I'm actually playing really hot right now (probably because I run decent/good and have some self esteem for a change) but I don't have much time to play cause I need to study for a stupid ass test. Since I pwn@life (tm) I've obviously gotten a decent amount of help with the studying so I'll get decent grades on this crap, but it still annoying.
In other news it's only a week until my sister gets home form India. That owns. A few days ago she almost puked on the Taj Mahaj, lol. She's pretty much the most insane person I know.
An aunt of mine died yesterday (day before yesterday actually, apparently it's past midnight now). Her suffering ended so I guess that's good. She has known that her life has been about to end for a while so I think she accepted it. She looked peaceful the last time I saw her, a couple of months ago. I fucking hate cancer.
In other death related news a friend of mine called a week ago or so, crying, and told me that her little sister was in for hearth surgery. She went under the knife on Tuesday and as of this afternoon she was still around. I really hope she'll be fine because young people shouldn't die, and I happen to know that this little girl has been through a lot (and not in an EMO way, but really, things that shouldn't happen to people). It's at times like this I wished a believed in something I could pray too.
"If god wants it to be, so it'll be, and if he doesn't, we'll make it happen anyway".
On December 01 2008 16:33 DustySwedeDude wrote:
– Ripple by the Grateful Dead
So yea... I've only known this song for I dunno, half a year or something? However, it's pretty much the only thing that keeps me going and saves my soul from Law School. The lyrics describes what music is, I think, and what the grateful dead tries to do with their music. It also says a lot about life and stuff. My favorite part might be the ending;
“You who choose to lead must follow
But if you fall you fall alone
If you should stand then who's to guide you?
If I knew the way I would take you home“
I don't know why I like it, but it's something along the lines of a semi-stoic attitude to life. I'll try to take care of myself. I don't want to depend on other people too much, and after all, you can't depend on other people in the long run anyway. But it also says that the singer really loves you, and that if he actually could he'd fix you up. As a person who does care about a lot of people, my friends and family, I can really relate to that too. Also, when you really feel that a person would help you out no matter what if he or she only could you know you've got a real friend.
- Omkring tiggarn' från Luossa, lyrics by Dan Andersson.
First of all, the song is translated in the clip so even non-swedes can get the lyrics. Not that I really understand all of it anyway. My extended family has been singing this since on different occasions as long as I can remember. My dad used to sing this one for me and my sister when we were really young and couldn't sleep. Dan Andersson (dude who wrote it, some 100 years ago) wrote a lot of really good poems. It was also played (poorly) at my uncle's funeral which ads even more emotions to it. When I die I want someone, preferably somewhat talented, to sing this tune.
– Tattoo by the Who
This is pretty much the theme song of me and my sister. I don't have a brother, but she's just as good. The songs a bit about growing up, a lot of fun and probably mostly a result of Pete Townsend being high as fuck. Nonetheless I think this one will squeeze into the top3 cause there's probably not one person in my life that's more important then my sister.
As for today, I've won a couple of bi's in poker (NICE!) in December (mostly in the first 2-3 hours) and I've been working my ass of with a gay ass presentation we'll do tomorrow. I love the people I work with but I hate the assignment. Also, we'll do it on the same subject as the daughter of the Swedish Chancellor of Justice. She happens to be a person I'd love to pwn, for various reasons, but unfortunately she actually studies hard and stuff so I guess I'm a pretty big dog. At least I'm a good bit better looking then her.
So I don't wanna look at PT cause it's not good for my happiness EV but this month I'm down like 4k€ after rakeback. Not that much, and since I haven't played more then a couple of hundred hands the last week and not many the week before that it's only over 25k hands. Hardly noticeable in the long run but together with a cash out I've got less then 100 bi for 2/4€ online. That's not really fun, so I guess I'll wait for my rakeback and play 1/2 until I get back there. It should be just over 20bi so it's not that much. Might move back again early if I catch a break and start running better again. Dunno, won't play that much in the first half of December anyway due to a big as exam the 16th.
Fun incident of the weekend: During a meeting before a big presentation me and two girls will have on a stock market introduction assignment one of the girls, who comes from the south of Sweden "Skåne" (like Chris), felt a bit annoyed about something and started talking really slow and sarcastic. She sounded 100% like Durrrr. For a second there the lagtard in me felt sexually aroused, but then she started talking like normal people from Skåne again and my soul died a little. People from Skåne are generally really nice people with a really cool attitude to most things, but God damn it they can't get away from sounding like retards to save their lives!
