life blog + possible poker returnby K40Cheddar, April 26
Hello liquidpoker,
I've been wanting to blog for some time now but never really got around to it as soon as I wanted to. As a frequent lurker and crappy ROFL thread poster, I've enjoyed the liquidpoker community greatly. I remember back to the days of FTP where I was playing NL 50, posting hands all over the place, learning the game, and enjoying my results. It was a great feeling (assuming you can deal with criticism) to get feedback on your play and improve as a player. Ever since black friday, I felt that a part of me was missing. I needed the thrill of risk. I needed the competition. I needed the mental tests of variance. I needed to push myself to the limit. I spent most of my time reverting back to my studies and various other video games ever since. Recently, I had seen some inspirational graphs in various posts both here and on 2+2. Surely, one does not become a high stakes pro overnight. What motivated me from these graphs and posts was the challenge of succeeding against variance through proper play, volume, and mental resilience. Therefore, I have decided to get back in poker for personal goals and satisfaction.
A little about myself
I am a 21 year old student at the University of Illinois (Urbana-Champaign). Currently I'm double majoring in Statistics and Economics. My long term goal as a career is to potentially work as an actuary. For those who are unaware, an actuary is a person that works with risk based mathematical management. For instance, an insurance company would be an example of a place where actuaries would work, performing risk analysis to optimally price insurance costs. Other examples include retirement and pension fund planners. I've also been looking into financial career possibilities and things such as investment banking and trading. These are long term goals but of course we never truly know where life will take us.
I'm a competitor. I like to win. I've been playing video games since being a kid and nowadays with the e-sports scene growing I play almost any competitive game I can pick up, although I'm far from being pro level at any specific game. I used to play competitive chess and hold a USCF (United States Chess Federation) rating of 2070. For people that don't know what this means, it means that I rank in the top 5% of chess players in the United States. I stopped playing as often once I hit college, partially due to poker, but also because of a lack of motivation and increased difficulty with schoolwork. I've been playing the trombone for 12 years and currently play in the Marching Illini and various university concert bands. I not a huge athlete anymore but I did high school gymnastics for 4 years and still occasionally perform backflips off of stuff for fun.
I tend to be optimistic. Good things just naturally seem to happen to me. When things go bad, something always turns up to make things better even in situations that seem stressful. Ironically, I enjoy helping other people out and see other people succeed. I find this funny because poker is the exact opposite, as you in no way want to help out your opponents nor do you want to watch them succeed. If I had one goal for myself it would be to reach my absolute potential at everything I do.
Poker
As mentioned in the title and early intro, I have decided that I'm going to go back and give online poker a serious shot. I dabbed around trolling for awhile but the plan now is to put the volume in and get stuff done. Currently, I play on Hero Poker right now. I'm starting from the beginning, back to the pitiful roots of the lowest micros. Here are a few reasons why I decided to do this.
- Although I used to play up to NL 50, I don't know if I can play at that level again after a year.
- Don't want to deposit a large amount upfront for a large bankroll
- Want to beat the stakes one at a time to see if I can still do it
- Don't really care about the money. I care about success.
Anyway BACK TO THE BEGINNING. Here's since I started playing again.
http://i.imgur.com/6Qhto.gif
No but really, if you clicked on this link/blog and then somewhere complain or contemplate ban etc then that's ur own goddamn fucking fault and I don't know what to do for u
I suggest growing up a bit and not blaming me for your bad genes/mentality
(yes that was merely a pre-emptive attack)
anyhow
it's funny, cuz compared to most Americans, I'm not hateful or bitter at all
I know this because I'm in touch with my hate and I hate u all equally (generally speaking)
so let's get to some more good stuff eh
here we go + Show Spoiler +
for a snapback to reality, if your looking for an update into the times of how things currently are on a higher level than most can imagine, check this clip out
especially from 29:30-30:39
(tho unless ur really up to date, u should really watch the whole thing to increase ur chances of figuring out what I'm babbling about)
truth is god...or is it...god is truth
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regardless, what realist doesn't like to fuck at some point in their life? srsly why shun it? http://i.imgur.com/Snz17.jpg
a sustainable roi is around 5%, I'm having 7% this month
the good thing is, I can play highstakes and it won`t be harder then it is now
I took 4k$ from my poker bankroll so I'm using 200u bankroll to bet
I won't cashout anything from my bet bankroll so I hope I can increase the size of my units soon
Can't lose what you don't put in the middle...by thewh00sel, April 25
...but you can't win much either...
