On the other hand, I love the guitar. I love to sing. I think my brother is gifting me his Epiphone SG but maybe we have to work something out. He said he would give it to Goodwill if I don't want it but he could probably sell it for a decent clip so I don't want to steal it from him. Music is becoming my full identity + my work identity I suppose but I don't do anything other than music and work. It's probably not healthy. But, I got a tip from Thom Yorke. If the music isn't working you haven't found the right music or the right music hasn't found you.
Artist of the night: DJ Koze
Definitely look him up.
I would say I like my DJs how I like my philosophers: German but I'll be spending quite some time with a maestro of the pen Mr. Marcel Proust.
I've had my hour or so of guitar playing and singing. I think it's time I get back to some Proust. I think that the idea of the lacked in Sartre's work for me in regards to posting on LP would be 0. The existing time spent on this site is far too much greater than the lacked of 0 time on this website. I just wanted to give a shout out to Sartre as Being and Nothingness was the first very long and difficult philosophical text I got through and while I don't respect his thought as much as quite a few other philosophers he is a legend in his own right. Not even for being this great philosopher which is debatable but for being Sartre. This is kind of how I feel about a lot of French philosophers. I think the Germans are just a cut above. Foucault was Foucault. Derrida was Derrida. They were these characters of philosophy perhaps more than powerful great thinkers. Although, I do love Baudrillard. Just calling it as I see it.
Let's say my girlfriend would like me to have a thick 8 inch dick:
Normal size penis + x penis volume = thick 8 inch dick
It is possible that I can achieve the first example but unless surgeries get much better I cannot achieve the second. Pretty clear cases.
Another notorious case for me was setting Brad Pitt in Troy or male supermodels as the lacked. It feels like I could get there but the lacking genetics, my body or my face are not going to morph. I can get close but maybe my abs look different or any body part is going to look a bit different. I think it is fucked up to set an ideal that cannot really be achieved. But, maybe, it is still a good exercise to be honest about the existing, the lacking, and the lacked.
I tuned my electric today to Drop D and kicked some major ass. It feels powerful. It feels good man. This Rausch has got me feeling so aroused. Got me feelin' so arausched.
I cut off all my beard hairs today. I was just no longer feelin' it. I am thinking about letting it grow a little bit and keeping it at about a guard #2. Simplify.
New Energy. Who is feelin' it?
New Season. Who is feelin' it?
I got some new hiking boots today. I plan on hiking every day in Wyoming. There seems to be some debate in hiking circles these days if a hiking boot is even needed? It appears the hiking shoe is the new thing. I never minded a little bit extra weight in return for a bit more ankle support. My "boots" almost fit like basketball shoes rather than what one would think of a boot. New hiking aesthetic. I am going to have total crossover in what I wear to work, what I hike in, and what I wear in social situations.
It will still be a bore which is a little different than just boring. Your content is typically questionable at best. Mine too but I acknowledge that I am a crazy person yelling into a well as Loco said ages ago. Yelling into a well can be cathartic if nothing else. It is a personal diary except surely modified somewhat as there is at least some audience. It would be best if I just kept an actual journal and got on with my life except I would miss some interaction on here and I have had a hard time getting on with my life.
Most of my good friends are already married but today I realized that there is no one in this town who would invite me to a wedding. Some of my good friends put up with my isolation but I think that is mostly because they are AA friends and that is their way. I just realized the past month I have been totally isolated beyond work and spending time with my parents. I don't think it is cool to be a loner. I don't think I am some Sigma male. It's just the way things happened to go.
Today was a bleh day. It went by fast. I'm not sure what happened to it. Mundane day of work. Sneaky busy. I thought I was going to get a remarkable deal on a suit but they did not have my size. I couldn't even button a 46 L. And, this is after losing 20 lbs. Sad. Seriously, I mean that is really sad. My mind wanting to self-destruct. Masturbation in search of relief. Found some then lost it although I lacked any gumption on the guitar. I was playing it like a joyless pissant. Yesterday, I must have played for an inspired 2 hours or more. I suppose I just did not have anything left. It is a pretty interesting lick and plenty of opportunity to solo too.
I shaved off my beard. Maybe the beard held some sort of spirit or power. My plan is to let it grow a bit but keep it shorter.
My friend got me onto John Lee Hooker. I think it saved me today.
I don't think LP cares much about a back and forth between you and i. Nothing is going to save it. If I self-destruct there may be a blip. I think a lot of LP secretly wants me to self-destruct.
Song of the night:
I am just attempting to spread love or truth...
Difficult to do these days.
Another good track from Balam Acab:
Work is grinding me down. We have some insane deals. I bought a pair of pants that were originally $995 for $15. I'm not the only one buying. It's crazy in there.
Here is one. Diggin' in the crates a little bit. Chrono Trigger fans may enjoy it. Cool Party - Groundislava:
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