I think that since I got back from the Holidays that I've been playing way too much poker. Hell I played a decent amount at the end of December and then doubled down in January. Results have been overall good and I'm pretty happy with where I'm at in terms of what I've learned, bankroll, VIP level and FPP's. I think part of why yesterday was so shitty is that I just hit overload level. Too much poker and brain goes to shit.
So I haven't played any poker in the last 30 hours and that's like the first time I've gone that long without a session in a long time. Weird. Normally I'd play tonight but I have decided that I'm gonna take another night off from poker like I did yesterday and just focus on having fun with my GF. I think this little 48 hour break will be great for my game cause I'll be able to get back to playing with excitement and eagerness rather than feeling burnt out and forced to grind.
It works out well too since tomorrow is Friday and I'm not in the office. If there was ever a good time to be fresh and getting back into the grind it's when you have all day Friday to play!
I also had a really productive day at the office today. For those who don't know I am working 2 days a week at a non profit. Right now my main focus is helping to build a new website for them, plus doing random web work that comes up on their old site which they dunno how to do. We got a lot done on the new site and I was having fun all day long working on it. It's a nice feeling to get that progress made. So today I'm gonna take a break from being a poker player and enjoy the simplicity of a 9-5 job.
I played a real and long grinding session today for the first time in a long time. I played 6 tables of NL200 and quit first after 6h. I just cant describe how bad they are on this level! I almost tilt when I dont get there money because I am sooo worth it!
I dont know if I should be satisfied or unhappy, but either way I ended up 5BI. I think I will stay at this level tomorrow too and then go up to NL400 again. It is very relaxing to just go down a level for some hours and fill up the batterys after a few loosing sessions.
i think im going to take the rest of the month off from NL100 and play NL50 overrolled, and maybe play some NL100 during weekends or if i feel i am progressing a lot. i have come a long way this month and my game feels like it is getting stronger, but i think i am going to begin just using the rest of this month to watch some deucescracked series and further progress my postflop game since that seems to be where im suffering the most. from my graph it looks like i either dont bluff with enough frequency, effectiveness, and am not winning enough postflop pots from cbets/2 barrels maybe.
anyways i am going to hopefully win some monies in AC this weekend @ borgata wpo. my friend wireds playin an event saturday so ill just grind some cashgames while he kills that.
im going to include my last blogpost in cuz i would like some opinions on my graph in case any wish to contribute what i could mean or help.
so this is my graph so far this month. any thoughts?
I'm not going to post any graphs and stats from '08 because all I can say is that it was mediocre. My goal was to make $100k and I only managed to win $20k. One could say it's not that bad for an underaged player but I'm kind of dissapointed. First 5 months of 2008 were winning ones. My shitty, swingy run started in June. I also had to withdraw about ~$9k for a new PC and my USA trip in summer. I can't blame only poker gods for my mediocre 2008 - I must admit that I'm a lazy slob and didn't really put as much time into poker as I could have. Ok, let's leave last year behind.
I'm pretty much even in January so far. The last couple of days I didn't play poker at all cause I had some learning to do.
As for the stakes, I'm playing 2/4 euro with no intention of moving down. I feel I've got some edge there but it needs to be shaped.
Some of you probably know 2009 is the year when I finally turn 18 On the first hand I'm looking forward to it but on the other hand I've got some money to win before my birthday cause I plan on going to a couple of EPTs later this year.
When it comes to my real life it's been OK lately. Actually it's going to be better than OK very soon
My knee is getting better as I've been going to rehab. The muscles are being rebuilt and the power of my leg is coming back However, I have to use crutches a few weeks more (hopefully less than that).
This Saturday I'm going on a prom (it's not really my prom, one couple from every 2nd class has been chosen as a delegation or sth). It's bound to be a great party. A lot of my friends are graduating this year and this is probably one of the last opportunities to have fun together. I can't wait !!
In February we got 2 weeks of holidays so my friend Karol, who just like me doesn't have anything to do then (he doesn't have his leg 'stuck' though lol), will move in for a week into my house to chill w/ me :D. I have already been invited to a jamaican house-party hosted by my class-mate and it's likely there's going to be another theme party during holidays where you'll have to dress as a fairy tale character - pretty cool idea imo.
Hmm.. I guess that's all I wanted to write about. Oh, I forgot about a date. There's this cute girl from my class,who all of a sudden invited me on a date when I fully recuperate. It's pretty weird cause I tried to make out with her earlier and she seemed uninterested. My good friend asked her to go with him to the prom and he told me he's going to 'go all in' there and see if she calls I don't think it's going to happen, however, I wouldn't be mad at all if they started going out(grammar or w/e problem - shouldn't it be 'started to go out' here ?).
