Started up the grind again on Monday. Just before Black Friday hit I decided to get a summer job for the first time in 2 years lol. I usually just grinded it out during the summers but my resume was looking a little bare and I am one year away from graduating so I ended looking for some work to beef it up a bit. The plan was to not make any withdrawals all summer and let the roll build up. When Black Friday hit I panicked like most of you guys probably did too and pulled the snap withdrawal of my entire roll just to be safe. My condolences to the pro american grinders who can not longer play. I hope things are working out for you guys. I was doing the real life grind for the first time in a while and not playing any poker at all. It was nice to not have to worry about the swings and stress that poker brings. Unfortunately I ended up getting laid off last friday from that shitty job and ended up starting the poker grind again on Monday after a 2 month hiatus.
There was no chance that I was going to put any money back on FTP. It really is terrible how they have handled things with Black Friday. The responses that they have been giving to the players has been pretty hilarious so far. http://i46.photobucket.com/albums/f132/homeboy4000/facepalm_implied.jpg
I decided to go with William Hill over on iPoker. I got a pretty sick deal and cant complain about much over there other than the software lags on my comp a bit when I get 9+ tables going but my comp is pretty shitty too so its not there fault lol. I am a full ring player so the games on iPoker run 10 handed instead of 9. The games are super tight from what I have seen so far. I have definitely turned up the aggression because of this and have been running most of the players over so far. My red line is actually nice for once lol.
I also finally started going back to the gym again at the start of May. I have been lifting 5x a week, doing a cross-fit class 2x a week, and also playing in a ball hockey league 2x a week. These cross-fit classes are exhausting. They work a lot of your core muscles and also involve a lot of cardio. They are a lot of fun too and I already know most of the people in the class since it's a pretty small gym and most of the members are around the same age as me. Ball hockey is amazing for cardio. It takes 10x more than ice hockey does since you are always running around and dont get to glide at times like you do in Ice hockey. My team is a bunch of my buddies who I grew up playing hockey with and we are doing pretty well. The league that we play is surprisingly good and some of the games get really serious lol. My city is heavily populated with Portuguese ppl so a lot of people call the league the Portuguese Stanley Cup lol. A lot of them play ball hockey since most of them didnt play Ice hockey growing up and cant skate lol. Most of them played soccer so they are used to running around a ton and some of this for sure benefits them because they can ware teams down. But not mine :D.
Well thats basically all that has been going on for me so far. Hopefully I can do well for the remaining of June and book a nice little profit. I am going to try and play atleast 30k hands before the month is over. My July is going to be very busy because I already have a lot planned.
First I am going to see The Tragically Hip on July 1st for Canada Day in Toronto. The Hip are one my favorite rock bands but I still havent seen them! So many hit songs. Great songs to drink too. We got a hotel in Toronto for that night so I am going to be getting absolutely ruined before we go. Cant wait! Should be a great night.
On the 9th Im going to an outdoor obstacle course race called the Warrior Dash. To be honest I dont know a whole lot about it. One of my buddies from school set it up and it looked pretty cool so why not. We're renting a van and making the trip. It will be nice to see all my good buddies from school since I have seen them since school ended when we all went to Cuba together. The Warrior Dash goes across all of USA too not just Canada. Check it out an see if its going to be near you if this sort of thing sounds appealing to you. http://warriordash.com/index.php http://www.crossfitmendota.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/06/warrior-dash.jpg
On the 12th I am going to see The Black Keys in London at the John Labbat Center. Another great rock band. Needless to say this will be another night of drinking and smoking joints while jamming out. I have my own place in London too since its where I go to school atm so it works out really well.
So yea... thats it folks lol. GL at the tables guys, ill ttyl! I leave you with this: Everyone meet Ray!
So I apparently managed to find the perfect workout that doesn't leave me tired but energized, found my body needs and anti-needs and how to manipulate energy and mood with influencing neurotransmitters.
Man I felt great, so great that on Sunday after gym I felt so powered up I was jumping around the flat like a superhero at 11pm without a shirt and heating, cleaning stuff and punching air for the hell of it and who knows what else, and the same the next morning. Superheroes don't need heat and shirts right?
'Surprisingly' I snap got a cold and headache, and now I am sitting here, writing a pathetic blog on my PC, on the evening of the day of my official graduation, where not only superheroes, but even the most average Joe is getting hammered.
