So, the last blog I did had my roll at ~300k. Those times are long, long gone and my roll is a solid 5 figures again. I guess I lost most of it at 100/200 8game and staking and stuff like that, in short being a total degen. I have limited myself to 3/6 max since then and I'm slowly winning again at pokers whilst still being a total degen in other ways, like the $100NL homegame where everyone spews incredibly hard and has to autorebuy to 250bb.
This has however not hurt my morale, and I am feeling very happy mentally. A lot happier then I was when my BR was still a lot bigger, strange enough. I guess it's a change of mindset. I have started looking at the world in a much more positive light and exited an at least 4 year long depression since about august last year. I have recently begun grinding again and have shown marginally positive results. Though I still spew quite a bit in certain spots I'm happy with how I play in general and expect to slowly grind back up within reasonable time.
I've also started coaching. I am now a coach at Pokerzion.com which is led in large part by my friend Loosefer. I am looking for more students and I charge $100/hr. Will teach from 50NL up to 400NL.
I'd also like to thank all the railbirds since I'm a giant attention whore, and though I can't offer mass 1k multiway flips in the near future, I do hope to give you something to rail. Possibly a SCOOP FT? Who knows.
Now for some songs I find awesome:
Nydvind - King of the Hills (Pagan Metal) - I'm actually going to Metz to see them on the 14th!
So if theres one thing I'm a master at, it's playing with my whole roll on the table for the highest limit I can afford. It's how I started playing. Depositing $200 and sitting down at NL200 seemed like a good idea at the time afterall, I mean what else would I want to do with $200, play .5/10 cent? Laugh... Over the years I've managed to increase my BRM to the 5 BI or so mark, so at least now I'm playing with 5x the funds as I used to. And of course winning 3-4 BI's in a single session is like the greatest day ever and proves I play good making 400% ROI, so naturally I should cash out and save some again for later. I'm down something like -1.26/BB which clearly proves I'm a losing player so I quit poker until I paid off some debts and did some more soul searching.
But tonight I could not handle it any longer. My withdrawal symptoms became too great and all I could think about was the NL200 game downtown running in an hour, and how gawd awful these players were. Just last night I was watching my wife Holly grind NL2 online and just kept facepalming at all the hands people were calling her with. I just sat back for a few moments and said "wtf this is so easy, I know how to beat these fucks. Just, fuckin play solid. Dont even come with a gameplan, just play fuckin solid. Wtf does solid even mean? Fuck if I know, just fuckin do it".
So all I can do is sit there in my office today picturing the various joe blows at the live table and imagine that we are really playing online at an NL2 table. And then it was done. I sent a text asking if they had a seat available for me and that I would be there in about half an hour. The entire trip I just kept imagining the live table was the stars table. The felt in front of me would look just like the digital felt online. When I took a seat, I wouldnt be playing this like it was live, I would be imagining I was playing NL2 online, and each face across the table from me was nothing more than another retarded avatar of some guys baby/and or dog.
I bought in for $200, which was all I brought with me. You see I couldnt really afford to be playing right now. I had to win. I really needed this money, and considered playing tonight no different than putting in extra hours at the office for more pay. I needed the money. And from 7pm-10pm I proceeded to go from a $200 stack to a $980 stack. I warned everyone early that I was rusty and just gettin back in the game and would be leaving early tonight. If I bust i bust, and if I crush I crush. Luckily they all like me and dont mind a slight hit n run. Of course thats not to say the whole table groaned when I asked the host to rack em and cash me out. But there were like 20 people there tonight anyway so they probably all forgot within the next 5 minutes anyhow.
So I pocketed nearly $800 tonight one-tabling NL200 live. A heater or whatever, doesnt matter, goddamn I needed the money. So what am I gonna do with it? Well I'm debating putting $400 down for a single buyin of NL400 online. Or maybe play the NL500 live game this weekend. Maybe just 1 BI of NL200 online will be enough. Or maybe I'll just sink it all towards credit card debt/holly's birthday or something.
I dunno, but clearly I can buy in for 100BB's at any game and just pwn it up, so all I really need to make sure I have is $200 laying around in case I somehow bust what I earned. Me busting what I earned is totally irrelevant though, even if it exceeds the 1 BI rule. If I lose it all, I simply pull 200 more out of the bank and play. All previous withdrawals are erased, and each night is a clean slate. There shall be no auditing of my buyin history, each day is a new day. If you find all of this confusing, PM me and we'll discuss proper degen theory and I'll offer some live coaching on how to properly buy in at a table and run it up, and how to properly lose it all and have it mean absolutely nothing.
Hey I want to finally move on to real money. I will trade 2m of pokerstars play chips for $10. I don't mind sending first as long as the user is trusted here on this website
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