quick question
tutz, Jul 16 2010
if a NL player starts grinding PLO, will he forget a bit of NL or PLO will help him to improve his NL game?
Looking for roommate [Orlando,FL]
NerO, Jul 15 2010
Looking for roommate [Orlando,FL]
NerO, Jul 15 2010
Thank You
Raidern, Jul 15 2010
Hey,
I'd like to thank everyone who donated to help Marina get to China for treatment. We got $340 + 48 euro. I made a deposit of R$612 into her account ($1 = R$1,80). The 48 euros were donated after I made the deposit, so I'm going to deposit that later.
Her parents have 31% of the money Marina needs now =]
I'm PMing the receipt of the deposit to everyone who donated. TY again =]
follow the white rabbit
sawseech, Jul 12 2010
it's july 2005. he's trying to figure how to break through. he's dominating weaker players and breaking even or losing to better players. it's the same pattern as before. he was missing something then and he's missing it now. the only difference between then and now is that he finally understands that he's missing something.
unbidden, his reflection attempts to inculcate a slightly different mindset in him. to be more assertive, more initiatory, more violent. to make a mockery of their feeble attempts at control. never settle. initiate and thereby actively limit their options. understand that you're better and that they will either give ground or overreact. as they give ground, pummel hard. as they overreact, laugh hard. fuck these motherfuckers. be who you are or, to be more accurate, be the person that i know you can be.
he chooses to believe and so he steps it up and goes and does likewise. much to his surprise he finds that it works. moreover, it's easy. a world of possibilities opens up to him and whereas before he may have shied away from it he now finds himself willing to embrace it. he starts to have new and brighter dreams. he can't wait to enter that world of his dreams, to be the one person he knows of in the flesh who made it real. he lusts to become whole in it, to shed the baggage of poverty, to self-actualize. to live wholly and unrepentantly in the moment, finally, after all of these years.
he finally understands what that one man was doing, why that lady cared so deeply, and why he had to leave that place at that time in his life. why he hasn't been able to let anyone in.
something happens, something violent. he is wounded. he crawls deep into a hole and he pulls it in over himself and he waits.
the months roll by as he slowly heals. eventually he can sleep again. he finds that he can move freely and without pain. he starts to play again.
something's not right. he's not feeling it. his sense is lacking and his timing is off. his attacks are anticipated, and his movements are awkward. he's hesitant.
there's a haze over him.
he starts dropping codeine and finds that it helps. he feels better and he sleeps better and he's more focused. he doesn't really know why he's taking it but he doesn't care.
stuff starts happening to him. his body fails to protect him in spots where it would have protected him before. he's dysthemic significantly more often than not; this is new. he develops carpal tunnel and ulnar neuropathy and wonders why this should be the case after all of these years of clicking a mouse a billion times a day. his vision suffers.
he doesn't care.
he drives on and more often than not he's just waiting for the moment in which he feels recognizably and mostly whole. when in that moment, he plays relentlessly. at times he even feels like the person he can remember feeling like. somehow, this is enough for him.
time passes and he sees his results slowly diminish. the interval between being whole and being noticeably diminished grows progressively larger. he wonders if he might be bipolar. he takes some pills and then some other ones, just to see if it's so. he's not.
the shoulder becomes unbearable. he waits for a year and then he has it fixed.
stuff happens. he chooses to wait it out, to wait and see what happens.
a short while later he finds that the results of his most recent play can most aptly be characterised as inconceivable. he's gone through five years of progressively diminished results, so he should be numb to this sort of thing but this shocks him. this should be impossible for him. he is who he is, right?
he processes for awhile and finds that he was missing something then and that he's missing it now. he looks within himself and finds that the answer is pain. that he never really came out of that hole that he had pulled in over himself.
sometimes it is acute and the rest of the time it burns. it always tingles. there are spasms. it itches. the sensory experience of joint dysfunction has been magnified. minor nerve irritation now returns something subjectively equivalent to a herniated disk.
