Well the question is... am I cured or am I degenerate for life? Only time will tell I suppose. I have been grinding it up the last few weeks starting at 200$ playing 15$ sngs ran that up to 1.2k played 50nl and 15/27$ sngs up to 3.7k... I hired Ket on as my bankroll advisor and he tells me to start 100nl and move down if i hit 3.2k so thats the plan starting tomorrow. Lets see if I can beat degeneracy once and for all!
finally crushing 100nl ageeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen. feels so sweet. one leak i have always had was trying to get value out of position the wrong way, which really caused me to go on monkeyrage when the turn/river fucked up my hand. i also feared not getting any action way too much, and finally fear of losing once i win some/ lose some. i cashed out some to pay for shit in full. now im just playing solid and making people fold when i sense weakness and just follow my reads more than before and not cry too much about it. now i also focus on my winrate more, nothing else matters but that if one wants long term profitability in today's seemingly tougher games. and im not posting graphs or stats anymore, unless of course after a month long thing so that it actually means something. and finally i dont care that much about poker anymore. its just something that gives me the power to buy shit i really dont need lol. wish you guys well and goodluck at the tables yo. peace.
I made rather a rushed blog post last night and Pav left me a rather long comment about how I don't have my priorities right.
I believe the comment in my blog he took offense to was "I told you I'd be playing poker instead of studying for my tests"
This was a rather flippant comment and also somewhat untrue, as I had spent the day studying at university before playing poker. The tests begin in 2 weeks time.
I'd also like to point out that I am a full time student studying my third year of electrical engineering, which is certainly not the easiest subject in the world. Without discipline, I doubt I'd have made it this far through my degree already. I certainly do not believe poker is the only option to succeed in life, I find such beliefs laughable.
I'd like to mention the results I got for my last year of study, which put me in the top 15% of all students at my university. I don't wish to brag, but I feel these statistics illustrate my point more clearly than a simple explanation.
These were all full year courses:
Calculus and Algebra: A
Engineering Statistics: A+
Circuits and Systems: B+
Principles of Electronics: B+
Electrical Systems: A
Computers and Modeling: A-
Design and Management: Pass (this course had only a pass/fail grade.)
Poker is, for some reason, the game of leisure among my classmates, and we often get together for a friendly game on Saturday nights. Many of my classmates also use PokerStars, and/or have joined the club "PokerSoc". The amount of poker I actually play is fairly small compared to others on this site. I may have played at most 60k hands in my lifetime on PokerStars. This may answer domyouji and Exhilarate's questions as to why I have so few FPPs. I didn't play many hands and got very lucky!
On a rather lighter matter, I recently found out that two of the people in my class are my cousins. What are the chances?
The last 10 days have gone pretty badly, though I didn't play for like 5 of them. I had about 3 days of hell and then the last 2 went pretty well. Not fantastic, but well. Doing NL50 again till around 2.5K or I am playing well and feel like taking a shot. Took a shot the other day while running godly but the heater ended when I moved up and I lost half a buyin @ NL100. Still on track to recovery though so that's good. And NL50 is pretty easy. Can't believe I become such a chump whenever I'm playing NL100. I swear I make the stupidest mistakes up there lately. Gotta get back into the groove and then move back up and play WINNING poker, not this spewy tilty shit I've done lately. I took a few bad beats and let it get to me. Not smart.
Graphs over last 10 days Dark green is Actual Winnings, light green is expected winnings
NL100: + Show Spoiler +
I'm exercising a lot more and waking up earlier. I used to think 11am was really early... I'd usually get up around noon or 1pm. My GF has to be at work @ 10am, so she always gets up before me, and I started feeling like a real bum because of that. I decided I needed to start getting up earlier cause my days felt wayyyy too short and with this beautiful summer weather I was missing out on too much. Plus it's so nice outside, I just felt like I was a real bum for sitting in front of a computer all day, avoiding the fresh air and sunlight. And if I get up early I can walk with her when she's going to work and then split off to do my own walk in this nice park near our house.
