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Been running really, really bad since thursday. Its really really irritating me. I'm down a little under 3bi for the MONTH. This just can't continue D:

Also yesterday I am like 99% sure I finally profited $500 for the session, but lo and behold I come back and count my money and I have $20 more than before. I'm pretty sure I lost the money or something somehow. I definitely don't have it though.. sigh.

Well, whatever.. I really hope it turns around soon. I mean.. I know I don't play perfect but I'm pretty fucking sure I am very +EV at 2/5 for god's sake. Obv trying to improve my game as usual along the way..

I guess I have to adjust my month's goal to +5k, or maybe to "I hope I don't lose my whole bankroll".

From thursday-today I've played 50-60 hours. Probably going to put in 150-190 more hours (like 10-12 hours * every day left in the month w/ two days off) by the end of the month and fucking pray I can win more than 1 fucking bet when I flop a hand worth a shit.

Live poker can be really gross!

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Ugh I was tilting so ridiculously easily yesterday and I spewed and I dunno wtf I sux. My emotional control is all out of whack, maybe I'm on my man-period.

Seriously though I've been really impatient the last couple of days at the table and have been getting tilty/whiney and that isn't how I like to do things. Gotta stop that crapz

I've felt like I've been running really bad this month and everyday has been an incredible struggle to break even or turn a profit, maybe that's just built up on me and whatever. I dunno. I just know I can't allow myself to spew blah!

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I'm glad I came out here and am staying with myth. I frequently randomly ask him various poker questions and he teaches me so many useful things.

Like today. The internet in the apartment was taking a shit, and it got me thinking about how the internet randomly quits out on you during important hands in online poker.

Me: [revelation]You know, live poker mis-deals are like when the internet goes out while you're playing online!

Myth: Totally, its like when you have Aces and a 7 comes on the flop.

Me: You're right! Aren't 7's like the 2nd most commonly dealt pocket pair?

Myth: Common misconception-- they are actually the 3rd most.

Me: Ohhhh.. That's because someone at the table always has 72o [atleast, someone always has to complain about 72o as they muck preflop], so its less likely that 77 is dealt, right?

Myth: Incorrect.

Me: ?

Myth: Sometimes, poker seems counter-intuitive. Just stick with me and you'll learn a lot!

Then the internet came back!

Other than that, I saw the Wolverine movie today and enjoyed it a lot.

Pokerwise my goal is 10k for the month and I haven't played as much as I ought to for various reasons. I'm at 1.8k so far, so I'm almost 1k behind pace for 10k. I have been really experimenting with some play styles and in other spots have made some REALLY horrendous spews. I feel comfortable experimenting a lot (mostly being really laggy and messing around with a LOT of different turn lines), but I really need to stop a couple of really spewy calls and a couple of bluffs I've made. Luckily I knew they were fucking horrendous calls/or bluffs, I just have to follow through with the fold or whatever.

Thinking of that sort of brought a thought to my head earlier, and that was simply that the discipline to fold or to give up in certains spots was something I think I had conquered a lot better online. It is just something I need to reestablish my dominion over in live poker.. its cropped up again because live poker moves so much more slowly is all~

Well when I wake up its going to be Friday and I don't think anything interesting is happening this weekend, so I am going to try to put in 40 hours from Friday-Sunday. Hopefully it works out and I run good. I might let myself do like 30 hours if I go out on one of the nights or if I run sick good and have to quit before I winner-tilt half of it away. Anyway, hopefully I will have a monster weekend and I'll catch up to pace, since that is when most of the money is won anyway.

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I'm bored, should of been asleep 4 hours ago. I've been thinking on and off about my long session today where I ran really bad, winning like 1/10 showdowns, set over set, flush over flush and such. Importantly, when I detected tilt finally forming, I got up and took a degen nap in the parking garage to de-tilt. I came back and unstuck myself to being only 100bb down. This has inspired me to write a quick post detailing a couple of aspects of my game I want to focus on improving.

Two areas I need to improve on include winners/run good tilt, and comprehending my image at the table correctly from each individual player's perspective. Winners/run good tilt is just such a basic thing that it is pretty self explanatory, I just need to make sure I don't do it. Only thing is that at this point is seems to operate at a sort of sub-concious level.. silently influencing my thoughts in a certain direction during a hand.