he reflects further on the past few months and remembers waking up and seeing the bags under his eyes, day after day. he remembers being, at times, unable to recognize the man in the mirror. he's lost weight.
he's disabled.
the person that he was would not have stood back and watched his social ties wither and die, or seen his days grow longer and darker without recourse, or walked around for a year with no rotator cuff.
he would have initiated, attacked. he would have tried to force it, whatever it was, to bend to his will and he would have found it immovable. he would then have processed. instead this unreconizable disabled person dropped codeine and shrugged it off for five years.
casper, the god. he shines bright like a diamond. he's harsh, but he's sensitive. he feels deeply, and he cares. and he's dead.
i carry the memory of the worst day of my life with a smile and i choose to believe that i will be able to take back my life an inch at a time. i know of no person in the flesh who has managed to do such a thing, and so i aspire to be the first to do so and i hope that, in time, newer and even brighter dreams will light my sleep.
-w
It's nine o' clock on a saturday
CrownRoyal, Jul 10 2010
I said son, can you play me a memory!!?? I'm not really sure how it goes but it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete when I wore a younger man's clothes.
WHAT IF...
tutz, Jul 09 2010
a girl that you LOVE said that she wants you to quit poker otherwise you can't be together anymore, or even if she didn't asked but if you knew that's the only way you can stay together. what would you do?
Poll: What would you do?
(Vote): QUIT HER
(Vote): QUIT POKER
PS: not saying this happened to me, I'm just curious
other questions:
do you think poker takes a lot from your life?
is/was it worth all the effort to become the poker player you are?
you think poker stole a big part of your youth by sitting in front of a computer all day or at a poker table?
you wish you could do all that money outside the poker world?
probably most people here can't answer all this questions but I'd love to read some from the most experienced players!
thanks
Busted Main
Bigbobm, Jul 08 2010
Started the day pretty fantastic. Had Dennis Phillips on my table and a bunch of fish and managed to pick up about 15k in the first 30 minutes before getting set->quads over set by some random. Table broke a few minutes after and got put at a table with Antonio Esfandiari to my left, along with 2 other good online players to his left. Had to tightened up a lot but was just running pretty terrible. Ended up shipping 99 with about 31bb @ 200/400 50 ante level and got snapped by this laggy fish and lost to AJs.
Sorry to disappoint everyone 
GL to anyone still left in the main
fibromyalgia
sawseech, Jul 07 2010
i gotz it
anyone here gotz any anecdotal exp. widdit? friends/family members etc.
thx
-w
Help Marina (bump)
Raidern, Jul 06 2010
OK, this is the last bump. I first posted this yesterday, so I'm reposting for the 2nd and last time. So far we have $290. Thank you to all who donated or had some nice words.
-----
Hi,
I come to you all today in an attempt to help a friend. He's a musician from my hometown, and her wife gave birth to twin girls four years ago. Unfortunately one of the girls, Marina, had an infection in the hospital which caused a respiratory arrest. As a consequence of that, nowadays she has cerebral palsy, a disease which prevents her from doing basic things that any normal child should be able to do on her own, like sitting, eating, among other things which I'm unaware of.
Now they are trying to take little Marina to China, to have her treated with stem-cells. The treatment is very expensive ($40,000) and way out of their pockets, so they are making some kind of campaign to raise funds to try to give their daughter a better life. The treatment will take place in an institution named Beike Biotech in China (http://www.beikebiotech.com), and here is Marina's certificate of acceptance , meaning she got accepted for the treatment. Marina has a blog which keeps us updated on what's going on with the campaign. Right now they have 25% of the money and are trying to make some events to raise more money. Yesterday they hosted a beneficiary dinner, for example.
Local newspapers and TV shows are also helping them, as you can see in the spoiler below:
+ Show Spoiler +
I know everyone has their own problems to worry about, and that there are millions of other children suffering and starving out there. But this guy is a friend and I really want to help him.
