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SakiSaki   Sweden. Sep 30 2008 11:39. Posts 9687 | | |
September sucked. Its my first month as a purely professional player and things definitely didnt go my way. First of all, I played tons of wcoop events and never really got anything going, I cashed in a couple of them but nothing big and i probably dropped about 6k in the wcoop totally given that I bought into the $5200 main event directly.
HU hasnt been going good at all. To summarize, in the first half of the month I played pretty terrible. I tried to maintain dicipline by playing only 2/4 but for some reason I have get this retarded feeling that I somehow "deserve" to play higher and I spew a ton on 2/4 cause it feels like so little money or whatever. Obviously this is such a retarded irresponsible mindset to have and it caused me to make alot of spewy negraneu calls and stuff like that. After doing this for like two weeks on and off I got my shit together and started playing pretty well again. Unfortunately, lady luck decided to punish me for being a retard.
The last two weeks I have been running really bad. I lose all my coinflips, constantly get sucked out on and just keep running into the top of my opponents range. It sucks but I have been getting alot better at asessing if Im running bad or just playing bad, and I am 99% confident that I am running significantly below expectation. It used to tilt me so bad when I had poor results and I kept doubting myself thinking that maybe I was just a terrible poker player and I had been lucky all this time.
I am still in a pretty bad fucking mindset right now though. This month I am break even at 2/4 over 40k hands and that is definitely making me feel pretty worthless. I think if I played my A-game at all times a 40k break even stretch shouldnt even be possible for me. Who knows though, variance in HU is pretty crazy. Poker is so brutal, when you have a killer month you feel like gods gift to poker and just completely indestructible. After two very mediocre months I feel useless and this obv makes me play worse aswell.
It feel pretty shitty to only have made around $5k on my first month as a full time professional poker player. I mean, I dropped out of school because of alot of things but I am playing poker to get rich. That is pretty much the only thing that keeps me doing this. If I was to regularily make 5k a month I would just do something constructive with my life instead. Poker is fun and I enjoy my free time but hey, it isnt that fucking rewarding and I feel that if my bank account isnt rapidly growing poker is just a complete waste of time.
My goal is to make $20k/month atleast, if I cant do that then fuck this game. Owell, no use in weeping of the past, as for the future I have set some goals to keep me motivated etc.
GOAL#1
I really need to stop cashing out so much. The last few months I have just been cashing out compulsively, like, whenever I have a bad session I cash out 2-3k for no real reason that that I feel like it. I think its good cause it helps me save up money but enough is enough. My roll just keeps dwindling down and Im not really rolled for 3/6 anymore. Not that this matters because I cant get action on ipoker 3/6 to save my life. Which brings me to my next goal:
GOAL#2
I want money on multiple sites.
I want to have a roll for 2/4 and 3/6 on atleast three sites. It is pretty easy to get alot of action on 2/4 on ipoker but as I am aiming for 3/6+ I think it is definitely necessary to have money on alot of sites. Basicly, I want to be able to have a solid +4 table HU grind whenever I want. This is definitely not possible on just one site. I want money on stars cause of the good action and my love for the software, the third site will probably be some microgaming site or maybe maybe maybe full tilt. We will see.
GOAL#3
Log 100k hands in october. This is definitely possible since I will be playing mostly 2/4 and I have improved my multitabling skills alot and I can more comfortably 4-5table or even 6-table HU, I also plan to structure my life more with logging three 2 hour sessions each day.
GOAL#4
Work out more bitch! I might have mentioned this in an earlier blogpost but I am planning on running stockholm marathon next summer. Being in the poor poor shape I am in now I definitely need to start running asap. I plan on running 3-4 times a week for starters and hopefully this will help me play better and lead a more happy balanced life in general.
To finish this long rambling post up, I have been doing some coaching recently and I have really been enjoying it. The hourly coach sessions I do have been fun and hopefully educational. What I think I will enjoy even more though is the long term coaching. I have taken on k2o4 as a long term student and even though we havent fully gotten started yet I am very exited. He seems to be a smart guy who definitely is eager to learn so I think this whole coaching thing is going to be an awesome experience for both of us. I cant wait to watch him grow into a 200nl killing machine.
Thats it for now, take care boys and girls
BOOM
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Kilay   Netherlands. Sep 30 2008 11:44. Posts 1960 | | |
I know you are playing way higher than me so it's hard to judge but I still think it's a very good idea to set yourself some strict goals to follow when things aren't totally going your way, I hope things turn around man, |
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JoeDeertay   United States. Sep 30 2008 12:18. Posts 1730 | | |
Best of luck with everything dude. You're one of the players I respect most on here and I hope everything works out for the best and you start beating 2/4 like a red-headed step child the way you want to and know you can. Teaching is a great way to learn too...so you'll probably get a lot out of it for yourself as well. I thik k2o4 is a good smart player as well, so you guys should be able to bounce a lot off of each other. Anyway, GL! |
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TalentedTom   Canada. Sep 30 2008 14:42. Posts 20070 | | |
" 4-5table or even 6-table HU"
this is not a good idea... even against very weak players playing 3+ tables of different opponents is not wise |
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gymnast   Mexico. Sep 30 2008 15:55. Posts 704 | | |
"maybe I was just a terrible poker player and I had been lucky all this time"
BS, c'mon man, I've been reading you for a couple of months and I know thats complete bullshit, just let's get to work, do your thing, keep movin, keep walking.
