Another Orbit - Page 2

I'm not suggesting you entirely quit forums. Just to try to find something that's a bit more confirming of where you are at and the things you would like to improve in your life. And to ideally balance it with private writing if writing is a particularly important outlet for you (which it seems to be).

TV and film have their places. Just make sure it's damn good TV and good films. The new Narcos season is out and I plan to watch it, I've learned a bunch about the whole Escobar story and drug trade in general by watching this show.

It was an astute observation that I go into autopilot at work. I caught myself completely zoned out a number of times. It is like I have to to deal with the mundanity of the work. I think I bring that home. Take off shoes, get a drink, figure out dinner, do whatever first comes to mind to drown out the mundanity of now being at home at 10pm with nothing to do. It is a vicious cycle. I just found out I am getting put back on the 2nd shift and I feel I really have to plan so this does not become my life. Part of that plan has to be to get my ass in gear on a job search and really figure this out.

I am out of SC for a while due to the hurricane. I am already dreading going back to food prep next week. I definitely need to find something else but something else that is not such dreadful autopilot. Working at Trader Joe's might be ok because you switch around the jobs each day. Stocking produce at Whole Foods actually sounds pretty horrible. Scooping ice cream for people all day is another autopilot job. Maybe most jobs are autopilot but I have to move past the really dreadful ones. I am weaning off posting on this site but I am still going to post on this site.

I don't know about the freak show stuff. Neilly was treated like a freak show; I think most people respond to Rik's blogs with sincere intentions. There's a certain amount of the "suicide/depression is for pussies" crowd once in a while, but it doesn't seem especially common.

That said I agree with Loco's general point about needing to find a healthier outlet than these forums.