Perceiving my image from each individual player's perspective, and understanding how each player is going to respond to it, is something I can continue to actively work on. What I mean by this is making sure that I understand that someone who I have decided is a nit who isn't capable of bluffing is not going to adjust to my having an extremely aggro image, by rebluffing, or bluffing ever. Though the guy next to him might make that type of adjustment, I need to make sure I keep how this factors into my decisions specific vs each individual opponent's perspective.

Well.. that's it. Feel free to respond with something you want to improve on as well as with something you think you do a good job with. It'll give everyone food for thought.

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April results are in! (Except for the big session I plan to put in today)

Vegas has been good to me so far. I definitely beat up on 2/5 a bit (but haven't been able to play it full time due to BR issues). I overall broke even on my 5/10 shots (but I ran teh badz).

Staying with Myth, and Frink for a week, has been a lot of fun even though the main focus has been grinding. I slowed down a bit this past week or so as far as the grindtrain goes but I will be hopping back on for May. I *have* to put in mass hours and hopefully have a huge month so that I can be properly rolled for 5/10 come WSOP.

Myth has been looking at looking at a WSOP house and has visited a number of them, I went to one of the choices yesterday.. very nice place. We're checking out another one today that has its own mini-theater, pool, spa, and pool table of course.. lol ^^

Hopefully I'll feel like writing more entertaining stuff this coming month, but this is it for now.

My graph is missing some money here somehow, but whatever, I've had my biggest month evarz. Next month's goal is 10k and not to spend half of it :/ LOL. I REALLY need to win 10k+ so I'm crossing my fingers and rubbing my lucky rabbits foot.



BTW I can't thank myth enough for being the hero that he is, hopefully I can return the value to him somehow down the line. HUZZAH!

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I was soooo close to being successful with the strict spending limit thing. We went out tonight (myth/his gf/frinkx/a friend of his/me), then frinkx and I hung out with some azn poker players and had korean BBQ(which was awesome btw). Everything went really well until eventually when we should of gone home, frinkx is like "lets goto a strip club" We ended up at the Rhino cuz everything else was dead at 7AM.

Then my life just got fucked again. Damn you, FrinkX! ^^

(I ended up being the last degen there by far, I just got back at 2pm

........
2 P fucking M.)

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Downswing won't stop. And these games are so incredibly nitty. I don't know if I'm just not adjusting right or what, now.. hum

atleast I am finally getting back in the gym..

whatever...

suicide

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Stop fucking coolering me

just fucking stop

stopstopstopstsotsptpsotsptostops what the FUJCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKDJf

wow fucking stop ok

I came home way early and I'm just going to sit around until I fall asleep imo

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The run-bad continues! The real problem is that I sat with this cute girl flirting for 2 hours and I didn't ask for her number before she left. After she was gone 3 guys on the table go 'did u get her number or what?'. I'm all totally like, "oops nope". They go 'LOL WTF?' Life downswing.. self inflicted now.

Poker downswong better end asaply then I need to find me a pretty ladyz.

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FACKSDFJIN

Took 2.2bi shot at 5-10. I played wayyyyyyy not like myself at all and made some really crappy errors + ran bad in one spot. Sigh. Fuck. I won't play 5-10 'til may.

I'm still up (and haven't spent lol) quite a bit of my profit for april. I'm just going to grind 2/5 and if I keep running bad I will drop to 1/3 or what not. Really, my goal for april was to make 6k and I'm right at that mark now. I just hope I don't run bad much longer.

Played some 2/5 after my crappy 5/10 session. Went pretty well, I was up a buyin. Then my last hand UTG I have 77 and flop 745dd. Get it in on the flop for 100bb. Obv he flips 68dd and I don't boat up. Second time I've gotten stacked UTG on my last hand. Sigh.

So -2.2k for the day.

Gotta play my normal game when I play 5/10 next.

No downswing plz poker lords.

oh yah, myth sat'd into the 25k today(Saturday) at bellagio, glglglgl

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