Any kind of donation would be helpful, even if its just a dollar. If you feel comfortable with it, please send your donation to raid1611 (João Pessoa), which is my account, on PokerStars and drop me a PM. You can also help her via my paypal account, antonielmjr@gmail.com. If you are brazilian, please visit her blog (link below) and do it as you wish  . I will deposit all the money into their bank account and send the deposit receipt to each person who made a donation.
Marina's blog: http://marinachina.blogspot.com
You can see pictures from the lovely Marina in the spoiler tag:
+ Show Spoiler +
llalalalalalallaala
sawseech, Jul 06 2010
[the blind spot]
mp opens
i 3b TT in co
bn folds
sb mostly fishy soccer-type coldcalls
mp folds
135x eff or someshit
972r
he donks
i think and r
he calls
7 putting a 2flush out
he chks
i think
and something is there
and i think some more
and i can no longer delay my decision because it would create the impression that he has FE
so i bet
he immediately moves in
it's still there but i can no longer reasonably release
KK
i sit there and stare at the screen.
it hits me 30 seconds later.
he instacalled the flop raise and instachkd the turn.
when combined with an insta turn jam, and given that fact that this player is, in my estimation, fundamentally a coward... yeah.
i wonder how i didn't see it.
[the 0EV jam]
sunday 530
within breathing range of the bubble
i need a cash, a significant result, anything, right the fuck now
largish ante, nits on my left, nobody wants nuttin of it
i have been active, but "gonna win the tournament" active, not "LOL IGHN" active
utg playing 25x insta opens 3x with imo 22+ A6s+ K9s+ QTs+ ATo KQo (direct hand observation)
fold fold
i have A9s. 23x. something is niggling at me. i don't know what it is.
i jam.
all fold
he thinks for 2 seconds and calls with QQ.
i stare stupidly at the screen and slowly realize that he was never folding 55 or 66 or AQo given his retard overvaluation of his read of me as a LOL IGHN.
i look for something to break but realize that i have run out of suchlike.
bad news for EU
nolan, Jul 06 2010
http://www.bloomberg.com/news/2010-07...sts-as-td-securities-sees-parity.html
Guess I'll convert mine to USD for awhile.
Bump - ME Shares @ even
Bigbobm, Jul 06 2010
still about 25% left
(!!!) Help Marina
Raidern, Jul 05 2010
Bump. I'd like this to get as much exposure as possible in the next 24h. Thank you very much for the donations and also the kind words.
-----
Hi,
I come to you all today in an attempt to help a friend. He's a musician from my hometown, and her wife gave birth to twin girls four years ago. Unfortunately one of the girls, Marina, had an infection in the hospital which caused a respiratory arrest. As a consequence of that, nowadays she has cerebral palsy, a disease which prevents her from doing basic things that any normal child should be able to do on her own, like sitting, eating, among other things which I'm unaware of.
Now they are trying to take little Marina to China, to have her treated with stem-cells. The treatment is very expensive ($40,000) and way out of their pockets, so they are making some kind of campaign to raise funds to try to give their daughter a better life. The treatment will take place in an institution named Beike Biotech in China (http://www.beikebiotech.com), and here is Marina's certificate of acceptance , meaning she got accepted for the treatment. Marina has a blog which keeps us updated on what's going on with the campaign. Right now they have 25% of the money and are trying to make some events to raise more money. Yesterday they hosted a beneficiary dinner, for example.
Local newspapers and TV shows are also helping them, as you can see in the spoiler below:
+ Show Spoiler +
I know everyone has their own problems to worry about, and that there are millions of other children suffering and starving out there. But this guy is a friend and I really want to help him.
Any kind of donation would be helpful, even if its just a dollar. If you feel comfortable with it, please send your donation to raid1611 (João Pessoa), which is my account, on PokerStars and drop me a PM. You can also help her via my paypal account, antonielmjr@gmail.com. If you are brazilian, please visit her blog (link below) and do it as you wish . I will deposit all the money into their bank account and send the deposit receipt to each person who made a donation.
