So after my fail of last time cuz i couldn't cum, i decided to "fix this problem". I went hardcore on cardio, took my "five gs" herbs again, started a multivitamin, and cut back on jerking off.
The first thing which happened is i meet a girl, i think on monday. So i had sex with her, and surprisingly, i lasted only 20 min and i was hard the whole time. The problem is this girl really isn't good looking at all, and she seemed to want a relationship, so i asked her to only be fuckfriends and she agreed. Made it clear i got no interest for more and she was fine with it.
but then, on wesnday, i actually meet 3 girls in the same day.
The first girl, lets call her sarah, we took a nice walk, went to a park and talked. She seemed interested in me and very insecure. Then we went like, next to water, and i kissed her there. then at about 5 pm i left, and she kept asking things like "will u see me again". This girl is actually decent looking, a guy even told her "nice tan" while we were walking.
Then i went to meet another girl.... but this time it was a movie date but... WITH HER FRIENDS. i really didn't like this date setting but i didn't really have a choice so i just accepted. I supose it went ok, i made some jokes and stuff, but i didn't have the balls to try moves on her because she didn't seem too open and her friends were there... But this one i thought she was pretty good looking.
Then at the end of the night i went to see my FF, and had sex again. Again, lasted like 20 min.
and now finally, today, i meet sarah again. We walked a lot outside, did some running. went to the park. then we cooked together. finally, we watched a movie. At first, she seemed very hesitant to have sex, it was kind of difficult because whenever i tryed to kiss her, she would do some kissing but didn't went to really make out (she wasn't stupid, she figured out what i was trying to do), but after some effort she eventually gave in... but now i had the opposite problem from last time!!! I made sure not to jerk off for a few days, and she turned me on for like an hour before the sex... and her pussy was like real tight... so i came like REAL fast, maybe not even in 5 min. Then after the sex she again asked "will u see me again". lol.
So now, does this mean i need to stop seeing my FF? i guess so... I'm planning to just keep seeing sarah.
Also i think i might stop my herbs, lasting less than 5 minutes isn't too cool lol
Longtime friend contacts me - we catch up - find out she is in same city (new for her) is recently married and is seeking advice for cheap way to fix her car cuz it won't start.. give advice then don't talk for weeks until I get txt that says "Can u come get me"
I'm like huh wtf so call and she answers but doesn't say anything and instead turns off display so I can hear what is happening.. husband is being abusive yelling screaming crying hitting and throwing everything at her so I go pick her up after she hangs up and calls cops..
Now she is at my place with no id passport atm card laptop or anything working or valid as husband destroyed it all so I say she can stay until she gets new atm card thinking car will get fixed by then as it is just a starter on a civic and shes planning to go to her moms or dads. Car apparently got towed by husband (maintenance man at the apartments witnesses it) but husband denies this to the police.. This seals deal for my friend as "marriage over" and she starts to look to see what needs to be done for serving papers. Little bit of time goes by car still can't be found and is reported stolen and atm card is not in yet
After car got towed stolen or whatever there is a change.. she's pretty hot already and I don't know if it is because now she is more comfortable or what but starts to wears daisy duke shorts around the condo sometimes be braless etc.. I have only been a friend and stated such in the beginning but I feel like morals are starting to get tested since she is always there..
Cuz of the missing car I do not know how much longer she will be here but it is definitely longer than planned and her marriage definitely seems over in every aspect except on paper. I think she might be raising the sexual tension subtly on purpose and what at first felt very wrong is starting to shift into maybe not so wrong.....
i will comment on my experience in poker over these 4 months, since i played 44k hands of HU during that time.
In march i adopted a strategy of never playing more than 4 tables and game selecting a little harder, ONCE AND FOR ALL!!! I had been switching between mass tabling and 4 tabling but just decided to stick with 4 tables forever. (Anyway, it's not a new strategy, i've tried it ever since being inspired by longple's success a few years back.)
