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havent been pokering much, 50nl is crazy boring and people are really bad other than the -4 BI in like less than 500 hand session that i played, februrary has just been pretty decent , up about 15 BI @ 50nl or so with minimal effort / time spent : , i think ive only played like 9-10k hands so far..
this month'll be pretty low for rakeback as far as last month's comparison is concerend, but meh someday ill take another shot at 100nl when i feel up to it, i've made a strict mental note to not ever take a shot when
-im tired
-i feel like doing something else
-im not 100% motivated to play my best
fortunately, me playing my B game is still good enough to net a profit @ 50nl FR because its like [insert comment which is comparable to shooting fish in a barrel and or taking candy from babies]
i will tell one announcement tho
I will be hitting up the live casinos much more with my good friend DIRELEIF (the omaha hi lo pro who ran his 1$ br up to 3k playing Hi/Lo only- A TRUE PROFESSIONAL)
therefore, my oldschool poker stories of yore WILL RETURN!
Next post wont happen until i hit up the cas and play with horrible 1/2 fish.
So I took out $500 from my FTP bankroll as per my new years resolution. At microstakes the rake makes a huge difference...my rakeback for this month comes out to 9 buyins at my stakes. Wow all that playing and I just barely break even
Today was one of those boring ass sessions, where you hit absolutely nothing. I didn't cooler anyone, I didn't stack a fish with a better hand, but all I did was stay afloat with a few nice bluffs here and there.
Didn't make any hands vs other players and got coolered twice for -2 buyins. I'm especially proud of how calm and unaffected I was by the cold deck. If all goes well I'll be taking a shot at 100NL by the end of February. Ha HA HA HA HA Ha.
Oddeye needs a better tilt controlby Oddeye, February 11
Seriously I am just way too fucking pissed because of poker. As I already said I'm failing many classes because of it, it's not because I spend too much time on it not making my homework (it's that also actually), it's that I fucking can't anything but playing poker when I'm pissed about poker. I'm also gonna look for an apartment in QC pretty soon cuz I'm obviously not going to succeed in my conventional predestined job.
Had a pretty funny hand UB history didn't save : I raise AKs UTG, UTG+1 calls, dealer call, I 4bet, fold, fold, call, flop come J77. He checks I shove, he insta call w KQ fullstacked at NL1k.
But I had some pretty unfunny hand, like one hand a donkey reraise me I'm dealer w 55 (2+~buyin), flop is 772, he checks, I check, turn 5, I bet, he raises, I shove, river A and he has A7o -_- how lame.
Or I simply got 4betshove w 55 and called w KK obviously a 5 came. I was pretty WTF.
I did the rollercoster from 60k to 55k to 59k to 56.8k which I am at now and to be honest I feel pretty damn destroyed inside by that slight lost of money, I overplayed a couple of hands at NL1k and got owned but I don't think I'm unable to play the limit just can't control the tilt from 1k$ suckouts, but knowing myself tomorrow day and night I'll be playing.
variance here at FR kinda sux. i can't get past a buyin and get 2 outered a lot. two bad calls from villain and they hit. i make 4 mistakes the whole session and get hammered by two, the other two i get sucked out on. this is what kinda happend with me at 50nl before. i guess ill have to move to 6max again this afternoon and try to win again like i did yest.
now won it all back and up like half a buyin. gonna finish this off with a 25nl session and hope to win like a 100 or something lol. peace out.
The Bottomless Pit, and Why We Can't Fail.by PanoRaMa, February 11
Birdman "How to be a 5 Star Stunna" Promo vid
Posted the video above because it's semi relevant, and also because it's really awesome. This blog post, along with future ones of this vein, may appear to be written with an air of arrogance. While I can't say that I'm an ethical, pure-hearted person, the one thing I'll be consistent with is being true to myself. This means I can easily say to myself "I'm being an arrogant mother fucker". So feel free to give me shit about this, I definitely have it coming.
With that said, I'm gonna talk about one of the "traps" of online poker. It's not that it's addicting, or that we can lose too much of our money.. ironically it's that we can make too much money. Of course this is what we all hope for, and well shit I love that I can make so much (relatively speaking) money at this game. It comes at a cost though.
I briefly mentioned it in my previous entry, that this game really transforms us, specifically in regards to how we view money. I remember my high school days where I saved up a lot to buy my retarded ex girlfriend a hundred dollar necklace. The days where buying a 5 dollar ice cream was ridiculous, and meals over 10 dollars a person should only be reserved for anniversaries and birthdays only. What I'm discussing now is the crux of issues that are involved in a larger realm of things, but I'll keep it simple for now. So I can stop beating around the bush, what I'm trying to say is that as we earn more money that surpasses "realistic" standards, the more our perceptions of money and the value thereof changes - which usually results in more frivolous spending as a derivative of a newfound "baller mentality".
