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I can still get high grooving out to some music but it's not quite the same as marijuana-fueled grooves or alcohol / marijuana grooves or the ultimate speed + alcohol + marijuana + MDMA grooves. That's ok. I can't do drugs successfully.

I could use a joint to cut the tension. I could use about 3 bottles of wine to enjoy movement. Then, I could make some proper music. Music from the gut. Music from the sub-conscious. I'm out of practice sober. I am afraid. I am overthinking. There is no inspiration. There is no lightning bolt. There is no 2am sessions of singing Caruso by Andrea Bocceli.

For my birthday in 1994 one of my friends got me a bundle of cassettes. This felt like our music (it still does):











He also had the first 10 Spawn comic books and let me read them all to catch up. That is a true friend.

Avicii was a great DJ for the time (2008 - 2010). He kind of sucked as a composer which is why I think he killed himself. Although, I think he had problems with depression and anxiey with a substance abuse problem too. Sad story.

There is a sort of nostalgia for me surrounding 2008 - 2010 and house music but I just tried to find a good show from that time period and it's just bad camera work and wasted crowds. Seems like a waste. iTunes used to have good podcasts where you could listen to club events if you knew where to look. Sadly that iPod and Macbook Pro are long gone.

I've posted this before but this is a great spoof especially since all of those DJs seemed to take themselves entirely too seriously:

Man, I wish I still had my drum set. I used to love putting in some drum sessions. Such a good feeling. It's not quite the same feeling building up drums on Ableton.

I want to put some vocals down on another song but my parents are sleeping. Such an un-rockstar situation.

I had an electric drum set. Which is also not up to par with a proper drum set and hearing protection but I could at least play at night when I like to play.

is this what ur gonna do during ur solitude? music?

I don't plan on it. I am not much of a musician, producer, composer. My last solitude explained that to me.

it doesn't seem like ur going in a solitude though dude lol

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On September 06 2025 18:32 RiKD wrote: ?

For my next solitude I might drop off LP/Discord/YouTube/Netflix..."

I guess ur next solitude didn't start yet or u not dropping them off.

It may be later in September.

I c kk sounds good a good dopamine detox is nice

I never thought about it as a dopamine detox. I like dopamine. I am thinking about it more as stepping away from habits and behaviors that no longer serve me. The biggest issue is what do I replace LP/Discord/YouTube/Netflix with?

I have also not ejaculated in over a week and a half and don't think I've noticed anything different. I don't think the scientific studies show any benefits to "NoFap." I guess it's empowering to overcome libido. The libido is a fleeting mosquito. The contrivity of pornography, the male gaze, the objectification of women, among other interpretations do cause issues. I'd imagine this will be a debate for the ages.

On September 08 2025 01:18 RiKD wrote: I have also not ejaculated in over a week and a half and don't think I've noticed anything different. I don't think the scientific studies show any benefits to "NoFap." I guess it's empowering to overcome libido. The libido is a fleeting mosquito. The contrivity of pornography, the male gaze, the objectification of women, among other interpretations do cause issues. I'd imagine this will be a debate for the ages.

hmmmm its definitely an interesting debate but I am on the side that pornography is no good and other things.

On September 08 2025 01:18 RiKD wrote: I have also not ejaculated in over a week and a half and don't think I've noticed anything different. I don't think the scientific studies show any benefits to "NoFap." I guess it's empowering to overcome libido. The libido is a fleeting mosquito. The contrivity of pornography, the male gaze, the objectification of women, among other interpretations do cause issues. I'd imagine this will be a debate for the ages.

A week or two isn't that long for no-fap.

That's like a fat person saying they haven't consumed McDonald's for a few days.