Going to college to become humanby TTomass, April 02
Hi guys this is my first blog post.
I was a mtt pro. I had a 50% roi at the turbo 180 mans in 2010, made so much money that I completely stopped playing poker and just became a lazy slob. I recently went to Rosarito, Mexico where I met 1sickdisease, Jesse James Sylvia, pokerdevil. Anyway I had a -10% roi in the month playing the 180 mans. Decided to call it quits to poker and become a citizen and work a job and I've never worked a job before. ALL I KNOW IS GAMES from the time I was a teenager. I'm going to UNLV to take engineering or actuarial science. Actuarial Science offers a nice cushy job to collect buuko bux for holding a job. I'm scared because in my mental insanity I turned to violent war games. That became my home and from there poker. Poker is insane you literally must become a exploitative and a thief. And I have to give up all this life of sin. The joy of sitting around all day doing nothing. Now I got to go through university learn mathematics and get a job. My younger brother did all that and then final tabled the wsop main event last year to quit his cushy buuko bucks job as an actuary. Now he's a poker player. I feel so disconnected from people and I'm scared. He wanted to be a poker player the whole time he was an actuary. I was a poker player.
Going to college to become humanby TTomass, April 02
Hi guys this is my first blog post.
I was a mtt pro. I had a 50% roi at the turbo 180 mans in 2010, made so much money that I completely stopped playing poker and just became a lazy slob. I recently went to Rosarito, Mexico where I met 1sickdisease, Jesse James Sylvia, pokerdevil. Anyway I had a -10% roi in the month playing the 180 mans. Decided to call it quits to poker and become a citizen and work a job and I've never worked a job before. ALL I KNOW IS GAMES from the time I was a teenager. I'm going to UNLV to take engineering or actuarial science. Actuarial Science offers a nice cushy job to collect buuko bux for holding a job. I'm scared because in my mental insanity I turned to violent war games. That became my home and from there poker. Poker is insane you literally must become a exploitative and a thief. And I have to give up all this life of sin. The joy of sitting around all day doing nothing. Now I got to go through university learn mathematics and get a job. My younger brother did all that and then final tabled the wsop main event last year to quit his cushy buuko bucks job as an actuary. Now he's a poker player. I feel so disconnected from people and I'm scared. He wanted to be a poker player the whole time he was an actuary. I was a poker player.
Feels like I only post blogs when I'm winning so kinda obligated to post ones when I'm losing.
Lost a lot in March. I think around 50k. Definitely my biggest losing month. I was down about 60 but made a bit of it back. Really only played maybe 30-40hrs the whole month because I had a lot of fun going out with friends.
It's really strange. Sometimes I can be having a really awful day but be up like 4 or 5 grand. I can't talk to my everyday friends about those kinds of things and I try my best to hide it because I feel even worse knowing how much it could improve some of their lives if they had earned that kind of money that day and how badly I sometimes feel despite winning. I guess poker has made me really jaded when it comes to money because stupid insignificant issues I'm having in my life often seem to affect me more adversely than the swings do. It's definitely a good thing for me as a poker player, but almost feels like I'm turning into an emotionless robot.
Did drop down and played a little bit of 2/4 and 3/6 for a few sessions. Was really a lot less stressful and took a lot of pressure off me to not need to be dealing with 5 figure swings on a regular basis.
I jumped back up to playing mostly 5/10 and a little bit of 10/20 once I started to win a bit. Still running bad though. Mostly stuff like flopping top set in 3bet pots OOP and chk/calling down only to get stacked by a random backdoored straight or something like that.
So I havn't filed my taxes in about three years, decided to do them all couple of weeks ago. I get a letter in the mail today saying I owe the government 452k in overdue taxes... the fuck. Anyone know what I can do? I'm very nervous.
Just a little late on the March updates... School and stuff is all piling up, still managed to have ok volume for March but didnt play fantastic at the beginning of the month. Towards the end of the month I was playing much better and the results started to turn around as well.
