It's the new year

The pentagon has a lot of influence over the direction of these video games, as well as movies/tv. They have a lot of sway over what the story focus's on because film makers and game dev's need their expertise equipment to make war related games/movies.

Happy New Year~

On January 05 2023 07:08 Stroggoz wrote: The pentagon has a lot of influence over the direction of these video games, as well as movies/tv. They have a lot of sway over what the story focus's on because film makers and game dev's need their expertise equipment to make war related games/movies.

You think? Games and films are entertaining only when they have a quality script/direction/acting. I have a hard time believing directors would really care what some rando 4 star general thinks about their production.

When Tom Cruise wants a sequel to Top Gun, sure he has to play nice with the Navy if he wants them to loan some F-18's, but it's not like the military is making any key decisions in filmmaking. It's more like "hey, make us look good so kids will join up".

On January 09 2023 02:18 NewbSaibot wrote: Show nested quote + On January 05 2023 07:08 Stroggoz wrote: The pentagon has a lot of influence over the direction of these video games, as well as movies/tv. They have a lot of sway over what the story focus's on because film makers and game dev's need their expertise equipment to make war related games/movies. You think? Games and films are entertaining only when they have a quality script/direction/acting. I have a hard time believing directors would really care what some rando 4 star general thinks about their production. When Tom Cruise wants a sequel to Top Gun, sure he has to play nice with the Navy if he wants them to loan some F-18's, but it's not like the military is making any key decisions in filmmaking. It's more like "hey, make us look good so kids will join up".

There's a book written on this topic called "National Security Cinema". It isn't just Top Gun, it's around 800+ films/tv shows that have had involvement with the Defense Department. I'll just quote some parts from the book. It talks alot about super hero movies. Here's one part from the case study of the iron man movie:

"Air Force Captain Christian Hodge, the Defense Department’s project officer for the production, commented that the ‘Air Force is going to come off looking like rock stars.’ In exchange for this very positive portrayal they helped with almost every aspect of the film, from script research and technical advice to on-location filming, providing aircraft and airmen as extras.
An early draft script of Iron Man from 2004 shows that it was originally far more opposed to war and the weapons industry than the version that made it into cinemas..."

Another well researched example is "Zero Dark Thirty", the movie involving the assassination of OBL. That movie was pure CIA propaganda. The CIA wanted to manipulate people into thinking that torture was useful in finding him. Can look at the wiki page, which is pretty extensive.

This is how a lot of the modern media works. If your making a movie, or writing a story, you get external sources to tell you what the story is.

It's probably why all those films are bad HA!

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I can have a great workout. I string enough of those together. Start training MMA again. Let's say I have a 315 lb. bench, 405 lb. Squat, 495 lb. deadlift, purple belt in BJJ, proficient in wrestling, boxing, muay thai, krav maga. That's a lot of time and effort. What is that versus a Glock? What's a Glock versus an AK-47? What's an AK-47 versus a missile strike and/or air support? What is anything versus a nuclear attack? Politics. The pen is mightier than the sword? Media and the military. We can make a beast of ourselves and still be quite fragile. I'd rather live by unarmed combat die by unarmed combat than get weapons involved. Plus, I am at a disadvantage because I don't think I can carry a firearm at this point. Telling a doctor that I was going to kill Nancy Pelosi and Vladimir Putin and getting escorted to the psych ward in cuffs by police will do that.

Air support takes a hell of a lot of resources though. Maybe it is best to scale up to excellent with a Glock and AK-47. That would cover most bases. I still like to train something physical though so something like Greyskull LP + MMA is probably ideal.

Concealed carry is rather inconvenient to be honest. I'd much rather know how to throw hands than draw a glock. Although the good thing about lethal force being your only form of self-defense is that hopefully you are much more reticent to use it and thus more willing to deescalate the situation should one arise. I cant fight, but I also dont want to kill anyone; solution? Just avoid shit with anyone. Diffuse. Walk away. At the same time an apartment I was looking at moving in to just had an armed home invasion the other night who's dog got shot as the residents ran out the front door. Thats someone who entered a home, armed, and ready/willing to use it. Although one has to wonder if the residents armed themselves could they have ended up also getting shot? A bad guy with a gun is not just going to let you kill him after all. I've seen plenty of clips of bar fights that ended successful for the defender because he know how to throw a punch, not sure I'd want to be pulling a gun in those situations either.