Marina's blog: http://marinachina.blogspot.com
You can see pictures from the lovely Marina in the spoiler tag:
+ Show Spoiler +
ME Shares @ even
Bigbobm, Jul 05 2010
I've dropped markup, and will be selling at even. For those of you who already shipped I'll be shipping back the markup once everything is booked. Still looking to sell ~80%.
sold:
ket - 5% (sent)
timdawg - 2% (i sleep in the room next to him so sent)
pinball - 7.5% (sent)
tenbagger - 3% (sent)
iop - 2% (sent)
wakamaru - 5% (sent)
TheHuHu3 - 2% (sent)
jubert69 - 2% (sent)
rush - 3% (sent)
tj - 10%
mezmerizeplz - 5%
woezy -3% (sent)
thewh00sel - 5% (sent)
JizzleSmitts - 1% (sent)
Minion - 1% (sent)
akevin87 - 1% (sent)
4TM - 1% (sent)
albonycee - 1% (sent)
total -59.5%
(!!!) Help Marina
Raidern, Jul 05 2010
Hi,
I come to you all today in an attempt to help a friend. He's a musician from my hometown, and her wife gave birth to twin girls four years ago. Unfortunately one of the girls, Marina, had an infection in the hospital which caused a respiratory arrest. As a consequence of that, nowadays she has cerebral palsy, a disease which prevents her from doing basic things that any normal child should be able to do on her own, like sitting, eating, among other things which I'm unaware of.
Now they are trying to take little Marina to China, to have her treated with stem-cells. The treatment is very expensive ($40,000) and way out of their pockets, so they are making some kind of campaign to raise funds to try to give their daughter a better life. The treatment will take place in an institution named Beike Biotech in China (http://www.beikebiotech.com), and here is Marina's certificate of acceptance , meaning she got accepted for the treatment. Marina has a blog which keeps us updated on what's going on with the campaign. Right now they have 25% of the money and are trying to make some events to raise more money. Yesterday they hosted a beneficiary dinner, for example.
Local newspapers and TV shows are also helping them, as you can see here and here
I know everyone has their own problems to worry about, and that there are millions of other children suffering and starving out there. But this guy is a friend and I really want to help him.
Any kind of donation would be helpful, even if its just a dollar. If you feel comfortable with it, please send your donation to raid1611 (João Pessoa), which is my account, on PokerStars and drop me a PM. You can also help her via my paypal account, antonielmjr@gmail.com. If you are brazilian, please visit her blog (link below) and do it as you wish . I will deposit all the money into their bank account and send the deposit receipt to each person who made a donation.
Marina's blog: http://marinachina.blogspot.com
You can see pictures from the lovely Marina in the spoiler tag:
+ Show Spoiler +
Need FTP money
iop, Jul 04 2010
Need 300 or so on ftp.
ill send first, unless you're a long-time-lurker-first-time-poster.
oh and i need it asp
Bump - ME Shares
Bigbobm, Jun 30 2010
at the risk of being flooded with june wrapup blog posts, im going to bump this a few more times
Selling WSOP ME Shares
Bigbobm, Jun 30 2010
I'll be selling ~80% of myself at 1.15:1 for the main event.
1% = 115
5% = 575
10% = 1150
If you need any references for reputation, I've got a bunch of those. I don't have any recent tournament results, but I'm very confident that I have a pretty massive edge over the main event field. Payments to bigbobm11 on ftp, gecko, city hamden. For stars, bigbobm11, city east granby.
sold:
ket - 5% (sent)
timdawg - 2% (i sleep in the room next to him so sent)
pinball - 7.5% (sent)
tenbagger - 1% (sent)
iop - 2% (sent)
wakamaru - 1% (sent)
TheHuHu3 - 2% (sent)
jubert69 - 1% (sent)
rush - 3% (sent)
tj - 10%
total -34.5%
life fucking me up again
tutz, Jun 29 2010
oh well, again
I can feel it
this feeling is not new to me
life, just fucking me up again, nothing to do with poker
thinking about hitting the ER before my head explodes and I faint
feel free to hate
I just... dont care
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