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RiKD    United States. May 31 2018 21:13. Posts 8445
So, I have been doing a bit more earnest job seeking as of late and this shit is fucking hard. Especially with a mind full of anarcho-syndicalism, Catalonia, Chomsky, et al. It makes me want to not do it so I went to one of my favorite outlets LP. It just all looks unpleasant. It's just a sea of these corporations and it is like no I don't want to sell Nike shoes to people, no, unfortunately I am not an engineer, no, I don't want to be a cashier for your bourgeois organization. I don't want to complain about that anymore. So, I watched a bunch of Noam Chomsky YouTube videos.

I think the best I can hope for these days is some form of end in itself with minimal authority. Somewhat agreeable scheduled shifts, not too much of an overbearing overseer although there are security cameras everywhere these days. I had a friend tell me, "It's work. That's why they call it fucking work." Can we do better than that? Meh, I don't want to obsess about this now. The reality is if I don't get work at some point I will starve so by renting MYSELF, MY LABOR out for wages this is wage slavery. Anytime I start talking about this people mostly get defensive. They hate me. They hate the fact that I am free even if it is just for 2-3 months. It was similar to when I was playing poker for a living. I had figured out a way to beat the system. I think the fact that there was no overseer, no schedules, something that I liked to do it may beat out the hollowness felt at times. I don't know though. Some of those depressions were the worst.

I think about being a history professor. But, I don't exactly like the specialization. I like bigger picture. Including philosophy, sociology, anthropology, economics, etc etc etc etc. I would rather go broad and complex than narrow and specialized. I don't want to study the significance of the red scarves in the battles of Catalonia I want to talk about what that revolution means for the future. I would like to actually delve into the 100 million number in relation to MARXISM and Leninism, Stalinism, and Maoism. It all gets lumped under communism and that isn't fair. Also, where does anti-communism come from exactly and are the criticisms fair?

But, here I go again "typing" and "talking" about what I am going to do instead of just doing it. Fuck it, hopefully my Kindle is done charging so I can continue reading "Homage to Catalonia" by Orwell. Pretty good stuff. I get educated on anarchy, communism, and annarchist communist revolutions. Pretty fucking cool.

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Loco   Canada. Jun 01 2018 03:18. Posts 20963

fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount 

RiKD    United States. Jun 01 2018 03:50. Posts 8445

Such bullshit.

$15/hr isn't even a living wage in San Francisco. Either a living wage or automation and UBI. I'm sick of these fucking corporate scare tactics. How many CEOs authority is actually legitimate? Everyone should fucking organize. And, another thing! Let's fucking strike. You know every fucking baby boomer I know in this country criticizes France for striking and being on vacation all the time. Fucking brainwashed achievement-subjects. France gets it, Denmark gets it, Finland gets it. The USA will forever be this 1% owned pile of shit AND THE FUCKING WORKING CLASS OBEYS!


GoTuNk   Chile. Jun 01 2018 14:48. Posts 2860


  On June 01 2018 02:50 RiKD wrote:
Such bullshit.

$15/hr isn't even a living wage in San Francisco. Either a living wage or automation and UBI. I'm sick of these fucking corporate scare tactics. How many CEOs authority is actually legitimate? Everyone should fucking organize. And, another thing! Let's fucking strike. You know every fucking baby boomer I know in this country criticizes France for striking and being on vacation all the time. Fucking brainwashed achievement-subjects. France gets it, Denmark gets it, Finland gets it. The USA will forever be this 1% owned pile of shit AND THE FUCKING WORKING CLASS OBEYS!



People are not supposed to live on 15 dolars an hour. It's a job for kids and students that a chimpanzee could do.
Also, please end your first world rantings. I know tons of people who would happily take a job at 10 usd/hour.
Did you study anything beyond high school? Haven't you been a poker pro for years, didn't you save anything?


RiKD    United States. Jun 01 2018 17:11. Posts 8445

$15/hr is enough to live on where I live. That's about $30,000/yr. It's not enough to keep up the status game but more than enough to live comfortably if one doesn't fashionably consume. So, I'd say it's a job for anyone that wants to make about $30,000/yr and live comfortably. Did you just reduce any living wage job and lower to chimpanzee work? Really?

