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july suxed, ran bad, played bad.

didnt play to much, only like 50 hours.

ended up +-0 after lots of MTT losses and not winning to much in cashgames..

had a 50NL shot that failed pretty hard.

August ill put in more hands, more hours.

GL


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Moved down to NL10 in late June.
NL25 towards the end, definitely plugging my leaks there imo.

Graph:
http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/d0a946473c67476f8edbbce946b49873.jpg
about ~$250 from rakeback, which is super cool too.

Going for an Iron month in August.

Not much else to say, just got to put in more hands.

Goal is to be winning at NL50 by September. I've said this so many times but I'm a little more motivated this time. Go me.

Shoutouts to panorama (you're cool), response (ship it), semper (wake up on time), mayzerg (everything's a conspiracy), defenestrate (stop being a nit), zalfor (play less tables), shaneomac (more volume plz).


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Gonna put a lot more volume in August, It's going to be great. I am fighting my way back up to 25nl. Artanis is my god.

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I hit Goldstar for the first time everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Now I can get 2x FPP! Fuck you Bronze/Silverstar!


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-$1500 cash
+1300 tourney
+400 bonuses
= +200 month, yay...

hopefully i can actually get my head out of my ass and beat cash this month... /wrists


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Whiffed on almost all my goals except the RL goals. Had a pretty sick NL100 run and i developed some leaks due to the sudden lack of confidence. Hired a coach for 150/hr whose way of looking at FR makes it look hilariously simple. My game has changed a tonne and i feel alot more confident and just know what to do in spots again.

Anyway:

Profit: down 100$~ or so, basically BE
Hands played : 55k (was too depressed to play anymore heh)
RB: 650~
Bonuses: 350
homegames: +350

1300$ month whoopdeedoo.

Going to crush august, i know it

Aug goals:

Hands: 100k
BR goal: 9k , then take a shot at 1/2. drop down at 8k.
Maintain a healthy balance of exercise, social life, and not just staring at the computer all day.

Longterm:

solid winning 1-2 reg during school term.

gl all


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I don't believei 've ever worked this hard in one day

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gonna repeat this tomorrow to hit platinum star. bzikbciuBIUBC!!!


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I'm a harry potter fan. Bigtime. Read all the books and have owned the first 3 movies forever, watched em way too many times. Then the Goblet of Fire came out and totally blew balls so I didn't buy the DVD.

But now that the 6th movie is out I decided I need to rewatch em all so I bought the 4th/5th movies and they just arrived today. I just put Goblet of Fire in with hopes that I wouldn't hate it as much, but so far that has not been the case.

Why does it suck so bad? Mainly because it was one of the best books with an awesome twist and great clues placed from the very beginning to let you try and solve the mystery. But the movie is totally focused on visuals - they cut out all the cool storyline and instead put in new scenes that are visually cool. The story jumps from cool visual scene to cool visual scene, and it is choppy and stupid.

Then they decided to ask everyone to act completely out of character. Dumbledore, who was perfectly acted in the first 2 movies and mediocre in the 3rd by the new guy, becomes totally wrong. He's supposed to be the wise, calm, all powerful stud. But in this movie he's an incompetent angry little old man. He keeps yelling which is something the real dumbledore rarely does. He seems impotent, like in the random scene (which is not in the book) where the ceiling goes all weird and dumbledore looks not only confused, but scared, and then mad eye moody fixes the problem. BULLSHIT. That's not dumbledore at all, he'd be calm and fix it without a second thought. Total crap.

Anyway, it's very tilting to watch them destroy this book. I can't imagine how anyone who didn't read the book could enjoy this movie unless the only thing they cared about was CGI and pretty visuals. Seriously, it was a great story and the movie is a piece of shit.

But for some reason I will let it play the entire way through, just like I do when I get into a starwars mood and rewatch all 6 but force myself to suffer through episode 1.


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Man that took long enough. Dunno why I tortured myself for a week with $13 playing 1/2 cent. If I learned anything I learned one thing, which harks back to what caused my inevitable downfall to begin with, and that was table control. Considering I play one-table exclusively, with a limited bankroll, very certain table conditions must exist in order for me to make a profit. If I played with a larger bankroll and more tables I could comfortably play a certain limit and let variance get washed away by statistics. But I dont. I play a high variance style, so I have to do certain things to try and nullify as many other forms of variance as possible, and most of that revolves around table selecting. Whatever the reasons, if a table is looking to be very high variance already, such as maniacs or stations, I simply have to pack my bags and walk away. I have such ego and poker pride that it kills me every time to do this. However considering penny stakes are mostly maniacs and calling stations I gradually became more and more comfortable telling myself out loud "well you're out of position against two crazies and a station. You have lost control of this table." And then leaving. I literally have to say it out loud for it to have any effect on me.