So my sister came with the train today and moved into the empty room after the other room mate who moved in with her boyfriend. Now we're me, my friend and my sister in this apartment. My sister's friend came over too and we've been playing smash bros on Wii and watching some How I met your Mother episodes for a while now.
In poker I'm probably up 6kish€ in January rakeback and such included. Don't have a tracker for omaha but it's between 5k and 7k I think. Goal for this month is 10k so despite a downswing of more then 10k I'm on schedule.
Might go out for a beer or five tomorrow. Haven't been drinking since new years eve so I'm pretty happy about that.
coldest winter in Germany since like 2003 or something.
-15 C last weeks.
getting a bit better now being only -2C atm.
Good thing is that all teh lakes are frozen and u can go play ice hockey
bad thing i dont have skates ... since it hasnt been that cold in ages
Here is nice song that i really love .first 2 minutes are a bit boring but than it feels liek flying through an iced landscape or something. pretty cool and chilling music. Song is called : WINTER
Besides that Vedad Ibiševic , basically the only soccer player i like in the Bundesliga got injured really bad last weak
cruciate ligament burst .....
Man this guy was insane.
It was hist very first season in the 1.Division of German Football
And as a newcommer he scored 18 goals in his first 17 games in germanies highes fottbal league before he got injured !!!! WTF
basically there was only 1 person in the history of german footbal league who scored more goals then games he played on a regular basis. " Gerd Müller " who was called Bomber der Nation.
I had hoped Ibisevic will become a real superstar.
Now he is heavily hurt and predicted to not be able to play for the next 3-4 months
makes me sad a bit
sucks
University was okay.
had 2 tests this week and i think both went okay
I also will have 2 tests next week.
Poker havent played much.
down 1,6K or something in december
feeling a lot better physically but still a little uncomfort. did a short session, should've been 20+ buys but had a run of pretty bad luck towards the end(plus the command center was putting me to sleep).
http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/608599
-most players would raise here on the flop........however original raiser pretty much only plays strong hands. the way he had been playing i was sure on either kings or k,j AT LEAST so potentially drawing dead on turn/8 outs(against a set) minus whatever spades the others are holding is not a proposition i like. previous to this he would never bet pot unless he was incredibly strong. turns out he even had a straight draw with it too. dream catcher plays incredibly loose and aggressive, and judging by the other hands i had been in with him, he severely over values his hands. he bets pot on turn with the ace making Broadway........first raiser's flat call makes me suspect that he has a set(not the straight). board fills me up on river but still not an easy call at the river. i actually gave folding a thought for a hot second here because of flat call on turn, but folding is not all that appealing here either.
http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/608682
-running well.......i think i have the best hand here on the turn, was expecting him to have 7,8,10/flush draw type of hand. honestly, the blames on him. turn created two flush draws along with a plethora of straight draws and he half pots here(although the argument could be made that half pot is not a bad bet here), but i don't know why he bets so little out of position against such a draw heavy board and lol he just flat calls with 30 bucks behind. i guess in retrospect, he's losing most his money either way.
going to play a bit.......i'll try to remember to post more hands that involve more intricate problems and theory questions(but they're boring anyway lol)
on a side , played some FTP plo 10-50. i got sat out like 40 times cuz the dont blink there screens like Pstars. down to 35 bucks! had it to like 120 at one point but i had some crazy hand at plo50 that went like k k q 4 clubs with board of k 7 6 2 clubs all in flop against 6,6,8,10..........turn 8 river 9. even though its minuscule stakes, there is a bit of excitement of playing on a different site. so i have a little plan for FTP........
i'm going to go a bit old school here and totally grind my roll up.
Currently $35.10(plus 25 bucks in releasable bonuses WOOHOO)
Rules
1.no reloading/trading
2.must have 4 buyins of whatever level
3.must play quarter of bankroll at all times (when it drops blow go down levels)
4.no more than 2 tables at a time
it'll sort of be like STEPS sng......
gonna start at .05/.10 (round up my 35 to 40)
at $100 .1/.25
$400 .5/1
$800 1/2
$1600 2/4
$2400 3/6
$4000 5/10
$8000 10/20
$20000 25/50
$40000 100/200
$80000 200/400
$400000 500/1000
hahahhahhahaha........easy game right? doubt i'll even make it to .1/.25 lolol but playing cash games tourney style(waiting for high percentage double ups) shall be interesting. probably wasting valuable stars time but what the hell, im bored!
Ugh,
Gotta bitch about my sister for a minute. She's incredibly irresponsible and has no regard for other people. She insisted on fostering puppies from the local animal shelter, and she already owns two dogs which she doesn't take proper care of. Mom 'fell in love' with one of the little shits so now we own 3 dogs. For the past month and a half we've had 2 more extremely young puppies (I think their mom was gone/dead, they were too young to be apart from their mom). They're doing fine, but they are too young to be trained at ALL and just piss everywhere.
