fuck goals. im just gonna have some fun learning to play better poker and not think about making money. all these $$$$ goals are what causes all the misery in the grind. i see myself going to vegas again this year, making decent money and having an awesome year regardless, coz 2009 was filled with too much "goooools" and sucked pretty bad. i downloaded a pic of a check and edited it in paint(lol) puttting some ridiculous amount thinking im def cashing it out by the time the check is good. i wont fucking worry about the games and shit anymore, just not worth the stress. gl to everyone
I've have a 3 year old ipod video which i barely use for songs and vids coz i cant understand itunes at all. i hate how fucking complicated things are when all i realy wanna do is fucking drag and drop shit like a regular computer. is there any other software out there you guys know of which can simplify/convert-real time everything?
Yeah i've thought about it thoroughly and saw all the tragic losses from myself and other even better players at NL than myself get burned at this god forsaken game OMAHAHAHA. The problem is, I actually enjoy PLO and feel that I really wanna get better and play nonstop without even getting bothered by results. This is something that NL has not done for me the past year, the lack of the drive to learn and really just the fun of it - which is probably why I tilt easily when I lose at NL because I have this feeling of entitlement that I used to beat 100nl FR blah blah blah and somehow just refuse to adapt or just can't for some reason. Atm PLO does this for me and I keep watching videos all day and check out my hands and really avoid making the same mistakes over and over. Bleh, all I have to say about it really. GL me and hope to post some 200nl hands soon enough.
i like those two tracks that they keep playing whenver i watch their games. ive tried google but nothing came up. i need this information. thanks . haha
it looks pretty good. story is about a world where people dont lie, then this guy ( guy from the office brit version) is the first one to invent lying, so far its pretty funny 5mins into the movie...
yay it christmas here tomorrow and im quite happy with how my rebuilding experiment is turning out. played like 5k hands at 10nl, then worked on my redline there which was kind of a nightmare since people rarely fold to cents haha, but moved up to 25nl finally and i guess the redline is not too swingy there than at 10nl. i think i can sustain a very low negative redline and if i run hot i can probably get it up up up up movign up aggressively and moving down conservatively at -5bi at higher limit when taking a shot. ive got like 6bi to go before moving back again to nl50. im pretty excited now.
i still need a ton of guidance on postflop scenarios and 3bet pots plus bvb 4betshoving ranges. i think coaching will fix that for me since i cant really do that part on my own yet.
BEAT:
ran the worst i have ever in 3 years - fell into the "regs who didnt adapt" category
lost for 8 months straight after having 4 winning months jan to april
lived on rakeback profits and felt really dirty all year long lol
personal life in general was a mess, disconnected, detached from all forms of interpersonal relationships which really took its toll (went into deep depression)
smoked like 2 to 3packs of cigs a day, no exercise whatsoever -----> cant keep this up obv
decided to "rebuild" from 10nl 2010 and completely rework, rethink , reassess, re evaluate my game from the ground up
realized how omaha is a helluva drug lol
BRAG:
went to vegas again but this time lived and met with awesome LP guys, attended party but did not see nolan (was looking for a black guy lol)
completely debt free 100% now, planning on keeping it that way from hereon
bought a fucking brand new car with poker monies --- weeeeeeeeee!
balled hard in life and did not regret spending all that dough
did not die (yay!)
things in life start to make sense after having the WORST year of my entire life, its weird but true. i am at peace with myself now
im in a position where i am fearless and im pretty excited of what next year will bring
finished milestone, at last
all in all awesome colorful, eventful year for me. my mind is clear and i know exactly what to do with my life next year, which is something i havent done before. feels great and hope all of you experience this at one point in your lives. life is good
I'm so tired of losing money in the tables. Time to win starting right now. I'll just delete my dbs and start a new one, FML this whole milestone chase will be my last lol
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i wont fucking worry about the games and shit anymore, just not worth the stress. gl to everyone 
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