On January 09 2023 23:47 NewbSaibot wrote: Concealed carry is rather inconvenient to be honest. I'd much rather know how to throw hands than draw a glock. Although the good thing about lethal force being your only form of self-defense is that hopefully you are much more reticent to use it and thus more willing to deescalate the situation should one arise. I cant fight, but I also dont want to kill anyone; solution? Just avoid shit with anyone. Diffuse. Walk away. At the same time an apartment I was looking at moving in to just had an armed home invasion the other night who's dog got shot as the residents ran out the front door. Thats someone who entered a home, armed, and ready/willing to use it. Although one has to wonder if the residents armed themselves could they have ended up also getting shot? A bad guy with a gun is not just going to let you kill him after all. I've seen plenty of clips of bar fights that ended successful for the defender because he know how to throw a punch, not sure I'd want to be pulling a gun in those situations either.

A buddy that taught me how to use firearms had a sign on his door, "Armed and dangerous. You'd be wise to pick another house." (Something to that effect). That crazy fuck would not hesitate to pull the trigger and he is a trained killer. I live in a gated community in really a lovely part of the USA. I'm not too concerned but if I was I would make sure to be well trained and well practiced. The truth of the matter is what are the chances in utilizing a firearm in a home invasion versus the chances of the gun ending up being used by myself in a particularly depressed state?

Pulling a gun in a fistfight is a very bad idea unless someone is going to get very badly beaten up or killed.

I think the key here is that if someone is going to go the way of the gun they have to be willing to die by the gun for starters. They also should be heavily trained with their weapons and also be trained in self-defense first and foremost.

As powerful as I can feel after pulling 5+ reps on the deadlift at an intense weight it's really nothing compared to knocking someone out, synching in a rear naked strangle, and then maybe a whole other level is if someone had the capability of emptying a clip into my torso or even more efficient killing me with one headshot. I've never done the latter 2. I don't know if it would make someone feel powerful versus the fear of losing life in that manner. I basically mean that right after my last rep of the deadlift someone had a gun pointing at me to put my hands up I don't think I would feel powerful anymore.

In fact, we live under the threat of nuclear war. Except, that it is not that immediate or visible. It does cause me some stress and worry if I think about it and there is nothing I can do about it. Except go to the gym and try to illicit a powerful state. Home invasion, terrorism, nuclear war are quite scary to think about but the odds seem unlikely enough to the point that it's not like jarring the consciousness all the time.

I'm just trying to think what's GTO?

What is GTO as our quality of life is likely to slowly diminish?

Is saying that my quality of life is likely to slowly diminish the truth and/or a self-fulfilling prophecy?

Lul what was your beef with Nancy Pelosi?

She is a symbol of USA Government corruption. Plus, I was manic + psychotic to the gills. The doctors all thought I was some crazy right-winger and told me to get off Parler and all this other ridiculous bullshit. I had to get examined by a psychiatrist for like 4 hours who had a designer bag and was wearing expensive jewelry who was pulling the same shit. I passed the tests but needless to say I went to a different psych ward the next time. Unfortunately, there was a next time and unfortunately there still could be a next time...

They probably get QA right wingers all the time. Liberal's often instantly think im right wing when i start saying weird things about politics. Left radicalism is kind've invisible to the liberals and so they have a pretty narrow black and white view of politics as a result.

I researched my psychiatrist before i went to get a adhd diagnosis from them and saw he was married to a libertarian politician heh.

Libertarians.

I'm reading this book The Sovereign Individual by whoever. I heard they get a lot of predictions correct. They have not exactly stated it yet but clearly they want some libertarian utopia. I would go further to say they clearly want some "moderate" / silicon valley utopia. That sounds like totalitarianism to me. Arrogant and "correct" about (their) knowledge of the past, present, and future. Surely, AI and algorithms play a large role. Invisible surveillance. Invisible power. Subconscious nudges and hints...

