I need some advice plz... relationship stuff =/by sodarage, March 22
So I've been with this site forever. I just made this account because I forgot the password to my other account and I'm pretty sure it is linked to my deactivated school account.
Anyway I want to get this whole thing off my chest and out my mind by posting about it. Please give me advice from your own personal experiences if you can... thanks.
So... my first love and my other firsts(yeahyeahyeah). The relationship lasted a bit over two years (our third and fourth year of college plus the next 6 months long distance). We did the whole planning out our future thing with each other which would have us spending five years long distance (sucks but we thought we were meant to be... as all couples do) before getting back together. I thought the long distance was going fine, she was busy with her job and I was busy with my own applications and stuff, but then she started becoming non responsive. I called her out on it and she asked if we could take a break. I said break = breakup so she asked if she could take that back. I said yes but the day after that I initiated the breakup because you don't just ask someone for a break for no reason. She had to have been wanting to see other people or was already cheating, right? So we broke up. Even though we broke up mutually, it feels like she broke up with me.
Anyway, She said she still loved me and if we ended up single in the same area when we're 30 we can give it another chance. I agreed because she's the one... right? So she wanted to keep talking as if we were friends in the meantime because that's how we got along together. We were friends. Honestly I wanted to keep talking to her too, but it hurt talking to her so I blocked her on FB and told her I wouldn't talk to her until I was ready.
I got through two months without talking to her until she texted me one day asking talk. I thought I was fine so I called. We spent the next three days talking just like when we were together, but we acknowledged we were single and hoped each other found someone else since we were each other's last resort... kinda. She told me she already slept with a coworker but it was a rebound. It shocked me since we literally just broke up, but we're both single now so whatever. However, it seemed like she was moving on while I'm stuck still thinking about her so I cut contact with her again.
So this is my current situation. Have any of you kept contact with an ex? How long should I not contact her for? Couple week/months/forever? I'd like some advice please.
Ryan Gosling article hinting at happinessby mnj, March 21
Thought Gosling is more insightful than it I thought and might have a point. But at the same time it comes off as very risky to say these kind of things especially publicly.
I'm currently selling MTGO "event tickets" for pokerstars $1 each. Can be handy because MTGO charges taxes to customers from certain countries to deposit money on there, or if you're just a poker baller who likes MTG and wants to do some drafts or whatever
plz send me a PM here or on MTGo (my ID is TheSquanderer) and help a busto out
I normally do not have to worry about it - I leave it turned off and typically use a regular USB mouse in a sort of desktop fashion with my laptop.
Whenever I am on the go, or take laptop to work, etc, and I do not have my mouse, I have to use my mouse pad / track pad.
It is so horrible, I swear I feel homicidal mania swelling inside of me. What motivated the killers in America of all the recent horror? I am pretty sure they were just trying to type a f***ing paragraph and had to type it like 100 times because the track pad would highlight and erase everything, or jump around, etc.
I had not made a blog in awhile and thought this would be good for some flames or for sympathetic souls who also utterly despise the track pad.
My friend has a Mac book pro and it doesn't behave this way at all. Maybe it is just the HP laptop track pads. Turning it off and typing is an easy solution, except its a constant on and off switch like every other second that it makes everything "not worth it."
Just wanted to make random blog bitching about something random cause why not
This post is to discuss something I've been mindful of lately. I think it would be good if more people are mindful as well. In today's and tomorrow's world, everything you do on the internet is permanent and public record. It's prolly a good idea to adjust your way of living to take into account this fact. Whatever you share with the internet today is going to be accessible forever, once it's up it can't come back down. There are a myriad of ways, some obvious and others you wouldn't have seen coming, that what you think is a good idea to share now will come back to bite you in the ass at some point in the future.
If you have just one lapse of judgement you can't count on definitely being able to erase any trace. I think the best way to proceed in this world is to assume anything about you that gets digitally recorded is public and permanent. My personal policy will be to try to keep as little information about myself publically findable as possible, and try to be very careful about the data I do volunteer to the interwebs, have a kind of "PR game face" on so to speak. It's much better to be too paranoid and go overkill than not do enough, and on that vein I'm gonna post on lp anonymously from now, with an account that cannot be tied to my real identity. Better would be to not post anything at all to forums/facebook/twitter/whatever else, but there are clear upsides to taking part in these activities as well.
Thought this is worth a share since if you look on youtube, blogs, facebooks today, there seem to be a heck of a lot of people who seem to very much NOT be mindful of the possible future rammifications of what they're doing on the internet today.
Before I get into this post I just wanted to make sure you guys knew to add me on facebook. I'm trying to create a bit of an atmosphere there and build towards launching my website that is about to come together at some point or another. You guys are mostly poker players, you should know, we can be a lazy bunch when it comes to this kind of thing. It's still in the works though, just takes some time. Anyways my point was, add me on facebook ....facebook.com/peter.jennings.944
Anyways, on to the post:
It's not something I've done a ton of talking about in this blog in general because I would like to be the type of person who doesn't focus much on the negative and who perpetuates positive beliefs and positive thoughts.