Minimum wage in my state is $7.50/hr but owners are not actually required to pay that. There are tons of people who would happily take a job at 10 usd/hr here too. It is a planetary problem caused by the nature of capitalism/development/neoliberal economics.

I have a history degree from THE Ohio State University. That's how they actually branded it. It's literally called The Ohio State University.

I stopped playing poker in 2010 and lived off of savings for 2 years. I got a job as a salesman at a multinational corporation. I crushed it for a few years then developed alcoholism and psychosis. Went to rehab. Went to psych wards. I was still getting a salary from the corporation because that's what was agreed upon in my contract in hopes I would be rehabilitated. I travelled the world for 6 months and it was sublime. Then the corporation put me in a rehab job in an office. I hated it and squeaked by. They were still willing to offer me a job. I said no. I think the VP of HR felt a bit disrespected and that was more or less a wrap there. They stopped giving me money. I lived some more on savings. Maybe like 2 or 3 years with intermittent jobs. I ran through a lot of jobs in that time. I worked in a restaurant for maybe the past 8 months. The restaurant closed down. I am back to living on savings. I don't have a lot of savings at this point.


Loco   Canada. Jun 01 2018 18:05. Posts 20963

43% of U.S. households can’t afford the basics such as food, child care, health care, transportation, and a cell phone

first world problems tho. also: some people would love to have the opportunity to suck cock on the streets for good money so you have nothing to complain about.

fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccountLast edit: 01/06/2018 18:06

RiKD    United States. Jun 01 2018 18:16. Posts 8445

In the mornings I like to just lie in bed day dreaming and spending time with my imagination. Sometimes drifting back off into sleep. Back into the dreamworld. There is something so satisfying with rolling over, pulling the covers close, and lying with the dog and the cats. A guy like Jocko would say this is weakness. The enemy is up and planning. You need to be up by 4:45 am ready to please the masters. That's pretty much the job isn't it. Keep the boss happy. Give him profit and power so that he can maybe leverage a bonus out of it and maybe juuusssstttt maybe he'll give you some scraps. Oh, but he wants to keep the boat and put the new extension in on his house and get down to Key West. Well, maybe next time eh? That's the new end. Keep the masters happy. What a fucking dismal end. Do you know how great it is to walk into a mill and know everyone and everyone knows you and we are all working together as brothers? Then you go upstairs and talk to the masters and it's as simple as "we'll get you this much profit and prestige and you'll give us this much margin comprende?" Then they hem and haw a bit and the purchasing agent always says it's too expensive but if you can get the SHOP, the PLANT aka THE PLANT MANAGERS, THE MASTERS enough profit and prestige nothing else fucking matters. So, that's really the end in today's world. Make the masters happy. That's really quite depressing.

I'd rather read. I have had people criticize me for reading because it's not work. You know, when people criticize the French for going on strikes and having too much vacation I never understood. Why wouldn't we want better situations and more vacation? The masters brand it as laziness. Work hard, keep the masters happy, understand your place and one day YOU can be the master but that's not how it works. It's a distortion and an illusion. At least for the vast majority of us. In the middle, everyone is trying to look the same with their own details of expression surely. It's kind of like middle class luxury. It's kind of a lie. Maybe a bit gaudy. A coach bag that everyone covets covered in Cs. A bit higher up, these are the people that truly know how to fashionably consume. These are the people that the middle class wants to be. They want their consumption to be fashionable and not just consumption. They make their master really happy. They get a promotion and a bonus. They buy a Lexus. Now, they are in trouble. Gateway drugs abound. They may not be fashionable consumers yet but damnit they are going to consume until they get there.

So, I want to lie around and dream. Lie around and read books. Lie around and stare at the stars. Stare at a campfire. Talk to a friend. Help a fellow. Give the dog a walk.

