Had my biggest month last month since restart at nl5
some $1400 or sth across the limits
All felt great, ignoring results completely doing sports etc. Met a pal from Scotland in Prague, did Spartan Race, loads of good stuff.
I started doing some heavy reading thinking about philosophy and science - I picked up this book http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I...Iaudible,BottomRight,13,73_AA300_.jpg
history of science and how different branches were discovered from astronomy physics, geology etc. thinking about all that. Meditating as well quite a bit.
started watching dota2, game of thrones (seen all of em in last 2.5weeks YEEZ )
learned shit ton done math on many hands, crawled forums,skype a lot, started playing zoom (moar volumes, that thing's crazy bad for my slow brain. I beat it pretty well tho 25 and small sample 50)
basically overloaded my brain shit loads, and my concentration started deteriorating, I started caring about results again and couldn't force myself to stop. Plus they closed down sauna over the summer except the weekend so there went a big part of my Monday off.
Soon enough I just kinda imploded one session and had -13BI in 1.5hrs total spewage and my brain told me to stahp.
The next day I went to the gym to buy 10x entry pass, and bough a monthly pass by accident.
I've been 5 times in 6 days since
Also I went to a cafe on Saturday to relax playing some dota.
I've played 47games since then http://dotabuff.com/players/120361733
didn't play the game for 9 months, yet was given 4k MMR right away so was getting hammered but picked it up since then had some 22-2 viper and 20-0 SF games, no big deal
Oh well random rant over.
I've uninstalled Dota again, and shall bid it goodbye until TI4 which I simply have to watch, it's a HUGE thing 10mil+prize pool is just sick. I sure love the new kid, Excalibur his Tinker and Meepo are out of this world, seeing him rape Alliance with both was awesome.
But as for me playing - I simply can't. It's way too addictive and although it was awesome when I needed a break from poker, I can never do both at the same time unfortunately. I mean 40hrs in 6 days with 10hrs of gym inbetween come on bro
Going forward
Tomorrow I plan on keeping up my gym regime - go at least 4x per week. I focus on sprints and large muscle groups.
And most of all Keep shit simple
I don't have to read duper heavy books that tax my brain so bad (modern physics is a HUGE CLUSTERFUCK for example. Just read some of the stuff. The people must be doing drugs.)
exercise, family, friends, poker.
Spending a ton of time on LP is counter productive too but it's where I shall keep trying to break down my ranges. I played a short sesh only to find out I'm too emotional still (fear mostly) but I realized I don't know what my ranges are in loads of spots nor what I really do with the edges of them - I pretty much click buttons, so instead of learning anything new at all looking at what I do already and tinker with that shall be my focus now. There's no need for new ideas for maybe a few months - just watchign vids to see what other people's ranges are really.
if these people knew what was going to happen when they hit the water, this is the bravest shit ive ever seen. Their bones shatter piercing their vital organs. That is some wolverine adamantium pain right there. Some of them dont die from impact and flail in the water trying to not drown cause if u want to die u dont want to fucking drown. they fatigue and drown. really bad way to go. Nembutal should be legal. So these people shouldnt have to go through unimaginable horrifying pain. There aint no pain from being homeless that can compare to having bones shattered and piercing your vital organs.
(Vote): 1 - biking
(Vote): 2 - red ress
(Vote): 3 - glASS
(Vote): 4- anotehr brick in teh wall
(Vote): 5- picking up chicks
(Vote): 6 - a shot of akali
(Vote): 7 - best ass in the group
>be me
>have friends
>party all the time
>haha life is okay
>years go by
>within one year all of my childhood friends die
>new friends end up hurting me really bad
>withdraw from society for a year or two
>decide to try to go back into the world again
>meet up with a high school friend (girl)
>stay the night at her place, have good time
>make plans again
>have this feeling that I'm not going to be seeing her again
>come the day of our plans, they are canceled
>i get nothing from her except she can't make it
>i try to see what's up, but then I only get anger from her
>week later, no word from her
>my biggest fear has become opening up and letting someone in my life just to get hurt by them
>i dont want her to leave
>have this idea to woo her back
>but im not even sure what the point is at this point
I don't see the point in living a lonely life. I try, and I try to do things to make it change, but I can only do wrong. I can't even fucking kill myself. How pathetic is that?
