New Season, New Epoch - Page 4

I don't like to sleep when I have off work and the day off the next day. Except for now I want to sleep but can't. I don't have much energy or attention left so here I am. Damn, that steel slab above is sexy as fuck. I'm just chillin' in the crib listening to some Clams Casino.

Now, I'm listening to some ELIZA. Good late night chill music. I was pretty horny today. Usually, masturbation solves the sleep problem and the horny problem but it didn't. I wanted a wank but what I really wanted was sex and I still have both problems but I don't feel like going through the motions with pornography again.

God is dead and we killed him but I'm not so sure that is a good thing. It was inevitable. Politics as God is pretty brutal though. It makes me a bit nauseous. The dissapearance of ritual and community is the real problem. Hmmmm...

Just another night alone listening to some music writing a blog post on LP. That is a lot of nights. It's better than playing solitaire I suppose. I would like to get into the Solar Energy business. Probably a lot of people would like to do that. I think by putting it in writing it makes it feel like maybe I could take some actions that would lead me there. Talk is cheap mother fuckers. I am a sum of my actions. I always liked that one from Sartre. The Existing + The Lacking = The Lacked is pretty good too. Existence precedes essence is another one. Also, Radical Freedom and Authenticity. It's powerful stuff to gobble up as a broken 26 yr old going into sales in the steel industry. I'd say Sartre + (Kant + Rawls) gave me super powers. I don't come across stuff as impactful as that although I suppose Baudrillard is quite a force. Some combination of Heidegger and Baudrillard kind of destroys Sartre but I will always have a place in my heart for Jean-Paul. I haven't really come across anything that destroys Kant + Rawls but to be fair I haven't looked for it. Groundwork For The Metaphysics of Morals and Theory of Justice should be taught in high school. I think it's probably better to believe in Free Will. To delusionally believe in Free Will. The same goes for agency and Radical Freedom and Authenticity. I guess in the end it's not good to be delusional but Truth has dissapeared along with ritual and reality. Where is the North Star?

I keep getting these pangs to join Twitter again. I don't think it's a good idea but maybe I could craft it in a way to make it work. I would look at it as a keep your friends close and keep your enemies closer type of thing. The algorithm would probably demolish me. I don't think I actually need all that information. I would like it here more if there were a handful of people that actually posted. I have been considering trying to find some weird, really small communities on Discord. My Discord is pretty dead at the moment. I don't particularly like Reddit and I don't think it's good for me. Even though I am mostly belonging to weird, small communities. The algorithm and the infinite scroll I am too likely to come across psycho hazards. I don't want to completely cut off the internet though. I can only walk so much and read so many books.

ive never been part of any community for the past 15 years or something. i dont even know how to use discord properly.

On June 09 2026 21:53 Raidern wrote: ive never been part of any community for the past 15 years or something. i dont even know how to use discord properly.

iono ur part of LP so I think u are in a community tbh

rikd is a good writer but I dont like to read -_-; I like audio books though

Liquidpoker.net is never going to be what I want it to be. I got back on Twitter and that's never going to be what I want it to be. Discord is never going to be what I want it to be. An AA home group in the city I'm currently in is never going to be what I want it to be. Going down to a local coffee shop is going to either be the Starbucks in a strip mall or the Dunkin' Donuts on the highway. There are no independent bookstores. Well, I know of one but that's like 30 min. away. Thank God I have books and walks in nature.

I joke about it but there is no resurgence for LP. It's a shame too because I know the posters here. Even if it just had 10-50 posters it could be promising.

Boredom got the best of me and I gave in to the pangs. I'm running a trial on Twitter. The first post on my feed was Elon Musk re-posted a news story about an immigrant beheading some Northern Irish guy. So, my first post back was a picture of some guy getting beheaded. Exactly what I need to see at 11:20pm at night when I am trying to land the night softly. Now, I am activated and can't sleep. It's my own fault. I haven't deleted it either. Like I expect it to change overnight somehow........

Maybe there is still some hope with Discord. Currently, I am just not sure what I am looking for exactly.

I just got off the phone with a buddy that goes down to a local independent coffee shop and then heads over to hang out at an Anarchist book shop. He has actual good AA meetings to go to. I can't just make these things appear in my city. I have some more thinking to do and hopefully some actions to take.

some1 stole my line ID:

https://filebin.net/0ru7govap00rmc7p

lol

Here I go again.

I found a connection with this recent search for a digital social panacea and my recent search for the "perfect" strategy game / video game. It doesn't exist. I am on some good discords. One for music production that is right around the right size except I am currently not producing any music. There is a philosophy chat that may be too many people and most of them are academics and I am not reading any philosophy currently.

Twitter is just too much at night and too much in the morning when I am just trying to enjoy some coffee and some music. It's probably too much at any part of the day. I can see how people can spend a lot of time, energy, and attention on it. I'd rather walk to an independent coffee shop, an independent book store, and go to a good AA meeting. I can't do that in my current situation so I loop back to strategy games / video games and social media panaceas.

The problem with Reddit is that it is "infinite" or at least limitless. I couldn't even tell you the name of one other user.

Twitter is not a local village where everyone knows your name. It is also "infinite" or limitless. I have a feeling if I just followed all of my enemies that I may start agreeing with them over a long enough time period. That would be weird.

LP could be great with 10-50 users. There have been some pretty shitty users here though.

I have to take this shit serious because work has not been great and I need my off-work time to feel more meaningful.

I feel a little out of place on X.com. I don't live in Austin or San Francisco and I'm not a tech entrepreneur or engineer. I don't really know what I'm doing on there besides just trying to temper some boredom. I think it is doing some vicious things to my time and attention.

What if we lived life with the same enthusiasm as our boundless, grandiose dreams?

I am a Rat Park Prince looking for my Rat Park Princess.

The For You page on x.com is brutal. I look at hundreds of posts and 100 more show up. That's like God's inbox or some shit like that. Humans are not built for that.

lol agree

On June 11 2026 17:08 RiKD wrote: I am a Rat Park Prince looking for my Rat Park Princess.

I think u will patience

Chá Dé LP doesn't show characters so I can't show u the characters is what I call u in Chinese

Inspect and Virtue.is the meaning