Besides poker this month has been really good. I've started eating a lot better, I'm working out a lot, I've meet some new people who seems nice and I get along good with pretty much everyone. The only thing I'm slightly annoyed with is that I got absolutely soul crushed in a Trivial Pursuitish game about geography yesterday. My flat mate's boyfriend is just too darn good at that kind of games.
Just to ad to the poker player stereotype I might start training brazilian ju-jutzu this spring. It's so cold outside that I don't feel like dragging my ass halfway across town to get to the location right now, but apparently it's ok to start whenever so I'll try it out in like February I guess.
Anyway, gratefullness list:
1. Christmas - Even though I don't really care for baby Jesus or his philosophies it's a pretty nice holiday.
2. My friend R - who called and wanted to hang out yesterday despite me having lived in a gym and not really talked to people in a month.
3. My grandmother - who calls and asks me how I am once a month or so. She really cares about the family and has done a lot of work for us during the years.
Won a bi, quit cause I like to feel how it is to have a winning day. Went shopping for food. Fell on my ass on my way home. American exchange student with funny name asked me if I was ok, I said it was cool and made a joke. She agreed to have a cup of tea with me. We talked for like an hour or so (with tea, inside) and then I got her number. Ship it. Dunno, she might be religious or something. Whatever, it was fun.
Yesterday I took 92.5kg in bench press, so I'm only 7.5 kg form my goal for this fall. I'll try to eat less now though, so I might not gain in strength so fast anymore. Whatever, I want to look good so I need to drop some weight. I hope to have a pretty low BFI when the summer begins. I've read a lot about diet and stuff too and it seems doable.
edit: List of stuff I'm grateful for today.
1. My friends. They own. Not much more to say. Makes life worth living.
2. A couple of LP'ers who's taught me a lot in one way or another. SakiSaki, PPlusAD, Sanai, Pinball (mostly by meeting him IRL and getting an better idea about the life as a full time poker player), Talanted Tom (who inspired me to be a lagtard), Malimis, FA etc. Probably forgot a few of them.
3. My luck with my class this year. Some of my classmates are really great.
So I made a new playlist inspired by how I've been running this month.
God mothafucking damn it, lol.
Might move down or something and play like 10 or 20k hands at 1/2 just to rid out this little bump. Not down THAT much, but it's fucking annoying cause every time I feel like something is about to go my way I'll get stacked on 3 tables within 5 minutes. Funniest hand today (didn't save it), retard raises UTG, I repop black queens UTG+1, he calls. Flop like 9xx all diamonds, I bet, he shoves, I call and he shoves K8o with the 8d. I guess it was a coinflip, but come on!
Yesterday was fun. I started out down like 2.5k€ and ended it up about 2.5k€. That's pretty sick for 2/4 and 3/6 and only like 2.5k hands. Finally in the green for the month. It'd be great to have another decent winning month in a row and get that damn Bankroll up to comfortably play semi-high stakes again.
In other news I fucking hate tuna. Raw eggs are still pretty nice though.
Yesterday my flat mate since 1.5 years, A, told me that she and her boyfriend had gotten an apartment and she'll move out this Christmas. I'm very happy for them and they're one of of maybe 2 or 3 couples who makes me believe in monogamous relationships a bit. She's babbling on about that we (as in me, my other roomie, her and her bf) should hang out a bit even after they move out but we've just not got enough in common for that to happen so as long as something unexpected won't happen I'll consider the era when she was a decently big part of my everyday life over in a month or so. It makes me a bit sad, cause it's been a fun, easy going and educational experience and I think I've grown quite a bit as a human thanks to her. I also drunk e-mailed her mom once, which turned into a semi-epic story in itself. Good times.
This spring my sister will probably move in and take A's room. She's a really, really cool person and basically a better looking version of me that happens to be a girl and be half as big. This makes me happy again cause I really miss her. Right now she's in India trying to free Tibet.
Tommorow me, rommie-S, A, A's bf, a law student friend of mine and Malimis will go a catch the latest Bond movie. I've got decent expectations. Also, fwiw Malimis has a pretty low-lifeish msn-pic, but in real life he's great.
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