Took a shot and played a little 10/20 on Monday in a soft game when my 5/10 seat wasn't available. Played for about an hour, hoping to turn on the run-good. Bought in for 3k and ran it up to a little over 8k before my seat opened up at 5/10 (Flopped a set vs top two and turned a straight vs a set). I almost just stayed at 10/20, but I didn't really want to be 8k deep with a bunch of people who cover me just yet. So I went back to 5/10 which turned out to be a great game. Unfortunately I dusted off 1-2k of my profit for the day when I ran a bluff against bottom pair unsuccessfully, and ran an overpair into a set for a little bit too.
/bragpost
Only got 5 days left this month to try and string some wins together, and need to get on it if I want to get to 150hrs this month.
ps: how bout that FTP/PS news?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ME WANT ONLINE POKERS
Well put an offer on a house, if I end up getting it I'll post pics and stuff :3
Probably will buy it and rent out a few rooms to a few buddies, I figure if I get 2 renters at like 500/mo + we all split utilities, everyone will have a pretty good deal on this house. 15 minutes from downtown, close to a few parks, good neighborhood.
I feel pretty old now that I think that I might be a homeowner; I also feel old due to my new gf being 4.5 years younger than I do. Oh lawd - but it's worth it, robbing the craddle, etc...
Hmmm well I still work at a bank as a banker, got a promotion a few weeks ago so I can do more under my banker title. Looking to eventually get out of the retail side of the bank though, I would like something in the back office where I'm not told I'm awful everyday despite being top 10 in the state of Minnesota in our company.
Blargle - anyways I'll post a new blog as soon as I get the house!
Variance. For a fish like me, what a f-in difficult term to fully understand. To wrap my head around losing while still making the correct plays and not change a thing is a hard thing to grasp for me. It becomes harder when I go on losing streaks continuously getting my money in when I have the best of it and coming up short. One of the main reasons I have a coach is for this reason. He informed me of tough times to come and why poker is such a hard game to consistently be good at let alone maintain a level head when you encounter tough times.
At the beginning of April I felt on top of the world. Playing 1/2 at my local casinos I didn't have a losing session in the first couple weeks. I added roughly 2,500 to my bank roll enforcing the teachings of my coach and breaking down every hand I had a question on in a deep hand analysis. I would sit there with my little notebook and pen writing away, describing big hands, how they played out and every hand I was involved with that I had a question or i won/lost curious about different ways to play it. But now, oh boy. Something happened. I continue playing the same way, analyzing the table as best i could trying to put hand ranges on everyone but no matter how good of a read I have I keep getting outdrawn on turn/river and it has been costing me some money.
Before I go further, this is me whining. Everyone experiences this i know. I'm sure some people reading this will just roll their eyes at another fish complaining so im sorry in advance. This is just my little blog and i just feel like ranting and whining.
I will do my best to remember a semi-large hand i was involved with that really began this trend of losing.
1/2 Table . Hero has 650-700 in his stack. Table is relatively tight with the exception of 3 individuals who limp/call just about everything and bet random amounts with both strong and bluff hands.
Villain #1 700 in her stack. (no fucking idea how she got it) is a female who is actually pretty hot, doesn't understand a damn thing about cards and has begun taking a barrage of tequila shots from villain #2.
Villain #2 is a older gentlemen who plays extremely loose. He over bets a lot of hands and limp calls with just about anything. His hand range is about anything the dealer throws to him.
