So I tried to quit a session to "lock up a win". Lex said that was a leak so I said; "ok, I'll play until both fishes leave". Damn fishes just won't quit. Up 26k, hungry, tilted despite being up 26k (Thank you YOSSUFACHMEND or whatever your name is...) and the fish just won't quit. It's 7am in Sweden. I give up. Time for food and sleep. I'm weak.
So after having finished my exams and work re-entering the normal course, I thought of investing some more time in the game. It's been going pretty well, 4 tabling NL2 euro tables and after 5k hands I'm sitting at 23bb/100 (will post a graph later, when i get home). However, Im not feeling that great about my game. My winnings are mostly non-showdown ones, because of aggressive 3betting/4betting and aggressive post flop play - it's something around 90% to 10% showdown-winnings. And for like 1.3k-1.5k hands I've been only breaking even (been coolered twice pretty hard, one time in a 200bb pot running into aces with kings).
There are sooo many spots where I'm just having a really hard time deciding what to do. On one hand I like to play aggressive and thats where the winnings come from, but on the other hand, when I get to showdown, my winning% sucks balls. So don't really know what to do. I just fear that once I get to move up stakes, my play can be easily exploited.
Also there are so many hands that I would like to discuss and ask for advice, so if anyone want to help by a review session, I would be more than grateful. I'm really motivated this time to put in the effort and really succeed in moving up stakes and building a BR.
How do you know when to end a session? Moreover, how do you know when to end a losing session? Do you try to just breakeven once you manage to get back to the original level or you will accept a 1-2-3 BI loss without any problems? What about a winning session? Thing is my play is somewhat affected if I'm down a couple of BI's already and I'm less willing to take risks.
This life we live is not a game. Yet, play life best and you may live what life truly means to be--free. Unshackling of world Deity -man's best friend- is found within. Truth is blind, and so are we, we the people who see to believe; Yet, believe in what we have never seen. Piecemeal thoughts of grandeur being, but never a world being at peace. The world is our heaven sought and we the angels, enabling angelic deeds. Mindfulness of each moment, of the cascading momentum of living, is salvation. Those minds waiting for tomorrow will be waiting forever.
This country is somewhat weird. It's much poorer then I expected and even though what I'm staying in is some kind of "rich people's retreat" as far as I can tell the locals seems to be in fairly rough shape and even though everyone is nice it reminds me a lot of Bulgaria a few years ago rather then a country in west Europe. I'm having a good time but I have this nagging feeling that something is not right here, but on the other hand my "reads" has been of lately. Example: Did not see the red wedding coming. Not even when they started playing "Rains of Castamere", mostly because I did not recognize it.
Anyway, me and my girlfriend has been eating at this seafood place. It's been great service, good food and everyone was friendly. It's kind of off season so there are not many customers so we talked a bit about this and that with the staff, they did let out some fantastic quotes:
1. "You can't be out in the sun, you're so white" while comparing the skin colour of my arm with a portugese arm.
2. "You should not carry that much money around, they will stab you" and then some other dude broke in "we're not joking, we would not stab you but they will in Setubul. It's a poor country". This is about a few hundred euros.
They also tell us that minimum wage in Portugal is 400 euros per month and that the country is getting worse all the time. I felt a bit sad about that, because well, it's fairly bloody sad.
Anyway, after having eaten there for a few times we took our friends to the place and this time they messed up some orders, things were slower and I got kind of confused because while some of the staff were the same we also got some new ones that looked kind of out of place. I made sure they did not have crossbows and then we started eatig. My girlfriend suddenly taps my arm and say something like "look, she's crying" and I look up to see that the "They will stab you"-chick is, in fact, crying behind a pillar in the middle of the room only to wipe the tears away, put on a smile and start serving people. It's busy so while I did want to know what was up I couldn't find a practical way to ask someone so after a while we leave.
Later in the evening Unibet has some party at the casino and while I stand in the bar the crying girl taps me on the shoulder and says hi and says that she got fired for talking too much with the customers. I get a bit upset but we invite her to hang out with us at the party and says hi to her boyfriend. Somehow I also say high to half of Portugal because apparently they're a big group of people there. I do however still feel that I want to do something nice, since it has to be fairly hard for someone to lose her job during the circumstances. Since I have a lot of cash on me in case anyone starts a PLO-table and since my "pre-party" was mostly winning a couple of buy ins online (and I figured that a buy in is probably more then a waitress here makes in a month, possibly two or tree months) I figured I could give here some money. The marginal utility of the money is probably higher for her, etc. Giving money to random people just because you feel bad for them is somewhat weird I guess, but in the end I decided that:
"I have some money, I can do whatever the crap I want with them, I want to give some to this waitress because I'd feel better if I knew that she'd manage a bit better until she can get a new job" was decent enough logic so I grabbed a bunch of 50€-bills, gave her them and told her to not get stabbed and don't tell anyone. I think it was about 400€. She got very happy and started buying my girlfriend drinks.
The I got to hang out with some old school prima-regs from the days when I used to play high stakes NL with them and some Danish guy started telling my girlfriend he loved her. That was funny.
I also think I managed a little communication error. Some Portuguese guy said something to me and I asked him to say it in English and then I said "I don't know Portuguese, but I really should because I like BJJ". I think he only heard "Brazilian" though, because later he introduced me to some girl and I'm not sure if he said "this is *name*, she's Brazilian" or "she has a Brazilian"... Either way I decided to call it a night, but before we left the casino my girlfriend wanted a picture with some old lady who had been owning up the dance floor all night. We got to talking to her too, apparently she just did whatever she felt like her last time on earth since she had been diagnosed with some kind of serious cancer. She was a very cool lady and I'm glad I met her.