I was approaching the point in my poker career where I was going to have to seriously ask myself "can you do this?". Last month's success put a little glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. This months failure was just a lesson. I have about 1 step left on the poker ladder before I have to admit I'm a losing player, and that step will finally be coaching. I intend to reload myself for NL50 or NL100 and grind one-table again, and if that fails, I will concede that my thoughts on teaching myself a loose aggressive style with a limited bankroll are flawed and not a winning approach to the game, at which point I will then seek coaching and put my poker career in someone elses hands. And if THAT fails, well I'll probably have to hang it up since I will be nearing the 2 year mark and remember Fayth once saying "if you have yet to turn a profit after 2 years, you should quit poker" which I believe. In fact this looming deadline has been haunting me these last few months, since poker has been my escape route to financial freedom which I so desperately desire. I'm sure I'll find a couple of last second excuses to keep me in the game, like giving a serious run for tournaments (I think I have played like 10) or maybe even be a gay SNG grinder. But those endeavors will cost even more money to finance than 6max cash, and I will be starting from the ground up, so add a bunch of training and practicing in the mix and it might just not be feasible.

For the record, my idea on how to make a living at this game isnt to run a roll all the way up to play durrr and ivey. Once I reach a certain threshold I will then go into super bankroll nit mode and do the whole 300 BI thing to maintain myself at a limit which can pay the bills every month. Something like 5/10 or 10/20 should be livable for a one-table grinder (I have to play higher stakes to make the same monthly profits a lower limit grinder can who plays more tables and hands). I'm simply trying to thrust myself out of months if not years of micro stakes grinding and get to a limit where I can sustain my livelihood quick. Im not too worried about the experiences I'll miss at micro stakes (i have like 100,000 hands at them anyway) as I consider them a total joke anyway and offer nothing to a high stakes pro, not even discipline. The high stakes games are so radically different from micro stakes the two cant be compared imo, so I consider it a waste of time. Basically I'm using my real-life income to finance my poker career rather than using my poker bankroll to finance my poker career.

No interesting graphs to post, my last blog showed my losing sessions and I never recovered so minus another 50 bucks off the top and im officially at 0.

On a side note, I think i might move back to stars. FTP rakeback just turned out to be a big "meh" for me. The most I ever got was like $80 in one week and that was when I was playing 2/4. That is about the size of your average turn bet or flop cbet, so the way I see it, who gives a shit. A months worth of rakeback playing one-table is passed around every 5 minutes just playing normal everyday poker. Plus I am a little bit ticked that I got offered such a weaksauce bonus when other people are getting $500. So fuck it. I kinda miss stars anyway.


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I got some pretty bad news the other day, a friend of mine from highschool who was one of the original regs in our h/s poker game was shot and killed over a bad drug deal. He was the originator of the nickname 'bigred' and one of the coolest guys to play with. RIP TJ Geredine.


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Last few days have been nuts for me, played 30k hands i think 3 days and 20k the other. Was back up to around 9.2k and then of course had a good -million buyin session and was just left demoralized as ever. Even more then when i lost 15k last month playing higher. I sat in bed sad for about an hour and then decided would still give it a shot to make 3.2k last 2 days. Today started off well first session about +1100. My high point for the day was around 1.9k and i was looking good but then of course I don't go to sleep and just keep playing.

http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/cd70f.dayyyyy.jpg

This month

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I mean 29 BI day is possible but I don't think with my mindset right now I can do it. I am going to sleep and give it my best shot but if my first session doesnt go wel tomorrow morning then I am just going to book some of my losing prop bets and call it a month. Earned about 12.5k from fpp/milestones alone so that plus the 7k I made so far is still pretty good.

I made alot of prop bets this month and I am still going to win a few so will actually only end up down around 2.5k-3k in props which I can deal with. I am very excited to get back to a normal life and plan on dating about 15 girls next month to take my mind off poker some. Or I will end up just playing more poker lol idk yet. Some of the comments in my 2+2 thread for me being #1 at nl100 are really funny. Some people hating but alot of really nice people/comments.

I guess in a way it is attention whoring but it does have its positives. The most important for me is the amount of action I will be able to get in future prop bets is made so +++++ev with graphs I post/my threads. Also people just enjoy reading about me swinging 30 BI daily and if I was in their position I would defintly enjoy seeing it also and follow it. idk if this makes sense but I cant really think to straight right now so lol

I guess some positives came out of this month. I figured out I still have my grinding ability and am going to get SuperNova Elite for sure and ship the 100k in bonuses which of course is good. I figured out I need to work on my game and the tilting/dumb fucking plays I make. And I did make like 15k+ so the month wasn't a total failure imo.

I hope they dont have double VPP week first week of august also because then I have to play 24 hours a day then as well

Will update tomorrow with a final month review and who the f knows, maybe I can win 29 BI tomorrow. Well see


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i need to get yo monayZZZ

today: +222 in 5k Hands. 4.5 hours. With another ~70 in rakeback.

plus 60 from my 200 FTP bonus. God, FTP is so nice...

i'll be at over 3k tommorow when my rakeback comes. Should be around ~3.5k. going to start focusing on poker by watching some vids again. Right now my play has been decent, but not too great...

i def. need to improve a lot of my game. i feel like its deteriorated for a wihle since last week.

