Mind Control - Page 10

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Thank you for co-operating, you'll be fine.

omfg real life lolz :D

this thread had so much potential. Too bad T,T

On July 18 2010 04:47 brambolius wrote: Fira, dont do drugs while your in the state your in, period. Don't stay up late for a while. I'm talking about 2 weeks minimum. Get into a sober, rested condition and then do your best to look at yourself from an objective perspective. You don't want to get sucked into a "psychotic vortex" which is what you seem to be drawn into right now. I've had a friend experience the same kind of thing and he was pretty close to just disconnecting from reality before he finally got admitted. The way you are typing with the random interjections reminds me heavily of the way this friend talked in real life at some point. You don't want to go where he went (he's on meds now) and only YOU can stop/step out of your personal vortex, that is, before it's too late. It's your choice, between bearing the weight of the world (like all of us), or bearing the weight of your own tiny, insignificant, personal reality. This choice will affect you for the rest of your life so I suggest you choose wisely.

He should do the things you listed but he should ALSO go seek treatment. Taking meds and having your sanity intact is far superior to going fullblown (psychiatric term lozl) schizophrenic or whatever.

The problem is that suggestions of meds and getting admitted usualy don't go over too well with people that are on the edge .
You wouldn't believe the shit my friend put us (his friends) through. I'm not blaming him, just saying its alot harder to "help" then you would think.

k assuming this isn't a troll, fire I hope that you take this one fact into consideration. Most mental disorders like bipolar or schizophrenia show up in early adulthood in males.

On July 14 2010 13:16 Baal wrote: Show nested quote + On July 14 2010 12:57 EvilSky wrote: To be perfectly honest sometimes I feel like Im just one fucked up event away from going completely nuts, I think many people are the same. Thats not a mental illness its probably just bottled up frustration or feelings some people actually do go momentarely psychotic you should really work on that but that is clearly not what is happening to Fira. oh and also this is he is not bipolar, bipolar are just sudden swings between mania and depression

That's not true. My mom is severely bipolar and the long drawn out breakup with my father amplified it ten fold.

My mom is pretty religious, although she doesn't go around trying to convert people. She is just one of those people who believe in it 100% and reads a lot of material on angels and heaven and the bible etc.

Without going into to much detail what basically happened is she believed she was related with some second coming of christ and was walking around barefoot outside with bleeding feet for hours. With many other minor incidents like this happening all the time, she was admitted once or twice.

She's been on all different kinds of meds and the problem with the meds is they inhibit your thinking/focus and make you tired etc. etc. So she was at a huge crossroad. Do I A) take the meds that calm me down but ruin my being. or B) not take the meds and lose control anyways. She was constantly battling this and secretly not taking meds or taking them less that recommended. When this happened ofc it was clear to everyone because first it would start out with offhanded comments like "they are coming" or "it's ok we'll be saved", "I'll be crucified", in any random daily situation. Then she would eventually just start talking for hours about crazy shit. As an 11-15 year old kid whom she trusted (I think the only people she trusted were me and my youngest sister in the entire world) I naturally tried to help her but wasn't really capable (obviously). I tried hiding bibles and logically tried to argue with her for hours like every day to help her understand things were all in her head. In hindsight this may have actually been worse for her because it just got her thinking more deeply about things and riled her up on her tangents.


Long story short, her bouts of mania included delusions and shit. Her bouts of depression were entire days of just crying and laying in bed. I think what caused all the delusions tbh, is the fact that she consoled into the bible for help in her hard times and this lead into the mania when she got wrapped up into reading it.

Anyways, she finally is on some meds now that are working for her and she is one of the most selfless people I've ever known. So much so that it fucks her own life up financially being naive etc. But that is most definitely unrelated.
She takes care of my disabled grandma fulltime now.
She still occasionally confides comments to me usually blatant lies about "relative X is talking shit behind my back to grandma in there right now", when we are just outside.but with my fucked up family there is probably some truth to it. And sometimes she will just randomly say something like "burger king is terrible, the last time I ate there I was pregnant with you and sick for a whole day. Never eat at that place, it's evil". But I know this is complete bullshit because she's never mentioned it before and we've eaten at burger king tons of times. I just kinda laugh to myself and ignore it now.

Looking back at this now, it's a huge factor why I think religion is bad. But in it's defense, it could have been anything really to set her off since she has a chemical imbalance in her brain anyway. But the thing that was really fucked up is that the religious people are retarded as fuck and didn't realize she was going nuts and would hold these conversations with her and probably damage her more. Jahove's witness, mormons, catholics, and christians were regularly in our house talking with her.
The only good thing about religion is that it gives people hope, something to live for when they have nothing else. Bipolars are very often suicidal, being that my mom was religious she knew suicide was a one of the ultimate sins and never had any serious thoughts about it.