I've slowly started getting up an hour earlier each day and today hit 8:30am. I've started going out on a walk every morning in the park, which is nice on a few levels. First I try and speedwalk it to get the heart going (I hate running, weak lungs beaten down by weed/cigs over the years kick my ass anytime I run), then I do pushups at a nice spot, so it becomes a nice exercise experience. Second, it's a pretty park and I get to be out in the fresh air, sunlight and grass and trees and river and all that shit. It's a pleasant change. I'm aiming to do at least 100 pushups and 100 situps a day, which I know isn't very much but it's a great start from 0 anything for months. When I played football in High School our coach challenged us to do the "100 club" where we would do 100 pushups and 100 situps every day of the season. I took it on and when you put that on top of the running around in practice and required days in the weight room, man, that was the best shape I was in of my entire life. So I'm starting small. When I first started doing pushups again 10 in 1 set was hard, and 20 nearly impossible. Now I'm up to 60 in one set and the first 40 I can do very quickly without much trouble.
Oh, and food. That's my big problem. After moving back to the USA from India I became a bit of a glutton. There were so many things I missed eating that I just went to town in the eating department for several months. Got into some bad habits. When I first came back from India I couldn't finish an entire chipotle burrito. Serving sizes in India are tiny and the food is much lighter, so my stomach was much smaller. That chipotle burrito was just way too much. About half of it and I was too full for another bite. Now I chow that down without a problem and could still have a desert on top of it. My stomach is totally stretched out compared to how it used to be, and that is not a good thing.
So I've cut all my serving sizes in half. It's a bit shitty at times cause I will want to keep eating, but I don't NEED it. That's what I'm realizing. So if I'd normally have 2 pieces of chicken, a big serving of mashed potatoes and a muffin for lunch, now I have 1 piece of chicken, half the potatoes, half a muffin and I throw in a salad. I never got so full that I can't move anymore, which I think is a good thing. Sometimes I still feel hungry but not to any point where I need food. I think that if I can keep the veggies mixed in and cut the amount I eat in half while keeping up on the exercise I will be on track to being in good shape again.
Life outside of poker is definitely going well. I think that's helping me to do better at poker. I think if I focus solely on poker I start getting tilty cause I am not as driven - I get lethargic, bored, and impatient. I start focusing on the money and not playing perfect poker. When I play with the only thought in my mind being "Play perfect poker" I do my best. When I'm thinking "Win 3 buyins" I do horrible. And when I'm only focused on poker and neglecting everything else the other things in my life start going bad, which makes me feel shitty on top of being lethargic so I get even more tilty. It's weird cause I keep thinking "I need to play poker and make some money before I can worry about ______ (the blank is usually things like fun, relationship, exercise, eating right, cleaning up, doing errands, so on)." So I play lots of poker but since I'm playing so much I start playing worse, and since I'm neglecting stuff I feel bad about the rest of my life and play even worse, and then things outside of poker get worse but I don't deal with it cause I can't fix it untill I do well in poker... but I keep doing worse in poker and OMG, the cycle keeps going and next thing I know I've tilted off 15 buyins and I want to quit poker forever and give up on life. haha. Wow, it's weird to realize that.
This means that I have to remember to take care of the other parts of my life and it will translate into better poker play! YES! SECRET TO SUCCESS REVEALED!
Wow, what a ranting, rambling post. This was a total braindump. I had no idea what I was gonna write beyond the first paragraph, it all just flowed out and revelations were made. We discovered em together. Hope you guys enjoyed. And like alwyas, please leave a comment on your way out =)
I havent updated in a while because Im lazy and I have been really busy. Havent played much at all during may, mostly because of school but I also havent really felt like playing and I dont want to play unless I really feel like it because I tend to play really bad otherwise.
Anyways, logged some hands today and Im still completely in love with weekends. I managed to find two pretty bad players who bought in full and rebought when losing and I put both of them on massive monkey tilt resulting in some good results and a solid winrate.
Finished my monster block of work yesterday. I don't think I've ever worked so hard in my life. Literally 9am-1am for about a week so I had my architecture presentation ready as well as a big fuck off piece of multistorey office tower design ready to hand in. I've still got a lot to do with a couple of exams coming up, but at least it means I can get back on the tables.
