Oh lawd

heart breaks happen but time heals and in the meantime i will use what devonx told me along the lines of "get a grip". You can overcome this n crush life again. heart break does hurt been there but it wasn't all her fault some of it was mine -_-; but if i can overcome it you can too. This is why im just having fun and not getting into another monogamous relationship cause its brutal. wishing you well brother.

Sucks man. But yep, she's definitely a piece of shit. Be glad it didn't last longer

Imagine being the other guy. Ouch. Dodged a bullet. You're basically Phil Hellmuth now

I'm just gonna say it. Be glad you're out already. Many guys learn the truth about their girl when they're many years into a relationship. You got off easy. It might not diminish your pain much to realize this but it's the truth. No kids, no shared finances, not even pets. So you lost a job you wouldn't have had without meeting her, big deal. You got laid and had your fun. In the future don't put all your eggs into the same basket. Whether it's poker or a girl, you can't invest so much emotionally into one thing. Life will disappoint you a lot more often than not. Be careful what you wish for etc. She wasn't perfect and you got to experience the best parts of her already, the rest is delusion, you're still high off the oxytocin. It will pass.

Yeah thanks guys. 1 of my friends says he's envious of the position I'm in. If you were given a mission that you get free blowjobs and get to bang a hot girl every now and then without ever having to spend a dime on her, or even pick her up because she'll uber to your house and then go home, would you accept that mission? And that yeah, her real boyfriend definitely has it bad. Dude has no idea I exist, much rather not be him, and if I somehow end up with her then I'll become him in the future no doubt. I literally cried over her last night. I found one of my dress shirts that I wore for her that was still clean and of course it still smelled like her and I just lost it. Tears and everything. I starting doing mass pushups and pullups to try and burn off the adrenaline. You ever work out while screaming in pain sobbing? It was wild if not shameful. Then I passed out for a couple of hours from exhaustion. Felt a lot better today. She actually reached out to gossip about work which I was surprised about, so I entertained it, told her it was good to hear her voice, and then we ended the call.

In the meantime I am considering just living off my bankroll to take some much needed time away from everything. Just going to the beach every day and not much else. Thinking about joining crossfit. Maybe meet someone there, or at least improve myself for the next chance encounter.

If you don't enjoy being the side piece (clearly you don't) then you absolutely need to go no contact. Anything else is masochism. Don't feed her ego by entertaining her calls while she's bored when she has rejected you, that shows a lack of self-respect and low self-esteem, and she knows that unconsciously, which guarantees that she can never look at you as someone she would want to build a life with. Restraint here and establishing firm boundaries is the basis for any further self-improvement.

Yeah I dont have it in me to block her, but I wont be initiating any further contact with her. And if/when she initiates, I'll just ignore it for hours, perhaps until the next day, just so she can see I've totally checked out. The sad thing is she actually showed me some of the texts he sends her during the breakup moment. She's in a full blown verbal abuse relationship. The dude literally calls her cunt, whore, moron, stupid, idiot, with lots of fuck you's and fuck that, etc. It's outlandish how much he says, and how she lets herself be degraded by him. Even worse is he's several years younger than her! What a disgusting dynamic, letting a little boy talk to you like that. I know these women are completely broken and there's no future with her now for going back to that. And just to clear my head I actually drove by her house last night and saw his truck there, which in a way was a bit of a relief since it allows me to close the door for good recognizing that he's over there getting his dick sucked right now after calling her a stupid bitch and then getting more a few hours later.

I jumped on Hinge and got 3 phone numbers already from some kinda average girls, and one date lined up for Friday. Honestly not really interested in any of it and jumped the gun WAY too soon but who knows, maybe it'll work out for the best.