They know more than we realize...

(Who's "They"?)...

Pornography and gaming make me docile.

Does it even matter if I am docile? It's like asking does it even matter what I do in a Brazilian Jiu Jitsu game versus a black belt? I am going to end up submitting no matter what I do but I would argue it does matter how I handle the game even if I must submit or break a bone or die at some point in the future.

I refuse to not take care of the truth though. To become apathetic towards truth, fact, and justice is the end.

Strength training, walks in nature, water, books, and the guitar are things that make me stronger. Unlike drugs, pornography, gaming and a host of other things that make me docile. Does docile equal weaker or does it just mean docile? In a world where revolution is not possible. Gradual collapse is upon us. Do I ingest the soma and dance in The Entertainment while some semblance of a quality of life remains? For me, most likely, I will always have access to tendies and vidya. But, I have found out like I knew anyway that vidya is not enough and tendies are not a good source of food. I am still missing my atopic Other. Love, connection, and intimacy. Pornography is a hit of pleasure and decadence. It trains my male gaze for the worse. Masturbation is perfectly normal and fun if that's what is desired. I'd probably be better off without porn though. I read something that watching pornography can spike testosterone for 1 hour which would be perfect to watch before workouts but what goes up must come down. It's the same with steroids. There is no way to consistently raise testosterone despite probably lifting heavy weights and sleeping enough. I am fine with that today.

You talk a lot. And have great ideas. But no consistent action. Nothing in life comes easy holmes. Less typing, more action.

Man up

On January 15 2023 15:21 devon06atX wrote: Nothing in life comes easy holmes. Man up

He'd have to be mentally retarded to not know that by age 40 lmao.

Whatever dude

Google Stadia went down today. I hope Loco is ok. I would bet that he is but I had a company go down and the owner gave us 0 days notice which was pretty shitty.

I feel like people saying Love is the answer are people that are hopeful lovers or are in love. People that say Love is not the answer are not hopeful for love or have been broken apart by Love.

Honestly, I am in a season where the only thing that works is strength training and reading. Music too. That is a given. In fact, I shall run off to play for a bit now.

I want an update on loco's love life. What effect does loco's unemployment have on the relationship? Maybe drop some sexual stuff in the mix.

On January 20 2023 19:03 CurbStomp2 wrote: I want an update on loco's love life. What effect does loco's unemployment have on the relationship? Maybe drop some sexual stuff in the mix.

I don't want an update on Loco's love life. It's great that that was going well for him.

I miss his suggestions. His taste in music and film. He helped in knowing thyself.

Although, to be honest, it is probably better for me in the long run that he does not post or anyone else for that matter. LP has been dead and I have been checking it less and doing other things more. In an ideal world Loco would drop one song, one book, and one film a day and I could ask him 1 question about Greyskull LP, nutrition, or whatever but that is kind of a ridiculous arrangement and it is also fun and enriching to discover stuff on my own.

I was just moved to a different project. I've known for months that Stadia was closing down, it wasn't an issue to be transferred to something else. New work is chill, doing something with Riot and will be starting something with Nintendo simultaneously next week, still from home.

Still banging it out like a teenager with my girl. Don't have any special stories other than something that hasn't happened to me before: she gave me a blowjob and after I came in her mouth I was still rock hard for the next couple minutes and she noticed it. She said, "what is going on down there? you want more eh?" and did it again immediately. In the past with her, double orgasms have been common as a mix between intercourse/oral, but oral twice in a row is a new thing. Couldn't help but remember Mortensen's stupidity about covid vaccines and erection problems lol. Those are the kind of "problems" you want to have

We also had a talk about doing a threesome with a friend of hers, which is something I've never done. She said she wanted to introduce me to them and use my "universal appeal" and see if her friends would want to do it without having to ask them for their services (since they're also providers). If it turns out they don't, she said she was willing to pay another girl. It's a cool bucket list type of thing but I'm not in a rush to do it.

It wouldn't matter if I was unemployed, as long as I wouldn't be dependent on her for money (she would do it but I wouldn't want that). She used to be as well, and it's not something she judges others for.

Good news is good.