Hey guys!
Poker is one of my main interest atm, so I would like to increase the network of poker players I have contact with. Doesnt matter the limit you play, or if you play cash games or mtt's, I think we can always add something to each other.
If you are interested in make a new poker related friend to discuss hands, sweat session, or anything, get in touch!
My facebook: http://www.facebook.com/arthuraml
Skype: arthuramlima
MSN, Gtalk & Mail: arthuraml@gmail.com
Facebook is the one I use the most and I'm almost always online there. I dont use MSN much.
So I'll be starting my new job next week and need to get my own cell phone since my current employer pays for mine. I went to a verizon store to get a feel for their offerings and noticed something strange, every single phone except the iphone was practically unusable. I was only looking at high end android devices by HTC/Samsung/LG, phones I have played with before outside of verizon's store and was quite perplexed at how utterly FUBAR these phones were behaving. Choppy frame rates, shitty scrolling, super laggy on input, homescreens a complete mess, every single possible widget running at the same time. I know customers fuck with phones all day but when compared to the iphone it seemed like they went out of their way to make non Apple devices look as crappy as possible in comparison. Has anyone else ever observed this?
Anyway gonna buy a new HTC Sensation 4G this week as soon as it's released on Tmobile. Little nervous about the ATT acquisition, but I figure by the time they begin dismantling Tmo's 4G network that I'll be due for an upgrade anyway and can safely migrate to the new network standard without wrecking my 4G functionality. The big concern for everyone is that since 4G phones have to have special receivers to operate on that part of the wireless spectrum, that ATT will change everything and basically turn every non ATT phone into a brick requiring you to renew/upgrade to get a working phone again.
HOW?Positivity during sessions by Spitfiree, June 10
How do i get out of this emotional loophole im into while im playing poker? Im not sure if i run like shit or just play bad anymore. Every time i stick my money in even as a major favorite im absolutely sure i ll lose maybe thats why im running ~40 bi below ev last 70k hands. Tried having a nice long break from poker but that didnt seem to solve my problem. Ideas ? How do you deal with the insecure periods during your huge downswings ? Share
It's after my session, I did what I had to today so I decided to write a small update on what's new.
Monitoring
I am not good at it, and I need a more structured and categorized system, but I do it daily, and at least in the evening/next day morning when I have one of my weak times I got this form for each day and put in food, time eaten and then what I did like poker/gym/exercise. You can see the bank form here: https://docs.google.com/leaf?id=0BwrEcqGbtyFKMDBlYjMzYjMtNGE4Yi00ODBhLTgwOGEtYTRkYmJkMzU5YmY3&sort=name&layout=list&num=50][/url]
There is also a planning sheet, where I have the week divided into days and slots, but I find it hard to use it right now, it's just too much fun doing what I like during the day to spoil it with rigid planning, but I will definitely have to start using it.
I write everything each day, and then do review once per week to look for patterns, what's good and what's not, when I was tired, energized, and I write down things that are good and that are not, you can see the list after a mere 1 week here: + Show Spoiler +
Good
-Sex in the morning
-Feel Good music (Tiesto, Robyn, Nightmusic) whenever
-Shadow boxing or walk or any mild excercise in the morning
-Soy Coconut drink after waking up (has quite a bit of sugar)
-Carbs throughout the morning, bananas are good
-Protein around lunch time - BCAA Pre workout, Protein shake post
Made me feel full not hungry at all later in the day"
-Gym Routine -
1) 7min warm up/stretch
2) 25 min curcuits
3) ABS/Chest/Biceps to failure
4) Pool-swim+jacuzzi, no sauna
I feel powered up yet not tired"
-Socialising with a lot of communiocation/joking.
Live informal poker works too. Socialising without active communication = much lower effect"
-Drinking water throughout the day
Bad
Fat - any form when it's more than moderate amount, even Avocado nuts and olives and fish. 100% of the time made me tired/tilt
Sauna Mid-day (TBC)
Binge before bed - whole next day was fucked
Going out without a plan - it forced me to eat junk food.