Easy solution.. we have a fucking 10x10 room set up special for the dogs (from which they can go outside whenever they want), but my sister doesn't give a fuck about the agreement that she has to keep them in there unless she is literally 100% playing with them/paying attention to just them. They wander the fucking house, pissing everywhere. Mom's puppy plus the two little foster puppies love tearing EVERYTHING apart and there is stuffing from stuffed animals my idiot sister gives them all over the floor. The floor is disgusting because the bitch never sweeps and the dogs track dirt in and the floor is grimey and gross the next day anyway.
The dogs need to be bathed more frequently and have anti-flea shit on them because on top of all of this we are GETTING A FUCKING FLEA INFESTATION which is about the most horrendous thing I can imagine having to deal with. Again. I'm about to head to the store and get flea powder to try and stop this shit in its tracks. I can't sleep because I'm getting bitten. You can't feel comfortable, ever, because you're being bitten. I can't sleep, I don't have any energy, I can't work out while tired and half woozy, and I am pissed because I have hardly been to the gym for 2 months and have been trying to get back into it. I've lost 95% of everything I've worked for in that regard and I hate myself for it atm.
Bleh and quite honestly I don't like animals in the first place-- why? Because they bring loads of responsibility that I'm not interested in taking on. But my sister just says she will be responsible with this shit and then fails, and on top of it just refuses to leave the fucking things in their room when she isn't playing with them.. Like they're sad that they have complete freedom to go in and out, and be retarded ass dogs at their leisure.
She's just such a grossly inconsiderate, full of vitriol, princess-complex little bitch 90% of the time that I can hardly think of something better than her moving back out, or myself moving out, which I can't afford and my free alternatives suck.
On top of this I have had a constant headache for about a week now and I don't know why. I'm a bit worried it'll be chronic.
I got pissed off and headache and completely spewed a buyin at my 4th nl50 session since yesterday. But otherwise it seems to be going well.. I can't muster any excitement or motivation atm because I am seriously getting depressed from my surroundings here. My mom is completely impotent when it comes to controlling or disciplining my sister, and I am too since I'm just her brother anyway.
Yesterday was one of those days where whatever can go wrong will go wrong. Was woken up @ 6am by a phone call from a fucking solicitor who kept calling back over and over till we answered and then called back again after we hung up on him. I fell back asleep only to have dreams of me cursing the guy out. When I finally woke up for the day I was in a pretty shitty mood from the dreams and the sleep disturbance.
Was up about 8:30 and then headed to the local rec center to check out their facilities and see if it had what my lady and I wanted so we could start working out. Trying to get out of my house was a serious pain cause they're doing construction and have closed off the one road that leads to my parking spot - so I have to go through some weird back alley shit to get out which adds an extra couple minutes to every journey and a bunch of hassle.
The rec closest to me ended up being a rec center for senior citizens, so that was awkward - I was the youngest person in there by like 40 years, and all the classes were like "seated yoga" and "light exercise", lolz. I moved on to the next closest rec and it was a bit better but they needed me to head out to the farthest rec to get a membership card. At that point I had to come home to take my woman to work so I quit that mission.
Got home and sat for a session but my head was just not on straight. I wasn't focused and was very apathetic and I ended up losing about 3 buyins over 1.3k hands. I checked my results and I woulda broken even if I'd cut out all my spew, and there was much bigger spew in that session than I've had in like 2 weeks.
After that I just felt like shit cause I knew I'd thrown money away for no good reason. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my time and everything sounded boring and unappealing. Every time I started to do something I'd stop cause it sucked. Put on Lord of the Rings cause that is always a good anti-tilt but that just bored me, installed left 4 dead and played it and was disappointed, played a game of BW and got raped by a noob, played some counterstrike and couldn't connect any shots, went to eat but the food didn't really hit the spot.... It was like nothing felt good, nothing was enjoyable.
Then I hear from my lady and we've gotten a letter about her visa saying that there's problems. The annoying thing is that they sent us the exact same letter like 3 months ago requesting us to send em more paperwork for a certain application, and we did, and now they're requesting the same paperwork again. WTF? This tilted both of us and we both were snippy with each other for the rest of the day. So on top of all that other shit going on I felt like my lady hated me. God.
Anyway, the good thing is that I prevented myself from playing anymore poker. I kept thinking that if I could have a winning session I'd feel better, which is definitely true, but the chances of having a winning session would be totally up to luck cause my mind wasn't there to really put any skill into the equation.