I've had a threesome but obviously would much rather have a chill job from home and regular good sex with a girlfriend. I would put the chances of you having a threesome at some point (without any payment) at so close to 100% it may as well be 100% so A+ brag post.

Does it bring me pain with what I lack or does my fellow Earth compatriot's wins bring me joy?

It's both. I must confess.

Everything in its right place.

Yesterday, I woke up sucking on a lemon.

That is what gym and connection will do to a man.

Tomorrow, on paper may suck but I have the tools to handle the present I have the tools to handle tomorrow. Marcus Aurelius said something like that.

"I am miserable."

"I feel miserable."

"I choose to feel miserable."

Is this true?

I am great.

I feel great.

I choose to feel great.

Everything in its right place. How long will it last? Am I delusional. Are things fine or are they great? Is everything in its right place?

Probably not everything is in its right place. That's ok.

I read a tweet today that if you try and improve by 1% each day that is a 4,000% improvement over a year. The Burnout Society.

Sometimes it is nice to just sit and contemplate. There are no numbers associated with that. Quiet, still, deep, long, contemplation.

There are other things to get just about wild over. 2.5 lb increase for the upper body movements and 5 lb increase for the lower body. 40 min. of giving it hell. Getting after it. I read today that physical exercise can be stronger than any depression or anxiety pills. I feel great. It something I should never forget. I'm putting it in writing.

Ok, it's probably about time to read and go to sleep. 2 of the most important things to me in life.

If you ate 1% more than the day before every day for your entire life you'd be bigger than the universe by about age 60. Maybe someone should tweet that.

hahaha

I am feeling pretty beta today. I was convinced to drive an hour both ways to watch the new Avatar at a special theatre. That's more than 5 hours of my life I can never get back. Part of me wanted to feel normal or just engage in normie behavior but there was 0 chance of me liking that movie. I think maybe the only thing that can save the day is crushing a workout.

On January 21 2023 01:32 Loco wrote: I was just moved to a different project. I've known for months that Stadia was closing down, it wasn't an issue to be transferred to something else. New work is chill, doing something with Riot and will be starting something with Nintendo simultaneously next week, still from home. Still banging it out like a teenager with my girl. Don't have any special stories other than something that hasn't happened to me before: she gave me a blowjob and after I came in her mouth I was still rock hard for the next couple minutes and she noticed it. She said, "what is going on down there? you want more eh?" and did it again immediately. In the past with her, double orgasms have been common as a mix between intercourse/oral, but oral twice in a row is a new thing. Couldn't help but remember Mortensen's stupidity about covid vaccines and erection problems lol. Those are the kind of "problems" you want to have We also had a talk about doing a threesome with a friend of hers, which is something I've never done. She said she wanted to introduce me to them and use my "universal appeal" and see if her friends would want to do it without having to ask them for their services (since they're also providers). If it turns out they don't, she said she was willing to pay another girl. It's a cool bucket list type of thing but I'm not in a rush to do it. It wouldn't matter if I was unemployed, as long as I wouldn't be dependent on her for money (she would do it but I wouldn't want that). She used to be as well, and it's not something she judges others for.

nah, they're just delusional fucktards

starving fuckers in Africa would way rather have a box of KD than the popes blessing

i feel kinda bad because i work at this place and we have a pretty young intern and I'd just love to throw a fuck into her. There is another one who must be barely 18 and I would never touch her because of the daughter vibes. I'm really hoping the hot one is at least 22 or something. I'm turning 35 soon.

Nice how u gonna enjoy ur bday? A nice massage?

im going to drink and watch youtube probably

nice cheers

On January 27 2023 19:12 CurbStomp2 wrote: i feel kinda bad because i work at this place and we have a pretty young intern and I'd just love to throw a fuck into her. There is another one who must be barely 18 and I would never touch her because of the daughter vibes. I'm really hoping the hot one is at least 22 or something. I'm turning 35 soon.

24 is probably a better starting number but maybe less depending on drinking age. I mean basically they need to be mature and know how to drink, etc. I don't know from my experience it is the sort of thing that just works out or it's not really an option. I have a buddy who was going through late 30s that seemed to always have a date or relationship with mid-20 somethings. It's what he liked and it just worked out that way. Going for teenagers at work is just terribad though dude.

