. Any desirable woman will have plenty of suitors. The fact is you have to be the best option and continue to be the best option. Getting irritated and insecure is not a good look. I think the key here is not getting too comfortable. If you go from good sex, gym, film, hot tub, cooking together to bad sex, bad movie, and a bad frozen pizza things become problematic. If she continues to bring up these other men just make a joke about it or just playfully roll your eyes. Accept the situation that other men want to fuck your woman and that the woman you are currently into is keeping her options open to a point. Have fun. Life is full of wagers. Just be true to your own particular values and you'll probably end up being ok until you die or get severely injured/sick or have shit values.

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On January 30 2019 05:53 RiKD wrote: You two are dating but there is a lot of grey area here. Some aspects are as if you are in a relationship but you are not. She is mostly testing you and just engaging in the dating game. The fact that she tells these suitors that she is dating and continuing to respond to them is not a positive but at this point it's not really all that negative either. It's only natural. If a woman continues to engage me and says she is dating someone that basically means nothing to me. It communicates to me that she is currently digging a guy she is dating but you never know what will happen. If John Mayer asked her on a date she might have a different answer. Your situation may turn sour. Any desirable woman will have plenty of suitors. The fact is you have to be the best option and continue to be the best option. Getting irritated and insecure is not a good look. I think the key here is not getting too comfortable. If you go from good sex, gym, film, hot tub, cooking together to bad sex, bad movie, and a bad frozen pizza things become problematic. If she continues to bring up these other men just make a joke about it or just playfully roll your eyes. Accept the situation that other men want to fuck your woman and that the woman you are currently into is keeping her options open to a point. Have fun. Life is full of wagers. Just be true to your own particular values and you'll probably end up being ok until you die or get severely injured/sick or have shit values.

Good reply. It's just so annoying. A few days ago I expressed irritation when we were cuddling and her phone lit up and we saw that it was a message from her ex. I said something like: "We're in a committed relationship right? If so, why are you still communicating with these guys who are clearly interested in you?". She basically admitted that she likes the attention after being married for so long, and admitted that it's odd for me. She said she will stop replying to the exs. A few days later (today), we're eating out and her phone lights up again. She opened the text in front of me, being very transparent as usual. It's a guy texting her that her she looks great in her new Whatsapp pic. I sighed internally...... She spoke before me this time and said that she agreed with what I said during our last talk and that guys texting her like this is odd, and she again admitted to liking the attention. I simply told her that I like that she's honest, while probably showing discomfort.

I don't know what to do next time it happens. It's really fucking annoying. These guys got her number before we met. She says their interest will die down as time passes.
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On February 03 2019 19:35 napoleono wrote: update?

We spent 3 nights together at her place. It's fantastic and time passed so fast. We ate at a fancy restaurant, saw a live musical, lounger seats at movies, cooked together, talked plenty and had sex more times than I can count. We also had our first argument, which was about money. I expressed to her that I don't want to spend this kind of money each time we see each other. Even though she spent just as much as me I can't afford dining out and going to shows each week, because I'm only playing poker part-time now and studying part-time. She said that it's important to her that I dine out with her to a nice restaurant once a week and pay, because it makes her feel feminine. I argued that I don't play gender roles and expect to take turns on bills. She clarified that she acknowledges my situation right now, but is talking about the future when I have more financial freedom she hopes I can accommodate her needs. And she added that she will spend just as much money on me, if not more, in other ways-- like treating me to a trip on my bday. We're both used to different lifestyles, since she makes way more than I do. She then told me that she doesn't want to eat out anymore, not until I'm done studying, and that it will benefit her fitness goals anyways. Nice of her..


Part of the argument was about her Law of Attraction beliefs that she was trying to push on me. I don't even want to get into that.. you guys will facepalm and tell me to dismiss her. I try not to attack her beliefs and try find some middle ground with her.


I showed her around the casino today and showed her the room. She significantly older than me and she's very affectionate in public, so it felt a little odd for me to be there with her in the poker room. But then again, she introduced me to some of her friends and brought me along to the places she frequents.



It seems we'll be spending another 3 nights together this week. I'm excited, but also annoyed by how little I get done when I'm with her. We distract each other so easily and constantly have sex. It's nice and all, clearly it's the honeymoon stage, but my daily schedule goes out the window when I'm with her. It's on me, and I need to fix it.