I was at the gym, patting myself on the back for finally reaching 135 lbs, from around 95 lbs when i first started working out.
As i was getting the metaphorical lotion to begin said self masturbatory congratulations and victory lap, this young old man, around 50 i'd say asks if i needed a spot.
i was confused. didn't this guy just see me lift 135? can't he tell i weigh 145? bro thats like 99% of my body weight with less than a month training what is this mad man talking about.
he said i should try 185.
(lol) (fucking idiot. i fucking hate old people) i told myself in my head. first they think they know something about poker. then they think they know something about life and job seeking. and now they think they know something about weight training. does this asshole know how much bro science i've read over the years?
anyway he seems pretty adamant about not letting me get to the lockers and therefore not letting me get to work.
hating myself and understanding a life time of giving into the demands of older people (my korean family + korean elders) i now had to humor old white fucks too.
so i fucking put the extra 25lbs weights on and....lifted....3 reps...all my strength...i lay there on the bench, exhausted and at awe of what my body was able to do...wat the fuck have i been doing all this time?...is this the way to train?...are you supposed to face death when working out?...we took off 5 pounds from each side....another 5 reps.....we took off another 5 pounds from each side....6 reps...
i took a shower, changed into work clothes and went with my day knowing a chilean body building poker online personality was smiling proudly somewhere on the internetz
Lets say you observe 3 rapid showdowns whereby a player never cbet as the initial raiser and just gave up if he didnt have a pair. This seems like a good opportunity to start picking off flops when he checks, but what if you miss a bunch of opportunities due to other action? Do you just kinda pick up right where you left off and test your theory at the next available opportunity? Or do you feel like if he hasnt been able to play the last 20 hands that he's probably looking to win his next pot and thus give him some room to fall back into his ways?
For your time I present to you trailers for Doom4 and The Division. Try to keep in mind The Division is supposed to showcasing a new real-time engine. Hard to believe this isnt CGI but there are some frame skips and other telltale signs of imperfection that make me believe it really is real-time.
oh yeah, and new trailer for Interstellar by Chris Nolan
If anyone wants to put me in the series, its about $1800 total, we can do day by day xfers, 50/50, if i lose we can have make-up. theres 25 events. 470k gntd.
if we skip the 530 its 1250.
i have some ppl interested in doing a stakeshare at skype etc.
im willing to take a single staker for the series or stakeshare.
1250 to play all without 530, 1800ish to play all with the 530.
There are rebuys so hard to know exact amount. I plan to play every event.
updates daily.
funds would be xfered via americas card room, same as black chip poker wpn.
looking to smash this series, my US backers in the navy, hes gone for 2 weeks.
Its tomorrow to the 15th.
Sunday 6/15 is a sick day btw.
I'd take single stakes at 30/70 no makeup on these.
can pick and choose.
215 main event
530 50k
30 25k
also the 12th is great,
$88 12k gntd PLO (forhelviti and marshall have taught me plo - i have success in plo mtts)
$66 20k
$5k R/A $22r - imo this will be much bigger, 15-25k.
If ur interested, lmk. i have some ppl interested, lookin to fill it up.
All MTTs start at 5-10k stacks+ with long levels.
These are my bread n butter.
I'm currently playing very well.
I would snapcall this all day.
looking for a single backer pref which is why i posting this here.
stakeshare are fine as well.
sick ROI.
I know everyone in this field so well. I should dominate this series.
Wish me luck,
One time lets work together n crush a series LP
Ryan
I think in order to play great poker it's necessary to make decisions at an instinctive level. I'm not sure if instinctive is the right word, so I'll offer a couple of other descriptions to make myself clearer. Psychologists (at least in the popular Kahneman book which I've read recently
Sometimes split up our cognitive skills into System 1 and System 2, with System 1 being the characteristically automatic and effortless System that we use to read, see, recognize faces, etc. Athletes might say you have to "do it unconsciously" or "know it in your bones" or something. Programmers sometimes call fine grained instinctive decision making "expert knowledge" and they have trouble recreating it. I've sometimes said I try to think about the hand geometrically or spatially, by which I mean my mental representation is more like a picture than like a math problem. I'm sure there's loads of other ways to get at the same point. autopilot, unconscious competence, muscle memory, lots of terms for this all meaning roughly the same thing
My experience has been that what makes a great poker player is an instinct for making good poker decisions. In my own case I've found that directed study can do wonders for clarifying my thoughts about poker, which leads to training better instincts at the table.
