Pushing all-in every hand while being very, very drunk isn't a good strategy.
I've never done a thing like this before. I've drunk-played poker a few times before, but I've always stopped after a couple of hands because I knew it's no good.
Semi-tilted now, but what can you do. I'll just have to re-grind it at NL25. It's gonna take a while though.
As of this moment, I feel that I should be a break-even or a slightly winning/losing player. I estimated that the rakeback I get from converting points (which you earn while playing) into cash is around 30%. I think I'll make it to the next VIP level this month, so in October it will be a little less then 40%. Still a long way to go before taking shots at NL100, both money and skill-wise.
Because of not being able to beat the games at PS I changed sites to the good ol' Everest Poker.
NL25:
Roll boosted to $2500 yesterday, so I decided it's time to play some NL50 with a 6BI move down rule. Didn't went too good, heh. Mostly a mixture of coolers and bad play:
Well, time to go down once again. This time I'm going to grind those stakes until I reach $3000. The reason for this conservatism is that I find NL25 really soft here and, even though I don't desperately need money now, I'll need some in the not-so-distant future, so I can't really afford moving up and down numerously with a constant bankroll. I don't think I'll have any problems with motivating myself to play overrolled, because I've already made $600 here and didn't really feel the urge to move up. I just wanted to take a shot and see what happens.
Although not everything went as planned, I'm still confident in myself. Grinding a ton at the moment (as you can see from the graphs; the time span is just seven days) and willing to continue putting a ton of hands at least until the end of the summer break (that is until 4th October), so I'm expecting to hit that $3k pretty damn soon, rofl.
I can't really say why, but the struggle to finally win some money during the past few months made me more motivated than ever. I'm 100% positive that I will reach those fucking midstakes sooner or later, no matter what. Good luck me!
Have you ever noticed that even though your EV might eventually even out, you might still be down a lot of dough?
Let's assume you go all-in pre-flop with AA vs QQ ten times against a reg with 100BB and you lose. Afterwards you go all-in with QQ vs AA ten times agiant a shortstack holding 10BB and you win.
Statistically everything is perfect, yet you're down 900BB.
Thankfully, it can go the opposite way.
... when you beat NL200 with a decent win-rate and a healthy roll and then you basically stop playing, make 10k hands a month with zero focus, lose money almost every month and withdraw regularly to make a living. Suddenly your roll drops down, but what the hell. You still got plenty of cash, so you continue to slack and cash-out and drink heavily at the dorm and at home, not concentrating on what's important in life.
And then, after two fucking years you realize that your life is a mess. So you say: 'OK, I fucked up a lot, but from now on things are going to run better. I'm a new man'. And so you try to change change... But life ain't that easy.
You try to get a girlfriend. Given the fact that you pretty much have no clue how to get one, as you've never had one, you fail.
You try to stop drinking. The problem is even though you don't have to drink once you pass a certain level of being drunk you pretty much stop controlling yourself, so again you pretty much fail.
'That's still OK', you say. 'I still have poker to cheer me up. From this day I'm going to grind quite a lot and hopefully get back where I've been some time ago'.
NL50 since the start of June:
Yea...
Anyway, some of you might think this a whine/emo post. It's not. I'm happy about myself right now, but there are certain periods of time when I recall what I've done for the past few years and what I am not happy about recently and I start feeling a bit frustrated. Thankfully, I have a few very good close friend who are always there to cheer me up, so I'm convinced that I'll achieve whatever goal I set for myself in the future.
The reason for this blog entry is to remind you guys to not take things for granted, because, god or no god, someone will fucking doomswitch you if you screw up like me :D.