So far ~50k hands in the last 6 days... $+1.5k or so.


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Not very spectacular

but thats me

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this is awesome

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Had my best month ever by far, don't think I'll swing more then like 2-3k tomorrow and tonight since I'm fairly tired and probably won't play more then like 5k hands at most and probably not too much 10/20. Made ~3 times what I had hopped for which puts me about 30k€ ahead of schedule since I started out playing poker full time in early June. Also reached another milestone and celibrated by giving 50k SEK (~4.5k€) each to my parents. Felt really good and one of my current goals is to make sure that they both can retire with enough money to live comfortably when they turn 60 (in 3 resp. 4 years). To be honest it feels good from a purely intellectual point of view, but also as a way to get rid of the feeling of almost guilt from considering 2-3k€ or whatever they might make in a month "a lost flip" or whatever. And I do note the irony of buying myself free of the guilt I feel when I spew money IRL, but fuck it, it works.

Goals for August are:

Get hold of and start reading Rendezvous with Rama by Arthur C. Clarke, Swedish Poker Author Dan Glimne recommended it and even if I've long considered him a fairly obsolete nit as far as poker goes he really changed my mind when I spoke to him. The old man is really nice, cool and into sci/fi. Also seems to love Heinlein, which makes him a hero in my book.

Play enough hands to get Unibet to by me into Unibet Open Prague, and preferably at least 2k hands/day whenever it's reasonable otherwise too.

Make lots of money. Despite withdrawing a lot since I feel more comfortable having the bulk of my money on stock trading sites and in the bank I'm only a few solid months away from having a Bankroll play 10/20 even when the games are just "so-so" which would probably help me get much better much faster. I've really gotten a lot better the last months or so and I feel that I've probably got a really good shot at making A LOT of money the next 12 months or so.

I'll probably record a video tomorrow. Mostly for my own entertainment since I haven't recorded anything in a while and it makes me all warm and fuzzy to know that people actually likes to watch and listen to me explain shit. It'll probably be something like "how to fuck with 2/4 TAGfish 101" but I'm open for suggestions.


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The next 2 days the blog section will be overrun by boring and annoying posts about peoples month end results and most of the posts won't even get read as they get bumped off the front page so quickly! So hurry up people, go post about your results quickly and let the rush begin! Yeah, I know the month isn't technically over yet, but if you've got a winning month you should just post about it today and not play at all tomorrow so that you can say "Yeah, I won X amount in July, I am awesome".

Sadly I won't be posting a month result post. I quit those. Gonna be doing a year results post. I have a feeling it will be a better picture of the longterm that we all talk about all the time.


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I started out July pretty good, grinded a few days at Dusty, had my best day yet when I got home etc. But then I ruined my pokermonth by taking a 2 week vacation in america. So I havnt been able to play near the amount of hands I had set my goal for.

Since I have been playing on my laptop too its hard to give out a graph for the month so I just put it in numbers:

Online: won ~6k$
played hands: around 20k
Live: lost ~1300$

So I am happy about a solid winning month. Even more happy am I for my game though! I feel I have improved tremendously and I am now ready to be a NL400 reg. Its a decent step, they are much better then NL200 regs but I see leaks in most of them so I hope I can get in some serious grindingtime now in August and see how it goes. If I have another solid month before school starts in September that would be awesome!

Now its of to bed so I can drive to Gothenburg tomorrow to see U2 live!

Cheers!


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UGh this is going to look SOOOOO BAD...

http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a162/sirasoni/july09results.png

Quite possibly the ugliest graph I've had in a while. I look like I run ridiculously +EV, and well, that's because I did, which I'm thankful for because I did feel like I wasn't running well in the non-EV spots that aren't shown in the graph, but this may just be the musings of a luckbox. I had TRUE run good towards the end though (see 5k day entry below). My red line took a fat dump and just killed itself, and is currently nowhere to be found.

+13k Cash Results
+2k Rakeback
-4k Staking
= 11k month!

Pretty happy with how it went monetarily, since the one thing I wanted after last month's loss was a 5 figure month. I feel strange though, I'm not satisfied with how I'm playing and I think if I didn't run awesome this month I would be close to another shitty month. So I'm quitting the month early so I can spend the next few days just trying to improve a ton off the tables, something I honestly haven't been doing enough of.

I'm really excited for the rest of the year though, I'm going to be traveling Asia for the next 5 months, mostly for the APPT circuit. Let me know if any of you are going! August is also FTOPS 13 season, which once again I'll be dumping ridic amounts of money into just to try to bink something only to have my soul crushed as I get deep. WCOOP is in September as well, so basically the remainder of this year will be focused in tourneys, I should start studying .

Also wanted to give thanks to all the people that helped encourage me when my results are shitty. I'm going to write a big blog post in September to mark the 1 year anniversary of the time I wrote the blog post "MSNL to Busto". Some of these people include uptown, exhilirate, tianyuan, mikey, jolin, balloonfight, and a lot more. Your words don't fall on deaf ears

Year-to-Date Results:
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end results ~ - 1000$

August better be good !


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