Appendix = Out

thats what happen to u rikd cuz u were mia for a bit, thought u cold turkey quit LP without a goodbye blog post lol but hope u get well soon bud.

I might need some TV suggestions. It's rough out here in my world at the moment.

get well soon!

Have you seen fallout and/or the expanse for TV recommendations.

On a side note i have been with 3 people with appendicitis' first one i had no idea but i diagnosed the other ones within a couple of hours. The second time i was Sunday MTT grinding with a friend and during the break he said "im just going to have a lay down on the floor during the break because in too much pain." That was when i was pretty sure it was an appendicitis lol. Amazingly he messaged Stars with his hospital notes etc and they refunded all of his buyins (about 1200 usd).

On August 29 2026 23:47 newgeinnings wrote: thats what happen to u rikd cuz u were mia for a bit, thought u cold turkey quit LP without a goodbye blog post lol but hope u get well soon bud.

Aktually, I was kind of over LP for a while there. The restlessness and boredom of my current situation brought me back. Thanks for the well wishes though <3

On August 30 2026 11:27 KeyleK_uk wrote: get well soon! Have you seen fallout and/or the expanse for TV recommendations. On a side note i have been with 3 people with appendicitis' first one i had no idea but i diagnosed the other ones within a couple of hours. The second time i was Sunday MTT grinding with a friend and during the break he said "im just going to have a lay down on the floor during the break because in too much pain." That was when i was pretty sure it was an appendicitis lol. Amazingly he messaged Stars with his hospital notes etc and they refunded all of his buyins (about 1200 usd).

Thanks mate ^^!

I was never into the Fallout genre but The Expanse looks super good. I'd like to see a world that has blown up across the solar system politically, etc.

I'm having flashbacks. I was in the surgery recovery room for 2 days. A bed never opened up. They had this blue screen they would pull across a rail to give me privacy. It was a lot of staring into that blue and my feet but mostly blue. I always had something in my arm whether that be fluids or antibiotics. Constantly monitored, getting tested, getting pricked. The man next door was absolutely misterable....

I may not be 100% but it's better than being in the hospital. I am writing this blog because I just needed something different to do. I have had about enough of the Faulkner and the naps. Of course, I'm not swearing off the Faulkner and the naps. The Faulkner is quite good and how could anyone hate on naps?

I'm not sure why I allow myself to spend so much time on x.com - a giant propaganda arm of Elon Musk. The problem being that there is some signal there at times. But, do I really want to be some guy on the beach with a metal detector?

I'd rather just be a guy wandering a beach without a metal detector: x.com deactivated.

This doesn't mean I am not looking for high-signal internetz. LP was probably a mix of high signal and flat out entertainment for a while there. Of course, there are good books which are pretty easy to find. Probably some decent newsletters or essays out there. Whatever. It doesn't really matter at this point.

To think that once The Signal was here. To think that once The Entertainment was here. Where did The Signal go? Where did The Entertainment go?

I've always prided myself at being astute at finding a Signal. A Signal without too much N O I S E. Now, I'm broken down on my ass recovering from an appendoctomy and hernia surgery. What the fuck!? That happened fast! Such is life. In my 40s, fucking cashier at a grocery store. It's fucking sad man. But I keep breathing.

Listening to fucking Billie Eilish. I don't know why this shit resonates it just does. I like her voice. I like her production.

I am not sure where I go from here. I don't need to figure that all out tonight. Hell, I still have trouble getting out of bed and taking a shower and putting on my socks.

I've been going for a lot of walks. Just gentle walks around the neighborhood like 15 - 30 min. My last walk of the night tonight I was in my phone walking super slow as far to the right as I could go listening to something like that Alter Ego by Tame Impala. Then this woman in pink and black flashes by me. I didn't hear her at all but she kind of like cut me off but I was going so slow in my phone it didn't matter but I looked up and there was literally the best ass and shape I've ever seen in my life then the lyric "1 to 1 out of a dream." It was like something out of a movie. The lights changed. She jogged off. I unabashadley watched the whole thing tranpsire. It felt like God was on my side in those moments. Like it actually felt like that. My God would of course be a strange God. Throw the kid in a hospital for a week but then give him a glimpse of God. She didn't run particularly athletic. That was fine. She ran more feminine than athletic and I liked that.

YSL LNDLH + Billie Eilish at 5am. Yes.

It looks like I will be spending more time on here now that x.com is gone. I don't know if that's a great thing. The Signal is gone. The Entertainment is gone. Hell, 95% of the posters are gone. Maybe 98%. Maybe 99%. Hell, maybe only a handful of legitimate people have posted in the last 3 months.

I would like to start a new writing project. I just don't know what to write about. I could try to finish my current writing project but maybe I'm still too close to it. I also don't feel like paying for beta readers. That one might be sitting in the drawer for a while.

Many times of the day this site doesn't even cross my mind (surprise non?). Sometimes it crosses my mind and it would seem like posting is the most trivial, stupid thing I could do. No one is posting. No one is coming back. Then there is that time (like now) where I throw on some music and just start typing. X.com is a goner. I am thoroughly thrilled with that. That site is the worst. It did provide 10-30 min. pockets of something. Really just sapping me of spirit 10-30 min. at a time. I have to find something to fill those gaps and even though I am in the moment posting right now I hope to God it isn't this.

I am still recovering from 2 surgeries. It is 90+ degrees outside. My lower back, hips, and hamstrings are so God damn tight it hurts.

The gratitude seems to be straining at the moment. I am happy to be breathing. It is just a bitch to be breathing sometimes. Not that breathing is even that difficult at the moment. My surgeries were a week ago. My memory isn't that short. I'm going out to get some Thai food at 5pm. That just seems like an impossibly long time away at the moment. I would make some music but I don't even know if I should sing with a hernia. I would write but I don't know what to write God damnit. My friend says I should write a short story about my VIKING PRINCESS at the gym - who I won't see for 6 weeks.

I am reading Faulkner which is good. I am thinking about reading the Bible next or maybe Ulysses by Joyce. I'm kind of into reading interesting voices lately. The Road by McCarthy was quite good in its own way too.