No not really busto. I mean who ever is when they put that in their blog title? But my account balance is nothing but some leftover points and some $26 tokens I haven't used yet, $0.00 in real money. I've talked about quitting poker before, but ultimately I didn't need to "quit", I just kind of stopped playing as frequently, and then not at all. This weekend I realized I hadn't played online in 2 months, and I have plenty of uses for the 6k I still had sitting there.
I still like the game, it's just no longer my obsession. Unfortunately for my bottom line, Modern Warfare 2 is my new obsession (no money in that), but ever since I got that game poker has just been a way to make money. As for the money part, my real life job is going so well I don't need poker money to be able to live well. Add my social life to that, and there's just really not a lot of room for poker.
I hope to still be a part of the community, though I'm probably not going to comment on as many hands as I used to, and maybe if I get bored (or unemployed) I'll put some money back online at some point. Obviously poker will still be my go-to game live, and I've been mulling over playing some WSOP events (as a tourist). The good news for those of you who still choose to read my blog is I'll hopefully start replacing pictures of runbad graphs with pictures of yours truly out on the town. Unless you guys want mw2 content. In which case this could be a MW2 only blog. Don't tempt me.
i just loaded up 21 tables on stars specifically to see if everything that i thought i saw would be exactly wrong.
it was.
i had to be sure. i have a bit of a cold, and i am confident that heavy multitabling is responsible for my gradual loss of form over the past few weeks. at the present moment i am fundamentally incapable of handling rapid sucessive decisions without also losing control of my handle on myself.
it's not the hours. it's the continual processing of information combined with the need to check myself again and again as i play specifically because my instincts in cash are not excellent. it's only when i am calm and have mostly stepped outside of myself and proceed to observe the happenings that i perform well in this format. that and the fact that there's nothing that i won't do tactically. that's where the control comes in. at the present moment i continually fail to step outside myself and i also lack control over myself, leading to tunnel vision and frequent missteps.
because my play is so volatile, an hour of suck at 2SD can basically be a days worth of wins through controlled violence as i run only slightly bad.
Cannot Bring Myself to Keep Grindingby RJ227, March 28
I have been running hotter than god every time I sit down. It's not as though I don't feel like I'm playing well, I'm just winning every 60/40 (and some 40/60s ldo) imaginable. I find myself prepared to grind but I just decide to insta-quit when I win 10 buyins in 20 minutes. Anyone ever find themselves in a similar situation? If so, what was the remedy?
What is the best way in this present state of Poker, now in April 2010, to build a bankroll fast, to be able to be a MTT grinder, playing all the main online events?
Here is the deal. As of right now I got got $300 on Pokerstars currently, with some other money on other sites and I want to play all the major MTTs. I have had progress in my MTT play and want to take it to the next level by actually winning some.
I want to know the best way. I really do not think I have patience to grind out NL10 or NL25. Perhaps I should? What about SNGs? I find multi tabling decreases my play dramatically, so I do not want to play anymore than 4-6 tables at once.
I have ideas myself, but what do you feel is the best? What about even other websites/clients? What about HU/HU sng?
Just what do you feel is the best way in the poker climate we live in today?
Was going for a 10k month but hey, I'll take it! Not gonna be playing much for April because of school, so here are my goals:
- Pass finals
- Finish all homework and assignments
- Barely play poker, just get the Take 2 promo on FTP.
So i was on PS and i was very comfortable in my game in 25nl, actually taking shots at 50nl. Then my friend suggested i switch to ftp. I did, and i've started grinding 25nl there.
AND...im getting totally crushed. Partly because i'm running cold but i feel that FTP plays a bit harder in that its player base float more, 3bet more and bluff by just clicking the pot button. I figured PS to be more passive because of SNE grinder etc and FTP more active because they watch CR and the whole FTP aggressive players campaign.
Not that i'm losing confidence because i'm drastically overrolled and i'm totally dominating 25nl but do
you micro stake grinders feel this?
alcohol sucks fat ballsac if you drink more than a reasonable amount
smoke weed imo.
fuck booze outside of moderation
not drinking more than 6 in a night ever again. well, I'll make a serious, serious effort at least.
Tonight I had a lot of fun, but I also felt an unreasonable amount of jealousy, unusual levels of sadness, spent outside of my budget, weird relationships with new people, etc. Cuz of alcohol. fuck that. I'm going to do my best to never have more than 6 drinks in a night again.
I also made this weird and incoherent blog post because of excess drinking. GG.
oh btw I met Byrnesam and Silver Z tonight. They're good, a little bit different than I anticipated but they were cool dudes and I'm sure I will be hanging out with them quite a bit.
Oh yeah, I also ordered this stuff online called Kava. Its supposed to help with anxiety, but it sounds like it isn't appropriate to play poker while you are under its effects (its psychoactive), so I most likely won't (I've never played a hand of real poker while drunk, for instance). But that's fine, I like to try new things. I'll let you know if I think Kava is an herb worth trying out
I had to reformat my computer and I didn't have the FTP client installer, and the FTP site is blocked in thailand. I tried using hidemyass.com (proxy) but the download failed. Unless there is a better proxy or something, could someone help me out and download the FTP client -> upload it to rapidshare or some similar site for me? Someone trustworthy plz lol
Or if there is a better proxy that allows me to download a 24megabyte file that'd be good..
I have been tilted for some 10 days now.
The higher amount of money makes me feel 'committed' and I close my eyes and 3barrel no matter what the board brings way too much.
I also hd a period where I called all hands instead of 3betting them in blinds ...eww
The tables make me also play very aggressive preflop with some 28/25 my average VPIP and 34 +on some tables (not due to tilt, simply because of the player composition), and it took me a lot of $$$ to get used to the endless trapping and light call downs from regs.
NL50 regs aren't capable of calling down a midpair, or raising TP decent kicker for value, and are ridiculously polarised all the time, but NL100 regs can do that indeed. The result of this is that I felt tilted during all my sessions and am doing ridiculous stuff and spew all over the place.
The counter is obvious - play as aggro preflop as the table permits, and turn into a passive nit postflop due to the 'level1' adjustment based on PF stats as I believe that only a handful of regs watch all tables and make notes like I do, and they don't adjust preflop well.
That shit ain't easy though after my total ownage at NL50. I simply got used to win 60% off my sessions and rarely have a losing day way too much.
Hopefully I will soon stop tilting, use my image to my advantage and get the fuck out of the break even realm.
Graph for you Graph Monkeys (the -EV was balanced by setups, so I don't run good nor bad). The result are actually good, but I feel real bad about my game right now and if it was -15BI I wouldn't be surprised at all.
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P.S. also, some 1800 VPP to go this month, hopefully I will make
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