So anyway me and friends went camping where we got a little high on hallucinogens and had a deep as fuck conversations. We started talking about humanity and what we have achieved. As far as im concerned we are still a bunch of monkeys that learnt farming and using some tools, while my friends were convinced that our brain is actually not from earth and probably alien to this planet - so we are far greater beings than other animals cos they are so dumb compared to us.
There were more fucked up conversations but yeah. What the fuck have we achieved that makes us great?
Poll: humanitys greatest achievement
(Vote): weapons - boom boom you dead
(Vote): technology - talk to anyone on the planet
(Vote): control over billions of people - haha slaves
(Vote): sliced bread - mmmm tasty
(Vote): farming - fuck yeah free food
(Vote): this blog :D
(Vote): we suck - ants would win word domination
Bit late, but just got back from a family reunion type thing in Montreal. FU 14 hour drives back and forth, FU. Was a hell of a trip, got to see many cousins and aunts and uncles that I haven't seen in literally 10+ years. Really inspired me to get out to central canada more often to see my family.
Anyways, started the month at nl25. I've started a new system where I immediately lock myself out of pokerstars as soon as I finish making my first drink, or have my first beer.
What I was doing since April was cashing out anything in my BR over 1000, then decided to move up to nl50, and continued doing that with everything over 2000. Hope I don't hit a massive snag and have to move back down to nl25, but who knows what's gonna happen.
So this past week I've been 4 tabling Zoom 2NL. Is it just me or is everyone who plays zoom either the biggest fish/calling station or the biggest nit. I'm 18bb/100 over 15k hands this week... It either feels like I can cbet these guys to death and steal the blinds, or they call me down with 2nd pair or tptk on a drawy board every time. Do people just nit up because it's so easy to fold and wait for big hands like AK,QQ+?
Everything i know i learned from LPby Sunny876, June 05
Thx player999 for inspiration to play HUSNGs which is my main game now.
Thx PuertoRican for showing me about MMA on which i probably start betting soon.
Thx spets1 for lovely pictures.
Thx all LP for interesting reads and enterteiment!
I haven't really blogged about serious things in a while but I would like to make a post today. Not that this post is particularly serious.
I started my internship in Jacksonville, FL in Risk Management. After trying my hand in live poker during the aftermath of what was left after black friday I decided to go back to school. Although I made much more money playing Live than I did online (not that my live earnings are that much either), it was too difficult to continue to play poker and even more importantly, impossible to grow as a human being.
Poker was a bean stalk that reached the heavens. You start at the ground and play for pennies. But you climb and climb, higher and higher. I saved all my money in order to move up stakes. All in order to climb this bean stalk. This illusion of one day playing 5/10+ making 400+/hr. I'm happy for those who have. I'm sure it takes an immense amount of time and hard mental work in order to reach such a level of mastery. But for me, I don't think it's in me to reach such stakes.
I always felt somewhat guilty but even more angry when I would win money from old senile seniors, and ex-veterans. Angry that they suffer. That they throw all their money away. But I suppose that's the extent of my goodwill because I sure as hell am not going to give any of it back. To win is to be superior (most likely genetically and independent of freewill). And to lose is to be inferior (most likely genetically and independent of free will). Where is the fun in that statement? Where is the ego? Do you ever feel superior when you kick a child's ass? I suppose it's easy to rationalize and the more complex the rationalization the further the issue is, and the easier you're able to do somewhat morally dubious things.
Anyway this is not a message against poker. It's not my intention to bash or relegate poker.
Stated earlier, I started my internship for the summer. I make a modest amount at $15/hr in a rather large firm. But I plan to spend all my money. I've already signed up for MMA focusing on the grappling/wrestling aspect (I don't really watch MMA or know that many terms) as well as French classes.
Although sometimes work sucks and the hours are long, I'm surrounded by brilliant, motivated people. But best of all, every hour I put in provides a service that 99% of America uses (if you use a debit/credit card, or have a bank, or have an account).
I don't know when Capitalism got such a bad rap. I'm sure someone leftish, used it inaccurately yet purposefully in order to stir a mob. Capitalism is a beautiful thing. For me to make a single dollar, I have to provide so much random value to the firm and it's thousands of clients. I think ppl hate corporate-government corruption. Promised jobs, laws against new and good products. Protecting corn, oil, and pharmaceuticals from having to continue to stay innovative and efficient. They want to become monopolies. Which of course is the opposite of free markets. And against the cornerstone of Capitalism.
Something I wanted to say earlier. My greatest rationalization. I'm sure we all think this.
I didn't invent the game. I just play it.
My boss said that, with a sad face when I asked him about his Romney sticker.
Hi there.
I'm thinking to move to New-zealand with my gf.
We're living in Malta for 3 years now and it's quite boring after a while.
Anyway I play poker for a living and my gf is working.
If I read correctly , if my gf get a working visa I should be able to get one too , is it true ? (I'm french if it matters)
What about the taxes ? I think there is none for gambling.
Would you you recommend moving to NZ ? pro/cons?
Which place would you recommend ? (keep in mind my gf need to find a job in IT)
It's just an idea for now , but the more I'm looking for info about NZ , the more I want to move here
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I'm really motivated this time to put in the effort and really succeed in moving up stakes and building a BR.
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