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PplusAD Germany. Nov 09 2008 18:54. Posts 7182 | | |
Hey guys
I write this mainly for myself
Yesterday was a very strange day with a very surreal evening.
In my home city there was some big party going on where basically all pubs had open until 6am in the morning + special drinking offers
Needless to say me and my friends got really drunk.
basically what u do at these kinda events is u go from bar to bar and have 1-2 drinks at every bar till your totally drunk.
at around 1am we arrived at the last bar for the day and started drinking.
Then i notice this girl that i havent seen in years !
My first real love !
I wrote about her and our relationship a bit in an eariler blog few months ago. ( I think most of u havent read or dont remember)
We were together for about 1 year when we both were 16-17years old
It was a pretty sick intense extreme relationship with a lot of love and a lot of pain/hate
We had many downs and many highs during that time.
We did lots of stuff together that i havent down with anyone else ever again and basically our relationship split up for 2 reasons
1.) It got a little bit too extreme 2.) she moved away to another city for her job and we simply didnt see us enough anymore
She was also the first women i had sex with
the 1 year we were together was really sick.
We basically only met at weekends , got really hard on drugs everytime and did crazy shit together.
Wasnt healthy ... not for our bodies and not for our souls ^^
It was a constant rollercoaster of pleassure and depression and longterm it wasnt good for any of us. (f.e Both of us got really heavily into drugs because of that relationship)
after we split up i didnt really have much contact with her anymore. ( I guess both of us tried to start a normal life again, and the only way to really succeed was to leave the past behind)
This all has been almost 5 years ago !
So yesterday i saw her again.
I came over to her and smiled
She first didnt really know how to react and looked a bit confused
but after some time she smiled back and we started drinking.
1h later her friends and her Boyfriend said that they will go home.
my friends also went home then since 2 of them were so drunk that they constantly run to the toilette puking ^^
So my first great love told her friends that shed like to stay here with me and continue drinking with me
while i told my friends the same.
so at 2am i sat alone with her at a table both of us drinking drink after drink while talking about old times^^
This was teh first time for like almost 5 years we 2 were "together" again alone with ourself.
At first it was basically making jokes about how funny we have been as teenagers and the crazy shit we did.
The atmoshphere was like smalltakish.
But after a few drinks both of us got drunk and the talk got more serious.
Liek from: "Hey , do u remeber when we did ... that was funny" to " Hey , how du u feel nowadays " Are u happy inside?
Dont know if it becomes clear what i mean but i t really turned into some kind of deep conversation.
Thats where it become kinda really surreal.
I was really drunk till then and i only remember very small parts of the conversation and some thoughts.
AT some point i had to remind myself : Hey PplusAD u motherfucker plz dont fall in love with that girl again ! " 
She also must have gotten really drunk since she started to say some strange stuff.
It all was more like a movie than real.
The atmosphare was really deep and emotional all the time.
maybe it felt a bit as if someone silently drops a tear of joy after seeing his missed wife is still alive or smth ^^
so we continued drinking and talking and we were both totally honest to each other and talked about what our lives looks nowadays and what we feel doing different things.
Then at like 4am we went home and i walked with her untill we arrived at the house of her Boyfriend where shed stay for the night.
We probably hugged 1000times during our walk home.
Then when we arrived i said : I guess we wont see in a long time , it was very nice to see u and it really made me happy to have that evening with u.
She replied : Well she also was happy to see me again and she would be happy to maybe see me again in the near future. We can see us at the weekend when she stays with her boyfriend ( Who lives in my town , too)
I replied in a calm soft and straight voice : I guess that wont happen
>-< lol i really dont know why i said this or whatever but i insta said this in a calm non emotional voice and i couldnt do anything about it.
It was like someone had control over me and forced me to insta say these words ...
Hehe she was really confused about these words. ( And tbh i was confused about that , too ^^)
Then she gave me another hug and said bye bye
I walked home.
woke up today and found that yesterdays happenings seem very strange to me
End of story
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well you should probably stay away, esp if she is happy w/ her boyfriend. |
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anyway expected some raw sex in the bushes outside the boyfriend's house or smth.. kind of lame ending =P |
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seems like someone is still in love :D |
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PplusAD Germany. Nov 09 2008 19:28. Posts 7182 | | |
Well, when i was drunk talking with her at one point i thought.
( wtf i still love her ???)
But now being sober it really doesnt feel like being in love
more like being confused over what happend last night ... |
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haeper Germany. Nov 09 2008 19:41. Posts 440 | | |
| | On November 09 2008 18:04 SpasticInk wrote:
anyway expected some raw sex in the bushes outside the boyfriend's house or smth.. kind of lame ending =P |
haha #2 |
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lazymej Canada. Nov 09 2008 19:55. Posts 2897 | | |
| | On November 09 2008 18:04 SpasticInk wrote:
anyway expected some raw sex in the bushes outside the boyfriend's house or smth.. kind of lame ending =P |
lol ya that  |
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vegable United States. Nov 09 2008 20:02. Posts 2453 | | | |
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eightfourO United States. Nov 09 2008 22:06. Posts 820 | | |
| | On November 09 2008 18:04 SpasticInk wrote:
anyway expected some raw sex in the bushes outside the boyfriend's house or smth.. kind of lame ending =P |
spunk in her mouth next time. |
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EXCELED Canada. Nov 09 2008 23:19. Posts 401 | | |
man theres nothing worst then seeing an old serious girlfriend who you havent seen forever @ the bar. its strange that you posted this because the samething sort of happened too me. i was really hammered and just wanted to get some pussy so bad but man.... but i had to keep telling myself how much better off i am doing without having this girl in my life. sometimes the hardest choices are the best. id probably stay away man which you did. weird tho that she had a b/f and watned to stay and talk with you and the fact that he let her stay to talk with you means hes probably a pussy and she knows it and was feelin you that night. |
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