good luck with the running business, personally I love runnin and I run when I'm on tilt, helps a lot. |
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SakiSaki   Sweden. Sep 30 2008 16:46. Posts 9687 | | |
| On September 30 2008 13:42 TalentedTom wrote:
" 4-5table or even 6-table HU"
this is not a good idea... even against very weak players playing 3+ tables of different opponents is not wise |
I agree with this on the stars tables. The ipoker tables are pretty damn slow though, playing 6 is like playing 3 on stars imo |
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k2o4   United States. Sep 30 2008 19:54. Posts 4803 | | |
I hope you stop running bad cause I think as your student it is spilling over onto me!!! I swear, Cooler Central is new located wherever my laptop is ^^
I am trying to work out more too - maybe that can be part of the coaching, requiring workouts. Like we do a coaching session and then we both have to go work out for an hour, haha. Anything to keep each other motivated.
Don't worry man, you'll run good soon and pwn it up ^^ |
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sawseech   Canada. Oct 01 2008 02:45. Posts 3182 | | |
told ya sept was fkn rigged |
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lets go fucking mental la la la la lets go fucking mental lets go fucking mental lala la la | |
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remember87   Sweden. Oct 01 2008 07:40. Posts 521 | | |
GL Saki! I know you will get back on track! Also want to say that I love your HH-posts, it gives me motivation to improve my own game! |
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Raidan   United States. Oct 01 2008 11:10. Posts 344 | | |
if u want fulltilt money then PM me |
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cariadon   Estonia. Oct 02 2008 10:20. Posts 4019 | | |
You always come through, Saki. Best of luck to you and K2o4 is lucky to have you as his coach. Gl to you both !! |
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ikc5   United States. Oct 02 2008 10:24. Posts 406 | | |
Only 3-4 times a week and you plan to run a marathon next summer? Damn, I dunno where you're starting from but that sounds unrealistic. Great goal to have though, good luck. |
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MilZo   France. Oct 02 2008 16:50. Posts 1333 | | |
"My goal is to make $20k/month atleast, if I cant do that then fuck this game"
Really really wrong mindset imo, this can be truly dangerous for you as a "new pro". Try to stop thinking like that, and yeah, stop with the fucking cashouts that will make you even more tilted by short term variance. Vicious circle. |
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SakiSaki   Sweden. Oct 03 2008 07:56. Posts 9687 | | |
| On October 02 2008 09:24 ikc5 wrote:
Only 3-4 times a week and you plan to run a marathon next summer? Damn, I dunno where you're starting from but that sounds unrealistic. Great goal to have though, good luck. |
Its not unrealistic at all. I am in terrible shape right now so I obv have to start out slow adjusting my body to running etc and I will increase the length and frequency of my runs as i progress.
| On October 02 2008 15:50 MilZo wrote:
"My goal is to make $20k/month atleast, if I cant do that then fuck this game"
Really really wrong mindset imo, this can be truly dangerous for you as a "new pro". Try to stop thinking like that, and yeah, stop with the fucking cashouts that will make you even more tilted by short term variance. Vicious circle. |
I wouldnt really consider myself a new pro since I have had poker as my only income for about 2 years now but yeah, I see what you mean. Its not like I will go on monkey tilt if I dont spike a 20k month, its more that I think 20k/month is a pretty realistic goal given that I am a 5+ptbb/100 winner over 200k+ hands at 2/4 and 3/6. Playing well will always be my #1 priority though |
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MilZo   France. Oct 03 2008 19:24. Posts 1333 | | |
| On October 03 2008 06:56 SakiSaki wrote:Playing well will always be my #1 priority though |
Cool man, that's what I wanted to make sure of. I know you've been a good player and a winner for a long time, your old 6 max vidz kinda "showed me the way" back in the days.
So thanks for that, and best of luck to you. |
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PplusAD   Germany. Oct 04 2008 18:49. Posts 7180 | | |
Pretty intersting read.
It makes me feel a lot better , that players far superior to myself can make the same mistakes , too..
this vicious circle has really kinda put me down a lot lately
- I really need to stop cashing out so much. The last few months I have just been cashing out compulsively, like, whenever I have a bad session I cash out 2-3k for no real reason that that I feel like it
- but for some reason I have get this retarded feeling that I somehow "deserve" to play higher and I spew a ton on 2/4 cause it feels like so little money or whatever.
In my case it is on a lower level moneywise but still this is a terrible thing to do no matter what limits u play.
Like i played Nl200 1 1/2 month ago ... had a bad session -> cashed out -> played Nl100 didnt went too good -> cashed out -> playedNl50 -> didnt care about money -> played NL100 HU again kinda underrolled -> run bad -> cash out even more and leave myself with just like 15 buy ins of Nl50 -> grind it up a bit -> play NL200 again cause Nl50 and Nl100 feels so little oney ...
Bankroll went to Hell |
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YoMeR   United States. Oct 05 2008 14:12. Posts 12438 | | |
your first goal is also something i've been struggling with. good luck tho. |
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Deamon615   United States. Dec 13 2008 16:44. Posts 63 | | |
Taking any action on your goal to run the marathon? I'd gamble against that  |
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