Once my woman was home from work we went and got the ID cards for the rec and then I made dinner - which I fucked up while cooking it. Luckily that was the last thing that went wrong for the day as once we started eating we watched the last 3 episodes of Lost Season 4 and then played a bunch of Zelda and that got us both happy again. hehe.
Woke up today feeling so much better. Happy and light hearted. We both woke up with smiling faces so I think we're off to having a good day!
Didn't play for the first few days of jan b/c of neteller putting my account on hold (def done w/ neteller now, like the 4th or 5th time they've put my account on hold for retarded reasons) > couldn't deposit enough money on stars. Since I didn't almost play last year I've definately have had to catch up on a lot of things to make myself a decent midstakes regular again, and as I said in the last post I feel like I'm definately on my way to achieve that. Still have a lot to work on but I'm improving for each day.
Gonna head for supernova as quickly as I can, and since I still have school until July I don't feel like grinding more then ~3h a day until i graduate. Played 11,7k hands thus far in Jan in 19,2hours. Keep the grind going!
And there came a tapping...by YC_Fan88, January 15
More like knocking.
Yesterday the mystery was solved, however.
For weeks now i could hear a strange knocking from within my walls throughout the day. Well, mostly at 4-7am when i am asleep or trying. It was driving me nuts, i thought i was going crazy (also tilts me like no other). At first i thought it was the people living downstairs being brats. Then, after checking it out several times, i confirm the sound comes from next door (that's city housing for you, so the houses are actually attached, sigh).
So the time came when i complained to my family and coincidentally, one met my neighbor outside and got the story: the knocking is from an 90 years old woman who cannot walk.
Well these information has no value in themselves except for you to laugh at my tilting.
More importantly is that now i feel sorry for the nightly tapping. Imagine 90 years old, disabled, knocking on the walls for HOURS and nobody comes to your aid.
WTF?
Actually... i am not sure how much of it is the descendants' fault. You must did a pretty bad job as a parent if you are unable to communicate your needs and allow your children to take care of you when you are old, right?
I've been running alright. There is something about cake poker. I like playing there because noone has HUDs and once my PT3 trial runs out I won't have one anyway and I don't wanna dish the money out. I also figure it's better to master what I can without training wheels...
Top pair seems to be such a money loser to me, if I could somehow not lose the money I lose from my top pairs... November was pretty much my first "winning" month even though I think I only won something like $5 on microstakes. December was pretty bad for me overall though I didn't get to play a whole lot due to the holidays and such. I had deposited ~30 on cake poker to check it out and lost that.
I got my $1.75 rakebake from cake and I had turned that into a decent NL10 roll until about 15 minutes ago. At the same time though I took a pretty bad downswing on pokerstars and I'm currently playing NL2 on there off and on when I don't feel like playing on Cake.
About 15 minutes ago I just went on horrendous tilt and tilted off 1/2 my roll, So I'm moving down to NL4 on Cake until I can get my motherfucking mind correct. So I figured it was time to make a blog and vent alittle. lol. FML I'M FUCKING RETARDED!!!!!!
Anyway Stats and shit:
I've been running 19/10/3.5 over the past 20k hands or so. Vast improvements over what I was only just a few months ago...
feel like I've lost like 15 out of the last 20 showdowns... fucking DOOMSWITCHED
Meh I wish Cake would/could retrict my limits and shit cause that helps a lot on PS for me. So fucking discouraged after that last god damned massive gutfuck. Can't be results oriented, need to stay within my roll more strictly, and FML i need to stop losing so much money on TP+FD hands.
Any comments, feedback ect ect let me know cause shit I feel like I really need some help or somesort of focus or something... I DUNNO FML OK
EDIT2: EV Graph even though I dunno what it means. + Show Spoiler +
The hand that I fucked myself on was I had AQc (on the button) and the board came Qs7c4c (we're both ~90bb deep) after I raised pf to 4bb. The leads out 2/3pot sized bet I reraise 3x his bet, he shoves, I call. he shows AA and my draw doesn't complete. Misplayed horribly?
So, after a cashout crippled my bankroll and a well timed downswing took 14 or so buyins from me I was forced to drop down way below limits I can beat. Fortunately I was able to get a stake and for some reason I always seem to run well on borrowed money. Slowly grinding the pennies out without any major sick beats or strings of bad luck. Not running like god but my flushes seem to hit more often than I've been used to over the past few weeks and I'm getting those big pocket pairs more often, and sometimes even when someone else doesn't have a bigger one.
All in all it could be worse. I've signed away a fair sized chunk of my winnings for the next few weeks which is less than ideal but under the circumstances it's better than it could be. I'd rather do it this way than work my way back up through 10nl.
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I almost tilt when I dont get there money because I am sooo worth it! 
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