On January 29 2019 18:43 Stroggoz wrote: all your blogs are full of rationalizations of neediness, and heims posts are too funny. No one denies asian men have a disadvantage but dam man, you're approach isn't helping

yea i realize its pretty funny. i laugh at it myself sometimes.

idk if id say no one denies asians are at a disadvantage. i think alot of ppl do deny it (ex girl in video) and if not i think no one talks about it and most ppl want to avoid the subject like the plague.

im going through some stuff // trying to figure out shit in life. in the past year i got kind of pissed off and angry about all of it. its not something often talked about so i guess im trying to find an outlet for my thoughts on this. i used to listen/watch alot of david choe shit in my mid twenties and at the time it was mind blowing to me. the stuff he'd say was just so raw and idgaf but i guess his mouth got the best of him.

my life is an utter mess lol. its kind of a relief honestly tho im tired of being this fake person pretending and playing some role to fit into society. ive gone on a degenerate spree of prostitues in the past year. feels good to say that.

i really dont know what to future is for me. but im trying to figure it all out a little bit at a time and see where it goes.

On February 05 2019 22:29 hiems wrote: Show nested quote + On January 29 2019 18:43 Stroggoz wrote: all your blogs are full of rationalizations of neediness, and heims posts are too funny. No one denies asian men have a disadvantage but dam man, you're approach isn't helping yea i realize its pretty funny. i laugh at it myself sometimes. idk if id say no one denies asians are at a disadvantage. i think alot of ppl do deny it (ex girl in video) and if not i think no one talks about it and most ppl want to avoid the subject like the plague. im going through some stuff // trying to figure out shit in life. in the past year i got kind of pissed off and angry about all of it. its not something often talked about so i guess im trying to find an outlet for my thoughts on this. i used to listen/watch alot of david choe shit in my mid twenties and at the time it was mind blowing to me. the stuff he'd say was just so raw and idgaf but i guess his mouth got the best of him. my life is an utter mess lol. its kind of a relief honestly tho im tired of being this fake person pretending and playing some role to fit into society. ive gone on a degenerate spree of prostitues in the past year. feels good to say that. i really dont know what to future is for me. but im trying to figure it all out a little bit at a time and see where it goes.

Yeah, the Asian disadvantage in dating thing actually is a fascinating topic. David Choe is a hero. I frequently come across his art and charisma from different avenues and I like his vibe. I would love to go to a Korean BBQ in LA with David Choe, Sasha Grey, and Steebee Weebee and shoot the shit. I don't even know if David Choe and Steebee Weebee are Korean. I guess I just assumed it. Do (South) Korean Americans and Chinese Americans even hang out?

Don't be fake to fit in to current society which many aspects of it are absolutely toxic. I think we have to figure out how to be Beasts in a good way. Like Beast from Beauty in the Beast but I think at the end of that story he turns back into the handsome prince which is kind of bullshit if that is what happens. I swear I remember a handsome long blonde haired prince at the end of Beauty and the Beast or maybe I am thinking of John Smith from Pochahantes which is kind of a debacle from a historical perspective. Either way that handsome prince with long blonde hair is the aesthetic I am actually going for these days. Maybe a bit rougher with my tattoos and beard and I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict or just came from the jungles fighting a Revolution. I would totally date Belle or Pochahantes though. I would totally date Laetitia Casta or Tulsi Gabbard though.

Prostitues can be a very serious addiction. I am glad you are speaking about it. I have fucked around with my fair share of sex workers but it never really stuck as an addiction for me for whatever reason. My inclination is that a 12-step based program might not be a good fit for you but I can't suggest enough for you to explore the behavioral therapy offered through your current employment.

On February 03 2019 21:45 k4ir0s2 wrote: Part of the argument was about her Law of Attraction beliefs that she was trying to push on me. I don't even want to get into that.. you guys will facepalm and tell me to dismiss her. I try not to attack her beliefs and try find some middle ground with her.

I mean, if she s going to be stupid about something, might as well be stupid about something positive :D

I am still yet to meet a woman that doesn't believe in something ridiculous like that. It's either that or astrology 90% of the times.

Pisces in the Hooouuussseee

post more k4iros

also, post more music. there are some fucking killers in here.

