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whamm! Albania. Mar 16 2009 11:07. Posts 11625 | | |
last year i deposited my final roll of about 2300 (actually last attempt at this game at poker in general) at pokerstars, thinking if nothing happens by june of 2008, im done. then by some stroke of luck, i improve like a madman and built it up to 11kplus by end of february, making really big folds and villains showing me hands like aa vs my folded kk pf etc - it was almost like magic, like i knew exactly what villains ranges were most of the time. of course i did run good and the fact that it was my last attempt really kept me disciplined and very very patient, i was playing with some of the midstakes regs now e.g. jlost88 and a lot of other guys playing 100nl, who at that time, i considered to be somewhat of an equal in terms of skill level and shit.
then i hit a terrible downswing by march, lost about 15bi (which was kind of terrible, it being my real first downswing without actually spewing or tilting much), then proceeded to withdraw like more than half of my roll (about 5k) to pay for some debts IRL and buy a nice lcd tv, a decent desktop (for games and fun) just to soothe the pain. i went on a surfing trip to relax and recollect my thoughts about what happend and how quickly i fucked up my roll, from 11k now back to 3500.
i went on to play cod4 and cs, sc a lot in march up to april, rarely playing at all above microstakes (25nl my favorite limit), and maybe won a couple hundred by april. then i got staked for 100nl by a friend (which lasted only for a week lol but i paid him 150 in profit) then proceeded to play may, hit supernova then hit a massive boomswitch at 100nl winning like 40bi in a weeks time. then june, august(got staked again but swhong bigtime but made money on concierge),sept oct happens and i continue to clear profits and concierge, maybe ave about 3k to 4k monthly up to nov, in which i win a tourney for 5kplus and get a 3k miltesone plus winnings by december.
what im really trying to tell here is that, after all the shwongs and shit, i won like 40k last year, and really really went through the most stressful and colorful year of my life, i dont think i handled it all well at all, and i made a promise to do a lot better this year, and i did, BUT, i feel this is an exact mirror of what happend so far last year. win about 6k jan and feb, so far win 1k in march, but really going through another similar downswing ( on the upside, i did buy a 19kusd car and not just a friggin lcd tv and desktop lol), i dont think i can handle another year of uncertainty and stress, i mightve improved a lot insofar as the game is concerned, but i feel that mentally, psychologically, i really havent - i might even have gotten a lot worse in those areas, which now i fear a lot. i really just wanted to blog about it, coz i feel kinda down and out, i dont want another 40k year, i want two or three times that! anything less ( or god forbid losing a lot), would really make me quit after this year, games are so tough after 2 years of playing, and i guess its def gonna get tougher and tougher. FML i need another vacation imo. any seasoned players who have made money out of poker have any advice on how to deal with this or what to do now? i realy am not going to withdraw anymore and i duno if i should just redeposit like my winnings so far (7kusd) and just grind it out while tightening up IRL. cashouts rape me a lot esp this one lol
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dogmeat Czech Republic. Mar 16 2009 11:28. Posts 6374 | | | |
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SPEWTARD Peru. Mar 16 2009 12:24. Posts 4307 | | | |
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good post but i think ppl like u who are telling yourselves the games are gonna get tougher and tougher are jus scarying yourselves..games get tougher and u improve obviously..i hope to see u doin well cuz i saw alot of success posts by u last year and i think u still got it in u to suceed at the game |
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Fayth  Canada. Mar 16 2009 13:46. Posts 10085 | | | |
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Exhilarate United States. Mar 16 2009 16:00. Posts 5453 | | |
i think you cash out too much, you just have to focus on building that roll, improving your game and moving up stakes.
staying at 100nl kinda sucks, it takes so long to grind out hands, while you can move up to 200nl and make double/triple the money in the same amount of time.
obviously the swings can get harder to deal with but you can't really avoid them if you play poker |
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