do you still play poker?

On March 04 2025 05:03 RiKD wrote: I am not a doctor but dopamine and testosterone (and cortisol) interest me a whole bunch. I think poker has the potential to wreck dopamine especially mixed with adderall. I know it did for me looking back. I was more of a weed / energy drink guy but it's the same idea besides adderall being worse. Then, we forget about the actual gambling for high stakes money aspect. I guess it's an interesting dance with testosterone and cortisol. Most people, especially bodybuilders, are trying to max testosterone and minimize cortisol. The idea would be to just not get stressed out but I guess stress is inherent in human life and if cortisol is not working properly that would cause major problems. That's brutal shit man. Glad you are doing way better now.

I just use chatgpt for like everything now. These are all things I figured out through interacting with it and trying to solve my problem. It came up with an entire supplement stack for me, linked me to the highest quality supplements (supposedly) on amazon to purchase, and gave me these ideas about waking and sleeping at the same time every day, and about getting out and facing the sun for 30 minutes immediately each morning.

I don't think much of anything is certainly necessarily bad except for the really hardcore stuff like H or speed. Anything else can be balanced with proper supplementation. I drank every night for 15 years straight, then I decided I was going to quit and I stopped drinking for a year. I didn't notice any change in my physical health aside from less greasy skin! So, take that for whatever it's worth.

My issue was actually that I had super low T, super low estradiol, and also super low cortisol. Why that was I'm not exactly sure, but, I can attest that it was a feeling of truly just not caring about doing almost anything, no matter how vital it might be for my future. I definitely agree with you that stress is an important aspect of human life. It's beneficial to experience stress because that's how we grow. Like, we stress our muscles through lifting weights then as a result the muscles grow. Our brains/bodies operate very similar. But of course under too much stress we completely crumble.

Poker is not easy

https://youtube.com/shorts/kJGXWEfjeUQ?si=VBYvb5A-42ftgNv7

lol dwan got committed to mental hospital in the uk. i guess he is out now, but his twitter is kinda wild.

Not much to comment on for me. I don't have Twitter but Google search made it look like it happened in the middle of April and there has been no public statements since then. Dwan is about my age. It would be weird to have psychosis that was not drug induced at my age. So, he either always had Bipolar I or Schizophrenia or was doing too much coke or mushrooms or whatever. Sleep deprivation and stress could probably cause it too. I hope he is ok.

Quit Poker
became software dev

Now i have:
money , wife , kid

I learned the lession very late in life but fortunately soon enough.
"If you want to make decent money while having ADHD then you need consistent hard work in an honest business."

I never had the patience/self control needed for being successful with poker.
And i will never have it
ADHD made me always dream too big from excitement of becoming something special which always results in a crash.

"consistent hard work in an honest business"

Isn't this good advice for anyone?

"ADHD made me always dream too big from excitement of becoming something special which always results in a crash"

The ladder is definitely true but I did not know that it was a trait of ADHD.

A Trait of ADHD is that you cant really endure delayed gratification for too long and also have Impulsiveness combined with exaggerated excitement when something works.
you always start to feel like : This one thing that is currently running well will be the Solution to all my Problems! And i want the Solution now ! I cant wait any longer.
I need Salvation and i will have it.

This will always lead to the result that when you have 3-4 good sessions at your correct BR/Buy-in to limit you will start to play too high and crash.

On May 27 2025 11:17 PplusAD wrote: A Trait of ADHD is that you cant really endure delayed gratification for too long and also have Impulsiveness combined with exaggerated excitement when something works. you always start to feel like : This one thing that is currently running well will be the Solution to all my Problems! And i want the Solution now ! I cant wait any longer. I need Salvation and i will have it. This will always lead to the result that when you have 3-4 good sessions at your correct BR/Buy-in to limit you will start to play too high and crash.

qft

On May 27 2025 11:17 PplusAD wrote: A Trait of ADHD is that you cant really endure delayed gratification for too long and also have Impulsiveness combined with exaggerated excitement when something works. you always start to feel like : This one thing that is currently running well will be the Solution to all my Problems! And i want the Solution now ! I cant wait any longer. I need Salvation and i will have it. This will always lead to the result that when you have 3-4 good sessions at your correct BR/Buy-in to limit you will start to play too high and crash.

How did you acquire this knowledge? Did you read it somewhere? Did you talk to a therapist?

I just learned I have ADHD not too long ago and it is tough playing catch up.

--- Nuked ---

I haven't touched GTO Wizard in a month so cancelled it today T.T

GTO wizard isn't even the best strategy at my stakes cuz there are exploitable plays cuz ppl aren't even balance (well at my stakes lol not HSP). they are more balance now than say before but aint 100% balance.
I see thats okay it was fun while it lasted lol but lmk if u ever get back into poker cuz its fun well at least for me anyways lol

If it were 2005 PokerStars conditions I would still be playing probably. I've been through it a million times already... I don't want to sign forms to cash out, give my social security number to cash out, give my blood samples and stool samples to cash out only to deposit on shitty sites full of bots and other cheaters. I didn't like the software and vibes of Ignition and ACR when I played there and I don't feel like chancing it with WPT Club Gold or Coin Poker.

I got paid by WPT gold but u do u

WPT has paid me out NP btw

"No problem" is subjective.

- W-9
- Schedule K
- USA New Tax Legislation (you can only deduct 90% of gambling losses)

That's more friction than I want to deal with. You guys are in different boats. J being Canadian and DooMeR being a successful professional.

u do u rikd no poker so be it, probably not meant for u since u dont seem keen on it

I want to battle heads-up on beautiful software and cashout directly to my checking account with no fees. That's not possible so fuck it. In a couple of years I will have access to a casino and private games. Hopefully, I'll have more meaningful stuff to work on then but who knows. We could have a discussion on what meaningful even means.

yea rikd not happening you just gotta make most of what you are given. i want a lot of things to lol