Food
In the first week it was my standard - I had about 4 hours when I actually felt good in the whole week. I binged several times, once even on vegetables - I ate so much until I felt ill, but the next morning didn't feel as bad as usual and I actually could do stuff
A great help was GGPLZ here on LP, he knows his stuff. I actually drafted two big ass PMs and they got deleted, sorry for that David.
He pointed out and I have confirmed something weird - I seem to have adverse reaction to dietary fat. Every single time I wrote down the 'brain fog' state that I often have (fatigue, fog like feeling where my eyes de-focus and it feels like I am not in my body, and I feel generally low) I have eaten more than a drizzle of dietary fat, and it happened even after eating fish and avocado and olives, or the healthy fats.
It works without fail The same reaction doesn't happen when I eat carbs, including sugar when it has low amount of fat. I did some research and there were no studies really showing a correlation between consumption of healthy fat and bad mood, but fat is what I am avoiding apart from minimal amount on stir fries and omega oil supplement in the morning, and I feel so much better on days when I manage to avoid eating fat.
I also found out I need to snap bomb myself with simple carbs in the morning to get started along with a vitamin supplement and omega oil. My GF bought some soy coconut milk with quite bit of sugar in it, and it works great to give me the kick in the morning I need.
I also eat regularly, and I have to since my monitoring sheet has columns for food and it just sucks writing down 'SKIPPED' since this is my no.1 commitment. So far it happened just once, today when I was enjoying my poker session and hand review too much (and I finished all bananas last night). After doing the review and finding about the fat as a trigger this Monday I went out of control just once when I went with my girlfriend to the city and there was this new American bistro open. One hot dog with cheese ensured that my whole afternoon was fucked up, and I followed it up with a large mocha at Starbucks, 2 double cheeseburgers and 2 fried chicken stuff and coke at McD. But the regularity is working great, and it sure does feel great to not truly binge for 4 whole days.
I also went on to follow GGPLZ's advice and loaded on fruit veg munching. Two things that I really love are mango and bananas. Local supermarket sells bananas at some £0.68 or $1/KG so they are dead cheap and a large mango costs just £.87p. I actually allow myself to eat bananas in between regular meals, as keeping blood glucose levels steady is very important for balanced mood, and bananas are also good for serotonin (see lower section).
I also try to always keep water next to my desk and drink a ton during the day. I read some literature and I am actually supposed to drink some 3L of water every day (Including that from food)
Exercise
I found a great routine that is both fun and challenging:
5 Min dressing room: think about what I want to achieve, specific exercises and imagine performing them
7 min warmup: 4 min some cardio machine, 3 min movements and stretches that mimic what I'll do in the session
20-30 Minutes: Circuits, 45s perform one, 15s break, 45s perform another one, 8-10 in total. 2 min break and go again.
The only rule is that the exercises should work large muscle groups, and include need for balance if possible. I got about 30 different things I can do from various magazines and experience, my improvisation or this workout:
This is great for weight loss, overall fitness and it's a brutal cardio. I always finish with shadow boxing with weights to show that bastard in the mirror who's boss
10 Minutes: Isolation moves into failure. This I do for fun and for that confidence boost, I usually do biceps and bench press, but I plan to add more exercises once I get bored of these two (hardly ;P). Basically you use as much weight that forces you to be unable to do 10 reps and you fail somewhere, this creates microtears in your muscles and speeds up growth.
5 minutes: ABS
5 minutes: stretching. This is well important but so easy to skip when you are exhausted. I do this in the pool sometimes, and it's always nice to go for a swim and Jacuzzi. When I don't go to the pool after session I at least use hot and cold water several times in the shower as that relaxes your muscles.
This routine doesn't fuck me up completely and gives me a good balance. I used to do 1min and 15s in the circuits but it was too much for me, so now I am hoping to just do more circuits (I can do 2 now). Doing the isolation moves and ABS after I catch my breath from the circuits also ensures that my muscles are properly warmed up and ready to pump to exhaustion.
On non-workout days I just go for a run or swim when I feel like it. On Monday I had so much energy that I couldn't stop myself but to go for a run
I also always try to do something in the morning, just 5-10 minutes to get me started. Variety is very important for me so it can be jumping jacks, sex, a brisk walk, shadow boxing, swimming etc. just something that gets wakes me up and starts my metabolism. I'd usually wake up, do the dump, put on contacts, wash my face, get some quick carb boost like the coconut soy milk or a banana and supplements and then I am onto the the small excercise before the rest of my breakfast.
