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RiKD    United States. Aug 21 2019 07:09. Posts 5607
I think we all know by now these updates are more for me than for you but I have been told that people are interested in the happenings of my life so I keep on truckin'.

I'm coming off a painting high. I pushed myself a bit today. I am getting out of my comfort zone and taking on some challenging pieces a bit outside my skill level. One ended up alright although it is unfinished. I may leave it unfinished. For me painting is paradise. I've started to not give a fuck about painting nudes. I'll cover the house with them. That's just what I'm interested in painting at the moment.

I finally set up my drum set today. It's pretty cool. I just do quaint little drum solos through out the day. I don't really know what I'm doing but I pick up tidbits here and there by watching YouTube videos.

It's all about challenges in line with skills. I feel like both in painting and drums I need some lessons to pick up my skills to the next level of challenges. Or, just like brute force it somehow. I know that studying Rouault, Basqiuat, Picasso, Matisse has definitely brought my painting game up. I am doing the same with drumming. There are certain aspects of technique in both that I am missing that I think would be easy improvements by seeing a teacher. It's just a matter of if I have the time and money to do so and if there are any worthwhile teachers local.

I'm listening to a mix I made during my last mania. It is pretty interesting. Some peculiar duds in there but overall it's pretty fucking lit.

I am just obsessed with nudes though. The female form is so fucking amazing. To express that through painting is liberating. It's paradise. FREEDOM! I can paint whatever I want. Use any colors I want. Do whatever the fuck I want. There are not many areas of life where that is true. In fact, I want to be painting right now but what I want to paint I don't have the skills and it is frustrating.

I am a caterpillar inching forward. A snail. ¡Lento pero avanzo!





I am looking for the afterglow. The afterglow of painting. The afterglow of MDMA. The afterglow of sex. It's weird now that I have been painting so many nudes I look at women not for sex or erotica but if they would be interesting to paint nude. That's really fucking weird actually. Painting for me might be better than sex. I am unsure if it is better than a good night on MDMA though. Sometimes I get thoughts of bucking the trend of good ole AA and just start frequenting some good, clean Molly. I thought the world was conspiring against me the other night. I saw a really good advertisement for red wine and then in the car "Marijuana" by Chrome Sparks came on the mix. Probably best to just stay clean and sober from all substances......

Like my girl Sia:



Hero. She's been clean and sober for like 9 years and rescues dogs (and people). Her Higher Power is "Whatever Dude." A queer, surfing Santa Claus that kind of resembles her grandfather. I would ask her to be my sponsor if she was local. I don't even have a sponsor....

But, I gotta live my life:



Even though I'm an underdog:



The Ghost of Avicii! SUPERLOVE:



I think when I was a freshman in college I was probably a favorite. Privileged white boy from the suburbs going to the best state school in the state. That's not like Ivy league privelege but it's pretty privileged. Now, going through a drinking problem progression and having a mental illness it just feels like I am an underdog. An underdog not to be underestimated whatever that means. Actually, it doesn't matter. I'm just doing my best man. SUPERLOVE for the earth and it's children/citizens.

Let's Go!



GIVE



Did I leave my life to chance or did I make you fucking dance:



DID I LEAVE MY LIFE TO CHANCE OR DID I MAKE YOU FUCKING DANCE:



You've been drinking like the world's about to end (It is):



This is someone I need to paint nude. Dios mio:



Gimme Some More:



A Small Measure of Peace:



That's what I have when painting and curating some music for ya'll. Maybe that is all I can ask for. A small measure of peace. Feelings are merely visitors. We will have good times and bad times and some hard times too. Buddhist monks and blues singers have a lot of wisdom. So, despite everything we go on. Unless we don't want to. But, death is so terribly final. Formidable. Is that English or French? I choose to go on. Thank you for allowing me to post all these blogs. I have been granted a small measure of peace. There is no telling what tomorrow will bring. So let's have fun!

It's about 2am here. ABSOLUTE MUST LISTENING PAST MIDNIGHT RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!11111!!!!!!!!!!