This is 90% 100nl zoom from two different computers
H guys,
its been a while since my last blog, however here goes nothing. So i graduated from an Estonian university in January 2013. Finally got the shit done, feels good. So i decided to reward myself with a trip to CA, USA. Me and my gf stayed in LA a week , Fresno (where i lived 1,5 years)4 nights and Vegas for 3 nights. Visited my former school, friends and tennis team mates. Was absolutely awesome. Then went to NY for the first time in my life, spent like 4 days there. I loved it, however would not like to live there. when i got back i decided to give my full focus to poker for the first time in my life without nothing interfiering. I have analized a lot of vids and have tried to get better in poker overall last month and a half. Im also trying to drop some weight, was 96 kg after USA, now have gotten it down to 89-90 kg in like 5-6 weeks. Been going to the gym, trying to eat healthier and given up drinking for a while too, been sober for 6-7 weeks so far.
I have never played so much hands as i did in March. I managed to play 97497 hands, i played a total of 133 hours. My last biggest volume month was lik 67 k hands. the first 45 k hands i was playing pretty bad 100 nl 6m regular tables, but then something clicked, and i started to think diffirently of the way i played the game. The last 52 k hands pretty much 3 tabled 100 nl zoom because I am trying to get better and i simply can not handle 4 tables yet playing in my ''new'' style. So it has worked out pretty good so far for me. I also made 28750 vpp's which is a personal best for me too. So here is the graph:
how do I play this? DO I need a key? I'm just updating steam now.
Had a sick good week 6hrs of excercise/sauna, healthy prtein rich breakfast every day made $1k at work but exhausted with a cold and have to stop myself from hemorrhaging poker moneyz cause can't even play my C game -,-
Until recently I considered myself a person who did most things with their left hand. I was a "left-handed person" and that was that. There wasn't much to it.
A while back, I decided to begin learning to write with my right hand. The endeavor served as an excellent opportunity to practice my patience, and so it was. Whereas before I could hardly form letters with my right, today I can fluently write in cursive and block. Notably, my right's handwriting is not only today far more legible than my much more highly practiced and developed left's, but my right hand claimed this advantage very early in its training!
Yet there is more.
Today, my right hand is fully competent at writing and much more. That much is clear. The more interesting experience I've had along the way is that while writing a document (whether it be a fictionalized story, non-fiction story, technical writing) I began to occasionally switch which hand I was writing with -- from right to left first, then left to right -- due to muscle fatigue. In doing this, I have been amazed at how the words themself come out differently. That is, if you read what I've written with my left and with my right you can readily identify that differences exist in each "voice".
It is an uncanny reflection of the different ways the brain is activated by varying physical input-output.
There are a few overwhelmingly apparent expressions of this difference in my explicit behavior on the day-to-day. It is simply that thinking right-handedly somehow affords me greater navigation of my own memory. Historically, my happiness has been greatly diminished by one simple characteristic that seemed to be an attribute of me -- I'd often feel that I had a lot to say, but couldn't seem to "think of whatever it was" in the moment at hand. My ability to recall a figment of thought, or memory, and formulate it into transferrable information has and is greatly increased through writing with my right hand. Recent experience has taught me that this increased ability to perform on-the-spot has transferred across all domains: Today, I hold my own and manage my side of conversation like I always "knew I could", my ability to perform in real-time such as in sport or job has increased, it simply feels as if my spark plugs have been replaced. And this is all traceable back to a general increase in "alertness for the moment" that has been heavily associated with the daily training of my right hand.
What kind of crazy person decides to change their handedness in adulthood?
Well, what is really that crazy about doing something that you haven't done before?
For this essay, my medium is the standard QWERTY computer keyboard inside of a word processing application (I recommend disabling automatic spelling and grammar checks). In fact, I have probably spent several multiples of time longer expressing myself through QWERTY versus through the handwritten word. My voice comes through differently here just as it does when I choose to write with my left versus my right hands. Just as it does when I'm in real-life conversation. This is most relevant because every expression we make is not only itself a given, but also comes back upon ourselves to influence us. It is hard to elaborate much more explicitly on this point without becoming technical, but consider the differences in your automatic thinking if you compared yourself before, during, and immediately after you had spent ten years locked in a room with only woodworking tools and food around.
Our voice is the translation of our mind's thoughts through the brain and ultimately the rest of the body (since our brain doesn't have limbs nor vocal chords). Our voice is the only way through which we can effect other people -- by our impressions upon the environment whether they're words delivered by sound wave or sight delivered by gymnastic performance. By learning to use my right hand I have literally changed the landscape of my brain and have gained an enhanced ability to communicate and perform.