It's definitely true though that most pros (even high stakes pros) do very little study, and just playing tons of hands while thinking really hard about decisions trains them to play at a very high level.
On the other hand, there's a lot of people who have played a lot of poker, and most of them haven't succeeded in becoming great players; I guess beyond a certain level some amount of talent is required. My view though is that dedicated study can go a long way, and it's a lot less of a gamble then playing tons of hands and hoping to be talented.
One training idea I've been working with lately is breaking up clusters of skills required at the poker table into categories which I label 'mechanics'.
The idea is that by focusing on the conscious practice and refinement to instinct of one mechanic at a time I'll be able to build up a hierarchy of increasingly complicated skills. So, to take a non poker example for clarification, take driving a car. Driving is a fairly complicated skill, but one basically everybody can get good enough at. When we first drive, we have to attend to everything: the position of the pedals under us, the place the key goes in the ignition, all the various buttons, where the gas tank is, and then all of the driving decisions as well. But after a little bit, the basic mechanic I just described becomes automatic, and it's easier to focus on driving decisions; eventually driving is automatic (in most situations) and we can chat and think of other things while we drive. Sports analogies are good here too.
I think there's a useful analogy with poker, and the mechanics can be broken down as:
1) Basic mechanics
are things like knowing the rules, knowing whose turn it is to act, knowing who is in what position, and knowing how much is being bet and what's in the pot.
2)Intermediate mechanics are things like knowing what pot odds we're getting and giving, and roughly how good our hand is, and making some guesses about what our opponent is holding.
Cariadon pops into mind as a great example of someone who stopped here
3) Advanced mechanics might include things we're talking about here-
-instinctually balancing betting and bluffing ratios for various sizings
-keeping track of our entire distribution at a given decision point
-thinking one or more streets ahead in the game tree
-and gathering probabilistic reads on our opponent to make exploitative responses to their set of strategies.
I find I learn efficiently when I get regular feedback on one or more mechanics I'm working on. So, you might go about translating your conscious, analytic, effortful work on poker theory into an instinctual mechanic by taking five or so hands a day and first writing down in a stream of consciousness your best guess at your range in a given spot. Then you might solve the spots to near equilibrium and see how close or far away you are. I find when I do this repeatedly my instincts improve.
This is all very sketchy advice, and I absolutely don't consider myself an expert (I'm barely a dilettante) in psychology or education or any of the relevant disciplines pertaining to this discussion. I have however spent a ton of time trying to teach myself poker, and hopefully some of the insights I've come to in my own study translate, or are at least food for thought, in helping you to turn theory into practice.
Old hard drive went out so got a new one, everything works fine til I try to install my video card drivers, at which point the screen becomes all pixelated and off colored, as soon as you uninstall the video card driver it goes back to normal. I remember this happening a year ago when I first built this computer but I forgot how I fixed it oddly enough. I've tried every stable and beta driver listed on http://www.sapphiretech.com/presenta...=&lid=1&leg=0# no difference between them.
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Thanks everyone who helped me get through thisby gitpush, June 07
This is the sickest downswing I have ever had so far. 20BI downswing, and it seems neverending still..
Thanks Devon and Lemon and everyone else who cheered me on and gave me help. All of the advice were great! I started to play less speculative hands and fold more on weird spots. Tilt still gets me sometimes so it wasn't all just bad luck during the downswing. And I need to find a way to focus on just the decision making rather than the money.. I started off with $130 ish (thanks to the $77 milestone hand bonus that I randomly hit the 2nd day I opened the account for $45+20) but cash game had been pretty brutal.. Had some decent success at the 50cent 9max SnG's but it is not the same..
I got very nervous about my bankroll know, even though I still have about 35 BIs for 2NL. Money is not an issue for me, it is just that it is almost impossible for me to deposit right now. So if someone could help me do some transfers via paypal that would be great. I would feel a lot less stressed.
I really want to get good at poker, and people here are great. I am glad that I am on LP and hope my poker improves as time goes on.
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