I don't even know how I plan to find a job at this point honestly. Do I just try and find a boss I like? After all keeping them happy IS my job. I think I might be fooked. I am perhaps enjoying my time off too much. Ech, it's such a dirty business renting myself out to some owner. Blech.

So, fuck it, I'll keep reading and keep receiving criticisms that I am not working, I am not working on working. I am growing too accustomed to end in itself activities. Isn't that sad? Shouldn't our lives be filled with end in itself activities? Is that too much to ask?


GoTuNk   Chile. Jun 01 2018 18:26. Posts 2860


  On June 01 2018 16:11 RiKD wrote:
$15/hr is enough to live on where I live. That's about $30,000/yr. It's not enough to keep up the status game but more than enough to live comfortably if one doesn't fashionably consume. So, I'd say it's a job for anyone that wants to make about $30,000/yr and live comfortably. Did you just reduce any living wage job and lower to chimpanzee work? Really?

Minimum wage in my state is $7.50/hr but owners are not actually required to pay that. There are tons of people who would happily take a job at 10 usd/hr here too. It is a planetary problem caused by the nature of capitalism/development/neoliberal economics.

I have a history degree from THE Ohio State University. That's how they actually branded it. It's literally called The Ohio State University.

I stopped playing poker in 2010 and lived off of savings for 2 years. I got a job as a salesman at a multinational corporation. I crushed it for a few years then developed alcoholism and psychosis. Went to rehab. Went to psych wards. I was still getting a salary from the corporation because that's what was agreed upon in my contract in hopes I would be rehabilitated. I travelled the world for 6 months and it was sublime. Then the corporation put me in a rehab job in an office. I hated it and squeaked by. They were still willing to offer me a job. I said no. I think the VP of HR felt a bit disrespected and that was more or less a wrap there. They stopped giving me money. I lived some more on savings. Maybe like 2 or 3 years with intermittent jobs. I ran through a lot of jobs in that time. I worked in a restaurant for maybe the past 8 months. The restaurant closed down. I am back to living on savings. I don't have a lot of savings at this point.



Well that's a tough life.
It seems your degree ir worthless? You should take wathever job you can take now and find ways to save and/or find a job in your degree if that's what you like.

I would strongly advice to stop blaming capitalism for all your problems, it seems you did mess up quite a bit. Put things in a bit of perspective.
1) You will NEVER be happy if you always consider yourself a victim. Never.
2) You live in the 1% or 5% of the top wealthy in the current world and 0.1% of human history. Be thankful you weren't born in north korea or Venezuela, or a peasent in some random castle. Or a black slave. etc.

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GoTuNk   Chile. Jun 01 2018 19:01. Posts 2860


  On June 01 2018 17:05 Loco wrote:
43% of U.S. households can’t afford the basics such as food, child care, health care, transportation, and a cell phone

first world problems tho. also: some people would love to have the opportunity to suck cock on the streets for good money so you have nothing to complain about.



Fakenews!

Don't worry, after 8 years of stagnation the best U.S. president in the XXI century is taking care of it.

 Last edit: 01/06/2018 19:01

RiKD    United States. Jun 01 2018 20:25. Posts 8445


  On June 01 2018 17:26 GoTuNk wrote:
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Well that's a tough life.
It seems your degree ir worthless? You should take wathever job you can take now and find ways to save and/or find a job in your degree if that's what you like.

I would strongly advice to stop blaming capitalism for all your problems, it seems you did mess up quite a bit. Put things in a bit of perspective.
1) You will NEVER be happy if you always consider yourself a victim. Never.
2) You live in the 1% or 5% of the top wealthy in the current world and 0.1% of human history. Be thankful you weren't born in north korea or Venezuela, or a peasent in some random castle. Or a black slave. etc.


My degree isn't "worthless." It was a good education and I have a degree. Now, it's not particularly easy to go be a cog in the wheel of a corporation for $50,000+/yr with a history degree. That's probably what you meant by "worthless." I have no desire to work at another multinational corporation ever again. Corporations are for psychopaths and sheep. I am neither.