This is something worthy of sharing, and so it is done.
There may still be a couple of days left in March, but I'm not going to be playing on either of them so figured I'd post results now.
I have put in extremely little volume this month, in fact I've made barely more than 20k VPPs and so SNE is completely off the cards now. It's gonna be tough to force myself to sit down and put in volume without having a volume oriented goal in mind and I think it's hard to feel the same incentive to play hard in order to make 500k VPPs or 700k or whatever is attainable for me. Just doesn't motivate like the benefits of SNE can motivate (Apparently that wasn't enough to make me play much either though). I have been going out way too much and getting way too drunk this month and so I've felt a bit like a zombie most days. It was a very fun month though and life enjoyment is worth more than money anyway so I'm not overly sad about the fact I fucked up my SNE pursuit.
Despite not playing too much I have managed to spend silly amounts lately. I've withdrew about £9k (~$15.5k) from my Stars acc in the last 2 months which I definitely cannot sustain for long if I encounter a break even or losing stretch. Too much of the stuff I've spunked on is useless stuff that I didn't even need, but one expenditure I made that I'm excited about is the fact I booked tickets for Seoul, Korea. I'll be arriving there 3rd April and staying till 9th April. No doubt I will be drinking every day. If there's anyone here that's in Seoul who'd want to meet for a few drinks or food or whatever I'd prob be up for it, just send me a PM or whatever.
When I did play I did well this month. I was up 55 buyins in the first 30k hands of the month which was about $8.5k or something, unfortunately I ran like shit since then and went on a 20 buyin downer which I've just started recovering from. Still, I feel like I'm playing a lot better than I did in February, just need to refocus and get more volume in when I'm back from Korea and will hopefully still be able to make a 6fig year when rakeback is factored in. Yearly EV winrates at 200 and 100nl are both around 5bb/100 with almost 200k hands combined now so I'm feeling pretty good about continuing playing at those stakes and making some good money without a great deal of variance. I'll prob try and jump into 500nl games at times, particularly if there's a lot of 1 tablers or known fish, but since I'm not going for SNE anymore I won't force myself to play there much.
Next month I just plan to enjoy Korea, get in a good amount of poker when I'm back but not force myself to play too much or even at all if I'm not in the mood. Basically just to play when I feel like it and get in a reasonable amount of volume without going crazy I guess.
So this morning some stupid fuck decided it was a good idea to rob some people at gun point. The cops were combing the area around my house for the last 2-3hours. Figured he was long gone, but I hear my dogs going fucking insane and I poke my head out the window to tell them to chill out and I see a man fitting the description climbing over my fence, my wife and kids are in the house so I picked up a stick I used to prop the sliding glass door and charge him, before he even touches the ground into my yard my dogs Asha and Kiera are all over his ass just fucking him up, he manages to throw himself over to the other side of the fence before I got to him, so I ran out to the street and flagged down the cops passing by and he was caught a few moments later. I'm so proud of my puppies for protecting my family.
Back after 2 years and looking for sm orientationby ytricky, March 27
So after a 2 year break i decided to start playing poker again, but i feel a little lost.
If some of you could answer these questions that would be great. I quit some month after black friday and havent kept up with poker development. I want to start playing NL Holdem again. So here goes
1. I started playing some hands on Unibet(Microgaming) to try to get into things again and noticed alot of anonymous tables. Is this the case on all networks nowadays? Also would you consider them fishy or is it just a bunch of regs on them who dont notice there are no fish?
2. What are the good training sites today (recommendation for series/videos would be great). Any new books, that are a must read?
3. Has the play style for NLHE changed much? Any super important paradigm shifts one should know about? Also have the games gotten much harder? Also if you had to give a recommendation for a starting point for someone who played 100nl with shots on 200nl two years ago, what would it be?
4. I am interested in playing zoom on pokerstars. How would difficult would you consider the level right now? Is it similar to how rushpoker was after it stabilized? Also is there any good deal for signing up with pokerstars besides the 600$ thing? A training site promo or something?
5. Lastly are there any major things, that have happened in the last two years of poker history, that one should absolutely know about?
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