Failing again. Not gonna stop yet, just for today.
-4bi
Biggest losing day ever (-$200)
I'm surprise I'm not feeling like shit like I felt the day I lost 4bi's on NL25
Amazing that I run so bad when taking shots
Hopefully I will grind my way back!
I'm playing 4 tables while taking shots
Yeah it happened again... hypertilt. http://www.liquidpoker.net/user_pictures/82b49.KEKE.png
I find it really hard not to spew massively at least once in 10 days since I started working. Its like my energy bank is being drained until its really thin and the ice always starts to break and I experience burnout.
Its really easy to spew when your brain stamina is drained 40 + hours per week at your job. I am a spewmonkey at heart, but when I am alert I only use that to my advantage.
Take last Saturday when I was rested - I went on a 5BI downswing, fish were stacking me all over the place, it was pathetic. But I didn't spew once that day and finished 8BI richer.
The same case was on Sunday. I was card dead, and again was pwned. I finished the day break even after 5k hands. But I feeling great sense of accomplishment after going through my larger pots and I couldn't find one fundamental mistake.
I also never got angry whatsoever because of suckouts or one of the 3 KK v AAs.
The only thing that could make me angry was my bad play when I made an automated decision which swould be different should I think about the hand longer.
Same situation today, I encountered some minor troubles (losing 100% of flips).
Correct Adjustment to this is: Nothing. Blank. You don't change your game. Just like I managed at the weekend - at one point I was down 5BI and I felt really great about my game as I knew I played everything close to perfect with information at hand.
But today, 3 days of 24 hours of my job, one exhausting soccer session, 1HR of cardio and one heavy argument with my GF later, I crumbled.
I no longer had the brain stamina to think about what I am doing, and suddenly I was turning my head at every flip I lost. I even punched the desk a couple times when 70vp fish flipped over AA after shove.
Needless to say I also threw out about 2-3 stacks completely, and made some hyper obvious -EV decisions.
Although it was not a hypertilt of a magnitude 2-3 months ago (Yes I am showing improvement), but it was a hypertilt nonetheless.
I don't think there is much more on the poker side that I can do about this. My goal will be to avoid these burnouts completely and find a better life balance.
I am really fat for my standards (I used to to play a game called floorball/unihoc/innebandy for 10 years at the highest level there could be in a pure amateur sport, and I kept gaining weight ever since I stopped)
My sleeping patterns are not good (I don't have a fixed time when I go to sleep really. something between 10PM-2AM)
And I don't relax properly, any suggestions on a proper relaxing activities would be appreciated.
Barry G says that playing Poker successfully and having a busy full-time job is close to impossible, but I will never stop until I can prove him wrong.
P.S.Note: This blog is NOT A RANT ABOUT VARIANCE. Variance is the one biggest reason that we all here can make good money out of poker and anyone ranting about it is an oblivious fish.
yeah... i played 11.913 hands at 10NL now and im up exactly 40c. is it just me or is there quite a difference between 5NL and 10NL. everyone seems to play exactly like me, really nitty. isnt that the way you beat microstakes or is there something one has to do differently at 10NL?
Hello everyone, I'm a constant visitor to this sight and today was the day that decided that it would finally be the time to start blogging and becoming a more active user of the site .
Anyways, I am player on PokerStars and I'm working on becoming a stable NL.50 player with the hopes of achieving a 4-6.5 BB/100 rate in an at least 50K hand sample. I have invested a lot so far so that I can potentially move up to higher stakes and do this shit for a living. I bought HEM along with the Leakbuster program that you can also purchase with it, I subscrided to Card Player Pro on CardPlayer.com so that I can watch poker videos, and I constantly am thinking about stuff I need to improve on (even during school -_-).
Well lately what I have been noticing is that I'll be grinding out winnings through 10-20K hand streaks but whenever I get those FML run bad sessions I seem to tilt way too much and lose more money than I should be losing. I know this is common for everyone but it has been happening to the number of times where I'm starting loose hope in the possibility of beating the low stakes.