Thursday noon. Arrived at her condo 1 hour ago. Our hands roamed all over each other the moment I walked in. From the doorstep to the puddled sheets. This is my home until Monday.


I'm sitting here on the coach, looking out the window at the busy Toronto streets. A few months from now I'll likely be in one of those little cars down there commuting to and from work. But for now I'll bask in my freedom.


She's on a call with a client now, and I'm about to study. Listening to her coach a client through marketing is a new experience. I jokingly call her a charlatan because she charges a ridiculous amount of money to coach people, but it seems she's very good at what she does. The client she is talking to now is a mother of two who makes 15k/month online selling health products entirely through Facebook posts, and this client's other coach makes 80k/month. It's eye opening to be exposed to this business. To make that kind of money playing poker you have to be in such a tiny, top tier percent and work much harder. I look forward to finally quitting poker and being good at something new again. I finished building my web portfolio recently, and i'll be working on my last portfolio item soon. She has some ideas on where I should market myself for freelance work, though I think I would rather work a 9 to 5 for a while first.

I just packed her fridge with delicious food. Each week we plan a few meals and cook together. Last week for valentine's day we dressed up in nice clothes, cooked a feast together and drank wine. That night she used the L word on me, and it caught me by surprise because its only been one month since we met. I did not say it back that night. I like her very much, but love? That's a strong word. I have never said it to anyone before (other than a family member). I thought about it the next few days and decided that I would say it back to her the next time she says it. If uttering three words has the power of bringing her more happiness than I think it's worth saying, and I know I'll grow to love her over time anyways.

The age difference hasn't proven to be an issue. Her last partner was near my age, and my last one was near her age, so both of us have experience in a large age gap relationship. She's gorgeous despite her age. She's aiming for a six-pack, she dreams of owning a glass house and a black Porsche --believing that all of it can be manifested through training her mindset. And she sometimes pushes the same dreams and expectations on me. I tell her that acquiring wealth takes a lot of time and effort, but according to her my mindset is wrong. I don't desire the same things as her anyways. I recognize that none of those material possessions will bring me happiness. I have different goals.

We have a few activities planned this week. We're both spending a few hundred on each other each month. I'm studying and playing less poker, so I'm earning less, and I expressed this to her. She kindly suggested we create a date budget and she drew it out for us. I don't want to wine and dine like I used to, as the expense was not worth the pleasure. I'm glad that she is willing to compromise and adapt to me, unlike my past relationship. Contrary to what Hiem's thinks, I am not after her for her money. We spend equal amounts on each other, and I do not want to get married. Maybe I am just a little boy searching for his mommy. A little orphan boy longing for the warmth of a bosom and a tender kiss. I've read enough Freud to know that the psychoanalytical view of my relationships is that I am attempting to re-create the past through finding another mother who will abandon me. But then again, according to that view everyone is re-creating their past relationships. There is probably heartbreak at the end of this road, much like at the end of my last relationship, but I don't regret the last one and neither will I regret this one.

Life is pretty good right now. It's easier to wake up in the morning knowing there's someone near who cares about me, and knowing that I have a teammate. It's not like I can't bare being alone, as I was entirely alone from 20 to 30; it's that I'm tired of being alone and have learned how great sex, companionship and a woman's warmth is. The challenging part will be to maintain my focus for my own pursuits, and to avoid being consumed by the relationship again.

On February 14 2019 13:42 Spitfiree wrote: I mean, if she s going to be stupid about something, might as well be stupid about something positive :D I am still yet to meet a woman that doesn't believe in something ridiculous like that. It's either that or astrology 90% of the times.

lol. There's nothing I can say that will change her mind about the Law of Attraction. She is pretty convinced that she "manifested" me, like she did with her business and her current lifestyle. Despite what I think, her new age voodoo seems to be working for her. To go from being in an unhappy marriage, having a mom body, and working a 9 to 5 --> to divorcing, getting her dream body, starting her business and finding a much younger partner. What a radical change. I'll disregard her manifestation talk and positive psychology, and implement the envisioning goals part and journaling.

On February 19 2019 17:47 RiKD wrote: post more k4iros also, post more music. there are some fucking killers in here.

Now music, that's one thing I know I love.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=800&v=SiDBiIsFiqU

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