September sucked. Its my first month as a purely professional player and things definitely didnt go my way. First of all, I played tons of wcoop events and never really got anything going, I cashed in a couple of them but nothing big and i probably dropped about 6k in the wcoop totally given that I bought into the $5200 main event directly.
HU hasnt been going good at all. To summarize, in the first half of the month I played pretty terrible. I tried to maintain dicipline by playing only 2/4 but for some reason I have get this retarded feeling that I somehow "deserve" to play higher and I spew a ton on 2/4 cause it feels like so little money or whatever. Obviously this is such a retarded irresponsible mindset to have and it caused me to make alot of spewy negraneu calls and stuff like that. After doing this for like two weeks on and off I got my shit together and started playing pretty well again. Unfortunately, lady luck decided to punish me for being a retard.
The last two weeks I have been running really bad. I lose all my coinflips, constantly get sucked out on and just keep running into the top of my opponents range. It sucks but I have been getting alot better at asessing if Im running bad or just playing bad, and I am 99% confident that I am running significantly below expectation. It used to tilt me so bad when I had poor results and I kept doubting myself thinking that maybe I was just a terrible poker player and I had been lucky all this time.
I am still in a pretty bad fucking mindset right now though. This month I am break even at 2/4 over 40k hands and that is definitely making me feel pretty worthless. I think if I played my A-game at all times a 40k break even stretch shouldnt even be possible for me. Who knows though, variance in HU is pretty crazy. Poker is so brutal, when you have a killer month you feel like gods gift to poker and just completely indestructible. After two very mediocre months I feel useless and this obv makes me play worse aswell.
It feel pretty shitty to only have made around $5k on my first month as a full time professional poker player. I mean, I dropped out of school because of alot of things but I am playing poker to get rich. That is pretty much the only thing that keeps me doing this. If I was to regularily make 5k a month I would just do something constructive with my life instead. Poker is fun and I enjoy my free time but hey, it isnt that fucking rewarding and I feel that if my bank account isnt rapidly growing poker is just a complete waste of time.
My goal is to make $20k/month atleast, if I cant do that then fuck this game. Owell, no use in weeping of the past, as for the future I have set some goals to keep me motivated etc.
GOAL#1
I really need to stop cashing out so much. The last few months I have just been cashing out compulsively, like, whenever I have a bad session I cash out 2-3k for no real reason that that I feel like it. I think its good cause it helps me save up money but enough is enough. My roll just keeps dwindling down and Im not really rolled for 3/6 anymore. Not that this matters because I cant get action on ipoker 3/6 to save my life. Which brings me to my next goal:
GOAL#2
I want money on multiple sites.
I want to have a roll for 2/4 and 3/6 on atleast three sites. It is pretty easy to get alot of action on 2/4 on ipoker but as I am aiming for 3/6+ I think it is definitely necessary to have money on alot of sites. Basicly, I want to be able to have a solid +4 table HU grind whenever I want. This is definitely not possible on just one site. I want money on stars cause of the good action and my love for the software, the third site will probably be some microgaming site or maybe maybe maybe full tilt. We will see.
GOAL#3
Log 100k hands in october. This is definitely possible since I will be playing mostly 2/4 and I have improved my multitabling skills alot and I can more comfortably 4-5table or even 6-table HU, I also plan to structure my life more with logging three 2 hour sessions each day.
GOAL#4
Work out more bitch! I might have mentioned this in an earlier blogpost but I am planning on running stockholm marathon next summer. Being in the poor poor shape I am in now I definitely need to start running asap. I plan on running 3-4 times a week for starters and hopefully this will help me play better and lead a more happy balanced life in general.
To finish this long rambling post up, I have been doing some coaching recently and I have really been enjoying it. The hourly coach sessions I do have been fun and hopefully educational. What I think I will enjoy even more though is the long term coaching. I have taken on k2o4 as a long term student and even though we havent fully gotten started yet I am very exited. He seems to be a smart guy who definitely is eager to learn so I think this whole coaching thing is going to be an awesome experience for both of us. I cant wait to watch him grow into a 200nl killing machine.
First of all, thanks everybody for the great response. Many very good players have been telling me im way undercharging but meh, I will keep the rate of 150$/h for now.