This strategy was so i could(hopefully) improve faster than the other regs. I also stopped playing zoom, and only played the slow 6max tables to give me time to observe everything. I've never improved as much in such a short time span as that 4 month period playing poker.
Playing only on pokerstars i'd be surprised if you can get more than 3k hands vs fish in a month from bumhunting hu. (1fish a day, average of 100 hands).
So i'd say about 75%+ of my hands were against regs. Since the worser regs dodge every reg, it was mostly vs the top 10% skilled regs of each limit. (there were some tilted regs willing to play sometimes)
Are people still improving?
Of course they are. To put it in perspective, in 2012 when i started getting into midstakes i knew a reg that would play everyone they could HU, and would grind a lot of 6max, making 400k a year. They refused to improve and relied on their innate gift of mass tabling to win $, and in 2013 they are breakeven over 1mill+ hands, and free money for me to play HU. They recently started dodging me. When i first played them in 2012 they crushed me. I'd say there are a lot of regs like this.
The rate of improvement in poker is still big, but the game is 90% table selection nowdays, which kinda sucks.
And i am suspicious of some of the players these days that make terrible mistakes like opening way too loose from utg(24%)and still have a giant winrate. A lot of the Russians seem pretty bad to me and have average table selection but seem to make a ton of money. Im not the only one that has this suspicion.
Yet again, I play very fucking well, have a chip lead of 4 to 1 on the second biggest stack, and then for a few hours, the stacks just keep getting passed back and forth. Best hand keeps losing. Saw someone fold aces, fucking ACES to a shove from someone who shoves with 85o. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU FOLD FUCKING ACES?! I just don't get how someone thinks that folding aces with two blinds is a good fucking move.
So after arriving, i got myself 10k in makeup, got up for a week or so but didn't make much, went 11k back in make-up - cleared makeup last night by hitting the 11 rebuy (chopped 4way for 6.7k)
(loans 1.33/1 (was 1.5/1 for moving costs) til im up 50k then 1/1 same as br mu - gettin there!)
Today I hit the $55 Turbo we chopped 4way again for 8.1k, i don't mind chopping if I'm in 3rd or 4th, things worked out pretty well last couple days
back OTG soon, gonna wake up late tomorrow, go for a bike ride, relax - do some meditation, n come back for a session most likely;
k, so i got the win but as u know this is just the start of payin off that DLIST i have (I took 13 months off in the USA pretty much *played just enuf 2 pay the bills and did things to improve my quality of life*)
so after today i was up like 4.9k, after the profit chop, heres everything that i paid off and what I did;
This is 50% to freedom ladies n gentlemen lol...
it was at 45kish once upon a time, ppl thought i'd never get there, i think i can, i think i can, then CHARLIE WAS EVERYWHERE! (Payne STOP!)
now its at ;
baza88 500 paid today (9/18)
Reid 300 paid today (9/18)
artanis 5000 1079 sent - 3921 left (9/18)
quocy 400 send that to him asap western union
andrewboccia 750 hes checking - not sure if paid
robinson47 500 msg him on lp not sure if paid (robinson47 send me ur skype!)
bullshit on lp 2000 (send me ur skype info plz) (someone msg him 4 me)
ptp 6.4k - take care of this after directly after my boys
its like 14k there not so bad can get that cleared before my birthday with some good run (Oct 3) one timeeeeee to be freeee!
did a cashout for 500 for food n supplies and paid off 1850 - after the 50% profit chop of 2500ish each
Is there a way to display the statistics my opponents have on me?
should be under the "vs hero" but it is a mess i cant find anything. I'd like the usual things like vpip/pfr/3b etc...
is it even possible?
On a serious note, I finally got a flat in Liberec, Czech Republic where I returned to after 8 years in Scotland, it will be a share. Place i'm going for:
- 18m2 room with carpet big window, cupboard, table bed.
- own storage space for bike etc. outside the flat.
- $185 final cost/mo (internet, electricity, water, city tax etc all already included)
- private landlord, cool guy retired doesn't live there - something breaks he will come next day.
