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my best friend has cancer :[

Day[9], Aug 07 2008

Cambria, my absolute best best best friend in the whole world, has cancer :[.

I just found out about 20 minutes ago so i don't really know very much. She had an odd growth on her lower lip and went in to the doctor and was called with the results today. You know, i know that lower lip skin cancer is very treatable, even curable in most cases, but it just kinda freaked me out.

My poor little Cambria is just all shocked and weepy. I know she'll be ok, but it just really made me think about how much i absolutely love this girl to pieces. She's just the nicest person in the whole world and she means everything to me. Seriously everyone on the forum needs to meet this girl someday because you'd all just aboslutely LOVE her. She's extremely friendly, has a great sense of humour, and has the BEST LAUGH EVER. She just loses it like ALL the time and like falls over from laughing. Frankly, hanging out with Cambria is everyone's top 3 favorite hobbies.

One of my favorite memories of Cambria is when she came to visit me in Kansas City one summer and we went to the nearby water park. We were in the wave pool and Cambria said something funny and just started to laugh like crazy. Of course, since Cambria has the best laugh in the world, I start laughing like crazy too. However, we were at the 12 foot end where the high waves start so we basically start inhaling alot of water and sputtering and choking. However, this makes us laugh even MORE. At this point, the lifeguard notices us and starts blowing the whistle at us because we're basically nearing the point of drowning from laughter. Since we were the oldest people in the pool by like 8 years, all the 8-13 year old children start pointing and staring at us as we are being disciplined by the life guard. Again, however, this makes us both laugh even more to the point where we actually get KICKED from the wave pool for safety reasons and we proceed to get out of the pool and laugh until we cry for like 20 minutes.

I haven't gotten to see Cambria in 8 months because she went to study abroad in England, but we still talk like 5-6 times a week. Every 6 weeks or so i'll get some really awesome surprise postcard from her with a chicken on it (anyone remember my earlier blog post about chickens?? well it was Cambria who got me into chickens!!). It's just SOOO SWEET that we still talk SO much but she still manages to do cute surprise things like send me postcards. SHE EVEN GOT ME A STUFFED BUNNY FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Here's a picture of me and Cambria the night before she left for England 8 months ago:

She's coming to visit me tomorrow (super yaay!!) and i'm really excited, but I really hope this cancer thing is totally tame and goes away w/o trouble. I love love love love love Cambria to pieces and really want her to be ok and, most importantly, happy as can be. Someone as kind, fun, giggly, and loving as Cambria deserves to be happy all the time.

Keep her in your thoughts for me please

<3LP

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my headphones are smelly

Day[9], Aug 04 2008

this is the weirdest fucking thing

so i always workout/run and listen to music at the same time. I also have the fucking amazingly PERFECT Bose TPA1 headphones

these headphones are like PERFECT sound quality and amazing in every way. however... they have this soft cushy felt ear thing that i GUESS finally absorbed enough sweat to start smelling like fucking ass.

this is bad news because (considering how much i wear them) my ears might start smelling bad now. you think bad BREATH is bad, what would you think if you were hitting on a girl... and here EARS smelled fucking weird

anyone have any ear cleaning advice??? :[

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ROFL TRISTAN HAHA

Day[9], Jul 20 2008

sexydaynine: cash tables
sexydaynine: soft today too
sexydaynine: up
sexydaynine: 2bi already
sexydaynine: in like
sexydaynine: 50 hands
Tristan: nice
Tristan: find a table with all intellipoker ?

hahahaha sooo true ;]

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masturbation story

Day[9], Jul 18 2008

So there was a thread on teamliquid entitled "have you ever been caught masturbating."

i spent a while writing a story, so i figured i'd post it here since some might enjoy:

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WTF i get caught jacking off all the time

i'm not unlucky, its just standard probability. i beat off alot. seriously, i beat off like if i keep doing it, i'm gonna win something. its only natural people will stumble in eventually

FOR EXAMPLE

so i'm on this direct flight from claremont (my college town) back to kansas city (my home town) for winter break. since its a direct 3 hour flight, its too short for them to have "in flight entertainment," but its so long that i'm gonna be bored out of my god damn mind. so, of course, i'm like "i guess i'm beating off like 5 times during this flight."

