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"His arid years in suburbia." Story of my life.

Page 2. Fresh page. Now it's time to really get cooking....

If we are in a simulation how would we live differently? I don't think anyone knows enough about the nature of simulation to answer that question. The nature of death could be different. It starts getting into the realm of science fiction.

I beat another exposure therapy level today. It was gratifying. I'm still so far away from where I want to be but I have to take my battles where I can get them.

I know I was making fun of the analytic nerds and the wannabe Kant scholars down at the philosophy server. First of all, not everyone there fits into those 2 categories neatly or at all. Second of all, I'm probably just jealous. They are all smart and very well read and communicate well. Some of them are getting paid to do philosophy for a living. I am just jealous.

It is freeing to read Baudrillard and know that authenticity is impossible. Just as meaning has disappeared. Even reality has disappeared. That is not to say that it can not reappear. It is like the chances we are in a simulation. How does one even solve an equation like that?

There were reasons I bought all the clothes that are in my closet and dresser drawers. I am currently wearing charcoal shorts from China I bought off of Amazon, a floral print shirt I got at Target, a turqoise hoody from Gildan, bread and boxer black boxer briefs, and raspberry socks I got from Nike. I'm not exactly sure what that says about me but my appearances do tell a story. I am also wearing Yves Saint Laurent la nuit de l'homme. I have a short buzzcut and neat, short beard. This is what people are basing their reads on me. I walk slow. I am quiet. I could over-perform an attempt to be someone else but it will likely falter. It is best to not lie. Sometimes we wear masks to survive. They are apart of us but obviously are not us. You could say that authenticity is determined. I don't even want to say the words vibe, cooking, slop, etc. but out they come in context. My personality is a fad. I can't help it and neither can you.

My current outfit was about $50. Not bad.

Any plans for the summer?

Yeah, I'm taking the private jet to the South of France in August.