General Goal Setting/Game of Lifeby hiems, April 30
As I am writing this I'm not sure what I will do in the following month.
But I do want to make some blog about goal-setting, how I approach decisions. I think that naturally my mind approaches decision making kind of like Conway's game of life. I'm not sure if I understand it 100% correctly but I think you have these binary squares of two different color with some initial state. Rules are set in which based on the squares interact with each other the successive state changes, etc etc and through this you can glean some kind of insight into dynamic/complex systems which I guess is a cool concept and can be often analagous to life? (I haven;t studied it indepth or anything, so correct me if I am wrong).
For me, I there's a reason goal setting is hard/elusive is because life is really really complex and ever changing. Rather, if you focusing on the rules that make up alot of your goal it becomes much more manageable and easier to implement into your day to day life. Iunno, perhaps as I am writing this I might focus a bit too much on the rules, but not so much on the goal or the "stable state?"
Anyway I think I have alot of rules. Rules within rules, etc. Weird starting points into the essence of my character. "I just know I LIKE this, I Like doing this,
I think this is good, I think this is bad, etc." love/hate. Some rules are good some are bad. I use these rules when I meditate at some subconscious level and just decide what I am going to do that very day and just try to do it the best I can possibly do it.
For example:
The Korean-Rule : Never go busto! Koreans frown upon gambling, especially if you lose. My dad gave me alot of shit a few years ago because poker to him was absolutely unacceptable. Anyway this is probably a huge influence for me not just like going crazy with shot taking, being a life nit, etc. For me I had to balance my Korean-Rule with my love of the game of poker. I mean if I am a losing player, or just not making xyz a year this rule just kind of hovers over you like a ghost. If I ever go busto this rule would be like a kettle of boiling water!
Some Rules I guess are just a consequence of variance, but nonetheless etched into you as a person. For example the past, people you have met, things that have happened. I think some rules you draw inspiration from philosophy, literature. You may browse, see what you like, etc. There's some moment for me...I LIKE exisentialism...Sartre says..So for me...I will do this, that, shape my life this way, that, etc. Some rules are useless.I have spent probably past 5 years thinking of what my GTO Pet strategy is, what type of pet how to name it, etc countless of countless times to no avail. I have no pets. I have no plants.
Furthermore, rules can be general like those I mentioned above or more specific. My game selecting algorithm has looked like the following of late.
1. Start the day trying to play my honey-pot player at 10/20. LOGIC - daytimes aren't the best times for game selection. However you can rely
on said player for consistent routine and action. Furthermore, athletes like Kobe Bryant, Reggie Miller, etc are the first ones in the gym before the game/after the game. Before they start playing a game, there is shoot-around, warm-up, etc. Why should poker be any different? Starting out at lower stakes as a warm-up might be a good idea, especially for players that seem to start sessions with losses. You need to put in alot of hours. Early bird gets the worm. Night times are best and you give yourself till the night time to play the bigger games and by starting early you can potentially play more.
CONDITION
--Either I am UP alot BEFORE the honey-pot player leaves around 1pm, or I am up decently, up alot, breakeven, down, down alot when honey-pot player leaves.
2. Alot of the times starting out I would hit and run essentially based on Condition. Avoided 20/40 completely for awhile until past month or so. Also, moreso than not,
my tendency has been to play 20/40 kind of to get unstuck? I mean that is kind of meh because of my logic for playing 10/20 in the first place. Furthermore when I have lost
a bit of money and I'm not on tilt it kind of gives me some competetive fire to play some bigger games.
But anyway yeah, the 20/40s have almost entirely when I am either Breakeven State of Down State at my 10/20 game. Furthermore, I play longer when stuck as opposed to unstuck.Today, I was stuck alot at 10/20, my fun-player left the game. I looked for a 20/40 at some point but there were no seats and the 40/80 lineup looked OK so I bumped it up, and was unstuck and it was pretty fun playing.
Not sure how good of a habit this is! It has been translating into a high % of sessions won, an upwards trending graph, but what happens when I take a huge loss at 20/40 40/80?!
(Graph is filtered out nolimit, which I lost a bit at, so all limit games mostly all Limit Holdem).
Anyway liferoll has been assisted lately by a nice check from the insurance company (property damage), some moderate winning at poker, and just putting in autopilot hours on uber when I had time, though I haven't done it the past week and am kinda feeling bearish about it overall. There's also a chance I win a nice check for personal injury so there's that. One time! On another note I have made small deposits on both lending club and prosper. If I am playing a really nitty bankroll game I shouldn't have so much of my funds in cash holdings which makes sense. I had the idea actually sometime last year and I had shopped around CD rates and Treasury EE Bonds, stuff like that but interest rates were obv so so low so I didn't think it made any sense. It seems LC and Prosper carry more risk, and I am still weighing what that risk would look like in an economic downturn.