I'm in the middle of the biggest downswing of my life right now though. I can't be exact because I really don't even know what my actual net worth is. Money is spread out too far among too many different places and people for me to figure that out. I would guess this downswing has fallen roughly near the 60k mark though over the last 5 weeks.
My life has been a lot better since the start of 2013. Finding that perfect balance is almost an impossibility, but I had clearly tipped too far in the direction of only playing poker and grinding to earn as much money as possible. Over the course of this year I've done everything pretty much the opposite. I have been going out or having friends by 5-6 nights a week. Usually up til 5AM, sometimes even 10AM. It's been a good change of pace, and fun.
I'm not necessarily looking to completely re-direct all of my goals back towards poker. That wouldn't be the right thing for me to do right now. What I'm gonna do is just keep living my life making the best decisions I can for each moment I have. I think this is the only sane way to live.
I assume most of you guys reading this blog regularly are pros so you should be able to relate with what I'm going through. Obviously I can't claim to be on the level of these world beating players who win and lose half a mil a day, but I really can't remember too many people lately blogging about being on a 60k downswing over the course of 5 weeks.
I do remember Sauce wrote a pretty insightful blog post a while back about his biggest downer and how he began to question whether he was even ever a winning player. If someone at that level of the game can feel that way, you gotta realize that it happens to all of us. The amount of money isn't really what we are getting at here though, it's all a matter of degree. How big of a portion of your bankroll was the loss? How far down in stakes do you have to drop in order to get back to the position you were previously at? How long do you need to stay there until you will feel comfortable stepping back up?
Personally, I talk to quite a few of the guys I play with on a regular basis. I would say we have a mutual respect for one another. That type of thing definitely helps a ton. Nothing is easier than to think you are a terrible player and that you can't possibly win no matter what you do when EVERYTHING is going wrong. Having some other people around who have been in thoat same spot and can relate to what you are going through while having the intellect to be able to connect with you that you actually are a smart winning player is something that just helps a ton.
Regardless, this is the type of thing that will make or break you as a pro. How well do you handle your downswings? Can you stick with it and keep a level head despite losing day after day buy in after buy in? Those who can continue to make the right decisions and realize the results are merely an afterthought are the ones who survive in this world. I know because I've been doing it for almost 7 years now.
This is as much a reminder to myself as it is to any of you guys out there who I'm sure struggle with the same thing. How strong is your will? Can you continue to believe in yourself when nothing goes your way, when you just got sucked out on for the 6th time straight this session, when the same thing has happened the last 15 sessions you've played? When you just mistakenly bluffed off a stack in a stupid way because you were frustrated about a number of bad beats? When you can do that and not lose your mind, you'll know you've made it.
Anyways, on a side note. I made like 6 cardrunners on the go HH review videos. Each about 5-7 minutes in length. Hope you guys enjoy those.
It's been quite a while since I felt I really needed to drop down below 5/10 but I guess this might be the time to do it.
So i guess ive either fallen out of touch with some poker players along the way, or else they have moved on from poker (guys like nolan and rockman). I'm sure i used to have more poker people on msn too but i dunno what happened, because i sure dont have many now. Probably due to me not really playing much poker in 2011,2012 after failing miserably to learn PLO (hah). So anyway been playing alot more poker lately (NL obviously), was putting in most of my hands at 200 zoom, but lately have been down at 100 alot, and so obviously id love to have more poker guys on my skype to chat. This was by far the best thing for my game back in the days when i was doing well (in 2010 when i made SNE and playing 200-600nl mostly). I clearly now suck hard from not playing and am rusty as shit, but id love to get back into it and fix my game up again. So if anyone who plays 100nl up wants to add me on skype to talk poker, or just to berate me about being an aussie, wrestling crocs and riding kangaroos (nolan & gawdawaful) then send me a PM and ill give you my details.
Tonights thread saver comes courtesy of my girlfriend watching a rerun episode of the OC a few days ago, hah + Show Spoiler +
I have watched porn for ~ 13 years now and recently i have noticed a sigificant increase in acted "rape" porn.
I think in the first 10 years of watching porn i have never seen a "rape" porn
I havent really watched one to the end till today since i am completely and utterly turned off and find it absolutely disgusting.
But fact is recently the chance you come across one of those is pretty high.
The last 6 months alone i came across 4 of those movies without even searching for them.
Even big companies like Brazzers and Asstraffic and stuff seem to make them nowadays.
WTF is wrong with people ?
WTF are those pornstars both male and females thinking when they agree to act in such a porn film ?
Wtf is wrong with people to wank of seeing 2 males break into a house and brutally raping a girl there.
These movies suggest to wired and sick minds that it is a fun and pleassure experience to break in someones house and rape him.
Most of the movies suggest its fun for the girl , too since first she resists and punches and stuff and then after a while of getting fucked in the ass hard enough she starts to enjoy ...
Once more i am completely disgusted by humans and their willingness to do everything for money.
I bet 5 out of 10 people would agree to rape a 4year old child in the ass for 150.000$ if they are save of not getting caught.
