Stimmung und Stimming

This has been my take for like 15 years?

Listen to OutKast and find things to be grateful for?

Existence is a beast and it will eat it all up.

I have been reading too much Baudrillard. I feel like I have to do some math or Boolean values in Python. It's the only thing that feels real.

In [1]: 1+1==2
Out[1]: True

*Sigh of relief*

The sky could be purple tomorrow but at least 1+1=2.

In [2]: not True
Out[2]: False

Hallelujah!

There is meaning in maths!

We killed God.
We killed Reality.
We killed Meaning.

But, you can't kill maths baby!

My life is probably a lot easier if we didn't kill God. I could pray to God. I don't think the Fates care about prayor. I pray to Eros. I pray to the Fates. I pray to Dionysus. Greek Gods are fickle. At least they don't feign interest in caring. They laugh at my pre-destined misfortune.

I stare at a lamp. I've got the lamp. I stare at the lamp and remember I even have the lamp.

I look around at all of these items. Do I have a fetish for my Steinberg UR12 Audio Interface? These items represent me at least materially. What does my soul have to say about all of this? Sometimes it's enough to want to wander off into the forest with a flip phone and a copy of Anti-Oedipus: Capitalism and Schizophrenia by Delulz and Guattari. I need a "Reality" survival guide that includes more than listening to OutKast and thinking of things I'm grateful for. Maybe that's all it is. Cycling through what works at the time. That sounds too much like being a dopamine slave. I don't know how to win. I don't know if a win is possible. Maybe I can get 4th place out of 10 but what about the 6 people more unfortunate than me? What if 4th place is not good enough?

It gets back to the title of this blog: Stimmung und Stimming (mood and neurodivergent self-stimulation). If I am getting a blow job I don't need to run off and post a blog on LP. It's when I am somber and can not find meaning anywhere that I arrive here. The problem is I am stuck in the self-centered sludge. It is not even a depression. It is more of a malheur. A pre-destined misfortune. I am playing the victim here which at the moment I don't like to do but it is what it is. I am a victim to pre-destined misfortune and really most of us are to some degree. If you are human you are pre-destined for misfortune. On the brightside, my stomach illness is getting better. Ilnesses a lot of the time get better. I'm not necessarily pre-destined for poverty either. Poverty is something that can be improved upon. Illness and poverty, I'm not dead yet.

I have no final form. There is no set strategy.

Authenticity is impossible. Don't even worry about it babe. This blog is a simulation.

You have the "freedom" to choose an identity... HA!

Don't even worry about it babe. This blog is a simulation.

It's all an i l l u s i o n...

We did not kill anything because it never existed.

Of course, I perform to a point but this blog is a sacred ritual. It will die when RiKD dies. Which RiKD is holding on by threads... Maybe, I'll change my name to The Artist Formely Known As RiKD. TAFKAR!

Love,

TAFKAR

I remember Baal told me once to stop chasing meaning because it does not exist. I thought I could find it like I thought I could win some little doodad at that carnival arcade crane claw game.

Authenticity is impossible. My personality is a fad.

How's the month of April going for you so far?

On April 17 2025 06:04 PuertoRican wrote: How's the month of April going for you so far?

Overcoming inertia in entropy.

Is it possible?

On April 18 2025 02:38 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 17 2025 06:04 PuertoRican wrote: How's the month of April going for you so far? Overcoming inertia in entropy. Is it possible?

can u simplify, lol wtf does that mean

On April 18 2025 19:39 lostaccount wrote: Show nested quote + On April 18 2025 02:38 RiKD wrote:   On April 17 2025 06:04 PuertoRican wrote: How's the month of April going for you so far? Overcoming inertia in entropy. Is it possible? can u simplify, lol wtf does that mean

Newton's First Law:
This resistance is described by Newton's First Law of Motion, which states that an object at rest will stay at rest, and an object in motion will stay in motion with the same speed and in the same direction unless acted upon by an external force.

entropy is a measure of disorder or randomness in a system. (chaos (information))

Lol I see