Serotonin and dopamine
I did a lot of research into this, as I think lack of serotonin is one of the triggers for my overeating and compulsive behavior + Show Spoiler +
Serotonin
Is a neurotransmitter influenced by scarcity of resources, including heat warmth, material resources, but also social contact etc. It also depletes when you are losing money or do badly in poker (even when it doesn’t significantly affect us).
Decreased serotonin means the brain is telling us we need something and that our resources are getting low.
Lack of serotonin causes:
- Obsessive and compulsive tendencies
- Aggressive behaviour
- Depression and bad mood– if you are depressed often, see a therapist.
-loss of appetite, insomnia or excessive sleep, memory impairment, and changes in mood and behavior. Other symptoms include anxiety, lethargy, mania, impulsive behavior and low sex drive. Low levels of serotonin are also associated with increased cravings of carbohydrates and an increased sensitivity to pain
Ways to boost Serotonin
Try to know why you feel bad
• Diverse positive social life – longterm serotonin generation. Go see someone
• Exercise – Cardio, Variety. At least 30 mins, 3x per week will boost serotonin. Variety curbs boredom. Team sports are awesome (Social experience+exercise) Yoga – Blood Circulation and flexibility and serotonin.
• Eat complex carbs, avoid fats, supply B6 Vitamin, Bananas, Chicken
• Do what makes you happy – pampering, favourite music, time with loved ones, walk
• Warm shower in the morning and/or movement
• Sunlight
• Avoid stress, and when in stressful environment schedule time for a good book or meditation
• Force structure on your life, use meditation/heavy concentration http://www.angelfire.com/hi/TheSeer/seratonin.html
NEED BETTER MOOD/RELAXED: CARBS>PROTEIN
-complex carbs, high carb low protein increases Serotonin
NEED TO BE MORE ALERT: PROTEIN>CARBS
-High Protein low carbs boosts domamine
MINIMISE NON-OMEGA FATS IN BOTH CASES
Dopamine
Affects energy, alertness
Ways to boost
• Protein
• Time of the day – lowest in the morning and late at night
• Avoid stress
• Avoid drugs, alcohol, caffeine and sugar
• Avoid isolation (socialise)
• Almonds, avocados, bananas, dairy products, lima beans, pumpkin seeds and sesame seeds
• Exercise
Basically you need to do the things listed and find things that make you feel good/generate serotonin and schedule time for them throughout the day. Not doing this is why you see so many poker players burnout, and it can be very hard at times. Besides eating, this is my main non-poker focus.
Poker
I had one of the aha moments in last days, when thinking about this: http://www.liquidpoker.net/poker-forum/973442/Your_scripts_.html and observing my play and train of thought. Basically through the few years I played the game for fun and because I just love observing people and finding patterns I became completely detached from my own range and my own play and especially hand strength, and hand strenght is often very low in my thinking scripts and many times not even there at all.
I saw what I did and e.g. I called Q8s to a 3bet against an unknown, and got stacked with a retarded line. Or I spewed against a check minraise and showed river with total air. My immediate standard reaction is not ask myself what my play was, but thinking completely about villain, his motivation, how can I exploit him and adjust etc. My intuitive thought process starts with metagame, villain's range, his likely thought process, often my mood and only then there is space for constructing my own range and playing my hand relative strength. When this happens the whole feedback loop simply disappears, as I don't scrutinize my game, I have no standard and I only focus on villains.
I turned for help to a video a series I just glanced over previously, but that is so amazing for a guy like me. It's Amateur to Pro, and the student is Lee Davy. He was playing on the side of his job, was watching all videos out there and was a fan of Giggy.. and he was also breakeven FPS monkey. He quit his $100k+ job to play poker and write about poker, and the series is about teaching overall solid ABC game to a guy like him.
It builds on the following principles:
• Select cards pre-flop that have great postflop barrel possibilities (they have a lot of equity).
• Dominate others, and avoid being dominated (very important).
• Avoid marginal situations that make no money.
• Look in database, and if a hand is not profitable and you don’t know why, just remove it from your range until you find out why.
UTG+MP Opening ranges
Core ATs+, KQs, AJo+22+)
• Do open 22-55 in most games
• If you are struggling, cut hands to core rangeThen add baby aces, 67s-98s.