its one of those small sized slingshot airplanes that goes really fast but is really unstable and has one tiny ass cramped aisle. so i'm sitting in my anorexic bucket seat w/ my shitty peanuts waiting for the plane to hit a high enough altitude when i finally hear: *ding* "this is your captain speaking, we have reached a cruising altitude of 30,000 feet, you are now free to move about the cabin." "bink success!" i think to myself, "the time is right." of course i don't rush to the bathroom, no need for that. why not give myself a little tease. i gently, slowly unbuckle my seatbelt. I stand up, and stretch a little bit. I take a nice slow, leisurely walk to the bathroom at the back of the plane. masturbation this good deserves foreplay of its own.

i get to the bathroom, close the door, and sliiiiiide my pants on down and start working myself. oh holy LORD it's amazing. i mean, i don't know if you know this or not, but i am REALLY good at masturbating. I'm in a 2 square foot, dimly lit bathroom, but i feel so good my back is arching and my foot is cramping and i'm nearly ready to start screaming my own name.

then suddenly, TURBULENCE. AGH SHIT. I HATE turbulence. It's not that it makes me feel sick or nauseated. turbulence makes me feel like i'm about to die. So i'm trying to jack off, and suddenly the jerk in the plane floods my body w/ adrenaline and i grab the handle in the bathroom and i'm like "OH SHIT."

do you know how hard it is to cum when you feel like you're about to die??? I mean seriously, imagine jacking off while there's a guy w/ a loaded gun to your head and he's screaming "C'MON CUM YOU PUSSY, DO IT CUM." You'd be shivering w/ eyes closed, tears streaming down your face as you sputter through little snot bubbles just BEGGING your dick to come. "please cum!!!" you'd weep "i wanna cum soooo bad!!!!!"

so there i am trying to think of every dirty thing possible so i can finally orgasm, but all that's going through my mind is "god i need to reconcile with my dad and tell my brother i love him" etc etc and while i'm distracted in a mess of standard pre-death thoughts, i don't realize that i'm about to cum.

HOLY FUCK i say as i fumble and try to grab some kleenex from the box on the counter. however, in my stuttered panic, i just knock the kleenex box over, hit the "stewardess help button," and i cum directly onto the floor. still in a state of panic i'm like FUCKFUCKFUCK I NEED TO TURN THIS BUTTON OFF so of course i (geniusly) press it like 5 more times trying to turn this off. Naturally, the button just goes *ding ding ding ding*, making my situation seem all the more urgent, and i can hear the stewardess rushing to the door since i appear to be in desperate need of help.

"FOCUS SEAN FOCUS," i think, "I NEED TO HIDE MY DICK." so, (this is genius) i pick up the kleenex box from the floor, pull out 5 pieces of tissue, and i just lay them on top of my erection... so it looks kinda like a little dick tent. so, the stewardess, responding to my urgent spams of the "stewardess help button" proceeds to open the bathroom door just like i knew she was going to. She looks on the ground to see my epic protein stain, looks up at my glorious dicktent, and then you know what happens?? we make eye contact.

so she's looking at me, and i'm looking at her and in general i dislike awkward silences. however, this was an all KINDS of awkward silence, so i figured it was necessary to say something. so, i did the best i could. i look her right in the eye and say "... it is what it is..."

???? why did i say that???? what a stupid thing to say... well... i guess it's hard in that situation to "play it off cool." i can't be like "hey i know smoking isn't allowed on the plane, so do you have a stick of gum??"

so she shuts the door, and i clean myself up and spend another 3 minutes trying to clean up the mass of cum on the floor. even though i did a pretty good job, its damn hard to get that shine out of the laminate flooring. i'm finally done, so i open up the bathroom door to see a line of 10 or so people that's been building up since i went into the bathroom like 20 minutes ago (again, it took my a while since its difficult to cum when you think you're about to die). I get to look across the line of all of em, and say the only sensible thing i can think of:

"for those of you going to use the bathroom, i'd make sure you're wearing shoes."

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oops i feel guilty

Day[9], Jul 17 2008

So there was a study done that something like 50-75% of tone is lost via text. For example, you might try to be sarcastic, and someone might interpret it as you being an ass etc.

As a result of reading the study (and probably moreso due to my own nature) I've always made it a point to just try to be as nice as possible online. I don't really try to be funny very often on the forums. I try to default to nice as often as possible. Additionally, I don't believe in trash talking and being a dick unnecessarily.