I realize I'm still a small stakes chump to a lot of people on this forum, but I write about this because 200 and 400nl is pretty much that point where we start to exceed the expectations of those around us, and ourselves. I shouldn't really be comparing myself with other people, but as a sophomore in college, those around me make 10 dollars an hour, probably with tips. On extremely bad months, I'm making at the very least 60 with an additional 20+ from rakeback. On good months, I'll make over 200. In the larger scope of things, this is still chump change, but not for a 19 year old with a skewed perception of the world and the value of money.
What this leads to is the bottomless pit. As we spend more and more, our expectations for ourselves and our standards of living increase. The clothes I wear everyday easily surpass the thousand dollar mark in terms of combined value, and everyday I make fun of one of my friends (and semi-poker student) for wearing the same 2 dollar hoodie everyday. Everyday I eat out at expensive places, ensuring the food I eat is not particularly harmful to my body and of great quality (will later write an "essay" on a supposed "higher" standard of living), whereas I know people that cook instant noodles everyday. In a nutshell, as the quality of my life increases, the hole I'm digging deepens. I'm digging a hole for myself that I don't see I can ever comfortably jump out of.. if everything were to go wrong tomorrow, how would I revert back to a life of eating fast food, being frugal on 10 dollar expenses, etc.?
For those still at the micro stakes with great aspirations, I write this as a warning for what can come about. I know some people here are heavily disciplined when it comes to saving and investing, and are also not greedy delinquents like I am when it comes to this sort of thing. But for the guys still new, you probably think "yeah there's no way I'm going to mindlessly spew money when I make it", I had the exact same mentality.
So this is a bottomless pit once our hole deepens to a specific point, and it is the reason why we must absolutely not fail at poker. The concept is actually a bit depressing - it turns poker into a chore and not something I can do for leisure, simply because my future satisfaction depends on my success now. It's depressing also because, as someone with these types of greedy, arrogant characteristics, I can never be satiated by any amount of money I make (up to I don't know, millions I guess?), and therefore not only must I continue winning, but I also must keep improving my winrate (which means moving up in limits). Like I said earlier, this is just a crux of much larger ramifications, which will lead into a future "essay" like this one which ties into the money we make, and our overall happiness (or lack thereof) as a result.
P.S. If you like that/are intrigued by the Birdman video up top, visit www.5starstunna.com for more videos where he elaborates on his ballerdom.
P.P.S. If you have any suggestions on things I should include or write about, feel free to leave a comment. I figure if people are willing to read my spew I should return the favor by giving you guys more relevant stuff. I'll eventually stray away from these sorts of off-the-table stuff and include poker strat stuff but I just wanted to keep a collection of my thoughts regarding this kinda stuff first, so bear with me . Thanks for reading.
So today I interviewed with Ernst & Young and BDO for their internal auditing internships. I had Ernst & Young to interview with first in the morning and man the interviewer sweated me for 45 mins and things got really ugly when the subject of my grades came up. I didn't try to make up any bullshit though and told him straight up that I missed the final exams last semester for stupid reasons and the professor didn't let me make them up, but that I learned my lesson and am trying my best to give due effort in all of my classes now.
Unfortunately, I don't think he bought the honesty ploy at all, so I feel that my chances of working at E&Y are pretty much shot to shit, especially considering the depth of competition for that prestigious firm to begin with.
The second interview went flawlessly except for the fact that I was 5 minutes late (shit!). I was playing poker online at my house in between the interviews and god damn it i hate the fact that time just exponentially speeds up at the last minute. The interview was at 1 and I was pretty sure that only about a minute passed since I last looked at the clock, which was pointing at 12:30. I was ONLY going to play for a little bit before I realized that it was fucking 12:50!!!
Fortunately, my dodge neon has the ability to shrink time and space to some degree so I shortened the 20 minute trip to school to 10 and also dressed up while driving =D
The BDO interview went perfectly as far as selling myself goes. I was really able to drill my fluency in Korean into the interview's head so there's something that should stand out when he goes over the applicants for the west coast/new york. So there's still some hope for a non-degenerate summer.
Pokerwise, I played a total of about 5 hours today, during the first session in between the interviews when I went up 3 buyins on NL10 and then an additonal 3 on a second session that I just finished for around 900 hands, so my bankroll went from 225 to 280 today =D.
Gotta mention this one hand against an UBER FUCKING NIT sitting with 500BB against whom I went all in for 150BB with a Q8 straight vs. his K9 straight.. WTF lol. but other than that, I played pretty smoothly overall, cbetting tons and valuebetting the river tons and generally not getting sucked out. the easiest thing is that I can control so much of the game here at NL10 since most of the players I've seen are passive as fuck. heh.