- I can take guests in no problem, no rules apart from no smoking and not antagonizing neighbors too much
- share flat with 2 more ppl. I get to agree them first since I will be first moving in. So I can say no to total weirdos
- new bathroom added in a couple months
- I only need to give 1 month notice if I want to leave
-3 mins by bike to sports hall where I train. (with outdoors lap, ice hockey team plays highest league there, there's bowling etc.) 3 walk mins to big shop , few pubs around, a couple minutes to public transport. 15 minute walk to where my grandma lives who cooks for me sometimes
I must say I am relieved, I've seen quite a few flats that I could rent for myself and in the city you can easily get $190 rent+ around $100 bills 40-43m2 flats but they are hollow as in you have to put carpets in, fridge, even have to install lights as there are just sockets and frankly right now I can't be arsed with that stuff.
And all shares I went to were not with professional landlords like the one's flat I'm taking and that are standard in the UK but dickheads that already live there, own it and just rent a room and it was like fucking XFactor going for an audition and the pricks have their rules sme were weird and don't even call you and overall were super unprofessional. This is a proper landlord with experience that treats it like a business.
However if I decide to stay long term I might take one of the hollow flats - I mean $300 with bills for your own flat with big room and separate hall, kitchen and bathroom is dirt cheap too but I need to know I'll stay there a couple years so it's worth equipping painting carpeting etc. They are cheap because it's not through agency - I can either get my own flat through my cousing who works at a building association or from a local businessman directly who owns around 1,400 flats in the city.
Seems like a good option if ever get serious with a local honey
Hi, Im updating PS and it takes a lot of time. (I played yesterday) It is me?
Anyone knows where can I check the last PS update and current version? I emailed PS already. Thx
So hmmm first i guess ill give an update on my last blog post...
Didn't really work out with the roomate... got her in room, but when i tryed to cuddle with her she was too shy n stuff. I think i just suck with virgins... Anyways that girl was a problem since i couldn't invite other girls to my room anymore. I'm fine with the friendzone. A cute 19 year old girl who's still a virgin is that way for a reason i guess.
And the second girl well, we keep talking some on facebook but i'm not too optimistic about it.
Now here's the interesting part.
Friday i saw a new girl... we went in some bar, and then she invited me to her appartment. After some kissing on the couch, she went to the bathroom and when she came back i started making out a lot, pushing her on the wall, touch her everywhere, etc.
After some preliminaries, we started fucking, but the problem is, i masturbated intensily for the last 2 days to porn and idk i wasn't really at my top shape. In addition to this, the bed was doing a really annoying sound that totally distracted me. And finally, i also think i might have performance anxiety... i know very well if i suck in bed she's way less likely to see me again, while if i fuck like a god she will almost surely see me again unless i really fuck up somewhere. So for this reason it seems to stress me out and make me perform bad.
Anyways what happened i we had sex like an hour and a half (different positions, some eating her out, some fingering, etc), and after that my dick was just exhausted, so we called it a night, but i am pretty sure she was really disapointed i didn't cum because she even asked about it, like "hey is it my fault if u didn't cum, really sorry u didn't finish". I tryed to explain her that its not her fault but i'm not sure she believed me. Also, i'm pretty sure my dick wasn't at 100% erection quality during the thing, which can easily make it way less enjoyable for her. She hasn't really talked to me again much at all, pretending to be busy...
Anyways, i'm not sure if ill be able to see her again, which is disapointing because this was probably the most interesting girl i fucked so far (going for a master degrees, slim, smart, fun, simple) but the main question is, any tips for lack of sexual stamina? I think i'm starting to get the hang of the whole seduction thing, but i need to get back my fucking skills. I got the size, but not the stamina, which is just bad.
I think i'm gonna try to cut down a lot on masturbation, go hardcore on cardio, keep on working out, keep a good diet, starting again those herbs things, but even with all that idk if it be enough to really get back my strong erection quality from back when i was a teen.