Hero is on the button with As,Ac
Villain #1 utg limps in followed by 2-3 limps from early position to villain #2 in the cut off who limps. I raise to 25. My image is a bit more tight and I have been 3 betting a lot of my stronger hands pf against the loose canons. The 25 bet is a bit much in a lot of other circumstances but with villain #2, he tends to limp call with anything no matter the pf raise. I almost think it could have been more but, shoulda woulda coulda.
Both blinds fold. Villain #1 calls. All fold to villain #2 who calls.
Flop: 10s, 4s, 5s (pot 85ish)
Villain 1 leads out for a 20$ bet. Villain 2 calls. Hero Re-raises to 125$.
Villain 1 thinks for awhile like she does every single hand. Looks at her hand a few times... calls. Villain 2 folds.
Turn: Qd (pot 335)
Villain 1 check. Hero bets 300. Villain think and thinks and thinks and thinks. She looks a little nervous by the amount she is up against and after 5 or 6 minutes ends up on calling. At this point in the hand i'm not quite sure what in fuck I am up against. On the flop I thought a flush draw with maybe 2 overs... She has been hitting a lot of hands but generally played stronger hands. She didn't play very many wonky hands and called down a lot of people with top pair and drawing hands which is how her stack was built. The few times she made her hands that she knew were strong she fired pretty strongly into the pot. I was all sorts of fucked up by the call. She had a couple hundred left and I would have thought a flush would have just shoved.
River: 9h
She checks. Hero goes all-in. Again she thinks FOREVER. The more she thought gave me a little bit of comfort that she missed her flush. I really didn't put her on a straight draw since she called the flop raise. She called.
I show Aces with a sinking feeling in my gut that im up against a dumb hand like Q,10. She shows Ks,Jc for the straight.
It's just one of those things that i'm sure there were better ways to fold and i had severe tunnel vision with my aces vs her. When she won she jumped up like she won the lottery as i sit and stew for a minute and say nice hand and walk away tail between my legs.
Shit happens. Do I feel like I played it wrong? Meh, I could have picked up on her calling the 125 that aces may not be good. I just really felt like she had some flush draw with a pair. This very well may not even be variance but it was the hand that began my downward spiral.
Beyond that it was small things that began happening like hands with two pair on the flop getting beat by villains hitting trips on the river. A lot of this is my fault as i was playing an immense amount of poker while i was winning and started to wear myself out mentally.
I began losing stack after stack and started to feel like every hand no mater how well i hit wasn't good enough. An absolutely terrible mental state to be in. I more or less needed to use my coach as a therapist to re-instill my confidence that i was playing the hand correctly but variance is the reason that bad players players play hold'em.
Well, there is my whining rant. I went on to lose about 5-6 buy ins within the last 2 weeks until i finally decided to take a break and re-evaluate everything to make sure we aren't making mistakes. I couldn't imagine being a high stakes player and going on streaks of tens of thousands of dollars being pissed away by players catching cards vs us.
Anyways. I hope everyone has a great day and don't beat up me to badly for complaining. I know I am a results oriented player and i'm am really really trying to knock that off. I have a lot of faults still but i am dedicated to fixing them.
Mine has gotten from bad to worse since the advent of the internet/computer era. Technology finished it off and I still envy people with good handwriting and/or signatures. I would include pics but I'm too lazy even for that lol. If anyone could start I probably would include mine.
Multiple display sound help???by CT_rider, April 22
ok so I have a multiple display setup a 24" hannspree monitor and a 42" toshiba tv, running on a Radeon HD6450 graphics card but i cannot get sound out of either of the monitors I am using a HDMI cord with sound capabilities running to the 42" and DVI to HDMI running to the 24"
any suggestions or am i gonna have to run and get a audio cord I have played witht he audio settings on the tv to change the audio output to PC but it doesnt work when both monitors are connected
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