BUT I JUST COULDNT RESIST

http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/486456

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSs

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success at 25NL!!

Day[9], Jul 08 2008

IM A WINNAH!

Day[9], Jul 08 2008

at 25NL!!

wooo i'm gonna tutor someone in calculus nowwww

omg shipit

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thanks everyone!!!

Day[9], Jul 08 2008

I cannot tell you how much it meant to me to hear all the positive comments in my last few posts, and a special thanks to all those who kindly messaged me on aim to leave encouraging words.

I feel so much more refreshed. I think I'm ready to tackle 10NL by being a MONSTROUS NIT!!!

ty so much everyone. i'll keep you fine gentlemen (and yugless) updated on my progress hopefully as a motivator to myself.

for those of you concerned, i'm not really in any sort of tough/drastic financial situation. i would never put myself anywhere near that sort of situation anyways. it was a bit of a surprise to me that i had to withdraw my bankroll, and the emotional hit was more that i'm not playing poker well at all.

i really enjoy trying to "be good" at games, so this will give me an opportunity to start from scratch and rework my fundamentals. i definitely think all those who commented are correct: i play soooo wrong for the stakes. i'm super excited to nit it up.

-Sean "fresh nit" Plott

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god i'm so embarassed

Day[9], Jul 07 2008

my br was 555 as of the start of today

it now stands at 188$

i'm just so embarassed and humiliated. i feel like i'm not good at anything anymore. i can't even beat the "supposed fish" down at the 25NL tables.

bagh god damnit i hate life these days.

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Winning vs Learning

Day[9], Jul 07 2008

As many of you may know, I'm going to USC School of Cinematic Arts in the fall to study Interactive Media AKA video game design. As much as I love an action, RPG, or adventure style game, I've always had a passion for the competitive game, a game in which the joy comes from the discovery, finesse, and execution of the strategy rather than the story or mechanics. So, as i'm combing through my reading list of books on game design, I managed to find an excellent book about playing competitive games: Playing to Win by David Sirlin. (visit his website at www.sirlin.net

Though he covers a ton about the mindset of a good competitive player vs a scrub, Sirlin wrote a particularly memorable section about playing vs better or vs weaker players. In this section, Sirlin notes that many players have a desire to play only against experts in order to "see how the real game is played" or to "make sure there's a challenge." Though the player may get raped by the expert, the player feels as though he's learning hard lessons the fast way and avoiding "boring games vs newbies."

However, Sirlin notes that expert players are extraordinarily good at hiding their weak points and abusing the weaknesses of their opponents. Consequently, in the process of getting raped again and again by the expert, the player will quickly learn what NOT to do. However, since its so difficult to see the weaknesses of the expert, the player will never actually learn what he SHOULD do. As a result, its critically important to play vs the weaker opponents, so that you can explicitly see where certain mistakes arise. Eventually, you'll have a framework for winning that you can fine tune once you play vs an expert, rather than going in blind.

I found this resonated strongly with my experience playing StarCraft. On PGT, whenever there was a MOTW (map of the week), i would inevitably play only that map and get up to the A/A- range when the week changed. At this point, the MOTW would change and I would have to play on a totally unfamiliar map, and I just felt COMPLETELY uncomfortable playing against the other A/A- ranked players. Therefore, I would simply create a new account, start at D, and work my way up to A/A- again on the new map. The process would repeat on a weekly basis until i had 5-6 accounts. I always told myself I was "building my comfort" with the map, but Sirlin perfectly articulates my problem: I needed to play against weaker players to develop a framework for winning, a solution for the new map.

So, as I wrote in my last blog, I had to withdraw my entire bankroll except for 555$. Though many people were writing about a stake, I've decided it would be an exceptionally beneficial exercise to begin working from the ground up again. I've pretty much hung at the 400-600NL range on and off for a long time and the games have changed alot over time. Rather than try to "play vs the better players" at 400-600NL, i think it will be best to start from the ground up, as Sirlin writes, in order to build a better framework for the different games today. Hopefully it will be educational, exciting, and fun! (and hopefully I won't have too many comments on my 25NL hands of "why are you playing DOWN HERE?")

Now how's THAT for optimism

<33333 LP!!

-Sean

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