I saw pills on the internet called "penis enhancement" pills, such as virgx or extenze. These things seems to gather a bunch of natural ingredients that boost blood flow and libido, and i'm actually considering trying it out.
Any advice is welcome.
Note: is it weird she wanted to fuck in complete darkness?
Note: please, no MAJOR flaming or you could get banned from my blog. You can be harsh, but needs to be constructive. If you don't like my blog then just gtfo.
Blackchip Poker Shadyby squishypoopie, September 15
This blog entry is intended to point out just how shady Blackchip Poker can be. I have never ripped off anyone, stolen money, ripped off an online poker room/casino, or stolen anything in my life. This all started when all I wanted to do was check into getting the re-loadable debit card from Blackchip Poker, the link to which is found in the "withdraw" section of the cashier. When I went to go click on the "withdraw" button, I discovered that it said "System Currently Unavailable". I thought maybe this was a system glitch, but several more days went by before I tried it again, and it gave me the same "System Currently Unavailable". The "deposit" section of the cashier also gave me the same message, (I clicked it just out of curiosity). I get on live chat support, and I spoke with some idiot, who I swear does not understand the English language, but told me to e-mail security@blackchippoker.eu to have the issue resolved. So here it goes:
"Hello, my user name on blackchip poker is ********. I have been able to successfully deposit in recent weeks to my account (via Western Union), but I am unable to access the withdraw or deposit section of the cashier. I was informed by blackchip support that I had to email security in order to request a cash out. However, I would like to know why the deposit and withdraw section of my account is disabled. "
----The reply----
Dear Mr. *****,
Thank you for choosing Black Chip Poker; it is a pleasure to be of your assistance.
Since your account's information has been tagged as “high risk” by other merchants and our Poker Network as you may already know, the only ways for you to deposit and cash out is through Western Union and/or MoneyGram, and both ways must be by directly contacting our deposit center or cash outs departmet and that can be done via email or chat.
In this case since it is a cash out we are talking about, all you have to do is let us know the way you would like to cash funds out and the amount desired and we will gladly process it for you.
Thank you and if you need further assistance, please let us know.
Kind regards,
Josh T.
Black Chip Poker
Security Department
My reply:
"Why is my account labeled as high risk?
Also, would I not be able to cash out via debit card (your debit card), or by check?
I have $1000+ in my account and it would cost me $110 to cash out via western union."
BCP Reply:
Dear Mr ****
Thank you for choosing Black Chip Poker; it is a pleasure to be of your assistance.
We would like to inform you that we do not have that information as to which other merchants have tagged you as high risk since we use a system that is used by several merchants to verify users information without disclosing your information. What we can tell you is that your account did not pass our security checks and that is why we cannot allow your credit/debit card deposits.
Thank you and if you need further assistance, please let us know.
My reply:
"Okay so would I be able to use your re-loadable debit card to cash out, or cash out via check?
I would like to specifically know why my account is labeled as high risk. I never did anything to merit being labeled as high risk with you, or with any other merchant."
BCP Reply:
"Dear Mr ****
Thank you for choosing Black Chip Poker; it is a pleasure to be of your assistance.
For security reasons we have decided not to allow you to deposit with Credit or /debit cards; however, you may deposit with Western Union and/or Moneygram. We can send you the withdrawal via Western Union or check.
Thank you and if you need further assistance, please let us know."
My reply:
"Perfect, thank you. However, would I be able to also use the re-loadable debit card for a withdrawal?
If so, how can I get the debit card?"
BCP Reply:
"Thank you for playing at Black Chip Poker.
Please let me inform you that your account did not pass our security check, that is the reason why your credit card option will remain blocked. We see on your account that there was a report from a third-party company on a credit card of yours, so right now your options are restricted to cash methods (Western Union & Money Gram); we cannot disclose or have more information about it, but the option to deposit with credit cards will remain blocked.
We already unblocked your withdrawal options, we received your documents that is the reason that we unblocked them.
Please feel free to contact us if you have any further questions or comments."