It's always the fucking righties with their victim talk. I am a product of my society. I don't think it's coincidence that I developed alcoholism and psychosis when I did. Victim is just a fucking parroted buzzword that you guys love to use. I was harmed as a result of capitalism and culture. Well, I guess that would make me a victim. I don't see how it makes me inherently unhappy. I resent capitalism. So, I talk to my sponsor about it or my therapist about it or I write about it on here. It's not unfounded. People tell me that it's life on life's terms and this and that blah blah bblah. I'm just saying let's do something about it. Let's ORGANIZE! Let's start anarchist collectivist communes. But, I am over being a victim. I was harmed. Past tense. I will continue to be harmed. Oh well. But, anytime I am viewed by a surveillance camera, or observed by an overseer, or asked to do anything and I pick up that paycheck so I can get some food, pay my car insurance, pay my health insurance I am cheapened as a human being. I'm just a commodity man. I am spending 40 hours a week doing means for an unrighteous end. It's unnatural. It has BECOME natural but it is unnatural. So, yeah, I am going to be unhappy and disobedient and organize if I can and not get run over in these negotiation man.

You know, a lot of people look back on these "primitive" tribes, these anarchic tribes, these collectives and say oh, look at these poor men living in dirt. What's the difference? I desire women, a woman. You know, it's not even about having big breasts or a big ass. It's a certain symmetry, it's a movement. The other day I was walking on the beach and I noticed a woman. This was about 100 yds away. I could see the basic shape and I could see how she MOVED. It grabbed my attention. I couldn't look away. As I got closer she made eye contact. She had blue hair. I heard her speak. "Can I pet your dog?" We made small talk. She had great eyes and smile. I don't think I was particularly charming or charismatic. I was kind of lost in her. We parted ways. As I walked I contemplated the interaction. Should I have said more? Should I have asked her out for drinks? The point is here if I could have asked her out on a ride in my Lamborghini maybe I make some deals with the devil. I think consuming for status sake is kind of making those deals with the devil. Renting ourselves out to an owner is making a deal with the devil. These masters are devilish owners with devilish smiles. They are conditioned to be that way. Many times they just are that way. Fiendish ghouls under the guise of polished mannequins. They are out for themselves. I don't trust them.


blackjacki2   United States. Jun 01 2018 23:06. Posts 2581

Are you sure your aversion to work is because u dont want to be a slave to the capitalist machine and not that you're just lazy?


iakim322   United States. Jun 02 2018 00:18. Posts 1335

It is NOT hard to find an okay job without super high standards when you are a bit older with some life experience as well. If you put some fucking work in. Especially nowadays when the standard is a bunch of entitled 21 yr olds with no conflict resolution skills.

I used to relate a tiny bit to your blogs and have some sympathy but fuck...you make it difficult. Stop seeking mostly useless discourse or really just attention on an internet forum. And go fucking do something


RiKD    United States. Jun 02 2018 01:32. Posts 8445


  On June 01 2018 22:06 blackjacki2 wrote:
Are you sure your aversion to work is because u dont want to be a slave to the capitalist machine and not that you're just lazy?



I was talking to my therapist about that. I mentioned that most people are going to consider me lazy. I am ok with that. The same people consider the French lazy for striking so much and having so much vacation time. Why the fuck not? In the USA we are brainwashed. I've had people get kind of pissed at me that I am just sort of lounging around on the internet and reading books. What is so wrong with that? I am spending my time on ends in itself. That is a pure way of living.


GoTuNk   Chile. Jun 02 2018 01:48. Posts 2860


  On June 01 2018 23:18 iakim322 wrote:
It is NOT hard to find an okay job without super high standards when you are a bit older with some life experience as well. If you put some fucking work in. Especially nowadays when the standard is a bunch of entitled 21 yr olds with no conflict resolution skills.