Smoke a volcano and chill and ABSOLUTE MUST LISTENING IN LIFE!!!!!

-w0lzD565uq&pbjreload=10

I will leave it at that ya'll. Have fun. Find peace. Eat pussy. Live your Life. Joy is the goal.

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Baalim   Mexico. Aug 22 2019 06:13. Posts 32959

you seem much happier now enjoying stuff, good for you

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RiKD    United States. Aug 22 2019 18:29. Posts 5607

Feelings are just visitors. But, yes, when I am painting, playing the drums, and curating music I am typically doing pretty well. I am looking to fill up my days with activities like this. It's not good to have shitty work and shitty free time. It's one thing to slovenly make pizzas versus really putting care and attention to each one but still being able to laugh a little bit inside if they come out flawed. "Wabi sabi." It's too much pressure to make perfect pizzas every time and an impossible goal but if I give them my care and attention that's all that really matters. But, that's even fucking hard to do over the course of 20-40 pizzas so I just have to do my best and make sure to not have shitty free time. It's the pits having to go from making 20-40 pizzas and doing all the cleaning up and everything to shitty free time. So, I am trying to challenge myself at work and challenge myself in my free time. I would race cars if I could. Fuck a young Lisa Bonet if I could. But, those are not the most realistic. Well, the ladder is impossible. I would wager I am too broke for the former at the moment. So, I do what I can.


RiKD    United States. Aug 22 2019 21:36. Posts 5607

Crucial. Thank you sk p.


Baalim   Mexico. Aug 22 2019 22:00. Posts 32959

you can buy an used kart

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RiKD    United States. Aug 23 2019 04:12. Posts 5607

Like a go-kart?

I want to go 150mph not 50 mph. Although actually going 50mph through tight winding roads is pretty fucking fun. There was this hill and turn by my house I used to take at 50mph and it was scarier than going 130mph on the highway.


RiKD    United States. Aug 23 2019 05:54. Posts 5607



Primetime of our lives
Now
Do it

I want to race fucking cars and if I can't fuck Lisa Bonet I would at least like a sexual relationship with someone suited for me. Probably not wise to force either of the two. Those are just the two that came to mind earlier.

Drifting away like a feather in air:



Open your eyes to Open Mike Eagle:



LOL



Little by little we can make it to where we want to go. Even when we "get there" the existential weight is still a thing. It never leaves us. Fear of death, fear of life. Let's replace the fear of life with love.



It's never too late to be who you want to be, to say what you want to say. It's never too late to leave if you want to leave to stay if you want to stay:



This is just one to get krunk to:



Old School NIN:



Precursor to Closer.

I wonder if fucking Rihanna is so close to zero it might as well be zero. Going all math nerd on ya'll. I'm sure mathematics make Rihanna wet.

My manias are always connected in some way. They carryover in some ways. I become stronger, better, harder. It's all a sculpture. Knocking away the pieces my core doesn't need. A caterpillar into a butterfly. Float in these great times!





My last tattoo was great. The artist was amazing. She played Outkast "ATLiens" unknowing that that is one of my favorite albums of all time. Unbelievable vibes. It's hard to relive shit like that man. Trying to chase that feeling man. I don't know if I'll ever get another tattoo but it is likely that I will.

Feelings are visitors. Do I chase the feelings? That seems like a recipe for discontent. I LOVE the feelings though. Not the bad of course. Although sometimes sitting contently in a really bad depression is a thing. Laying in bed staring at the wall listening to this:



I'd rather paint and listen to this:



¡MUSIC!:



I regret never getting ridiculously blazed and going to a Dave concert back in high school. No way they can still perform like that.

I am mostly a caterpillar and sometimes a butterfly.


Baalim   Mexico. Aug 24 2019 08:30. Posts 32959


  On August 23 2019 03:12 RiKD wrote:
Like a go-kart?

