On January 23 2020 06:02 Santafairy wrote:
seeing musk's romantic woes is a really funny and educational thing
What have you learned? (I haven't been following his romantic woes)
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Santafairy Korea (South). Jan 23 2020 07:45. Posts 2225
it doesn't help lol
he's bald and foreveralone and has two companies and controls billions of dollars and can't find a decent woman or hold on to a shitty one
literally read his interviews
all he cares about is not having to sleep alone so he drifts from psycho mother of a bunch of monozygotes, to tight limey pussy, then other shit... i mean geeze
if you post about tinder one more time i'm going to burn your blog to the ground
fucking go outside
It seems to be not very profitable in the long run to play those kind of hands. - Gus Hansen
if you post about tinder one more time i'm going to burn your blog to the ground
fucking go outside
If I'm using it I'm going to post about it.
I do go outside. It's not like I can hang out in bars consuming until parties are lubricated and we go on "Next" type dating show situations. All I really have is AA meetings. There are women I'm kind of keeping tabs on and playing very slow tit for tat games. For me I think the play has to be very conservative because AA is where I eat and I don't want to shit there. I kind of like my rotation of meetings and don't want to put that at risk. Not that I'm going to do anything to jeopardize that but having a bad date with someone and then having to see them twice a week is kind of awkward. I suppose we can be adults and carry on I have always just been really conservative with women at work and women in AA. I don't get out much besides that so that's where the online dating comes in.
I don't go outside much besides AA. I'm not going to go to a park and start "day gaming." I'm not going to "day game" anywhere. I'm likely going to a show this Monday but I will be there for the music and with my friends. I'll be drinking a cranberry and club soda or a CBD water. If a drunk woman starts flirting with me I will flirt back but it's a different kind of vibe to being out in a place to pick up or meet women high or drunk (even if you are there with friends).
Where do you suggest that I go?
Online dating is suboptimal but at my age and my lack of drinking it seems to be a necessary evil.
I took a Xanax tonight. My Doctor told me to try one in a controlled environment. I don't really feel any different. Many people in my life who are honest tell me that I am stagnant and I have to start facing my fears and going through them. So, trying some Xanax was one of them. I have to trial it before I go on a date. I don't know if I will have a panic attack on a date I just have a fear of that happening.
So many beautiful women on Tinder but I still have to stick to my guns of not giving a fuck no matter what. It's a crack app. People fly through it when they are bored. Just fly through on a whim. Whimsical fairies all coked up. Such a weird space.
This feels like some Xanny music:
I love all of ya'll.
Ya know that I pray for the sick and the suffering every day? Why do I do that? I don't know I just started doing it and have kept with it. I never ever thought that I would pray and now I pray every day. It like sets the tone for the day. Sets the intention. It alleviates anxiety somehow. I really don't know. I'm going to keep doing it though. It doesn't make sense at all. When people say "Oh, we'll keep you in our thoughts and prayers" I'm like get the fuck out of here but now here I am praying. When Nancy Pelosi talks about prayer I want to strangle her. Seatbelt. Rear Naked Strangle to Nancy Pelosi. I don't want to kill her. I just want her out cold so she is no longer talking. I don't know whose worse. Trump, Pence, or Pelosi. Part of me thinks if I can get my confidence back in public speaking I have a run in politics in me but FUCK THAT! I have to be able to find better ways to help people surely. That's all I want to do. Is help people. Alleviate suffering. That's all I've ever wanted to do since getting some grips on this sobriety thing. It's the only valid answer. Yet, I toil away most days at some whatever job controlled by the enemy. Yes, the billionaires are the enemy. They didn't get their billions by being these great humans they fucking took their billions with manipulation and slipperiness or what some people call being clever. IT'S NOT JSUT FUCKIGN BEING CLEVER!!!!!111 When are we going to wise up and rise up???? Why don't I locate the fucking local IWW???? Why don't I do fucking anything???? But, take a xanax and listen to music. It's actually quite pleasant but there isn't much of a head change. Just a sort of nice calmness and relaxation. And I'm still getting fired up about greedy piece of shit billionaires and fucking megacorporations. They don't care about fucking anybody. fuck!
Yes! Fucking Vangelis on the radio!
I need to get a life. But what's a nigga going to do at 1:17 in the AM?
I think if Xanax gave me more of a head change and wasn't so fucking terrible it would really be my speed. Maybe I just have to take more. I think smoking weed with a large dose of Xanax would be the best ever. The problem being that Xanax is so very addictive and there is bad withdrawal associated with it. Alcohol would go well with it too if it didn't cause shallow breathing and death. Maybe that's how I'll kill myself. I've had the shallow breathing before from absurd amounts of alcohol where I thought I might die. That actually wasn't fun. I was just like "whelp, I'm too drunk to really do anything right now but pass out.... I hope I don't die." I'm on the cusp of too many potentially great things to want to kill myself. There is hope. Which is why in reality I'll just take Xanax for what my Doctor prescribed it for. Going on dates and we will see what happens. But, man, if shit goes sour I'm finding some real good weed and the right amount of Xanax and getting fucking blazar'd. Well, actually, probably not even then but I might try it out if it were that or killing myself. I just don't want to mess around with any withdrawal scenarios. Those are the worst.
United States. Jan 23 2020 07:38. Posts 8534