Also played that 2 dollar tourney on PStars just now and cashed out for a whopping 3.50 (fuck yeah). the final hand was me on the BTN with AQo ~3.5k chips vs. the SB with 8k and an AJs. I obv. shove and he calls... the flop comes A J x and the turn is another J, crushing my hopes for the 1.4k first place prize, which definitely isn't too shabby for a 2 dollar investment. I'm pretty sure if I play about 700 of these, I would come out at least even in the end (3 fucking all ins the first hand of the game which was a QQ vs AQs vs J9s preflop -_________-;; ).
But on this particular one I'm not too sure if i played properly as I only saw about 7% of the flops for over 2 hrs of play. I know I'll switch gears following the flow of the tourney but I didn't even get the chance to do so this time. hopefully, the next time I play, I'll be able to secure a bigger lead going into the money.
GL fellas
EDIT: nvm an ace on the river would have split that pot for me lol i gotta stop returning to my post ten fucking times every time.
So i've havent been able to play much during february due to exams etc. Managed to get the br up 30$ playing 3000 hands or so.
But today... Today was the day things where to return to normal. Just like on NL10, the plan was to play 1500 hands/day on days with classes and 2000 on those without. (4 tabling)
What i didn't expect was a rednines-lee cancer run;(
Cut the session short after dropping 5 buyins in 700 hands.
Was feeling a bit tilted/sad right after the session, but after writing this blogpost its all good
I'll probably take another shot tomorrow or something
btw im really glad i waited untill i had 25 buyins instead of 20 like my last shot
WOW it was a rough start to the month. Started down almost 20k between cash games and tourneys. Just can't catch a break, whether the money gets in good or bad. I know when I am running bad when every time I shove a FD I get called by the over fush draw. But anyways, I cashed in the $215 Sunday HU Match tourney for $10,752. I chopped 1st with Kenny Rap, obviously one of the top online pros.
Also I signed up for rakeback on Full Tilt a few days ago, so I might be taking my cash games over to them. We'll see what my rakeback is per month, right now it looks around $7500, which isn't too bad.
Lastly, I finally developed some BR management skills. I have decided to not play a game unless I have 50 buy-ins for that game. Trying to reduce the variance and make some real money this year, instead of living on the edge all the time.
Well it sucks penis,running at 1/2 of my usual winrate but I guess its still g00t,def could be better tho.But I guess I can't really complain too much...
Just been grinding like a nutjob lately but its definately worth it,I'm going for supernova this year and I think in about 5-6 months even If I don't move up limits I'll make it,speaking of moving up limits.I'm a bit ashamed to admit but I've decided I'll move up to NL100 with 100 buyins so I guess I'll be grinding NL50 for quite some time more,what can I say...Nitlife?
Yesterday I was on a b-day party and apparently when I came back home drunk I played poker and won 4 bi's lol,and I thought someone had sent me the money which created a huge mixup between me and a certain person but I guess I'll explain it to him eventually that I don't remember playing the session at all...
Also cut my hair so I look like G.I. Joe now,but im mad hawt so it doesn't matter I guess.
I'll post some pictures when I get some kind of a Camera which I don't think will be anytime soon,but eventually yeah...
Shoutouts
To Radiohead,Erling,F4zi,Artanis,Nolan,PPlusAD,bongky,Davidputa,Milkman,Aj and last but not the least Myth!
Ya I'm not gonna play NL1k before a while again I just suck not to mention I went to play when I was already on tilt but I feel I am not gonna handle myself very good any limit, already down 4k. This week is the biggest exam week ever so I am totally fucked in every way because I will feel bad until I recover from my downswing aka I will fuck my school and fail. :S
I made fucking lame plays, got owned twice by a limp caller preflop who had big holding and I thought he was weak.
% of wining vs losing playersby voodoouser, February 11
Do we know exactly what's the global % of wining and losing players at NL holdem in the long run?
I'm curious to know it.
I searched on google but i didnt found a solid number, some websites says 10%, others more or less.
Spent a lot of time in the last couple of days watching NBA games. I am really excited to see Shaq getting dressed in a Suns jersey and dunk a couple of times with the help of Nash. Hopefully it works out! Shaq is just such an amazing personality, you cannot be really against him.
Though I see the Lakers/Spurs/Boston as the prime candidates to win it all... who knows?
For the next 4-5 days there won't be too much time to play poker, maybe I will squeeze in a 500 hand session here and there but no 1k session, I really have to put in hours in front of books and study hard...
