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Xervean United States. Mar 02 2009 00:44. Posts 682 | | |
Hey guys, I havent posted in a long time. As you know im probably the biggest degenerate in the history of this site. My life hit rock bottom a few months back and I didnt have a dollar to my name. I was buried in a mountain of debt and became incredibly depressed. I was forced to suffer the humiliation and move back in with my parents. Unable to get a job in finance which is what my degree is in because of bad credit I just sat around all day and began intensive reading. I read probably 30-40 books in the period of a few months on topics such as philosphy, religion, physics, history, psychology etc. I began practicing Zen and started to feel empowered and full of confidence again. I hadnt had that feeling of supreme confidence in years. I started talking to old friends and one of them decided to have faith in me and stake me in 10nl a little less than a month ago. I created a new alias ZenMagick to avoid the negative image that I have gathered over the years. I posted frequent blog entries of my progress on that account and ran at 20ptbb over 20k hands. I took the comptia A+ exam a few weeks ago and passed it, and was recently hired for a job working on computers which I start tomorrow. I have managed to workout a plan to get all of my credit card debt paid off and I am really excited to have my life back on track.
As for poker, im not at all concerned with moving up stakes or taking shots in games anymore. I really am thankful just to be playing 50nl deepstacked games on FTP grinding 4 tables and pulling in a few thousand a month. I mean will I move up to higher stakes? Absolutely! But to be honest im really not in that big of a hurry. I have been dirt poor for so long I really do finally understand the value of money.
It was sad for me to see a few weeks ago that asdf2000 finally called it quits. I didnt know him personally but I have followed his posts through the years and noticed a lot of similarities between our poker histories. It is very unfortunate that he was unable to overcome his personal demons. I am impressed that he stuck with his word and really quit poker. On the flipside I am inspired by NeillyJQ who seems to have been able to overcome his degeneracy. Also I would like to say that my old buddy Trey who used to busto almost as often as me has really made me proud and continues to inspire me by becoming a 5/10 regular and seemingly has overcome his destructive tilt tendancies.
So I will now say it, and it shall be law. If ever there comes a day when my poker account reads 0.00 again. Then that will be the last day you will ever see Xervean at a poker table.
ps. want to give a thanks to all those who have put up with me and my constant bad beat stories and negative attitude over the years and done nothing but give me good advice; specifically ket, yomer, trey and twistedecho. I promise those days are over, and I will be nothing but positive from here on out!
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TheTrees United States. Mar 02 2009 01:01. Posts 1592 | | |
very nice bro. Glad to hear it. Life is awesome  . Stay positive and good things will happen |
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RainyDay Korea (South). Mar 02 2009 02:12. Posts 484 | | |
congrats on your recovery |
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RainyDay Korea (South). Mar 02 2009 02:13. Posts 484 | | |
also can you list or pm me the books that you thought were the most useful/informative? |
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PoorUser  United States. Mar 02 2009 02:42. Posts 7472 | | |
having neilly as your inspiration will surely lead you down the wrong path again
goodluck hope this works out |
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YoMeR United States. Mar 02 2009 02:53. Posts 12438 | | |
| | On March 02 2009 01:42 PoorUser wrote:
having neilly as your inspiration will surely lead you down the wrong path again
goodluck hope this works out |
ahahaha this is funny.
my boy is makin me proud! |
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chris United States. Mar 06 2009 02:16. Posts 5507 | | |
didnt know travis (asdf) quit poker ) O_O what happened? i didnt know trey used to tilt bad  |
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