Secondly, alot of people have been asking me about long term coaching deals. For now, I have one long term deal set up with k2o4 and to ensure he will get the best experience out of it I have decided to keep it that way. Im still doing coaching per hour but I only want one long time student at the time so I will be able to devote enough time to him to make it worth the wile.
I will update the blog again once I have time for another long term student but I already have another player at the top of that waiting list.
It's Shinji Sasaki's (professioanl fighter) entrance theme, instrumental piece that's really good imo. Tried googling but I guess he's just not well known enough in the english speaking world for me to find any info and I don't speak japanese.
I cut out the entrance bit from the last shooto event which has most of it: http://mihd.net/ia4uhnj
Any help in identifying this song would be greatly appreciated =] The name of the 2nd song would be cool too.
Thanks.
I'd offer money on stars for it but I only have money on crypto, and they don't have p2p transfer.
EDIT: Chuiu on TL knew it, Yoshida Brothers - Storm
As most of you know I dropped out of school recently and I have tons of free time that I didnt have before. Therefor I have decided to start coaching!
I dont even know if anyone is interested in coaching but w/e. I will mainly focus on coaching HU since I consider that to be my best game. I still consider myself a pretty good 6-max player but having played almost only hu for several months now my 6-max game is definitely a little rusty.
Here are my results from midstakes HU:
I think I have a very solid HU game and I have a good grasp of what 6-max players struggle with when trying to get started playing HU. I have alot to teach and I think i personally would enjoy coaching alot, and hopefully so will you guys.
My rate is $150/h which i consider to be pretty cheap so yeah, send me a PM if you are interested and well set something up. Feel free to ask any questions about anything here in the blog aswell.
Just a heads up for all of you donkament players out there, ipoker is hosting a $1500+80 donkament tomorrow with a 2,5 mill guaranteed. They have been advertising it and running sattelites forever so it should be a huge donkfest like most ipoker donkaments.
After taking 11th in the million last sunday for 7,5k, Ive been using that money to play 2/4 HU on stars. Its fucking awesome. Nobody knows me there and I get constant fucking action from bad regulars. I have in just a couple of sessions turned that 7,5k into 16k
I also love the software. If the wcoop doesnt eat up my starsroll completely I might start playing there regularily. The last few weeks I have been kinda struggling at ipoker. I havent been getting alot of action at all and the action I have gotten hasnt really been super +ev. I have noticed that just switching sites for a while really helps beating yourself out of a negative spiral so I definitely want to have money on atleast two sites, preferibly 3.
Speaking of the wcoop, I cashed in the first event, just busted 847th for $346. I think I played well throughout the donkament, I made one misstake in the first hour but thats the only one I can think of. Im starting to realize how huge it is to draw good tables. I was just running over my table after the 3rd break sooo much. Cards didnt matter, I just took down every single pot I entered with agression.
I loved the structure in this first event, and I hope the rest of the events will be similar. I never really felt forced to do anything radical due to the blinds getting huge or anything, we could actually play poker all the way which is awesome and gives me a huge edge. I feel I have gotten alot better at donkaments and I am very excited for the coming events in the wcoop. Run good one time plz!
So, yeah. I dropped out. Went for the first day of school, instantly realized I didnt want this and left a happy man. Ive been really torn about this whole thing but the instance I dropped out I could feel it was the right thing to do. I am going to try and get into medschool, until then I will play poker and enjoy myself.
One thing I have promised myself after my last 6 months of playing poker professionally is to maintain some structure in life. Last time my sleeping schedual got really fucked, I didnt eat very well and my appartment was a mess. I also gained like 5kg in weight which sucked. I have decided to run stockholm marathon next summer so I will have to start running very regularily which I think will help me stay focused on poker and just keep myself healthy in general.
As for poker, I decided to split my roll over several sites. I just get way to little action on ipoker so I figure I will ship in like 15k on microgaming and try to get a good grind going there. I also now have like 9k on stars after my sunday score and that is enough to grind 2/4 imo. Hopefully I can play 2/4 on three diffrent sites and grind up a 3/6+ roll on all of them. My stars roll is going to take a huge beating during the wcoop though so we will see how that goes.
As a huge bad beat start of my new life I have gotten really sick. I have a fever and just feel like shit. I have been sick so frequently the last year it tilts me to no end. Its probably just a reflection of my bad and unhealthy lifestyle and this is something I really want to change. Also, I turned 23 today and I cant go out drinking to celebrate. Such a sick fucking beat.
