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So i decided to take a few days off the tables, but I returned yesterday. Tightened up a bit, stopped bleeding money, which I think was a leak of mine before, I was playing a bit too spewy, and that style didnt seem to work out so well on NL25.
Well, first it started off very good, but then I started getting some suckouts and ran into a few setups, well end of story, I didnt gain any money, I actually lost even more. I received my rakeback from last month a few days ago, so my bankroll was on 400$ again. But now its about 330..
Oh well, not sure what i'm supposed to do. Im about to lose my confidence in my skills. Last month I really fighted and could turn a losing month into a winning one, and actually I felt like I crush the limit, but nowadays I feel like I don't even have an edge somehow. I expected a lot from this month, and instead it seems like I can't even beat NL25 which feels really pathetic and fucks with my mind a lot. Especially because I used to be a winner on NL200( but more than a year ago.. games probably gotten a lot tougher and maybe I suck now.. ).
Everybody seems to make money, and I feel like I cant even beat these silly stakes anymore... quite depressing.
I think if I won't have success with poker soon I might as well completely quit. But that would not make me very happy, because I dont like to give up. 
But after all it was maybe only a fluke that I used to have success... ahh I really don't know anymore.
Oh well end of rambling post..
Here's my updated monthly graph. Down 18 buyins lol.
GL guys...
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Ezekiell Hungary. Jan 17 2009 15:59. Posts 718 | | |
i'm sorry to see this, but believe me, downswings are part of the game. all u can do in times like these is to move down fast, lose less money, and eventually it will end. oh, and dont tilt, that kills your bankroll!  be strong and prevail! |
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Thanks alot man. You're probably right, ill move down a bit. But the problem for me is, that playing NL10 on FTP is kinda useless because of the immense high rake they take :/. But w-ever, probably going to do this for a while. |
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Uptown . Jan 17 2009 20:30. Posts 3557 | | |
I think the key for you is an honest assessment of whether this downswing is coming from just variance, poor play, or because your skillsets are inadequate. Once you can pinpoint the problem (or a combination of these), then you know what you need to do to get yourself back on your feet. Even if you find that the issue is that "you aren't good enough" (which sounds terrible), all it means is you need to focus more time on "getting better" and is by no means the end of the world.
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Thx uptown.
Your comment really has a great amount of value. The main problem is, that I currently have no real idea why it is happening. It probably is a combination of a lot of factors. I have no confidence in my game any longer, and on top of that, I feel that I am running quite bad, but I think I also do a lot of bad plays, and mistakes, and I have problems thinking about some important decisions during the last few days. I often tend to talk myself into bad plays instead of being disciplined and overthinking the situation again.
And another problem is, that once I start playing a session with a free mindset, as soon as I lose money, I start feeling bad again, and then the circle seems to start again. Today for example, I played another session, and of course I lost again.
Soon my whole bankroll will be busted, if that stuff continues to go on. I got 260$ left. This is not even half appropriate for NL25.
Shit is making me sick... If I think back, a couple of weeks ago I was sitting on 630$ + 220$ RB.
And now I wasted ALL OF it..... I basically wasted all my effort in december... all the time all the effort was worth a shit. |
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