I want to go 150mph not 50 mph. Although actually going 50mph through tight winding roads is pretty fucking fun. There was this hill and turn by my house I used to take at 50mph and it was scarier than going 130mph on the highway.



private GoKarts are nothing like your average shitty rentals, they are very fast.

I bought a 125cc 6 speed shifter kart and it can reach120mph and it will curb stomp a Lambo in the track.


Random vid of a shifter:


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Raidern   Brasil. Aug 24 2019 15:07. Posts 4220

i drove a rental kart once and it felt awesome. I never thought i'd like it that much but it was a great experience. and it definitely was one of the shitty rentals you mentioned lol.

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RiKD    United States. Aug 25 2019 19:19. Posts 5607

I don't have $5k+ to put down on a kart. Then there are all the other stuff like helmet, jacket, gloves, neck roll, etc. Not to mention the spare parts and the fact that I am not a mechanic. Not to mention I have no idea if there is a track nearby. It's just a fantasy at this point. I was transfixed by that video though. It would be a reason to make more money but then I would have to work more at a conceivably more stressful job. My job actually is pretty stressful but the nice thing is I can leave and leave it all behind for the most part.

Anyone want any paintings? Paintings for 125cc karts? Oh that's another thing. I don't know how to drive stick......


RiKD    United States. Aug 28 2019 21:50. Posts 5607

What do I do when painting doesn't bring paradise?

I'm not burnt out on the female form but I am burnt out on painting it. They all turn out the same'ish and my last one I made all sorts of mistakes and I don't like it. Argggghhhhhhhhhhh. I'm in real existential turmoil here.

My last painting I wanted to use a lot of bright, "hot" colors. I painted the woman crimson. She just looks like an anatomy chart of sinewy muscle. It's a Buddhist reminder. I accidentally painted over one of her nipples and then painted over one of her arms. Hah. There all the damn same. Some have bigger breasts, bigger hips, carrying more body fat or not what's the difference? With my paintings the coloring makes the difference. In real life a woman's being (soul) make the difference. Of course, there are certain proportions that are particularly appealing but to a point it doesn't matter. There are particular proportions that are unappealing. Not many people want a largely obese woman. At least I don't. I'm sick of painting model level women. I want to paint "normal" women.


Spitfiree   Bulgaria. Aug 28 2019 23:31. Posts 8813



have fun


RiKD    United States. Aug 28 2019 23:55. Posts 5607

That was really fucking awesome. I always said my blog needs less of me and more stuff like that.


Baalim   Mexico. Aug 29 2019 03:29. Posts 32959


  On August 25 2019 18:19 RiKD wrote:
I don't have $5k+ to put down on a kart. Then there are all the other stuff like helmet, jacket, gloves, neck roll, etc. Not to mention the spare parts and the fact that I am not a mechanic. Not to mention I have no idea if there is a track nearby. It's just a fantasy at this point. I was transfixed by that video though. It would be a reason to make more money but then I would have to work more at a conceivably more stressful job. My job actually is pretty stressful but the nice thing is I can leave and leave it all behind for the most part.

Anyone want any paintings? Paintings for 125cc karts? Oh that's another thing. I don't know how to drive stick......



I bought mine for about 2k you can fish a good deal, and don't even have to get a shifter there are cheaper options that are still fast, in fact mine is too fast for the karting track in my city can't use all the gears and an automatic would be faster.

You can get a cheap helmet for like 60 bucks, you dont need a suit and you can buy those 10 bucks mechanic gloves in autozone, knowing hot to fix stuff is important but tracks have mechanics there that help people out, thats what I do, if my kart doesnt start those guy just help me, these are niche things so people really put an effort to make you part of the community.

If its something that kind of appeals you just go to a track on a Sunday, ask around tell them that you are thinking about buying a kart but are clueless, they will give you a kart to try out most likely since everybody is selling their old karts all the time.

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RiKD    United States. Aug 29 2019 11:02. Posts 5607

It appeals to me but after a search there is only a fun park place and adventure time place not even that nearby. The closest place that I thought had promise turns out to be a horse track. Looks like I have to find something else to do for fun.


 



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