Like i said I would, i played about 400 hands and made a decent profit. Will study for the rest of the day. Here are some interesting hands:
http://www.liquidpoker.net/hand/hand.php?hand=382175 That is against a 50vpip moron. My turn call was actually pretty bad, expressed odds of 1-3,5 and he has about 55$ $ left. Odds for me to boat up 10,5-1. So even if I had hit my boat, this play was -EV. His 50% vpip convinced me to call...
http://www.liquidpoker.net/hand/hand.php?hand=382176 This guy was a "wannabe" TAG. 20% VPIP but called with a lot of possibly dominated hands in position, or bad hands for multiway pots. UTG UBER nit raises, the TagTard coldcalls and I call for set value, since RR a 8% nit makes absolutely no sense. Flop looks kind of awkward but the check kind of told me that UTG had to have an AK sort of hand. I barrelled the turn, retard calls and then fires a real nice value bet on the river which I call. Should have folded.
http://www.liquidpoker.net/hand/hand.php?hand=382181 Limped pot, i repop his donk bet real strong to kind of conceal my FD, then he calls. I hit my draw and bet weakish to induce an aggro reaction. He flatcalls. I fire a big barrel on the river. Villain might think that I was afraid on the turn but him calling that fear was unnecessary... In retrospect I should have fired a 10$ Value bet... How to get more value out of that hand??
Degen Temptation is +EVby GameOverNoob, February 11
I finally cracked and played poker I was teaching a friend the fundimentals of MTT play on FT and ended up doing really well. We decided to split 120$ on FTP and we played a 10$ bounty tourney w/ 500 players together while going over some basics in short handed cash games. We finished 6th in the tournament after playing absolute perfect poker imo :D and grinded out about 0.8 buyins on a NL100 table. We went to play another session tonight and continue working on MTT play and the starting point of multitabling penny cash games but went to find that my account had been blocked! After emailing support, my buddy still wanted to play so we decided to go to the casino to check out what was going on. He staked me one buy-in for 2-5NL and i ended up cashing out 1020 after roughly 4 hours of play. SOFTEST degen games i'v seen in a while! Now that my confidence is a little boosted and i think my training has been working i feel so tempted to keep playing while i promised myself not to until my debt was payed back! I'm going to keep working him on smallstakes cg/MTT's onlineand try to stay away from the caz although the games are so soft. All has been great, i feel im learning tons of new valuble information everyday as i keep training myself. I'm not too too far from finishing paying my debt but it'll still be another 4-5 months. Gotta stay strong, even though i know how easy these games are, i can't handle any amount of variance at the moment.
Here are my january results. Not posting them for any reason other than to start this post off with a neat picture so people can bear with me through this next block of text:
I haven't written on this for a while, and fact of the matter is I probably don't think I have the 20 minutes every other day to devote to keeping a cool blog.
Regardless, I've changed tremendously since my last post. Aside from the obvious that I've moved up in limits (currently playing 400nl at full tilt), I think I've also surpassed a transparent window that isn't known to people until after they've crossed over as well. There may be more ceilings, but this is definitely the first big one. I think it's the separation from playing this game for chump change and playing this game and realizing you can actually win a lot from it. When we consider the amount of time and devotion we pour into this game and improving, we ourselves inevitably change at this point - for better, and for worse.
So I've decided to start my blog again to keep track of these sorts of things. Also because lately I've been struggling, and although I swear to everyone on my aim buddy list that I'm doomed forever in poker, I know that's not true and I just need to keep playing well until FTP starts to like me again. Primary themes of this blog will be things that are ballin out of control, the mindset of a hopeful MSNL player in regards to poker, and the mindset of a MSNL player in regards to the real world. I actually think this will be a cool thing for a lot of people, since there are a bunch of ex-starcraft micro limit players on this site and it's stuff I really never thought or read about prior to winning any decent sum of money.
So as to leave my thoughts for another time, probably tomorrow or even tonight, I'll end this the way I started it, with a picture. I will be most likely be leasing this car in about a month or so, the Infiniti G37.
well not doing too well lately. so goals must be modest again lol. getting breakeven sessions now and my 13bi run on 100nl is seemingly over. now im back to grindin 2bi a day and so far ive had 2 losing sessions coz i dont quit whenver i do hit 2bi and try to get as high as 4bi each time. i think ill switch over to 6max again to get my game back and get paid with ppl who semibluff too much. FR is bad when you dont run very well, the only times I do call with overpairs is when they REALLY do have sets lol. no complaints here, I've had my good days last week and I guess it's enough to still be happy about poker.
so after grinding 2NL for about a month i decided i was rolled enough for 10NL with BR at 240 =)
because i have an interview with E&Y and BDO tomorrow i'm going to sleep early even though i'm down 1.5 buyins for my first losing session in like a month...
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and the turn is another J, crushing my hopes for the 1.4k first place prize, which definitely isn't too shabby for a 2 dollar investment. I'm pretty sure if I play about 700 of these, I would come out at least even in the end (3 fucking all ins the first hand of the game which was a QQ vs AQs vs J9s preflop -_________-;; ).
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