Had my first proper session this morning. Lost 2 buyins both with AA in like 10 minutes but ended up a buyin up. Also used some of my current winnings to buy PT3, so I don't expect to be moving up to NL25 as soon as I would have hoped.
In the last 2 weeks I dropped out 8 buyins because situations like below, and I'm starting to think that I can't play or win anymore. I'm building up splowly my stack from the maximum buyin then after and hour or so a sortstack comes and sucks out. WAT?! Every single fuckin time...
Submitted by : znb
Hand #53365055-5513 at Pleasant Beach (No Limit Hold'em)
Started at 17/May/08 08:04:09
Saran is at seat 2 with $16.92 joegats916 is at seat 3 with $6.58 gallon123 is at seat 4 with $8.29 Hero is at seat 5 with $33 darktrick is at seat 8 with $8.02 phantom78 is at seat 9 with $26.12 (sitting out) The button is at seat 5 darktrick posts the small blind of $.10 Saran posts the big blind of $.25
Showdown joegats916 shows joegats916 has : a pair of aces Hero mucks cards (Hero has .)
Summary $.56 is raked from a pot of $14.36 joegats916 wins $13.80 with a pair of aces
Only read on villain is that he called me with KQo when I put him allin with AdKd on the button.
Any chance that I could avoid those situations? I mean I can understand that suckout happens, but god, I'm raising so big pre to fold those rag hands ffs.
NL50 is going great! I had some swings, but generally, all's good! 6max is really fun, i enjoy playing. I don't think any of the regulars has an edge on me. My roll is very healthy, and soon i'll be taking my 1st shot @ NL100. Just a few more buyins...
Pics or it didnt happen obv:
I gave one of my friend 50 bucks to play NL2 as a stake 2 days ago. That worked out well too, he's @ 180$ now, so some cash will flow back to me in few days
ADVICE pls!
I want to buy a new monitor. I have some options:
- cash out ~350 to buy a 22" HansG /generally Samsung, but in a different name/
- buy a 22" Samsung from the FPP store for 40k FPP
- buy cash bonuses from FPP, then cash out
after living a lifestyle i couldnt afford i almost busted my roll, also had to pay for my driving license ~1200€
so i want to ask for stake to come back fast and hopefully help someone to make money out of me aswell, because i never got a real stake for cashgame i dunno how the deals works so u can tell me the percentages, time,stakes,etc.
Ok, so some of you may remember me, some won't but that's not really the point. I used to play on poker stars up to NL50 fr...That was when i was 16, I was very irresponsible with my money and was very tilt prone. I have not played for over a year and a half and would like to make a comeback. I am now 18 and think that i have matured quite a lot over the last year and a half. I am going off to college in August and would also try to make a little money on the side playing poker. I will have a job in the summer but would like to play a little before I go to bed and what not. So, the other day I pulled out my VISA debit card and tried to deposit...it was declined for some reason (financial institution would not support my deposit or something?)...Then, i asked my older sister if i could use her credit card to deposit 50 bucks and i'd give her the cash...Her card was also declined. This gives me a problem haha...how do i get money onto stars? Is it worth to ask someone on here for 15 bucks? Should i try to build up the play money to 1 million? Idk but would like to start playing as soon as possible...
poker goals for the 2nd half of the year.by whamm!, May 16
work on my game more and avoid being too weaktight/nitty
be at least a 200nl FR reg (at least, and its really easy)
cashout 10% of my br monthly
enjoy the fuck out of life
try not to take poker too seriously coz i know for a fact i cant rely on this forever, and it wont teach me shit about making money in the real world
try to make poker money some sort of a hobby/project/atm for living expenses and impractical shit hehe
finally get into business before the year ends or at least get my idea started
poker is at its best for me also atm, no graphs or stats n shit. i just feel happy about life in general.
hope you guys feel as happy as i am right now. peace out.
i know that if i delete one of my drivers, upon installation it will automatically reinstall, which is pretty col. i was wondering if there is a way to do an easy system wipe, where i basically restore my computer to factory settings. any way to do this anyone?
ALSO does anyone have an HP monitor, and if so are they reliable and good? i am considering buying a 30 inch HP monitor since its like 900 all in all.
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I guess I'll have to stop pestering you guys with blog posts every $100 now XD
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