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Yesterday was a good day..

Uh, I was drunk w my cousin walking to his car and we run into these 2 big black dudes as we turn the corner. They're like "sup" so I'm all like "SUP NIGGAS LOL" but I quickly realize my mistake and apologize, with the explanation that I've been listening to wayyyyyy too much hiphop (I have been lol). Turns out they were hawking their home-made rap CD so I bought one from 'em as an apology. I think I referred to them as niggas like five more times in the conversation though.. I was recommending tech n9ne to them in exchange for buying their cd.

Well I'm glad to be alive.

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God I've been having a hard time, and I feel like I've definitely run bad for the duration of the month. The last 7 days or so (36k hands onwards) I have been feeling pretty good though. I do need to keep working on not making any tilty plays.. just took a look at my biggest losers this month and am like wtf. Really disappointed in myself with that.

I hope december is a lot better ><



I have a small prop bet with the cleaner, some things are still tentative but I think we're doing $500 on who plays the most hands from the 4th - the 18th. PoorUser the Magnificent is escrowing for us. The prop probably isn't thread worthy unfortunately

Meh just making sure I keep my head up.

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Wondering if anyone wants to have a 1-2 week prop bet at the beginning of dec. Put something like $500 on who plays the most hands at a given limit in that timespan.. figured it could be fun as a little motivator.

Anyone interested? Not really looking for someone who regularly like 16 or 24 tables cuz I'm not looking to just give away money

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I'm still v well rolled for nl100, but I decided to mix it up a bit and see if I could just..reduce my stress for a while. Well I've never had great success at 6+ tables before but I really want to change that, and I want to figure out what exactly was breaking down in my thought processes when I had more tables up.

I've started to solve some of that, so here is my graph of 12-16 tabling nl50 so far.


I'm really in awe of my red line. Being at this stake again, I can really appreciate that I *have* improved immensely as a poker player over time. It gets me back into feeling like I do infact have an edge over these other players and that helps me think about variance better.

Its also really sweet to have so much hand volume and rakeback even though this is only 11hours of play. I figure I will just leave myself without a plan right now and with any luck I'll be moving back to 1/2 soon.
:D

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Played pretty bad today overall.. Yesterday I was feeling pretty iffy too. I think if I don't feel 110% when I start my session tomorrow, I'm just going to take the day off. Disappointed that I played very suboptimally though. Just feeling really shaky at nl200 since 3 days ago when in the first 30 minutes of my session I got insanely coolered for 4bi and just lost every other pot otherwise lol.

I feel like my mindset is still a bit delicate right now so I'm going to play only nl100 until Friday evening.

This is my month so far, kind of depressed tbh when I look @ rossro's results.. I feel shitty about it tbh.

Overall month


Gonna read poker books tomorrow.

Nl100 for the month

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Sundays are whack I ran like dog ass at 1/2 and 2/4, though I didn't play as well as I could of either.. Even so, deck wasn't as kind as I'd of liked!

I'm really proud I got in 2.4k hands and played for about 7 hours today though!

Unreal bullshit with my sister is really peaking lately (bunch of sister-spawned crap coinciding atm) and mom might actually kick her out permanently, as my sister is getting real nasty and some of the stuff she said tonight could of seriously deteriorated their relationship.. which is pretty serious because my mom is super super nice and also a pushover so if she finally is fed up with her own daughter, lol, well hopefully my sister learns a lesson and grows up someday. magnificent screaming match, and mom did something she's never done and just straight up charge my sister trying to hit her (obv she has a hard time actually hitting her cuz she's her daughter so she just kind of fell on her and was flailing about for a minute. It was pretty upsetting though because that's never happened before, so like I said things are coming to a head maybe. Yes it was also kind of funny to see lol.
bleh....

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My sister seriously fucks up my life in untold ways. I've gotta get out of this house.

