this is in memory of

got my rush
played it
14 buyins

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cuz like money is useful n shit cuz u cant buy shit with a fucking pale green line n shit as i simultaneously deal with an incredibly pauxity of actual opportunites to get value yes succeed incredibly in scraping the fucking barrel n shit but it doesn't fucking matter n shit if the fucking like, pot, ain't won by me n shit motherfucking shiieeeett.

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you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb
you are not good enough to play KJo +1 with an effective stack of 20bb

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2.5k blocks. no maximum. i want to have more money to gamble with.

i will return 1% flat/month on return, adjusted bi-monthly.

pm me! ofc direct send via stars for the sackfull. x0x0.

-w

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so i turned off the hud and, uh, yeah, i noticed something about a certain type of player with a certain type of id and avatar who plays a certain way in certain situations with an excess of unusual certainty.

i feel very silly right about now.

it didn't take me very long to reason out how to deal with them and almost immediately i found it nearly impossible to lose a sizable pot to them.

now all i have to do is run good before i find myself running out of a roll. the past few weeks have certainly been very interesting.

-w

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kicked the living shit out of everyone not with the id of preposterous

aint mean shit with a worst possible deck and then worst possible runouts on top of that

thx for reading!

-w

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that is all

i hereby declare myself nl4 HNIC

thx for reading and c u at the tables!

-w

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the value of restraint and the value of table selection

restraint is important cuz ain't noone watchin' ur back and some faggot might slide by

table selection is important cuz nuff towels seein' da flop means ur fucked

fuck stop losses

-w

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ever

or until

-w

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aka. the legend of the horizontal green line
aka. the legend of the hidden choke monkey

(i wrote this a month ago)

when my brain exploded the first time it was fine. it took me awhile to get back, but eventually i got back to a point where i felt that i had recovered and was in control of my faculties.

let's rewind for a moment. it's 2000 woteva. i'm playing nl4 and taking confident stabs at 6 and 10 and i know that i can beat these fucking games with time. i don't even know what i'm doing. i just sorta sit there and fucking zen it. pattern recognition shit, yomi layer 3 shit. what is he doing, what does he want me to do, what is he liable to have. ok, now what's the line of best fit? what's my hand again? ok. sweet. i even have a script in my head about how i should act as i do whatever i'm about to do. ok, it's time, only this isn't even a conscious thought, it's just sense. pure sense. execute. stuff moves around the screen. the money flows in. site doesn't matter, i sit wherever, i play whatever, i win.

lalala my brain explodes. i recover, or at least i think that i've recovered. i win 140 buyins in some month with similar results for the few before and after, but it's a smaller game. it's embarrasing. the fuck am i doing down here? do i really have it all back? 95*4 is a bigger number than 140*1, and if my brain hadn't exploded the first time, it would be like 68*10, maybe. these are my thoughts. pussy faggot regrets, which are a bad thing to have, especially over things which i cannot control.

give it time kid.

then out of nowhere my brain explodes again. i manage to keep it quiet this time. months pass. i wait. i wait some more. the fuck is this horizontal greenline shit? this ain't me. now it looks like an EKG. what the fuck is this?

i grope around with my game for a year or so, trying to figure out why the shit doesn't work anymore. i used to lose like 10% of what i post here, and 13% of what i post there. hrm. this shit ain't right. i don't think that i'm doing anything differently, the raw defense and rates of aggression look the same, only it's not. something's changed.

and then i realize - it's cuz that zen shit, that pattern recognition shit, that yomi layer 3 shit, it's just gone man. vaporized. it died with the cells.

i realize that if i want to win at cash again, i need to completely overhaul everything about what i'm doing, and do so with constant awareness of my diminished capability to process information. this would probably take six months or so of sustained, uninterrupted effort and be a long motherfucking slog. play 10k hands. review pf here, there, and ya, there under X. modify. play 10k more hands, playing at most 4 tables, and apply. review. street by street, action by action.

fuck that shit. here's why:

mtts man. sngs. i've been murdering these things forever. even with an exploded brain i was murdering these things. with a twice exploded brain i'm still murdering these things. if i'd been playing the shit all along i'd be sitting on 300k. the fuck have i been doing? with a 2k roll i could generate 18/hr at fucking 12/180s, the liberian pisshole of the internet. i'm rolled for 100s+. why have i played 600k hands of b/e cash after not rakeback?

right. pride. the memory of the brain that was, residing in the brain that is.

fuck pride.

-w

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