PS- I didn't expect to come here and write about this, I actually came to check out the tits thread lol


edit- I actually just now realized while writing this, that there was this time I was in trouble again in 9th grade. I was in the office and the entire office staff was showing concern towards me because I had been showing up more frequently in there and been truant more often. It actually felt like a physical assault with their interrogation onto me to where I just cracked and began to cry. I did not understand this at all, I never cry. In fact this is one of the last time I've ever cried. They were even more concerned now assuming the worst, (rape, molestation, etc.). I honestly didn't know why I was crying and they kept asking and I kept just saying 'I don't know', 'There is nothing wrong'.
I now realize that this breakdown was related to everything that was going on with my mom's illness and my parents separation. I still don't believe that I was affected by it like every other stupid kid you see in a TV show, but I'm sure there was something related. There has to be, there's no way around it with that kind of shit going on daily.
What's kind of fucked up about it, is that I don't think the staff ever called home to tell my parents or called police/social services to get to the bottom of it. They just took my word for it.

On July 20 2010 17:27 SpoR wrote: Show nested quote + On July 14 2010 13:16 Baal wrote:   On July 14 2010 12:57 EvilSky wrote: To be perfectly honest sometimes I feel like Im just one fucked up event away from going completely nuts, I think many people are the same. Thats not a mental illness its probably just bottled up frustration or feelings some people actually do go momentarely psychotic you should really work on that but that is clearly not what is happening to Fira. oh and also this is he is not bipolar, bipolar are just sudden swings between mania and depression That's not true.

What isn't true?


The bipolar thing most certainly is...



edit: well, you know. simplified.

On July 20 2010 17:27 SpoR wrote: Show nested quote + On July 14 2010 13:16 Baal wrote:   On July 14 2010 12:57 EvilSky wrote: To be perfectly honest sometimes I feel like Im just one fucked up event away from going completely nuts, I think many people are the same. Thats not a mental illness its probably just bottled up frustration or feelings some people actually do go momentarely psychotic you should really work on that but that is clearly not what is happening to Fira. oh and also this is he is not bipolar, bipolar are just sudden swings between mania and depression That's not true. My mom is severely bipolar and the long drawn out breakup with my father amplified it ten fold. My mom is pretty religious, although she doesn't go around trying to convert people. She is just one of those people who believe in it 100% and reads a lot of material on angels and heaven and the bible etc. Without going into to much detail what basically happened is she believed she was related with some second coming of christ and was walking around barefoot outside with bleeding feet for hours. With many other minor incidents like this happening all the time, she was admitted once or twice. She's been on all different kinds of meds and the problem with the meds is they inhibit your thinking/focus and make you tired etc. etc. So she was at a huge crossroad. Do I A) take the meds that calm me down but ruin my being. or B) not take the meds and lose control anyways. She was constantly battling this and secretly not taking meds or taking them less that recommended. When this happened ofc it was clear to everyone because first it would start out with offhanded comments like "they are coming" or "it's ok we'll be saved", "I'll be crucified", in any random daily situation. Then she would eventually just start talking for hours about crazy shit. As an 11-15 year old kid whom she trusted (I think the only people she trusted were me and my youngest sister in the entire world) I naturally tried to help her but wasn't really capable (obviously). I tried hiding bibles and logically tried to argue with her for hours like every day to help her understand things were all in her head. In hindsight this may have actually been worse for her because it just got her thinking more deeply about things and riled her up on her tangents. Long story short, her bouts of mania included delusions and shit. Her bouts of depression were entire days of just crying and laying in bed. I think what caused all the delusions tbh, is the fact that she consoled into the bible for help in her hard times and this lead into the mania when she got wrapped up into reading it. Anyways, she finally is on some meds now that are working for her and she is one of the most selfless people I've ever known. So much so that it fucks her own life up financially being naive etc. But that is most definitely unrelated. She takes care of my disabled grandma fulltime now. She still occasionally confides comments to me usually blatant lies about "relative X is talking shit behind my back to grandma in there right now", when we are just outside.but with my fucked up family there is probably some truth to it. And sometimes she will just randomly say something like "burger king is terrible, the last time I ate there I was pregnant with you and sick for a whole day. Never eat at that place, it's evil". But I know this is complete bullshit because she's never mentioned it before and we've eaten at burger king tons of times. I just kinda laugh to myself and ignore it now. Looking back at this now, it's a huge factor why I think religion is bad. But in it's defense, it could have been anything really to set her off since she has a chemical imbalance in her brain anyway. But ................

mmm you are not really contradicting anything i said tho, i said what Fira showed does not look like bipolar disorder, more like a paranoid schizoid one.

Ive always been very intrigued by the so common refusal to take meds because they feel "dull" under their effects, so its an incredibly shitty feeling or being crazy is not that bad for the crazy person.

Posted on CNN today

http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,2005559,00.html?hpt=T2