On January 28 2023 16:18 CurbStomp2 wrote: im going to drink and watch youtube probably

lol. I can't remember if you ever hit a bottom where you thought you had no other options but to put down the bottle or die? I vaguely remember you trying AA and not liking it. I can't blame you there. There was a time for me where drinking about 40 units of alcohol and watching YouTube was the pinnacle of life for me. Sad really. I feel for you brother if you are even a legitimate poster. The sadder thing is the only thing I do different now is I have a worse job, find the pump a few times a week, and read Byung-Chul Han instead of YouTube. On some level it works. It works better than having no job, drinking more than 40 units of alcohol, and crying on the couch because the effect is over and ruined. I was so angry that I hurled the bottle of Hennessey across the room and even angrier that I only had 1 fucking bottle of Rose' left to drink. Lying to myself because my liquor's top shelf. There was no more lying to myself in that moment at least.

On January 29 2023 04:28 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On January 28 2023 16:18 CurbStomp2 wrote: im going to drink and watch youtube probably lol. I can't remember if you ever hit a bottom where you thought you had no other options but to put down the bottle or die? I vaguely remember you trying AA and not liking it. I can't blame you there. There was a time for me where drinking about 40 units of alcohol and watching YouTube was the pinnacle of life for me. Sad really. I feel for you brother if you are even a legitimate poster. The sadder thing is the only thing I do different now is I have a worse job, find the pump a few times a week, and read Byung-Chul Han instead of YouTube. On some level it works. It works better than having no job, drinking more than 40 units of alcohol, and crying on the couch because the effect is over and ruined. I was so angry that I hurled the bottle of Hennessey across the room and even angrier that I only had 1 fucking bottle of Rose' left to drink. Lying to myself because my liquor's top shelf. There was no more lying to myself in that moment at least.

Well I drink on weekends. On weekdays I have shit to do. I was 4 months without alcohol but it gets boring as fuck.

hmmmmmmmmmmmm

if you can truly moderate timing and quantity you are probably good (for now).

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I was on lunch break today dozing off into contemplation. It was cold, gray, rainy. I realized I don't think I complain as much on here as I used to. About money, or status, or whatever. I don't have thoughts of suicide but do I wish I was never born? Oh yeah, there was an autistic kid wailing for a while in the store and other things too. I realized my birthday was coming up. There is a song by Fontaine D.C. that says to "tell your mother that you love her." I do love my mother. I genuinely tell my mother that I love her but given all of this I am not sure if I wish I were never born. I've been listening to a lot of songs but things have been sticking out. "I want something true, I want something real" - "Wish" by NIN. "Baby we were born to die" - "Born to Die" by Lana Del Rey among many others. I'm doing better but I am not sure if I would rather never been born. I probably need a peak season of Love to be in a place where I would be sure that I was joyful that I was born. Then, a peak season of breakup to wish that I was never born. I think I still feel strongly that suicide is not the answer. Just because I would rather have not been born does not mean I should kill myself. I would have to get to a really lonely, dark place for that to happen I would think. It is different to never having been born because I was born. I am here. Sartre would say I am here. I am free. I am free to be my authentic self. Heidegger would say something like we were thrown into this existence but go walk in a graveyard if you want to start thinking about authenticity. Of course, I want to "be myself", whatever that mean. It's a project. A project that does include constraints and conditioning. Probably, much of which I am not even aware of.

i don't know about the quantity. I usually pass out after 16-20 0,33l beers. if i do that on friday and saturday im betting a doctor would say it's a problem. still it's a very common thing here to be a weekend drunk and it's a bad idea to talk about it to healthcare professionals.

Drinking 16-20 units of alcohol on Friday and Saturday night is not all that interesting. A true alcoholic would take that as a challenge or at least create some self-fulfilling prophecy that leads to a horrible bottom.

This website feels like the twilight zone. What like 10 posters are left who all post rather sporadically? It's bizarre.

yall been watching the last of us? holy shit the ep3 makes me wanna be a fag.