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Megatilted. Rantmode : on.
Im basically back to zero, feels like i wasted 1 fucking month of pokering.
Something very bad happened in real life, so I had to cash out about 1K(which was about 40% of my roll) few days ago, of course this implied that I had to move down to that shithole of NL25 again, but instead, with a bit more than half of my roll left, I decided to continue playing NL50 but was tilted all the time when I thought about my crippled BR and looked at my cashier.
As a result of that, I quickly blew all of my profits for the month, and didnt play for a few days. Today I sat home and was bored so I played again with a tilted mind and blew another 150 or so on NL25. I dont even have 1K anymore. I had so great goals for this month and the upcoming ones and now Im back to zero. I played really well as well and had myself under control but I just made a huge step backward ONCE AGAIN.
Feels so fucking bad... Im so fucking stupid to play in a tilted mood, really hate myself for doing that. Deep inside I know that i should REALLY grind now to get back my br and to not lose anymore time but I got NO fucking motivation left at all and it feels so tilting to HAVE to move back down to this stupid motherfucking fish limit NL25. Everything there tilts me fuckkkkkk i hate this fucking game my timing is the fucking worst ever I always have to cash out just when Im about to move up so I can make enough to cover life expenses PLUS HAVE a constantly growing br. FUCKING SHIT FUCK MOTHERFUCKING aoiwehfauwefiauwefliawefuaiwefluaiwefiuawef
Heres monthly graph. Rationally thinking, this shouldnt even look bad because I can easily turn this into a good winning month, but just looking at my cashier makes me go apetilt because I had like 1500$ more in there a few days ago and it feels like that money just vanished.
I just hope I can regain a good state of mind again soon....
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Chewits United Kingdom. Jun 13 2009 18:27. Posts 2539 | | |
Yeah. but its best to not think about the money. If you keep thinking about they money you will play worse. Trust me,moving down to NL25 and owning everyone, will make you feel a hell of a lot better, and bring your confidence back, and you will be back at NL50 in no time.
Also you should prob take a break from playing poker, and not think about it, then come back in a couple days and watch lots of videos and stuff to remind yourself how to play. Cuz when your tilted you start forgetting how to paly properly. All you can think about is winning back your money.
Good luck man. I know you will turn this around. |
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SIG1 United States. Jun 13 2009 18:54. Posts 651 | | |
i went through this only 20 times |
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ya pretty much is going to happen a lot of times dude. good luck ^^ |
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