NL10 - pathetic

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Uptown . Dec 03 2008 03:33. Posts 3557

So after the 2bi bust out from NL10 I went back to NL5 as planned until I reached the set bi for NL10 again. It came with great ease, as NL5 felt incredibly soft.

While I understand that it could very well be just a heater, or just ran good etc. However the undeniable part is the level of confidence I felt playing these tables and feeling in total control.

Unexpectedly I got to the bi mark I set for myself within 500 hands, and after a break off I went.

To Hell.

I'm not sure how to describe it, but the easiest way to say it is: I am a mess at NL10. The waves of playing alright and playing like dogshit is indescribable. I seem to be overly anxious. I seem bewildered by the difference in general style. And above all, I am 10x worse at laying down a hand I'm 90% sure I'm beat in. I'm not aggressive, I'm not assertive. Any danger card and I have my tail between my legs and whimper away. As said in the title, it is just a pathetic display of confidence in my own abilities.

It's not just the results that have me fuming. It's the fact that I can tell that while my brain is trying to play the same way I do in NL5, another part of it is shaken by the way people respond or don't respond differently here. I can tell I'm affected, and I know that my play is affected as well. As I said: pathetic.
I must say the bottom line is this: Unless I learn to get rid of my attachment to marginal hands, there is no chance in hell I am going to make a breakthrough here.

Apologies for the rant, but I believe a vent of any form should help regardless. I don't need sympathy, I don't want empathy. What I do need is going to come from within myself and only myself, and it's up to me to find what I need to change and make that commitment.

edit: I am still also far too aggressive in marginally better than marginal spots.

edit2: I think some introspection is in order for tomorrow.

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Last edit: 03/12/2008 04:19

sirracksalot United States. Dec 03 2008 03:39. Posts 2299

haters gonna hate

Perisie . Dec 03 2008 04:01. Posts 801

ugh you shouldnt be looking at charts for what is like 30 mins of play for some people :D

try 1 table at full ring; i say full ring because you're involved in less situations and less crazy situations so you have a chance to work on a narrower range of issues, building your confidence with these

if you're feeling stressed then take a day or 2 break and just read stuff until you feel your determination has increased enough that you are stronger and more able to control yourself

this works so well in starcraft, after 2-3 D- games you are intensely frustrated and fecked up , so you quit, watch some vods and soon that fire is rekindled and you charge into the fray once more!

Edjon Netherlands. Dec 03 2008 04:23. Posts 1579

build more buy ins for 10NL, then you wont be afraid of losing a little bit