August hasnt been great. I was making a sweet recovery but jesus wanted diffrent and I dropped like 8k over the weekend. I have been playing very sloppy and unfocused so I deserve poor results.
As always after a crappy weekend I turn to the big sunday donkaments for comfort, hoping that this week I might score big. I ran superwell in the sunday million, at one point I was pretty much dead after this nasty hand:
Fortunately I shipped in 67s the hand after that one and got it in against two ppl who both held JJ. I rivered the flush and got back into the game. I ran well, mostly in table draws. I spend quite alot of time on tables where I could just run over ppl completely and build a huge stack. After building a healthy stack I proceeded to run superhot catching AA against KK, sucking out on AA with KK etcetc.
With 12 or something left I am chipleader and I start glancing at the top 3 payouts getting a little excited. I fail with a couple of steals but still have a healthy stack and this happens:
I have no idea what this guy is doing shoving 7 mill with AQ but its 6-handed and I have JJ ffs. Cant fold obv it just sucks that I had to put my donkament life on the line in a flip when I felt the remainder of the players where pretty bad. Then again, if I win that flip Im in suuuuuch good shape to completely pwn the donkament and just rape the final table.
Right now I feel disapointed but as soon as it sinks in I think I will be glad that I atleast made 7,5k. After dropping 4k in ftops im now up 3,5k in donkaments so with rakeback I suppose Im booking a 6k month.
Not really excited about that result obv but as I said previously, I dont think I deserve anything more with the way I have been playing in cashgames.
School starts in a few hours and I cant really say I am excited at all. It was sweet to meet up with friends but fuck, I dont really feel like studying at all.
I have been thinking ALOT about dropping out and I still havent decided what to do.
Pros with studying:
I my classmates alot, hanging out with them is sweet and school isnt all to hard most of the time.
Gives me some sort of structure in life.
Getting an exam is a good thing.
cons:
I hate 90% of my courses. This shit doesnt interest me and I feel like im not learning shit.
I really dont want to work as a journalist ever, ever.
School is interfering with my poker career. I loose focus and generally I have in the past done very poorly in poker during the terms.
Therapy session over. Thanks everyone who railed my million run, take care kids!
EDIT2: Before anyone takes this the wrong way, I'm not actually THAT titled - I don't even have to move down (although I probably will play less 5/10 just for a while). It just feels good to rage a bit :D
Anyway, even though I have ran pretty bad it's not like I'm without leaks, and I don't consider myself to be "one of the best 5/10 players at ipoker" by any stretch, I'm probably a dog in many of the games but I generally table select well.
So while I don't think any of these are LPers: XynDen, stop winning flips with your pocket tens. LCFan, god damn you and your weird play. That is all, I need breakfast.
EDIT: An alternative title could be "I'm a stubborn donkey who doesn't know when to quit".
FUCK FLIPS (this is the 3rd time I write this, the first time I was tilted, the second time I was oddly less tilted after having to re-write my post from accidentally clicking a link, now the 3rd time I'm re-tilted as I forgot to fill in my blog title and have to do everything all over again - SIGH).
Todays session(s):
A huge FU to that.
This month (actually more like the last 1.5 weeks)
A huge sigh to the allin EV.
Weird spot http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/514342 - In hindsight I think I should just be betting here until he raises, get value from 8s to Ts, maybe even jacks. Esp. with a spade.
http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/514139 - I was seriously considering folding here, thought he could only really have KK -_- But I timed down and called at the very last second.
First session of today Im 4-tabling 2/4 hu. I have this random guy on two of my tables, I stack him on both pretty quickly and he seems bad. He leaves one of the tables and stays on the other, chipping up a decent stack with some luck and some good play. I pound on him pretty bad and I can tell he is getting very frustrated.
He instapots both streets and Im pretty sure he is weak in this spot and I know I will represent sick strenght shoving the turn. This given the good equity of the hand itself makes for a pretty automatic shove imo. He starts tanking and I start thinking "HE IS WEAK, IM.. IM IN GOLDEN!" As his timer runs down I suddenly realize Im sitting at a table with fucking disconnect protect! Jesus fucking chirist, I never sit at those but I musthave by misstake. Obv the little cheating faggot "disconnects" and gets a free showdown with his crappy top pair.