So my only goals
1. Get myself into a position to get the fuck out of here asap without hindering my ability to grow my bankroll and move up.
2. Figure out where to go and what move is going to be best for me, whether that means I move somewhere within the same city, or to another place entirely (ie back to Vegas or somewhere I've never been perhaps). Being near a casino with good regular live games from 5/10+ would be really nice, but that can wait until next summer @ Vegas too.

I am quite sure that the situation here at home is completely unsolvable so I have to be the one to leave.

I would really like to shoot for gtfo'ing Jan. 1st, and if I move to a college town or within my own city (we have a big university), that would be a perfect time. Problem is I think Jan 1st may be too soon $ wise (NO time is too soon otherwise LOL).

I'm calculating my *mandatory basic expenses* if I move out (ie including rent) at just over $1k a month right now though. Totally do-able right this second but I'd rather not risk getting stuck grinding nl100 for life.

Quick rundown; $550 for rent+utilities, $200 car insurance, $200 grocery/food, $30 gym membership, $50 gas = ~$1k/month in expense. Reasonable?

Sigh, probably just day dreaming until atleast Feb. or March.

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Trying not to make a bunch of results blogs and such while I get myself back together, but I can't help it

I've been running a LOT better the past 7 days? and it all turned around when I made my sleep more regular, and started getting my life a little more balanced (still working on this). Slowhabit's book has also rejuvenated me. The support from all my friends on this site has also been a boon, thanks!

Two days ago I woke up and started a session where in less than 300 hands I was 9 buyins below EV rofl, but I didn't tilt for a second. I ended up putting in a normal-length session and by the end of the day I had a nicely profitable day.

Anyway, I wanted to briefly talk about my how my emotions roll in HU and how I'm trying to control it.

Yesterday I was playing vs some guy at nl100 HU, I think he's like a semi-reg as he has played over 50k hands HU and (was) up 17 buyins. I was running good, but the thing was he was on mega tilt. In 200 hands I won 9buyins from him. I could feel his desperation and could tell he was breaking down. As I slowly worked down his bankroll I could feel his soul crumble, his rage boiling while inside he held back tears. THAT is how tilted he was playing. And I felt bad.

I wanted to quit him around hand 150 because I couldn't handle how bad he was playing and how horrible his tilt was. But I didn't and I persevered until he surely rage-quit his poker client. Afterwards, I took an hour long walk where I thought about how I felt. I determined only that I need to become more alpha, more dominant in my thought processes around poker. My only comfort during this time was that he understood the risks going into the situation (ie playing poker). I know its a weird thing to be worried about, overall, so I'm working on instilling a better mentality so that this isn't such an issue for me.

This crops up a lot more in HU than ring games (for me atleast) because HU is so much more personal. Playing one versus one.. you can detect their thoughts and demeanor so much better imo.

Soooo I won 11 buyins in 2hrs yesterday. LOL

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Exciting. I was 2 tabling this super fish and he had to close one of the tables because his account was low. SUCCESS. Also I think its pretty funny how all of the HU regs dodge me even tho I'm stuck multiple buyins in nl50 and nl100 HU on PTR (And in reality lol).

nl100 lol


Anyway, just been playing a lot of 6max and trying to rejuvenate my game. I think I've been playing well, guess we'll see what the results say in 2wk or whatever!

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I took this shit, its a workout supplement that gives you energy and such.. and I'm fucking TWEAKING OUT I can't stop twitching or moving and I'm excessively giddy. AWESOME LOL. Just thought I would share.

Been making my way through Slowhabit's book, uh, slowly, but I'm almost done so I shall fulfill my review commitment! To be honest I really don't want to, because this book is pretty good and I don't want anyone to know about it

Past couple of days I've been feeling really good, I feel like I have a large part of my discipline and confidence back. Hopefully I will be able to have a nice "I'm back in the game" blog by the end of the week.

Wow this stuff is hardcore, I haven't taken it since I used to work out so my tolerance is completely gone haha. I recommend NOXPLODE for those of you who have been working out for a couple of months and are ready to push yourself a bit. I won't be taking this stuff again until I've been in the gym for a couple of months myself ^^

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