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milkman United States. Mar 22 2009 22:14. Posts 5719

Well last night i kinda reached the degen tipping point.. ive been drinking and partying pretty much every chance ive gotten and been blowing buyins like its no biggie.. all my rakeback from last month is already gone.. and im on a huge breka even stretch, its a lil over 70K hands now.. i got fed up with full tilt and w/e its deal is.. srsly couldnt take it anymore..

so yesterday i switched my roll over to stars, grinded on there, entered the 27$ freeze out with 40K guar.. i got down to 40 ppl left and instead of continuing to play, i paid bibbobm to play for me and i went off to the bar.. i cant do this shit anymore.. i dont respect poker as a job at all anymore.

Soo ive had a really bad day today.. down 4 buyins to badbeats and misc shit. Each losing day im having im just stepping further and futrther away from my goals and plans.. all of us know poker obv cant really be "Planned" i mean u can say im gonna b at "X" stake in a monht, but a huge bad stretch is gonna fuck u in the ass reguardles.

My internet has been going abs fucking nuts, been timing out when i mass table.. so i guess im just gonna keep 8 tabling and keep improving my game and trying to keep my head on straight and not lose it all during this stretch.. after not winning for so long its easy to stop making the good value bets and overall lose 2 much profits in the only opportunities u see during your session..

Ive been thinking about setting a rule for my self where i cant spend any money on just for "fun" things.. but at the same time, the only reason i play poker is to have fun.. so if im gonna torch my roll, i might as well have fun while i do it... i duno, i was gonna say i cant spend any "fun" money until i make 10BI from this point on.. but its spring break over here in oregon and that would mean i couldnt drive to the beach or buy beer.. so i duno...

Im not going to buy anything stupid that i dont need, and im not going to the bars, and im not going to try and "ball" it up at all.. OH and 1 more key thing.. im not going to spend any money on any girls.. if i take a girl out to dinner or she wants to hang out or anything, she is paying her half.. i think i blew 300$ so far this month on taking girls out and partying with girls and buying girls dirnks and shit.. it didnt all go to waste, i deff got some stuff out of it, but im done doing it for a while... SO basically be a money nit untill i see some progress pulling my self out of this very long and exhausting break even stretch..

as far as my months goals, i feel like im pretty well on track, my goals where these

Keep iron man (the highest level)
30K hands, none of them forced.
Have a better winrate then last month.
Figure out whats up with me and this girl and either end it all or get something really going.
Keep working on iphone app, its semi unstuck right now, want to get the ball rolling faster b4 the end of the month.
Learn to cook at least 3 new meals.
Dont get black out drunk, only did 1 time last month but i duno if that was my fault or not.
Dont buy anything i dont need, no watches or clothes.. maybe 1 bottle of patron tho.
Learn and produce some things in blender(its a 3dmodeling program, not a actual blender).
Dont take anymore shots till next month.
Get ready financially and planned for vegas..

so far whats left is: to have a better winrate then last month (LOL), id like some more progress on my iphone app, 1 more cooking meal.. and work some things out in blender.. and i am basically financially planned for vegas.. the plan is im going broke if i dont pick things up soon lol.

8 days left in march but its still do-able..

cept the winrate part, i dont think thats gonna happen lol.

anyway i know when my blog goes all poker based it kinda gets gay.. but thats waht im really trying to focus on my life right now.. girls lately have been treating me like one big wallet and i got super tilted last night and told the girl form the above march goals to go fuck her self.. more or less i actually just wanna take a break from these fucking shitty girls, if i run into anyone decent im sure ill give it time, but im tired of trading dinners and shopping and entertainment for girls to take their pants off.. its not as much satisfaction as it was back in the day.. i think living with clay and eric really showed me how to mix poker money with girls... (to an extent) lol... clay mostly, eric has 2 many baller instincts, but living with clay, i mean he had nice gfs and stuff and always dealt with it in a good way, if i was him id be blowing thousands to have a million diff girls up on my nuts every night, but the way he deals with things is waht i honestly think is the best way.. funny cuz hes like 19 still and has managed girls and money much better then me.. but hes got more experience with money lol..

anyway im stoaked for vegas and excited to get back together with my friends again, going to vegas in jan for my birthday was the most fun ive had in forever and i really cant wait to see the group again..

ill prolly update at the end of the month, wish me luck.

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BalloonFight United States. Mar 22 2009 22:22. Posts 1380

Great post milkman, gl with everything~

acdawg712 United States. Mar 22 2009 22:28. Posts 2639

good luck, at least you got a nice house.

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Loco Canada. Mar 22 2009 22:35. Posts 21004

this blogpost sucks for us! but I understand it's what you need to focus on.

clay looks like one of the best people to be friends with on this site tbh

fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount

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CrownRoyal United States. Mar 22 2009 23:20. Posts 11386

gl milkman sorry to hear about your woes.

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Silver_nz New Zealand. Mar 22 2009 23:45. Posts 5647

i look forward to seeing you at the weekly meetings of the life nit club. 8D

CrownRoyal United States. Mar 22 2009 23:48. Posts 11386

i should probably join the life nit club maybe I could get somewhere in life if i did. Partying 5-6 days a week and filling my truck up 3-4 times a week and drinking patron and eating out and shit is expensive.

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Silver_nz New Zealand. Mar 23 2009 00:23. Posts 5647

I recommend it!
Instead of going to bars I head to the library and strike up awkward conversations! instead of beer I drink fruitjuice mixed with lemonade! bicycle is my main form of transport. I enter all my expenses into my accounting software (gnucash) its all worth it when at the end of the month I get to see my graph and masturbate over all the money I am saving!

lol

becoming a lifenit is not easy to do all at once. milkman your goals seem to be reasonable, you just need to stick to them. imagine yourself being solid and sticking to your plans, gl

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milkman United States. Mar 23 2009 03:07. Posts 5719

On March 22 2009 23:23 Silver)Z( wrote:
I recommend it!
Instead of going to bars I head to the library and strike up awkward conversations! instead of beer I drink fruitjuice mixed with lemonade! bicycle is my main form of transport. I enter all my expenses into my accounting software (gnucash) its all worth it when at the end of the month I get to see my graph and masturbate over all the money I am saving!

lol

becoming a lifenit is not easy to do all at once. milkman your goals seem to be reasonable, you just need to stick to them. imagine yourself being solid and sticking to your plans, gl

guys dont get carried away, im just taking a temporary break.. if i become silver i promise ill kill my self.

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Silver_nz New Zealand. Mar 23 2009 21:52. Posts 5647