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So not only are they forcing me to withdraw via Western Union at a $110 fee, but I also would like to know, what am I not saying that makes them understand that I am asking if I can WITHDRAW using THEIR re-loadable debit card?
Help with Hold'em Manager?by GolemMadness, September 14
I downloaded HM2 last night, and so far have had a lot of troubles getting it to work. I have a preferred seat on Pokerstars, so I set it for the same one in HM2, but the names are still always in the wrong position; sometimes they even seem to be on the wrong table. After several hands it doesn't seem to update if somebody joins or leaves the table. It doesn't work at all for a tournament, and just perpetually says "Waiting for hands." I've tried searching for solutions, but much of the stuff I find seems to be for an older version and I can't find the stuff they say to do. Is there an easy solution here that I'm missing?
Transfers to "jaacsin" on pokerstars, fat guy with glasses is my image (Mexico)
(Im currently watching a lot of MTTs videos to learn more about them but i almost know how to play +EV with any stack below 100bbs, MSS play, also i was a reg at SH tables few months ago playin 50nl too 100bbs+ deep)
A kickstarter campaign was launched not too long ago to fund the worlds first high-end consumer friendly virtual reality headset. This was basically supposed to be the VR headset that finally does virtual reality right. VR is nothing new, I've tried it before back at various arcades in the early nineties. It was clunky, had horrible head tracking, and very low quality graphics. Everyone wrote it off and rightfully so. Till some guy came up and said "we have the technology". Of course VR has such a bad rep from previous attempts no company was willing to back it, hence the kickstarter campaign. Anyway, the campaign was a huge success and they got all the money they needed to begin development.
Out comes this developers kit which is really meant for game designers, but so many people bought it and began sharing their own stuff that there are actually quite a few nifty demos out there to give you a taste of what VR was always meant to be. I finally grabbed one, and I must say I am impressed. There are still issues with your field of view, and until they come out with a lens that wraps around the side of your temple, or flat out project images on to your retina, you will still feel like you are looking through a pair of binoculars INTO the world, rather than actually feeling like you are IN the world. But it's still incredibly fascinating to look at, and as I write this my head is still spinning and my stomach nauseous from having just played around in the thing.
So far the most impressive worldly feel, and by that I mean a game that actually pulls you into the universe is Half Life 2. This is basically the only commercial game with official support for VR from the developer, so obviously it shines as a well polished example. Plus the world of HL2 is perfect for VR since it's so exploratory. It's also the quickest to make you dizzy since there's so much interaction to proceed. You see, the more you have to move around, the more you get sick.
The easiest games to stomach are the pure demos. You just sorta sit back in a pod or something, or mindlessly walk empty corridors just kind of staring at stuff as you go. These are natural movements, and your brain is willing to accept the disconnect from physical motion and visual motion since you can kind of pretend you are sitting in an electric wheelchair and just gliding everywhere. It's the games like HL2 where you are supposed to be walking and climbing and going around corners that make your stomach churn, since now it feels like the world is just spinning around you. It's perfect to just stand still and look around, but as soon as you have to start moving and going around the corner of some building, your stomach turns into knots, or at least mine does.
What really makes this whole thing work though is the latency factor. Old VR systems used infra-red scanners and magentic resonance detectors and stuff that were just horribly slow and inaccurate, plus the computational horsepower available at the time was pathetic, so when you turned your head left, it could take a full second for the screen to turn left. You basically just felt like you strapped a cellphone to your face and were looking at a little box. With advancements in gyroscopes and accelerometers thanks in large part to the mobile phone boom, incredibly accurate and fast devices are now available and allow the headtracking to be 100% SPOT ON. You move your head the equivalent of 1 pixel width of visual density, and the screen updates PERFECTLY. There is absolutely no delay whatsoever between your eyes and what you see. You can literally turn your head in any direction, upside down, sideways, at an angle, left, right, over your shoulder, you can even spin in your chair and do a 180 and look directly behind you. The camera follows with absolute perfect precision. The only thing left to do with this device is simply widen that field of view so you dont feel like you're looking through a tube.
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