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terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 22 2009 23:20. Posts 13829
I woke up 2 days ago feeling like I was on tilt and since then i've tilted all the time and palyeedd like shit and i feel really awful about everything. I lost most of my winnings for the month and its mostly my fault, some standard downward variance as well but mostly my fault

I don't know why I feel like this, maybe I'm going crazy

And I felel ike I should learn HU but I played today and its like always where I just don't seem ot have any patience when playing HU and I lose my mind and they always have the nuts

God I really feel like the worst and like I probably cna't even beat nl10 at my current skill level tbh

wtf is wrong with me

here's HU graph for your entertainment


god damn wtf I'm like hyper emotional atm

anyway that's -2.5k in 2 days, probably 1800 of it being my fault


look at me I can't even bring myself to type anywhere close to properly and leave typos etc wtf I have to get a handle on myself.. sigh.

month graph



I'll get over it. I self excluded for the first time ever (this feels pathetic and is something I never thought I should have to do).. only 24 hours tho.`


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 Last edit: 22/10/2009 23:27

joLin   United States. Oct 22 2009 23:27. Posts 3818

some days i just feel tilted for no reason at all too.

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terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 22 2009 23:30. Posts 13829


  On October 22 2009 22:27 joLin wrote:
some days i just feel tilted for no reason at all too.



yah its been two days like this and I guess I should learn the real danger of this now that I have done the damage.. super retard rage tilt

might have something to do with my ridiculous sleep schedule fuck ups, my head just feels like a big piece of shit stuck on my shoulders, no clarity in my thoughts, Before either of these downswing days as soon as I started playing I simply couldn't 'get into' anyone else's head or really even construct ranges properly, I guess I should pay more attention to these things.. Just feel so gulty not playing any volume......


zerglife   . Oct 22 2009 23:37. Posts 6

make sure you're getting enough rest, are eating correctly, and are exercising, I find that whenever I feel that way it's usually due to one of those factors, just have to wait it out and time will fix it.


terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 22 2009 23:41. Posts 13829


  On October 22 2009 22:37 zerglife wrote:
make sure you're getting enough rest, are eating correctly, and are exercising, I find that whenever I feel that way it's usually due to one of those factors, just have to wait it out and time will fix it.



yah this has been weighing heavily on my mind since I got back home, just haven't forced myself up off my ass to go renew my gym membership etc (I used to be quite serious about being healthy and etc).. At this point it is like a double whammy of not eating correctly, not exercising, not having proper or even remotely reasonable sleeping habits, PLUS feeling guilty and stressed about not doing those things in the first place.. lol

maybe since I self excluded I will go set up my gym membership tomorrow..


fenner   Australia. Oct 23 2009 00:11. Posts 2188

Seems like you were playing a decent reg HU, your BR is bound to take a hit if you're learning vs a good reg


terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 23 2009 00:34. Posts 13829

yah but the whole problem is my bad emotional reponse to the situation, dunno, its just like I was destined to tilt if I played or something


ortak   Bulgaria. Oct 23 2009 11:04. Posts 83

self exclusion is good i use it when i am on tilt ,i dont think its pathetic its good for not tilting all your money when you are not in the right mood


terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 23 2009 12:25. Posts 13829

yah I just hated the idea of ever having to use it or thinking it'd be a good idea, aka my control needs to be better

hopefully i'll never use it again unless some extraordinary situation arises


terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 23 2009 12:41. Posts 13829

Figured I'll post a quick update here instead of making another blog. Plus I would feel obligated to write more if I made a whole new blog post.

Basically, I haven't slept or anything since this blog but I have been chillin out and relaxing. I went for sushi.. a place down the road has a nice lunch special and I basically got 1 and a half meals worth of sushi for just 20 bucks. On the way home I realized again that I am really fortunate and I need to be taking advantage of that, that at this point I am 100% sure I can lock down a pretty damn good hourly rate compared to any of my friends, acquaintances, or most 22 year olds.. or anyone in general. So I should really just relax and really understand that to take proper advantage of this I have to resume being mature about my tilt control.

Even after losing more than half of what I was up for the month my hourly is still over $30/hour. I mean.. c'mon.. there's no excuse not to keep my head cool and to just stop playing when that is the best option.

Not sure what I'm going to play when my self exclusion drops. I have 40 buyins for 1/2 and a 23k hand sample of myself winning at an EV of 2.5 ptbb/100 (actually won @ 2.3ptbb/100).. This after 2bi I straight up tilted off yesterday. Hell, I'm still up a buyin on my 2/4 shot!

I will be serious again, in any case.

 Last edit: 23/10/2009 12:46

terrybunny19240   United States. Oct 24 2009 01:30. Posts 13829

no where else to post my little whine and i dont' want to spam a blog just yet OMFG WTF so ridiculous.. I play nl100 for 250 hands and am down 4.5bi

not upset but i did stop the session prematurely

 Last edit: 24/10/2009 02:08

 



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