Ahhhhhh, just what I've been waiting for - Page 4

On April 18 2026 01:21 RiKD wrote: I leaned on Discord when LP was gone. It's an introverted autistic thing to do.

I sometimes use Discord to chat in a relatively dead UFC chat room.

Good thing I have been busy with work lately. Just 7.5 more weeks until it's summer vacation, and then I'll be in the Philippines from June 30 to August 9.

Awww man, my poll got no responses and is now buried on page 3.

PR, It must be nice to not work and go on vacation. I envy PR? Yes, in regards to not working and taking vacations I envy PR.


Poll: What Game Should I Play?
(Vote): Poker
(Vote): Chess
(Vote): Magic: The Gathering
(Vote): Dungeons and Dragons
(Vote): Warhammer 40k
(Vote): ARPG like Path Of Exile or Grim Dawn or other
(Vote): Other (Please name in comments)

I would love to not work and take vacations but in reality I don't really want to go anywhere. I'm happy here. I would be happier if I didn't have to work (and had some money).

I'm currently listening to The Sky Is Pink by Nathan Fake (James Holden Remix). Iop sent me that song probably 20 years ago. Spotify was barely a thing then and he was working for them. I was on Spotify super early because of that. I was on Limewire and Kazaa super early too. I listened to Conjurer today in the gym. It worked. Loco sent me that 2 weeks ago?

I was thinking in 2008 Loco played 100k hands at a dollar per hand at 2/4 that is a pretty pure year. I made fun of him for not putting in more hands but it's not easy getting heads-up action and it's also not a piece of cake maintaining a 12+ ptbb/100 win rate. It seems very tough these days. It is more fun playing humans than bots or the machine. I am still far, far away from playing GTO. I wish there was a casino near by. Playing humans is more fun than playing the machine. There are humans that have been looking at solver grids for 10+ years now. It's tough to catch up. I'm not making any money playing chess and I'm not making any money playing poker but I only just like chess and I love poker so why not play poker is my logic. I might enjoy a good ARPG over anything at this point. ARC Raiders is ok if I'm playing with friends. ARC Raiders isn't a world beater.

So, I'm still in a similar place with what to do with my attention. I think many would consider poker a waste of time. Einstein considered chess a waste of time even though he was a pretty solid player. I don't have any pressing revolutionary physics problems to solve though. Elon Musk considers chess a bad game because there is no fog of war. I get what he is saying but I would bet large amounts that Musk sucks at chess. I've got the Pessoa. That is good. I've got my walks. That is good. Little things are changing in my life but in many regards it feels the same. I have always loved strategy games so this is why I'm searching in that direction.

My brother is playing hockey into his 40s. I don't dare play basketball into my 40s. My brother complains that he sucks. It's not that surprising. He's never been a great athlete and he never played hockey as a kid. He also complains a lot in general. My mom says he's having a mid-life crisis. I can relate. I have seasonal existential crisis but this might be more severe. In his 40s, married, kid, career, what else is there? It kind of reminds me of me and music. I played piano and violin as a kid but I quit pretty early. I enjoyed sports and strategy games and not playing musical instruments. My musical endeavours in my 40s are not hopeless but I think I need a good teacher to help me on the way. Which I don't want to pay for at the moment so I drift back towards strategy games. Sports are done. I can't run, I can't move like I want to. Sports are done. My brother should get a hockey coach that could make his club hockey more enjoyable. Money is not an issue for him. My mom says he should just enjoy playing but I can get it. For me sports are not fun if I suck.

I have been playing The Machine a lot at HU NLHE poker. I shouldn't really be broadcasting this if I want action but there is no action to be gotten anyways. Playing humans is a lot more fun than grinding The Machine but what am I going to do? I kind of knew I wouldn't be satisfied just grinding The Machine but I think I had to take a crack at it. I only played 11 hands this morning until I got tired of it. I think at this point I may need to take a crack at an ARPG.

I'm honestly just writing here because I want to do something other than play The Machine head up no limit hold 'em poker. Playing The Machine is an activating activity and I need to be looking towards deactivating activities as my bed time looms. I played hundreds of hands versus The Machine today and that guy is a sick motherfucker. Super solid yet fucking sick. I play enough hands versus The Machine I find some pretty sick shit too. The Machine will always remember these plays though and maybe I won't. I can never beat The Machine. I can only lose less to The Machine.

I think I need to get back to reading some philosophy too. I was reading great novels for a while and that was great but I miss the philosophy. I was reading a bunch of Baudrillard and that was amazing but then I got to Delueze Schizophrenia and Capitalism or whatever it's called and that was mega stimulating but it wore me out. I haven't read any philosophy since then.

I am just chillin' listening to some Sampha.

White tea - Check
Mirtazapine - Check

I just had to leave the room for a while because I was stuck in a loop battling The Machine. Looking back on today that is what I spent most of my waking hours doing. I don't know how I feel about that. If I'm spending most of my hours at work and playing The Machine that seems like a wasted life. I have to spend most of my waking hours at work but I don't have to spend the rest of my waking hours playing The Machine. I don't see a future in the USA in heads-up no limit hold 'em poker or anywhere really. Heads-up No Limit Texas Hold 'Em poker is a helluva a game though. One of the best in the universe I reckon. I am a little dissapointed that Liquid Poker no longer has many members. At one point this was a haven for games players. Now, it is me just rambling.

Theoretical 9 max No Limit Hold 'Em poker is a pretty tight game. It's an interesting puzzle. David Sklansky was right when he made a post about the online kids of '06 - '10 playing with an invisible ante. I found myself playing thousands of hands against The Machine today. I will be moving to an area that has a good casino in the next 2 years. I have to go where the action is and the action is live 9 handed games. I can probably get some action online too at lower stakes 6 max.

I started playing Path Of Exile as well. Seems like a dece game so far. We'll see.