I think I am a investing fish at the moment I put some money on tradeking but I don't think I have enough experience. For example the start of 2016 I was freaking out. Also the shit I had contributed to my IRA lifetime has not been dollar cost averaged and I don't think it's a GTO approach and I haven't really gotten in particularly good at all from an exploitative perspective or anything. As someone who entered the markets POST 2008 crash (I had no money back then) I have never experienced a true bear, etc I think there are many dangers with that. So for many reasons this is something I think about alot alot and I am starting at a big disadvantage somewhat kind of like poker starting out post boom/black friday crash. I plan on making a trip back to NJ sometime this year, not sure when. I'd like to meet-up with perhaps a few of my old buddies that work/worked in finance and perhaps gain an ear or two on a more seasoned approach to long-term value investing.
Anyway, that's it for now. Overall I think next month I'll try to grow the bankroll somehow, doesn't have to be specifically poker or it might be. TBH I wouldn't mind dealing the wsop or something I just don't care for now I just want to make monies.
Fight Night 34: As an observer...by NotSorry, April 18
Rar, haven't updated lately. Just been swamped with work and life. Went out to the casino to watch the fights last night to support some teammates and friends in the local scene. Was so frustrating being on the outside looking in, just wanted to climb in there so bad. Seriously I would have taken an a last second offer from anyone in the building to get in that cage. It was a very fast pace night, everyone so hungry to make a good impression, out of the 11 or 12 fights I believe only 2 went to the judges, most finishing in the first round.
Was too focused on enjoying myself to take a ton of pictures or videos but my fiancee did manage to record my teammate Chris "The Phantom Lord" Hetzel's fight. Posted on https://www.facebook.com/SpeedMMA Keep an eye out for this kid, only his 2nd camp and he's a beast, super hard worker in the gym.
Over 4 3s at only -225 on the night he is for sure hunting 8 (and the 400 record) easiest bet of my life. Clearing it easily in the 1st. Only problem is I couldn't bet my whole bovada roll.
Most dominant athlete in any major team sport by far.
Last year + start of this year I was slacking hard, datin this girl etc, finally back grinding 24/7. Haven't posted any updates anytime recently.
took 2.5 months off, was fun, but time to get back to it.
2015 wasn't too great for me. Only made 18.5k online, but kept restarting from $100. 1500 a month was enough to pay for my life so wasn't bad, although i had a 5k month in vegas online, so i think i need to just move there and grind, way better having player ID's, so many over players there in one right or another.
Proud of :
I have not taken 1 stake since January of 2015. I have been doing poker on my own and learning so much about business and other aspects of the game that I had overlooked in the past. This has all been 100% me.
In Life;
Finally back on the road, so I can play live + online.
Few great local games to go to, pretty excited to start going again.
Just cashed out the BR To $100 and restarting again, needed car + live BR + life expenses.
SO I've been printing almost all my $ at NL100, but I play NL200 3handed late at night (all zoom) - won 5/6 sessions at NL200 in March, had a few really nice sessions.
I'm switching from ZooM to non ZooM, and hopefully living off cash game profits in casino, and not needing to do payouts online would be great. This is my goal for 2016. Festivals live poker and online poker, years booked. Currently a mission to 25k instead of constant missions to 3k.
After a while I got a lil tired and bored of poker, needed to live life and do some other stuff, finally itching to play a ton again, can't wait to see if I can reach 5/10 non zoom @Bovada. Should be able to.
Gonna stop putting (4-6 or 8 hrs a day pressure on my shoulders and just play non stop and hope to have a lot of long 10-30++ hour sessions, games been a lot more fun again )
I use very aggressive BR management through the micros, (nl10 til 400, NL25 til 750, NL50 til 2k and start NL100. From there I'm going to just play on 40bi+++.
Goal is NL1k which is actually pretty soft @Bovada, who cares if I end up in NL200-NL600, those games are all great too, or even NL100 is fine if needed.
Been working a lot on life, learning in a lot of areas outside of poker, while still studying some poker etc. Literally spent hundreds of hours learning about politics this year @Youtube (was 100% ignorant of politics before this year), following different campaigns and just kicking it with lots of movies n friends etc. Finally started putting people before poker, been pretty rewarding, although still need to play tons of long sessions, just feels good to not feel so attached to a tournament or feeling that i "need" to grind, games not going anywhere most likely ever.
Here's an update of how I've been doing so far on Bovada @Cashgames.
I've binked a lot of MTT's as well. (recently 2nd in a $33 5k T)
The sessions are all like 60-240 minutes, I'm gonna just bring it back to like 2008 style and start playing 500+ minute sessions for fun, no reason to not give it all I got now.