• ! LOWISH SOOTED BROADWAYS – NOT WITH REGS! Otherwise you are being dominated too much oop
CO Opening Range
Core : (ATo+,KQo+,AXs, Suited broadways, 22+)
+ Normal guys behind - Add: Broadways, 76s+=>K8s, J9s Q9s=>75s+
+ Tight guys behind – Add: AXo, 2 gappers, KXs. Suited connected=Good.
Fish behind – Broadways, high KXo. High card –good
BU Opening Range
Core: AXs+ AXo+, 65s+ K8s, Q8s, T8s, all broadways.
Combined f to st: 140+ wide, 160+100%
SB Opening Range
70% and lower overall fold to steal: 77+ AXs+, A9o+, Broadways !22-66 SHOULDN’T BE A PART OF A TIGHT RANGE!
Cold calling range
! Cut it out, 5% no higher (VPIP minus PFR)
CORE MP: Against regs, call QQ+AK v UTG, UTG+1 (and KQs, AQs, 22+) On tables with a lot of squeezing, fold 22-77
CORE CO: 22+, AJs, AQs, AQo, KQs. Avoid calling lower broadways like JTs KTs to avoid domination
If they bet fold >50% on flop, ADD: hands that connect well and have equity often: 65s-98s, AXs.
BU vs CO: against 20%+raise;
CORE: All suited broadways, ATo+, A9s+22+, if they fold add AXs, midsc
• When a guy opens AXs, add ATo, AJo
• Against people that fold to a flop raise and cbet a lot, call a lot of 78s AXs+ raise flops, then add sc and then gappers
• Look at who is in the blinds, 22-66 can be 3bet IP when people squeeze in blinds A LOT
Blinds OOP:
• V EP: Very tight range
• V LP: Sooted broadways, ATo, AJo, 22+, C/R a decent amount, add small AXs first.
V people who fold a lot : You can add AQ, AJ
• Mid SCs are not that good
• C/R OVERS+BACKDOOR. GIVE UP ON TURN UNIMPROVED.
Sizing:
UTG, UTG: 1 – 3.5
CO: 3
BU 2.5
Isolating Limpers
Size: 4-4.5 BB
IP:
Core on MP, OOP: AXs, A8o+, 77+, all broadways, T8s+, T9o+ - top pair potential and barrel potential
ADD: If they fold a 65%+ to cbet, a lot of suited hands, AXo
OOP: Tighten up
MULTIPLE LIMPERS: Slightly stronger
!22-55 AND LOW SC SHOULD BE OVERLIMPED (Unless you know they fold a lot on flop)
-You don’t have much flop potential
Fundamentals
• Select cards pre-flop that have great postflop barrel possibilities (they have a lot of equity).
• Dominate others, and avoid being dominated (very important).
• Avoid marginal situations that make no money.
• Look in database, and if a hand is not profitable and you don’t know why, just remove it from your range.
!EXCERCISE: Open villain’s range from e.g. CO, and construct a cold calling range that is good against that
!PREPARE FOR A COACHING SESSION:
• List of hands with reads
• Stats
• Feelings
• Make a journal every day/week
It's amazing that I take a ton of notes, can feel what players think, but without thinking about my own range composition and hand strength first it's like trying to build a skyscraper on muddy soil.
I disregard the advice of many, and I play 6 tables and add more when I have energy, and what I am focusing now is not new amazing concepts, not taking more notes, not high stakes videos, not how to exploit villains with creative lines, but how to play fundamental poker with the above principles, and with focusing on my thought process always starting with 'what hand do I actually have' and then the rest . I balance the potential lack of focus by off the table work, and I do a lot of it, after every session.