So the purpose of this post was to request inspiration from you guys! If it's not too much trouble, I would like to see some stuff like PT or HEM records showing people beating the shit out of the low stakes. People always seem to show records of winning sessions but I pretty much don't see anyone posting 50K+ samples of decent winning rates at a certain stake. If I could just see some records of some regular joe like me beating a stake it would really help me stay motivated and optomistic, and help me not tilt so much from time to time.
Played 12.5k hands this night. Mostly 2/4 and 3/6 with some 1/2 mixed in cause I ran out of tables (tried to have 10 up all time). Won 13.5k or so. Played some funny hands.
i was forced to take off from work today becuase i drank to mucch scotch with my mother. she also took off from work. i threw up in waves around 7:00am, i felt alot better after that. my boss told me i had to work in the city today(manhatten) and me and my shop are in queens. i would have been changing live elecctric panels in a 40 story building. im an elecctrician.
i have been crushing $5 heads up sng's also doing well in 10NL
my fucking god damn c key is broken and inconsistent so if there are any typos just add a fucking c in there and see if it makes sence
After about 7 minutes of playing, I had 350 big blinds and I asked pinball to give me odds on winning this donkament (since I wanted to bet like 10 dollars), but he gave me 2:1 so that kind of sucked.
is everything going wrong? or is everything going right?
I think everything is going as planned.
I had a rough couple of weeks, but i think in the greater scheme of things, this is how its supposed to be. Everything happens for a reason.
1/2 and lol drunken old towniesby JoeDeertay, October 20
Ok, so I'm a little drunk right now so forgive me for any errors in the upcoming post. I went to play 1/2 today at a friend's place and won about $125, and my friend Sam was there and he won $400+, so we decided that when the game broke at 1am to go to a local bar in town. We met up with a few of his cute friends there (although he called dibs on the cutest one early, so fml imo) and started catching up with them quick while the bar was closing in the last half hour we were actually there. While we were chugging pitchers, this one guy kept telling me about how he was 43 and was complaining about his life because he was wasted and was at the bar alone, and kept saying how hot our friends were and that he wanted to get it in with at least one of them. So after last call my friend Sam and I run to a bottle shop like a block away to get there before they close, then we meet up with the chicks we were with outside the bar and chill on a bunch for a while as they smoke a bit and try to sober up. Meanwhile, this old douchebag from the bar walks by and and starts talking shit about how he has a 10 inch dick and he is wondering why the girls are with us instead of him, and all other kinds of bullshit, so I jsut start having fun and going back and forth with him.
Eventually he says that he really only has a 7 inch dick but it's really thick around, so I tell him he has a chode and he thinks I called him a toad, so he gets pissed and throws this bag he is holding at me, and I get up and ask him if he really wants to do it and he says yeah, so I get ready to beat his ass. Then Sam and the girls tell me to just walk away and we start making our way to their apartment, and the guy says something about how I'm obv smart based on my chat and therefore he will leave us alone. So we go to their apartment building and all of the sudden he comes back screaming shit at us about how he doesn't understand why the girls came home with us and how he is going to rape the two of us. I procede to say something like, "so you are going to fuck us right here in the ass, huh? Come on then, I can't wait" as I bend over and keep pointing to my asshole, which gets him really pissed off and he starts coming at me. Then we get face to face and the girls are obv scared shitless at this point and Sam keeps telling all of us to come inside the building and close the door, and as I'm the last one in closing the door I tell him to "have fun on the internet with yourself later faggot" and he procedes to start punching the glass doors to the apartment building with a clenched fist over and over again.
I REALLY wanted to kick his ass with the help of Sam, but apparently Sam is a pussy and was more concerned with fucking this Kaitlyn girl we were hanging with at the time then beating down some 43 year old asshole that clearly was asking for it. I had a 6pack of Dos Equis in my hand at the time, and if I really needed it I was prepared to break one of them over this mother fucker's head and put him in a god damn arm bar to make him beg for mercy later. Would have been sweet. I broke my jaw in 3 places over this kind of bullshit in July, but I was fucking ready to do it again for sure, esp if it ended up in me getting some kind of 8+ pussy tonight (although it didn't happen because there was no fight and I didn't really like the other girl we were with, so eh).
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