February was my first losing month, at about $-800. I met this girl and things became pretty intense, moved in together, and then she left me to go back to her abusive ex boyfriend (gave her black eyes and everything, the worst), but sadly this is actually common among abuse victims. Man did this fuck with my head hard, I found myself completely crushed emotionally, deliberately losing hands and becoming self-destructive as a way to take my mind off of things. I snapped out of it after losing about 6 buyins and just quit playing completely for 2 weeks and by March I was back on my A-game. As for me and that girl, dont worry about that shit, we're as done as done can be.
Anyway I'm still trying to plug that stupid leak I have of "paying to see" when someone makes a retarded bet against me that makes no sense. I'm not calling shoves or anything like that and it's a lot better than before, but I still catch myself calling here and there like once every few sessions when I know I'm beat, but I just want to figure out wtf my opponent was doing.
The good news I am finally getting more confident playing deep. I think a big part of it has just been playing scared money. Not scared because I cant afford to play, but just that butterflies in the stomach kind of thing knowing that this is my lifeline here so dont risk too much since I'm so new to this lifestyle. But goddamn when you get deep vs these players it's just fuckin' game on every time. Here's a couple of chip porn shots where I maintained my composure and just stuck it out until the table broke.
This will be my primary focus going forward. Just sitting down with the intention to eat the table.
Funny hand tonight, sitting 220BB effective, I river quads but ended up tabling my hand before he called. I actually thought he had folded because I was busy bullshitting with the guy on my right who was paying me off all night drunk as fuck and he had already gone allin on the turn. Other guy shows the nut straight and of course folds, then goes on an epic rant against the dealer even though I just saved him about $900 on a river bet that he was obviously going to call. Doh, pay more attention!
Oh yeah, and I did buy a new car lol. Nothing fancy, just a used 370z Nismo, but man this thing is so fun to drive.
I even mounted a tablet. It's just velcro with the cables routed behind the dash but I think it looks pretty legit! Certainly works well for streaming music and navigation.
Team Liquid's CSGO team is in the semi-final of the MLG Columbus Major tomorrow. One of the biggest tournaments of the year, biggest prize pool in history of CSGO (1 mill for winner).
They already upset the clear #1 team in the world in group stages. Pretty solid underdog story going on so far.
Broadcast for semi's tomorrow starts around 10, but Liquid's match shouldn't be until 3:00 EST. Dunno how many people here follow GO but probably worth checking out if you ever played CS. (can watch it on MLG's twitch channel or MLG's official page)
Decided to do quarterly updates as I figured it'd give me more to talk about. Cool news I hit the BB jackpot for about 250k, which after my share netted me about 125k. I didnt elect to file taxes because I decided to treat myself to something first, a used Ferrari 488GTB! Here it is parked outside the front of my apartment.
It's pretty hard to get these so this one was actually used with 12 miles on it. Apparently the owner drove it home and decided he didnt want it anymore (probably bought it without the wife's permission) so back to the dealer it went. I got it for a steal at $313,087 after all taxes and fee's were paid. I had it registered out of state to avoid Florida sales tax so hopefully I dont get pulled over for a ticket! The payment on it is only about 7k/month so I figure I'll drive it until the end of the year and then dump it before it loses too much value / my roll has taken too big of a hit.
Speaking of which, to help mitigate the sting on my liferoll this car is going to incur I decided to head down south where they have some bigger games. The waitlist for 2/5 NL was taking fucking forever but they had an open seat at 5/10 PLO which the floor kept asking if I wanted to sit at. I finally broke and said ok. I dont think there was any cap to the buyin, but they informed me the minimum was $300 which I decided to start with just to get a feel for it. I know the rules to PLO just not much of the strategy. Luckily I ran hot and managed the snap a few pictures for the chip porn gallery
The last picture isnt all that bragworthy since I minbought 15 times for $300 a pop but hey, gotta limit my risk of ruin now that I have some unexpected new finances! It's been a wild ride this year but I'll post more tomorrow.
Hi, Im back. Little story first: This week a friend graduated in computer science with a thesis about mimicry in conversations. That is, with a conversation game, samples between pairs of persons, they tried to build a metric to correlate certain stats (volume, frequency, speed, change in tone, etc) to certain behaviors (cooperation, boredom, etc).
Now, what I thought after: What is the importance of mimicry in online poker? What does it mean if my opponent (or me) mimics game speed? In HU games seems to be common. Sometimes, someone plays too fast and the other plays slower to think and not give easy tells or as a way to antimimicry to slow the speed pace. Or viceversa, becouse someone plays slow, the other guy has time to play fast when its his turn to act. Other times I find myself slowing the speed when someone plays slow and I dont even need to play slow against him. What does it mean? That Im not strong enough to enforce the game speed? That I want to feel the other more comfortable by playing at his speed? Can the other player exploit me if he knows I tend to mimic speed?
What do you guys think? Is there anything written out there about this topic?
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