This makes me sick.
Well there is nothing i can change about it
And thats just the way humans are.
Still i had to write this since i have a shitload of anger towards
a) pornstars who agree to play in this movies
b) Guys who wank of to rape movies.
c) Guys who actually do this stuff in real life
can we play poker online in the usa yet?by asdf2000, March 19
like on stars or FTP?
a couple states are supposed to be legal to play online right? how does that work? I want a way to make more money than I just make from my jerb (could go to the casino but it wouldn't be as efficient cuz it could only be weekends)
The one time I decide to hold a position over the weekend, this fucking bullshit happens. Now I'm down 30 pips from my entry. Was up 150 on Friday. Should've taken profit, but I am trying to hold my positions rather scalp. (eur/usd)
I know many of You invest in the stocks and bonds market. Do You know of any good websites with analysis of corporate bonds (their valuation, risk etc.)?
Also, do You know of any good websites to manage bonds or stocks portfolio?
I am writing a masters thesis about the valuation of bonds and since the polish bond market is very young there is lack of resources to learn.
Thanks in advance!
how much does it take before you call someone out? I would like you to use for example.. Your girlfriend.. somebody at the bar.. Somebody you work with.. Or someone you just happened to run into randomly and hang out with all night.. doesn't matter if u catch my drift lol
Hey, I'm trying to get SNG wizard but my paypal and Neteller accounts are being annoying since I haven't used them in a while (9 months).
Running out of patience and I was wondering if anybody here had a license lying around since you get two when you buy wiz.
If not, is there anyone here that is willing to buy wiz ($100) for me and I'll throw in 25 bucks for the trouble.
Looking for a stake EV+ offerby GosuRage, March 14
Hi guys
Im on LP from 2years.
Some of you know me, some of you not
First of all i want to say that my posts counter was deleted and i dont know why.
I send request to lp and got answer from Joy but he dont know why it happen... but nevermind propably some bug on page.
Ok so why i need stake?
I cashout big amount of my bankroll for a personal reason (health problems in my family) and now i face a moment where i schould
go back on n10 :/
I wont grindind low stakes again thats why i need help.
I think its a good deal for me and other side because im a good, solid player so i think my offer is ev++
Ok so about stake.
-need 2000$ - 40bi on nl50
-Playing 4tables zoom
-stake is for 100k hands there is option to add another 100k if i dont make a good profit and still cant play this stakes at my own
(of course its decision of investor)
-If something go wrong i move down, 1500$ go to nl25 to rebuild roll
-Profit / rakeback is 50/50 for me/investor
-Rakeback - can take cash rewards or play satelites to storm (investor decision)
-everyday raling in my blog
-If i dont make profit rakeback - 100% goes to cover this lose
I've been thinking. We as a race are so pathetic in our very own primal nature. Its like evolution has passed inbetween us. There has been nothing inovative in our way of thinking in the past 3000 years. Only thing thats changed is technology and we've learned to adapt to it. And when it comes to ruining things and destroying we are the absolute champions of the universe. The devestating power of a black hole is nothing compared to a human brain. Its us that create systems that control us such as economics and its become so strong that it can now never be erased from our existance.. it can only evolve and when its threatened it would create a war so it can fuel itself. We r so fucked in the head that we somehow think living in a society where 2 billions of people are divided in groups of people who have food and swim in wealth while the 2x larger population dies in poverty is fine. The human is on top of the pyramid ... said the human. Mercantilism and cosumation have become morals. Spend more means you can impress the society more. Quality ? Please thats jsut a term used by the marketing which is another definition of something unnecessarily expensive. Dont even get me wrong im not some kind of poor kid that dreams for an iphone. I am a part of that ill society. A society which strives for happiness as it shits on everyone else ... as anyone unable to fight within, to serve his purpose is left outside of it as a dog with 3 legs. Why do I ... why do YOU deserve what you have. Yeah i bet you have learned some kind of specific skills over the timecourse of your life which you think justify the things you have, which would justify your need to run over anything that doesnt impress u in some way, which would justify your morals, your goals, unless karma and bhudism are actually real and in your next life you are a nigger in an african village that waits on UNICEF provisions.
Whats even more fucked up is that this is the only way through human history we have found to work for us to even exist. God bless Lincoln for freeing the slaves... there are no slaves at all in our days. Most of the countries live in a democratic background. If you dont live in such country, dont worry USA will bring it to you. And dont worry when the USA gets weaker someone else will do that instead of them. Its not like most people only work so they could pay their taxes,bills food, buy some clothes and new technology that feeds their happiness and self-esteem ... and thats within those 2 billions.
How do you wake up with positivism in this world? Im madly envious of such people that find the right reasons to do so. Why are you better than the one chinese kid that just died of starvation and exhaustion while you read this sentance ? How can one even whine about anything anywhere, be disappointed by troubles in work, be depressed cause of unshared love, even by a serious health problem ?
As i've kept learning more about the way our world works i've only kept hating it more. Call it extreme morals or whatever.... I just dont see a flaw in my logic which is even more disappointing
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