I used to relate a tiny bit to your blogs and have some sympathy but fuck...you make it difficult. Stop seeking mostly useless discourse or really just attention on an internet forum. And go fucking do something



A 30 yo entitled kid seems worse


RiKD    United States. Jun 02 2018 02:01. Posts 8445


  On June 01 2018 23:18 iakim322 wrote:
It is NOT hard to find an okay job without super high standards when you are a bit older with some life experience as well. If you put some fucking work in. Especially nowadays when the standard is a bunch of entitled 21 yr olds with no conflict resolution skills.

I used to relate a tiny bit to your blogs and have some sympathy but fuck...you make it difficult. Stop seeking mostly useless discourse or really just attention on an internet forum. And go fucking do something



Some fair points here.

These blogs are just my feelings man. I sit down and I write. I am not thinking about useless discourse or attention I am just writing what comes to me. I really have no opinion of the value of it. I do it for its own sake. There are times when I want discourse or attention but then I lose the transcendence of it. The beauty gets destroyed. I am not saying my blogs are beautiful but the act of transcendence and pure expression is.

I realize I have to be a "big boy" and accept reality. What is reality? Does anyone truly know what reality is? Well, it's a safe bet that in the next 2-3 months I need to procure money in some way to pay for food, car insurance, health insurance, gas, etc. I will have to rent myself out to some owner in order to do this. This is really quite displeasing. These seem to be the facts. I do not have any skills or ideas up my sleeve that would allow me to be autonomous in my occupation. So, I will be back to doing something hopefully not too unpleasant although the mere fact of doing a job for a paycheck is unpleasant. The unavoidable manipulation, exploitation, and coercion from he masters is unpleasant. Maybe that is the biggest reason to start earning money sooner rather than later so that I can have x months of expenses in cash so the masters don't have as much leverage in the negotiations. Every day there's negotiations. Never again do I want to be possessed by my stuff. Starting to calculate what I can fashionably consume with my salary. They really got me then.


RiKD    United States. Jun 02 2018 02:17. Posts 8445


  On June 02 2018 00:48 GoTuNk wrote:
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A 30 yo entitled kid seems worse


You are delusional bro. Your reality is distorted. Not everything you disagree with is fake news or a hit job piece and not every piece of reduced statistics actually tells a positive story. Donald Trump is a buffoon. The definition of the word.

If believing that people should be able to eat and have reliable health care makes me entitled so fucking be it.


RiKD    United States. Jun 02 2018 02:36. Posts 8445

"Lazy," "entitled," "victim." All the buzzwords are coming out. It's like my blog is getting swarmed by Fox News baby boomers.


bigredhoss   Cook Islands. Jun 02 2018 05:49. Posts 8646


  On June 01 2018 02:50 RiKD wrote:
Everyone should fucking organize.




  On June 01 2018 19:25 RiKD wrote:
Let's ORGANIZE!

So, yeah, I am going to be unhappy and disobedient and organize if I can and not get run over in these negotiation man.



What initiatives have you taken to "organize"?

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Loco   Canada. Jun 02 2018 08:42. Posts 20963


  On June 01 2018 22:06 blackjacki2 wrote:
Are you sure your aversion to work is because u dont want to be a slave to the capitalist machine and not that you're just lazy?



Are you sure that your conception of work and laziness isn't something that's been imprinted in you at an early age so that you'd serve the interests of people who couldn't possibly care less about your well-being?

I guess when everything else failed, humor might still do the trick.

fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccountLast edit: 02/06/2018 08:46

Loco   Canada. Jun 02 2018 08:56. Posts 20963


  On June 02 2018 04:49 bigredhoss wrote:
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  On June 01 2018 19:25 RiKD wrote:
Let's ORGANIZE!

So, yeah, I am going to be unhappy and disobedient and organize if I can and not get run over in these negotiation man.



What initiatives have you taken to "organize"?


Give the fucking guy a break, geez. What's the purpose of this kind of cynicism? He's just learned a bunch of stuff and he's venting. He doesn't have a job right now but in the future he could organize with his coworkers to have better working conditions. It's not something to be cynical about, it happens all the time. The employees of my favorite restaurant in Montreal are doing it right now.

fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccountLast edit: 02/06/2018 09:10

 
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