I also put in a small journal just for poker, where I write down mistakes, hands, advice, successes etc. and I have it always open. It's just 2 days so far but it's nice to have this and I will include it in my weekly review (Each Monday I can't touch poker, and I just to chores, go explore Edinburgh and do review of my sheets)
9 June
-I 4bet KTo v unknown 5-2.25
- I snap called a 3b with J4s and floated low cards
- I get into check call mode when scarecards hit http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909044
• AK 3b 455r v spewy midstack when I 3b : Check /Shove unless he check behind a decent amount
-I sometimes confuse ABC with playing weak, e.g. here where I should vbet turn: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909051
- I autobarrel turned draw, even when the card hits enemy range http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909065 http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909073-
Cleaner liked this one though if I shove river. I don’t think I should do it at NL25 though v unknown, people are idiots. My play was intuitive
10/6
-I tilted at the start of the session, while talking at the forums. I like to bluff unknowns, early in the session. It was impulsive, I can’t even remember calling PF and raising http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909133
ACTION: NEED PRE-SESSION ROUTINE/CHECKLIST
- I 2 barrelled with no reason
-I chickened out with a set on flush heavy board against a guy that is stationy and most likely knows I am aggro, ewww http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909157
- I checked my stats, and I play 19/15 and just 56% cbet, I should look for more cbet spots, especially with my tight ranges!
-when I have a weak TP on a super draw heavy board and an overcard comes, it’s a good time to barrel for value as most villains will raise 2p+on flop , and I get the chance to barrel river overcard: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/909158
Blog
Apparently people make some small amount of money blogging? Also a couple guys on DC said that besides some future potential income a blog is like a business card. I got loads of data and let's face it LP blog is hard to categorize and for frequent updates, so I will try to find some free time to set up a professional looking blog in the future, one that's +ev to write in my free time, and I will also use it to publish my psychology research related to poker when I have time for it, and spend a couple hours per week working updating it at least with my weekly reviews. LP blog would be too crammed and nobody would read that stuff anyway
Job
As planned I applied for some part-time jobs. I want to work 2 days per week to cover my rent and avoid compulsive grinding where I don't focus on fundamentals. I am going for nothing demanding, a couple festival jobs that include meet&greet, and some customers service, and I am trying to find a manual job outside, but I am not sure where to look for those. It would be free Serotonin, Dopamine AND money
I want to do this until at least I beat NL50 for a good winrate with a solid bankroll again, and when I do and poker hourly will be near normal job I will just do a day of volunteering every week to maintain my social skills, and to also feel good and feel like I am contributing. I am far from being there yet though.
Well that's about it for the update. Next week I got my Graduation Ceremony where I will get my diploma and say byebye to University (thankfully my GF studies for Masters until October so I can keep abusing the library. I read about 5 books on nutrition and binge eating in the last 2 weeks, and there is a lot of interesting stuff there that relates to helping with poker/balanced life and mood ). I must say I am absolutely loving this, and I got loads and loads off work ahead of me, but it feels like I am on the right track and getting my life back.
P.S. One thing I have to say is that you guys shouldn't write down LP as a strategy forum just yet. If you put in the work you will get the answers, and I have to thank all you great people like GGPLZ, Tom, Gororok, Evilsky, Oly, Patti, ROb, Sunny, Sroggoz and everyone else who spend their valuable time replying to hands and giving away free advice and more. DC is good for theory and some great discussions, Pokerstrategy is paid to give professional advice, and there is a lot of stuff on 2p2 but there is nothing like LP when it comes to closeness of the community. Plus the ROFL Thread makes you feel good and it is very healthy if you spend a few minutes each day(not hours as it's a free serotonin boost. Remember, scheduling time for what makes you tick and feel good is very important
I just wanted to get some things straightened out, specifically on the subject of online poker in the US. About two months ago, the US gov seized the top online poker domains.
Now, does that mean only those top sites (pokerstars, fulltilt, etc) were restricted to US residents? Would I be able to legally join an alternate poker site?
Sorry, I've been busy with other things and just found out about this news.
So I'm going to Austria from the 12th through the 19th of June. During the week I will be staying in Poysdorf a village in Austrian wine country. On the weekend I will be in Vienna. Basically I'm going to be on my own during the week while my friend works in the Czech Republic so I need shit to do in either Austria or the Czech Republic. I was thinking about taking a day trip to either Prague or Salzburg.
I know we have a lot of euros on LP and I would like your guys recommendations.
Here's the hotel that I'm staying at during the week in wine country: Hotel Veltlin
Thankfully I managed to get my money off FTP before the Ivey scandal, but I just received $19.89 of remaining rakeback and the minimun cashout amount is $50. So I have to put $30.11 to complete $50 and then try to cashout... Should I try this? I feel like FTP will screw me... anyone want to trade? I want PS.