It's been awhile. I'm slowly sipping on some Gatorade because I have been getting over a gnarly stomach bug. I have no energy. I slept all day. I didn't go to work. Kind of a shitty day.
It's been same ole same ole here for the most part. I've got the job that doesn't pay enough money. I try to get up to some stuff when I'm not working but it's mostly the tried and true walking the dog, reading, music. I try to sneak some novelty in there where I can. I try to sneak some human connection in there where I can. The job seems to be a constant struggle with burnout. Some days I'm in the danger zone of burnout while others if I'm making music life feels ok.
Writing out the mundane existence that is my life isn't as fun as it used to be. Maybe my expectations were too high.
I was going to get a MacBook Pro and Logic Pro because Ableton Live 11 Intro is too limited but instead I made a great maneuver and got Reaper. Reaper is not limited for me whatsoever. From my point of view it appears to be limitless and nicer to use than Ableton. Just my opinion. I've been plugging in my guitar directly into the interface and I have so many amps and pedals to choose from it's great. There is even a digital Drop pedal which I haven't tried yet but it's $5. I've been mostly playing my 6 string electric. I got burnt out on my bass practicing Hal Leonard's Method Book and my sister came into town and I had to pack away the guitars and amps and I've just been picking up the 6 string electric. I am not sure if this is the way to go about learning the bass and 6 string electric. It's just what happened.
I've been reading a lot. Lately, it's been Hermann Hesse. Never read him before recently. I read Steppenwolf and Siddhartha and now I am readng Narcissus and Goldmund.
I guess it wouldn't be a RiKD blog if I didn't post some music:
Ok. That felt ok. Kind of like I was just coloring in the numbers but ok. I felt like I had to give it a go but honestly there are better things I could do with my time even if I am getting over a stomach bug.
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PuertoRican United States. Mar 21 2026 05:01. Posts 13239
I wonder what the reply and view ratio is of my replies / views versus other peoples' replies / views?
Lostaccount and PuertoRican seem like the only 2 left on this site and I write words and words and words.
I can get my guitar to sound like old Eric Clapton on Cream -- Disraeli Gears. That's a helluva guitar tone. I remember how to do that. It's not novel. It's just what I seem to remember. My creativity on the 6 string electric seems to have dried up a bit. Maybe it's time to get the 4 string bass out again. I don't know what I'm doing. I think it's good to be engulfed by excitement but actually getting better at an instrument takes discipline.
I kind of want to find my own guitar tone and in recent weeks I kind of did but someone on Discord gave me the suggestion to not chase after tones but rather get better at the guitar. I think this is good advice. I am limited by my skill in what I want to do on the guitar. While one can get pretty much any tone they want for almost free.
The guitar just feels really important to me right now. I also feel entirely too limited in that space. I want to be composing my own music which I have been but I want to continue to compose music that is better and better. Perhaps I should just enjoy the process. Get my ego and jealousy out of it. That is what I live for these days. Creating something that seems authentic and real or actually the period of time that something new is occuring and I'm actually not focused on anything except expression in the moment. I am an addict for that feeling. That first take is probably the best feeling but it can be had on later takes if I stumble upon a new tone or feeling. Then, it's gone *poof*.
Then, it's gone *poof*.
That is the shit that I live for. Not the ego, the fear, the mundanity, the jealousy, the comparing. Then, I get hungry. I eat. I poop. I continue to live.
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