I call him out on his bullshit calling him a cheater etc when he conveniately comes back 30 sec after showdown. He claims to be at a hotel with bad connection. LOL
Now usually I would leave the table to prevent getting cheated again but fuck, this guy is now up on me and Im getting my fucking money back from this asshole.
Unfortunately he runs good, I run bad and I play kinda meh. There are some spots where I think I should have shoved but wussed out. All in all, he was being really aggro, especially on the river. He also called down like two streets with random overs rutinely however everytime I called him he had magicly hit on the river.
Even fish are hard to play when they have momentum and this guy was really spazzy. At one point he is sitting with $2,4k and Im sitting with $400. Now Im contemplating just leaving and cutting my losses cause things arent going my way at all. I just cant get over the fact that the guy cheated! I calmed down, told myself that this guy is a huge fish and if I just play well and diciplined I will get all his money.
I start taking down more and more pots, gaining some momentum and overall just playing better and the big turning point comes in this hand:
I played it kinda weird and Im not sure if I like my CiB on the flop all that much but I had done it before and he just clicked it back to me with complete air. Turn and river are pretty standard though. SHIP!
After that hand it was only a matter of time before he blew up so I tightened up a bit and waited for a good spot to get it in:
Im usually pretty manner at the tables, if someone needles me I might needle them back but thats about it. In general I believe you should always behave calm and politely at the tables and I see no reason to be an ass.
Cheaters, however, I consider fair game. They are like a rapist in prison. I can do whatever the fuck I want to them without feeling bad or anything so after winning that hand I went medieval on his ass. In short i told him thank you, called him an ugly cheater and thought out loud about what I was going to buy for all his pretty money. For a moment I felt like frinkx, I trashtalked like a fucking champ!
In turn he went nuts, rebought and called me a fish etc etc. Now one of the most beautiful things in heads up poker is when your opponent is tilting and you are making hands. Its just wonderful. Pure fucking joy. It actually felt like the universe was punishing this faggot for being a spineless cheater.
Unfortunately the hand histories dont record the chat but I can assure you I thanked him properly at showdown in all of those hands.
I ended up 2,2k on this faggot and it feels so GOOOOODDD!!! SHIP IT!
I also played a short session against ScHnibL0r at 2/4. Hes originally a high stakes limit player I think(?) and I think that showed in some of the plays he made but all in all I think he played solid and he ended up taking a buyin from me before leaving. Starcraft fighiting!!!
Also, KRANTZ is fucking hilarious. Its worth a deucescracked subscription just to hear him tell stories in some of his videos, he just cracks me up completely every time.
Wow, today was brutal. It started the minute I sat down at the tables this morning. I just felt this sick rage building up inside of me for no reason but it didnt bode well. I definitely wasnt 100% focused when I started out at I should have just stayed off the tables completely but meh, I want to play poker.
I lose a couple of pretty brutal pots and continue the august trend of just running really bad and not getting anything going for me. I played about 1k hands on more or less tilt but it was only on 400nl and I was playing against complete retards so I never really considered playing my b+ game to be -ev or anything. I actually quite enjoyed playing with rage, perticulary against one opponent who was really, really bad and won tons of money against me in like 5 min. I was angry but I simulated complete monkey tilt against this guy as good as I could, reraising hands to like 10bbs to a minraise etcetc trying to stir up the action and make him make huge misstakes in bloated pots when deep.
My "monkey tilt" worked out great cause I picked up some hands, unfortunately it all culminated in this hand:
I took about 1k back from him before he left though and I finished the first session down about 3,5k and very unsatisfied.
I sat down again for another session later on and this time I was really focused, controlled and I played really well. Unfortunately I ran like shit, for every buyin I won from making a great bluff, calldown or valuebet I lost one to pure bad luck. At one point I actually felt physicly bad and though I might trow up if I took another beat.
All of a sudden, my hands started holding! I wasnt running perticularily good imo but everytime I got it in good I held and I was just shipping the money left and right. Leaving a session thinking you played great and having results to show for it is an awesome feeling.
I really think I have bumped my A-game up a notch or two and if I only could manage to actually play my A-game more often I will be rich as a rich duck.
Wow, this became a real wall of text. Didnt really mean for that to happen but w/e. Heres todays graph, dont try this at home kids:
Ending with one of the best songs ever made:
Oh, I should say, Its also one of the worst music videos ever made. To think somebody actually got paid to make that horrible thing is scary. Dont watch it, just listen.
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